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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: davemo on June 19, 2013, 11:39:00 PM
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Hey folks,
First timer here and am quitting today. I've been at it for at least 20 years. I don't even remember when I started. It's pathetic, at age 46 and still chewing. I can identify with most everyone here very quickly. The last poster said he'd throw his can out in the ditch when he "quit" and then end up looking for that can later on. Hell, I've had a flashlight looking in the bushes at night trying to find that can!
For me, I have to quit because there is cancer in my family and I'm a fool for letting dip go for this long. I just surpassed the age my dad and grandpa both died. I want to live a long life, so enough is enough. I've lost two teeth to this menace and the rest of them are a disgusting yellow. I'm also tethered to a chew every day of my life. If I go out, it's "how long will I have to go without a chew?" "If I drive this route, I can go to this 7-11, grab a chaw, get to work, take a break, find a place to chew, oops, running out, gotta time it so I don't get caught without any." You get the picture. Let's not even talk about how much money I've wasted on it. Ugh.
I've already been off the stuff for about 12 hours and I'm going nuts already. I feel empty and strange and I it seems like I have all this extra time on my hands (even though I don't). I've removed such a big activity in my life, that it feels so odd. Anyway, I've gone on long enough. I'm not liking this already, but it's gotta be done. Thanks.
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Hey folks,
First timer here and am quitting today. I've been at it for at least 20 years. I don't even remember when I started. It's pathetic, at age 46 and still chewing. I can identify with most everyone here very quickly. The last poster said he'd throw his can out in the ditch when he "quit" and then end up looking for that can later on. Hell, I've had a flashlight looking in the bushes at night trying to find that can!
For me, I have to quit because there is cancer in my family and I'm a fool for letting dip go for this long. I just surpassed the age my dad and grandpa both died. I want to live a long life, so enough is enough. I've lost two teeth to this menace and the rest of them are a disgusting yellow. I'm also tethered to a chew every day of my life. If I go out, it's "how long will I have to go without a chew?" "If I drive this route, I can go to this 7-11, grab a chaw, get to work, take a break, find a place to chew, oops, running out, gotta time it so I don't get caught without any." You get the picture. Let's not even talk about how much money I've wasted on it. Ugh.
I've already been off the stuff for about 12 hours and I'm going nuts already. I feel empty and strange and I it seems like I have all this extra time on my hands (even though I don't). I've removed such a big activity in my life, that it feels so odd. Anyway, I've gone on long enough. I'm not liking this already, but it's gotta be done. Thanks.
A major KEY to your quit involves posting roll call everyday. You give your word to everyone that you wont use nicotine that day. Be a man of your word and quit today. Worry about tomorrow when it comes. Read this site. Get phone numbers and message your fellow quit brothers. You can do this man. I am finishing up day 31 and I dipped a can a day for 15 years. You got this. Oh and welcome to freedom. No more being a slave to a fucking can.
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Thanks a lot KC_Guy. Day 31... nice work. Just reading about feeling like you're in a fog for the first few days. Bingo. I feel like I'm floating.
If anyone has pointers on how to do roll call, it would be appreciated. I may be a dunce since the instructions on the site confuse me.
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Hey folks,
First timer here and am quitting today. I've been at it for at least 20 years. I don't even remember when I started. It's pathetic, at age 46 and still chewing. I can identify with most everyone here very quickly. The last poster said he'd throw his can out in the ditch when he "quit" and then end up looking for that can later on. Hell, I've had a flashlight looking in the bushes at night trying to find that can!
For me, I have to quit because there is cancer in my family and I'm a fool for letting dip go for this long. I just surpassed the age my dad and grandpa both died. I want to live a long life, so enough is enough. I've lost two teeth to this menace and the rest of them are a disgusting yellow. I'm also tethered to a chew every day of my life. If I go out, it's "how long will I have to go without a chew?" "If I drive this route, I can go to this 7-11, grab a chaw, get to work, take a break, find a place to chew, oops, running out, gotta time it so I don't get caught without any." You get the picture. Let's not even talk about how much money I've wasted on it. Ugh.
I've already been off the stuff for about 12 hours and I'm going nuts already. I feel empty and strange and I it seems like I have all this extra time on my hands (even though I don't). I've removed such a big activity in my life, that it feels so odd. Anyway, I've gone on long enough. I'm not liking this already, but it's gotta be done. Thanks.
