KillTheCan.org Accountability Forum

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Scott B. - 2430
Candoit - 4008

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Scott B. - 2429 with Concharde
Candoit - 4007 with Concharde
FLLIP 3277 with Concharde
DWEIRICK 25

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Scott B. - 2429 with Concharde
Candoit - 4007 with Concharde

Day 24 - Since my return I have been reading a lot of stuff on the original KTC forum from my first quit group in 2015 to my second group in 2018. Man, the shit I am reading about myself and the constant cries for help but failing to do anything really hit a chord with me. I guess you never know until you actually sit back and look deep into what’s going on. (I knew I just decided to remain blind)

It seems like I was always deflecting back to issues with alcohol and my mental health. Jeez maybe I should have taken a minute to actually read what I was fucking typing…

Like many others here I have been down and out, and the only difference is instead of being strong and using my knowledge and tools, I took the easy way out each damn time and went back to the can…

I spent some time reflecting and I realized I cannot leave here. I need accountability and I must put everything I have into this quit. Although I did not let this place work before, I know I can let it work this time. I know nothing in life goes as planned and issues will arise in the future for me, but tackling those issues with nicotine will now be off the table for me. I’m up to 30 contacts and I made myself a promise that if I ever get to the point that I want to fade or I think dipping is the answer, I have to ask permission from those 30 quitters and I know what that answer will be….

Now with my mental health in check and where it needs to be and I no longer struggle with alcohol it is time to grab them bootstraps and absolutely rock this quit. Nothing is more important to me than my freedom from this addiction. I will fight with everything I have and every tool available to be nicotine free. Thank you all for the ass kicking's and the support!

9862 days is approximately how many days I used for. That is roughly 27 years of chewing with a stoppage here and there. I will commit to posting each day to match the amount of time I chewed for, once that is complete, I will continue to post. I never want, nor will I post another day 1 again. NAFAR….

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Scott B. - 2428
Candoit 4006