A major KEY to your quit involves posting roll call everyday. You give your word to everyone that you wont use nicotine that day. Be a man of your word and quit today. Worry about tomorrow when it comes. Read this site. Get phone numbers and message your fellow quit brothers. You can do this man. I am finishing up day 31 and I dipped a can a day for 15 years. You got this. Oh and welcome to freedom. No more being a slave to a fucking can.
Good advice from KC. Posting roll is the backbone of this site.
12 hrs in and its tough. Yep. It ain't gonna be easy.
You're basically losing a "friend". Someone who has been with you for 20 years. It will not be easy to say goodbye.
That's why you have to say FUCK OFF instead.
Fact is the shit was never your "friend".
It took your time, your money, your teeth, your dignity, your freedom and was gunning for your life.
Some "friend".
Fuck all that now though. You're here. No use looking back. You are gaining new friends. Real friends, who want to help you bitch slap your 20 year addiction.
Use us.
Any questions, want to vent, cry, or scream...come here. We are here for you to lean on.
Welcome my friend.
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Hey folks,
First timer here and am quitting today. I've been at it for at least 20 years. I don't even remember when I started. It's pathetic, at age 46 and still chewing. I can identify with most everyone here very quickly. The last poster said he'd throw his can out in the ditch when he "quit" and then end up looking for that can later on. Hell, I've had a flashlight looking in the bushes at night trying to find that can!
For me, I have to quit because there is cancer in my family and I'm a fool for letting dip go for this long. I just surpassed the age my dad and grandpa both died. I want to live a long life, so enough is enough. I've lost two teeth to this menace and the rest of them are a disgusting yellow. I'm also tethered to a chew every day of my life. If I go out, it's "how long will I have to go without a chew?" "If I drive this route, I can go to this 7-11, grab a chaw, get to work, take a break, find a place to chew, oops, running out, gotta time it so I don't get caught without any." You get the picture. Let's not even talk about how much money I've wasted on it. Ugh.
I've already been off the stuff for about 12 hours and I'm going nuts already. I feel empty and strange and I it seems like I have all this extra time on my hands (even though I don't). I've removed such a big activity in my life, that it feels so odd. Anyway, I've gone on long enough. I'm not liking this already, but it's gotta be done. Thanks.
A major KEY to your quit involves posting roll call everyday. You give your word to everyone that you wont use nicotine that day. Be a man of your word and quit today. Worry about tomorrow when it comes. Read this site. Get phone numbers and message your fellow quit brothers. You can do this man. I am finishing up day 31 and I dipped a can a day for 15 years. You got this. Oh and welcome to freedom. No more being a slave to a fucking can.
Good advice from KC. Posting roll is the backbone of this site.
12 hrs in and its tough. Yep. It ain't gonna be easy.
You're basically losing a "friend". Someone who has been with you for 20 years. It will not be easy to say goodbye.
That's why you have to say FUCK OFF instead.
Fact is the shit was never your "friend".
It took your time, your money, your teeth, your dignity, your freedom and was gunning for your life.
Some "friend".
Fuck all that now though. You're here. No use looking back. You are gaining new friends. Real friends, who want to help you bitch slap your 20 year addiction.
Use us.
Any questions, want to vent, cry, or scream...come here. We are here for you to lean on.
Welcome my friend.
You listen to these two bad asses and your quit will stay strong. Welcome to ktc and congrats on quitting my friend. Get yourself over to the Sept 13 quit group and post roll if you haven't already done that. Then get yourself some numbers and reach out to for quit brothers and sister and make yourself accountable. Go get you some seeds, hard candy, tooth picks, fake chew or anything at all really as long as that nasty ass dip stays the hell away. If you need a number or anything at all just pm me.
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Don't you dare look back bro!
It took some balls to come in here and post what you did. Show us you've got bigger balls by staying and taking your life back. I was you 65 days ago man. Exactly you. If I can do this... you can too.
25 years... more than half my life I wasted on dip. No more, man. No more. You got this! We'll be with you every step of the way. I'm pm'ing you my number... use it. Quit on m'man...
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I feel your pain Dave...I quit a month after my 46th bday and not gonna lie it sucked everybit of it sucked...I kept asking myself why am I trying to accomplish such a lofty goal at my age...hell my grampa did it...he died from black lung not cancer from dip...no one I know died from it...so why quit... all addict brain talk.
I was just few days into my quit feeling like total death and poof I had a post from Bean...said embrace the suck...I was like what...I had never ever heard of that...embrace pain and agony...I was like shit what I have been doing aint working so I did...I embraced the suck...I did it I am on the other side of the suck now but by embracing the suck I know now that there is not way I want to do that again(NAFAR...never again for any reason) ...i/WE do it one day at a time(ODAAT). the i is not capitalized for a reason I by myself struggle to fite the bitch WE fight her together.
PM if you need anything!!!
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I feel your pain Dave...I quit a month after my 46th bday and not gonna lie it sucked everybit of it sucked...I kept asking myself why am I trying to accomplish such a lofty goal at my age...hell my grampa did it...he died from black lung not cancer from dip...no one I know died from it...so why quit... all addict brain talk.Â
I was just few days into my quit feeling like total death and poof I had a post from Bean...said embrace the suck...I was like what...I had never ever heard of that...embrace pain and agony...I was like shit what I have been doing aint working so I did...I embraced the suck...I did it I am on the other side of the suck now but by embracing the suck I know now that there is not way I want to do that again(NAFAR...never again for any reason) ...i/WE do it one day at a time(ODAAT). the i is not capitalized for a reason I by myself struggle to fite the bitch WE fight her together.
PM if you need anything!!!
I quit couple months before my 54 b-day. The way I figured it, I was finally able to man up. My biggest revelation came from accepting that I am an addict.
Stay strong.
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Hey Dave,
Did you try posting roll this morning? If so but had trouble, let me know and I can get your name on this list while we teach you the delicate art of posting roll...
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Hey Dave,
Did you try posting roll this morning? If so but had trouble, let me know and I can get your name on this list while we teach you the delicate art of posting roll...
hey davemo,
Good to see another slave taking his life back!
You can do this.
It is very simple, yet probably the hardest thing you've ever done.
1. Post roll....this is your promise to yourself and us for TODAY that you are quit and will not dip...just for today. The earlier in the a.m. the better for your quit.
2. Make it to bed...anyway you can...No Nic of any kind. End of discussion (Mr. Cbird's sage words).
3. Wake and Repeat and your daze will stack up faster than you ever thought possible.
You see, I dipped 30 yrs 24/7 This is my 1st and last quit. If I can do this, then I know that YOU can TOO brother. ODAAT and NAFAR
Read the following important life saving/altering passages:
read this (http://www.killthecan.org/facts/accident.asp)
good info here too (http://www.killthecan.org/yourquit/what.asp)
Why it works (http://www.killthecan.org/about/why.asp)
NAFAR...never again for any reason! (http://www.killthecan.org/robs/law.asp)
Cheers brother. You got this...ODAAT
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Hello everyone,
On Day 2 and I'm fidgeting big time. I've been on this site reading a lot of the forum discussions and I've just been walloped by how I identify with what is being said here. Others have said the same thing, but I have to express it myself.
I followed the long thread with srans and it blew my mind the things he brought up. My god. It gave me some thoughts on what more to reveal about myself based on some of the topics brought up. Basically, it's the following:
1. Not a redneck, actually fairly stuffy, over-educated, have held fairly senior roles at some large international companies, blah, blah, blah. Still, everyone here speaks my language. It's very comforting.
2. I hid dip from the family. Newly married after a long-distance relationship, I just can't bear to live a double life; hence my quit. Not to mention, the woman has a bionic nose. She knows what I'm up to.
3. Only people here can relate to me. My wife has no clue. Nor should she. For example:
Me: I need to quit chewing.
Wife: That's good.
Me: I don't know how I'm going to do this.
Wife: Well, just don't buy it anymore...
Well, golly f'ing gee, why didn't I think of that before! So, technically, yes, I guess that's what I've actually done. I stopped buying, but she obviously didn't understand the full weight of the decision.
Ok, gone on long enough. Right now, I'm just overwhelmed with what feels like massive amounts of extra time on my hands now that I don't chew. It's bizarre, great, but unsettling.
Cheers...
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Hello everyone,
On Day 2 and I'm fidgeting big time. I've been on this site reading a lot of the forum discussions and I've just been walloped by how I identify with what is being said here. Others have said the same thing, but I have to express it myself.
I followed the long thread with srans and it blew my mind the things he brought up. My god. It gave me some thoughts on what more to reveal about myself based on some of the topics brought up. Basically, it's the following:
1. Not a redneck, actually fairly stuffy, over-educated, have held fairly senior roles at some large international companies, blah, blah, blah. Still, everyone here speaks my language. It's very comforting.
2. I hid dip from the family. Newly married after a long-distance relationship, I just can't bear to live a double life; hence my quit. Not to mention, the woman has a bionic nose. She knows what I'm up to.
3. Only people here can relate to me. My wife has no clue. Nor should she. For example:
Me: I need to quit chewing.
Wife: That's good.
Me: I don't know how I'm going to do this.
Wife: Well, just don't buy it anymore...
Well, golly f'ing gee, why didn't I think of that before! So, technically, yes, I guess that's what I've actually done. I stopped buying, but she obviously didn't understand the full weight of the decision.
Ok, gone on long enough. Right now, I'm just overwhelmed with what feels like massive amounts of extra time on my hands now that I don't chew. It's bizarre, great, but unsettling.
Cheers...
You've only scratched the surface of the quit gold available on this site. While you're at it, head on over to the Welcome Center. Once you're done there, go find Quit Groups....you'll be in September 2013 (that's when you'll hit 100 days).
Other people are better at diligently providing all the links, but you seemed like an educated gent. Go read what we're all about since you've got that early quit time to kill / bored as fuck thing going on.
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Welcome DMo...pull up a chair and get comfy bro.
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Welcome. The WELCOME CENTER is in pink above. Click there and start reading until you know how to post roll. Then go post roll and pat yourself on the back for deciding to not use nicotine today. Repeat it tomorrow. As you'll come to learn, posting roll = death choking the shit out of nicotine addiction.
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Welcome. The WELCOME CENTER is in pink above. Click there and start reading until you know how to post roll. Then go post roll and pat yourself on the back for deciding to not use nicotine today. Repeat it tomorrow. As you'll come to learn, posting roll = death choking the shit out of nicotine addiction.
Speaking of stuffy and over-educated.....
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Welcome. The WELCOME CENTER is in pink above. Click there and start reading until you know how to post roll. Then go post roll and pat yourself on the back for deciding to not use nicotine today. Repeat it tomorrow. As you'll come to learn, posting roll = death choking the shit out of nicotine addiction.
Speaking of stuffy and over-educated.....
FUCS.
DMo, I hid from family to dip. Freedom whips all sorts of ass. You got this.
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DMO - Loot hit the nail on the head...pull up a chair and get comfy!!!
The reason this site speaks to you is that it covered up with people who understand all aspects of addiction. The selfishness, the lying, the self-deception, the foolish late night "errands," the stupidity...you know, the whole fucking thing. We're addicts, too.
We're not some clown doctor in a white lab coat prescribing pills. We don't cover our asses in patches. We're not looking for short-cuts and we don't expect anybody to do this for us. We got ourselves into this mess, and we'll get us out.
We're here posting roll and quitting ONE DAY AT A TIME...no more, no less. We give our word and sure as shit we keep it. You've taken the first step, we've got your back the rest of the way.
Welcome, brother. YOU CAN DO THIS!!!
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Welcome. The WELCOME CENTER is in pink above. Click there and start reading until you know how to post roll. Then go post roll and pat yourself on the back for deciding to not use nicotine today. Repeat it tomorrow. As you'll come to learn, posting roll = death choking the shit out of nicotine addiction.
Speaking of stuffy and over-educated.....
FUCS.
DMo, I hid from family to dip. Freedom whips all sorts of ass. You got this.
When I found KTC, I thought I must have been only one of a handful of lawyers that dipped. Found out I was wrong. Nicotine doesn't discriminate....it kills everyone.
Oh...almost forgot, FUGM.
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My wife is the same way, she doesn't understand at all what it is like to be addicted to something so strong. She said just stop dipping, why do you find it so difficult....I gave her a blank stare and said you will never understand. She is happy and supportive now but still has no idea how strong nicotine is.
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Your wife won't understand, i think there is some material available for spouses on this site. Just quit, you can do this.
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You are rocking this bro!
Just an FYI... Stick to posting in your original thread instead of starting a new one. Over the course of time you can look back and revel in your quit journey. Quit on bro!.......
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Glad to see you posted roll. You've got some bad ass quitters in your corner. Be sure you get their numbers, and that you use them when you need them. The fog seems to vary depending on the person. Man, it sucks doesn't it? I have to tell you... I wouldn't trade that feeling for $10,000. Because once it passed, and it will pass, I was pissed. I was pissed that I let a plant control my life. That it robbed me of time with my family, that I sneaked around hiding a can a day for 25 years (mostly ninja) and that I wasted $36,000 spitting out carcinogens. So... Rather than fight the fog... Use it. Properly harnessed, it is a great tool.
And, fair warning, the list below of people that have reached out have high expectations. We will be looking for your roll post early each morning! Once the fog lifts, you won't believe how clear the sky will be. 179 days ago I was in a fog and felt alone and hopeless. No more. Welcome aboard.
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I have a question now after 3 days in. So, I'm going nuts, mostly from a mental aspect. I don't have any serious physical symptoms. I was in a big fog Day 1, but now, I feel ok. I get very strong urges to dip, some lasting an hour or two straight, it seems. My hands are restless and I have nervous energy, etc. etc.... BUT, it feels manageable so far.
Last night, I was watching the Heat-Spurs game and had an urge just about the entire game that was quite strong. However, I was at home with no hidden stash from the wife, nor did I have any desire to leave and buy some. It seemed pointless. I didn't even feel the need when I went to work the next morning. (Don't get me wrong, the urge to dip did not die!)
So the question is related to when you need to call someone here in the community. Right now, it would feel odd calling someone to discuss my situation despite the many honorable and appreciated offers I've received. I definitely feel miserable, but when do the rest of you call out for help? Am I just basking in innocence still, not realizing that holy hell is around the corner? If I did call, what type of stuff do you guys say? I don't know. I'm just in this weird state which sucks but is manageable. Do I just stick with "one day at a time" and not worry about it for now?
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I have a question now after 3 days in. So, I'm going nuts, mostly from a mental aspect. I don't have any serious physical symptoms. I was in a big fog Day 1, but now, I feel ok. I get very strong urges to dip, some lasting an hour or two straight, it seems. My hands are restless and I have nervous energy, etc. etc.... BUT, it feels manageable so far.
Last night, I was watching the Heat-Spurs game and had an urge just about the entire game that was quite strong. However, I was at home with no hidden stash from the wife, nor did I have any desire to leave and buy some. It seemed pointless. I didn't even feel the need when I went to work the next morning. (Don't get me wrong, the urge to dip did not die!)
So the question is related to when you need to call someone here in the community. Right now, it would feel odd calling someone to discuss my situation despite the many honorable and appreciated offers I've received. I definitely feel miserable, but when do the rest of you call out for help? Am I just basking in innocence still, not realizing that holy hell is around the corner? If I did call, what type of stuff do you guys say? I don't know. I'm just in this weird state which sucks but is manageable. Do I just stick with "one day at a time" and not worry about it for now?
Hey bro. You call, text, pm whenever you feel you need to. 1 week ago I lost my job, had some beers and was feelin pretty shitty. I posted in here and boom I had bro's texting me, calling me, pming me. The support was instant. I was on day 26 a week ago. My poin t is shit happens. Whether you are 3 days in or 150 days in. We are all addicts. Do not hesitate to reach out. The dudes I talked too and texted with were all cool as hell.
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I have a question now after 3 days in. So, I'm going nuts, mostly from a mental aspect. I don't have any serious physical symptoms. I was in a big fog Day 1, but now, I feel ok. I get very strong urges to dip, some lasting an hour or two straight, it seems. My hands are restless and I have nervous energy, etc. etc.... BUT, it feels manageable so far.
Last night, I was watching the Heat-Spurs game and had an urge just about the entire game that was quite strong. However, I was at home with no hidden stash from the wife, nor did I have any desire to leave and buy some. It seemed pointless. I didn't even feel the need when I went to work the next morning. (Don't get me wrong, the urge to dip did not die!)
So the question is related to when you need to call someone here in the community. Right now, it would feel odd calling someone to discuss my situation despite the many honorable and appreciated offers I've received. I definitely feel miserable, but when do the rest of you call out for help? Am I just basking in innocence still, not realizing that holy hell is around the corner? If I did call, what type of stuff do you guys say? I don't know. I'm just in this weird state which sucks but is manageable. Do I just stick with "one day at a time" and not worry about it for now?
If you need to reach out and don't feel comfortable talking, try texting.
Personally I have never talked to anyone "live" in my 382 days quit. I did text someone once when I thought I was gonna cave and have had some good text conversations as well.
There is also chat to jump into.
What your feeling now is normal. Ride it out day by day minute by minute if you have to.
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I have a question now after 3 days in. So, I'm going nuts, mostly from a mental aspect. I don't have any serious physical symptoms. I was in a big fog Day 1, but now, I feel ok. I get very strong urges to dip, some lasting an hour or two straight, it seems. My hands are restless and I have nervous energy, etc. etc.... BUT, it feels manageable so far.
Last night, I was watching the Heat-Spurs game and had an urge just about the entire game that was quite strong. However, I was at home with no hidden stash from the wife, nor did I have any desire to leave and buy some. It seemed pointless. I didn't even feel the need when I went to work the next morning. (Don't get me wrong, the urge to dip did not die!)
So the question is related to when you need to call someone here in the community. Right now, it would feel odd calling someone to discuss my situation despite the many honorable and appreciated offers I've received. I definitely feel miserable, but when do the rest of you call out for help? Am I just basking in innocence still, not realizing that holy hell is around the corner? If I did call, what type of stuff do you guys say? I don't know. I'm just in this weird state which sucks but is manageable. Do I just stick with "one day at a time" and not worry about it for now?
Reach out to anyone and everyone that offers up their contact info. Let me ask you this: Why not? It can only strengthen your quit.
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I have a question now after 3 days in. So, I'm going nuts, mostly from a mental aspect. I don't have any serious physical symptoms. I was in a big fog Day 1, but now, I feel ok. I get very strong urges to dip, some lasting an hour or two straight, it seems. My hands are restless and I have nervous energy, etc. etc.... BUT, it feels manageable so far.
Last night, I was watching the Heat-Spurs game and had an urge just about the entire game that was quite strong. However, I was at home with no hidden stash from the wife, nor did I have any desire to leave and buy some. It seemed pointless. I didn't even feel the need when I went to work the next morning. (Don't get me wrong, the urge to dip did not die!)
So the question is related to when you need to call someone here in the community. Right now, it would feel odd calling someone to discuss my situation despite the many honorable and appreciated offers I've received. I definitely feel miserable, but when do the rest of you call out for help? Am I just basking in innocence still, not realizing that holy hell is around the corner? If I did call, what type of stuff do you guys say? I don't know. I'm just in this weird state which sucks but is manageable. Do I just stick with "one day at a time" and not worry about it for now?
Reach out to anyone and everyone that offers up their contact info. Let me ask you this: Why not? It can only strengthen your quit.
Call if you need to or want to. Text. Pm. Whatever. The support is here if you need it or just want it. Thousands of people. One goal. Pretty cool. You've got my number and I'm sure countless others. When you need us, we will be here.
Many if not most of the feelings you are experiencing are physical withdrawals right now. Those should be moving on pretty quickly. Drink a lot of water. Get on a treadmill. Then drink more water. Hang tough bud. Above all else, just remember... You gave your word to yourself and all of us that today is off the table.
See you on the roll tomorrow!
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Had a good day for the most part. Day #4. But it's been getting harder the last few hours. So far, the evenings have been the toughest. Not sure why since my dip distribution used to be pretty equal throughout the day. I said this a day or two ago where I get this craving that grips me for an hour or more straight. I've got a rough one going now. All the head games are in full force and I've got a headache, which is not normal. My gums are throbbing, too. Hearing the nic bitch say stuff like:
1) Well, you decided to quit abruptly. You should have at least finished that last can. Just think, you could have that last bit! That's the problem. You weren't really ready to quit yet. It's okay, give yourself a break. You're not perfect. You can always quit again.
2) There are people on this site who are glorifying and reveling in their quit, but you are timid. Maybe you just aren't sure. Maybe you don't have it in you.
3) It seems unfathomable that you will quit permanently. Think about that man, you'll never take another dip? C'mon, that's ludicrous.
4) That taste is so good. There is nothing that even comes close.
Arrrgh. Tough night. I won't cave, but I'm feeling the suck. I've got names and numbers if I need them. Meanwhile, I just need to chill and get through the next few minutes, get to bed, and do roll call first thing.
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Had a good day for the most part. Day #4. But it's been getting harder the last few hours. So far, the evenings have been the toughest. Not sure why since my dip distribution used to be pretty equal throughout the day. I said this a day or two ago where I get this craving that grips me for an hour or more straight. I've got a rough one going now. All the head games are in full force and I've got a headache, which is not normal. My gums are throbbing, too. Hearing the nic bitch say stuff like:
1) Well, you decided to quit abruptly. You should have at least finished that last can. Just think, you could have that last bit! That's the problem. You weren't really ready to quit yet. It's okay, give yourself a break. You're not perfect. You can always quit again.
2) There are people on this site who are glorifying and reveling in their quit, but you are timid. Maybe you just aren't sure. Maybe you don't have it in you.
3) It seems unfathomable that you will quit permanently. Think about that man, you'll never take another dip? C'mon, that's ludicrous.
4) That taste is so good. There is nothing that even comes close.
Arrrgh. Tough night. I won't cave, but I'm feeling the suck. I've got names and numbers if I need them. Meanwhile, I just need to chill and get through the next few minutes, get to bed, and do roll call first thing.
Welcome to your new life. Might as well enjoy it. It's possible, I promise.
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Love what you wrote Dave. The nic bitch said the same stuff to me 174 days ago. I really hated the thought of never dipping again. Don't worry, though, you just have to quit for the next 24 hours. I didn't revel in my quit until at least Day 50. Now, I AM grateful everyday to be quit and I can guarantee you will be to. The "last little chew" wouldn't make today's quit easier. BTW, there are a lot of things that taste better than death...just saying. You CAN do this Dave.
I read what you wrote yesterday and in my opinion you should be texting at least one person and hopefully more everyday. The phone numbers are support along the journey...not just for emergencies.
Read the cancer stories to remind you of one of the biggest reasons why you are quitting.
Finally, make sure you hit chat...mostly to keep you mind off of chew and the bonus is you make a few friends, too.
You are fighting for your life right now! Do it one minute at a time.
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3) It seems unfathomable that you will quit permanently. Think about that man, you'll never take another dip? C'mon, that's ludicrous.
You have gotten some good advice here so far. I am going to add my 2 cents and remind you that we do not do forever here. One Day At A Time. Yesterday is already done and can not be changed (however do not totally forget it as history tends to repeat itself if you do) Tomorrow is just a dream, no reason to worry about tomorrow. Today I can control my decision to post roll, choose to honor my word, and be quit.
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Had a funny thing happen to me this weekend. My wife walked over to me and stuffed a couple movie coupons into my pocket. I had a momentary panic because I'm used to concealing my tin in that particular pocket from her. I thought she had me nailed. Then I realized that there wasn't a damn tin in there anymore. I'm not used to being innocent or, you know, normal, yet. What a relief to be, though.
The cravings are by no means gone yet. I have some desperate moments, but I said I wouldn't, so I won't. I'm finally seeing the value of roll call. Would have given up already.
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Had a funny thing happen to me this weekend. My wife walked over to me and stuffed a couple movie coupons into my pocket. I had a momentary panic because I'm used to concealing my tin in that particular pocket from her. I thought she had me nailed. Then I realized that there wasn't a damn tin in there anymore. I'm not used to being innocent or, you know, normal, yet. What a relief to be, though.
The cravings are by no means gone yet. I have some desperate moments, but I said I wouldn't, so I won't. I'm finally seeing the value of roll call. Would have given up already.
took me weeks to quit reaching for my tin or feeling for it. its a good thing to not to have to remember anymore. Keep your crave kit close...gums seeds whatever you gotta put in your cake hole to keep dip out of it.
PM me if you need anything
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Love what you wrote Dave. The nic bitch said the same stuff to me 174 days ago. I really hated the thought of never dipping again. Don't worry, though, you just have to quit for the next 24 hours. I didn't revel in my quit until at least Day 50. Now, I AM grateful everyday to be quit and I can guarantee you will be to. The "last little chew" wouldn't make today's quit easier. BTW, there are a lot of things that taste better than death...just saying. You CAN do this Dave.
I read what you wrote yesterday and in my opinion you should be texting at least one person and hopefully more everyday. The phone numbers are support along the journey...not just for emergencies.
Read the cancer stories to remind you of one of the biggest reasons why you are quitting.
Finally, make sure you hit chat...mostly to keep you mind off of chew and the bonus is you make a few friends, too.
You are fighting for your life right now! Do it one minute at a time.
This is so true Sage!
I send out and receive several texts everyday... Just quick "Good to be quit with you!" texts. Takes minimal effort but it keeps a line if communication open that I may need one day. If you don't open that line of communication on your strong days you sure as hell won't do it on your weak days.
Get a phone number today and use it. If you're not sure who to reach out to start in your quit group. Come to chat. Check your pm's. you probably already have a number or two waiting for you. Use them.
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Had a funny thing happen to me this weekend. My wife walked over to me and stuffed a couple movie coupons into my pocket. I had a momentary panic because I'm used to concealing my tin in that particular pocket from her. I thought she had me nailed. Then I realized that there wasn't a damn tin in there anymore. I'm not used to being innocent or, you know, normal, yet. What a relief to be, though.
The cravings are by no means gone yet. I have some desperate moments, but I said I wouldn't, so I won't. I'm finally seeing the value of roll call. Would have given up already.
took me weeks to quit reaching for my tin or feeling for it. its a good thing to not to have to remember anymore. Keep your crave kit close...gums seeds whatever you gotta put in your cake hole to keep dip out of it.
PM me if you need anything
Every day for over 8000 days my morning routine, was check left pocket..Money Clip..Check..Back Pocket....Cell Phone check.....right pocket tin...check...
I do it every day now as well, force of habit, right pocket now contains my HOF coin. It's worth it.
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Had a funny thing happen to me this weekend. My wife walked over to me and stuffed a couple movie coupons into my pocket. I had a momentary panic because I'm used to concealing my tin in that particular pocket from her. I thought she had me nailed. Then I realized that there wasn't a damn tin in there anymore. I'm not used to being innocent or, you know, normal, yet. What a relief to be, though.
The cravings are by no means gone yet. I have some desperate moments, but I said I wouldn't, so I won't. I'm finally seeing the value of roll call. Would have given up already.
took me weeks to quit reaching for my tin or feeling for it. its a good thing to not to have to remember anymore. Keep your crave kit close...gums seeds whatever you gotta put in your cake hole to keep dip out of it.
PM me if you need anything
Dave,
Man does that bring back memories. I finally one day, after a dried out, year old tin was discovered in my golf bag....I showed my wife all the secret places I hid my tins. From car hiding spots, golf bag, pockets, top of entertainment center. It even surprised me how many spots I had.
If she ever suspects or needs to validate my quit, she has every right and I want her to go around to these places and think as I would. I am quit and this would be a support for me and therapeutic validation to her. I authorized it so she was granted permission to go about this and not feel like she was violating trusts.
She trusts me more, my paranoia diminished and that action was just another statement in my war with Nicotine. Its over. The other way I lost that paranoia was just staying quit. I have nothing to worry about because I am not using, I am not deceiving, hiding or denying.
Truly and no need to say this if it wasn't true today. The burden of my addiction is so much easier quit then when I wasn't.
Stay quit it isn't an easy path or course to begin but it does get to a point where it is.
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Yep, all the hiding spots. I still find dried up tins in the garage inside a shoe or something pathetic like that. I also noticed how empty my pocket was today when I went to the car.
As for trust with the wife, I haven't shown her my hiding spots since it's so embarrassing, but I do just tell her outright that I'm not chewing today so that she doesn't have to feel like she has to ask me. She doesn't want to nag, but I don't want her to wonder either, so I break the silence and volunteer it.
I saw another comment in another thread, forgot who said it, but he was talking about how he was embarrassed to keep buying chew from the same cashier at a store all the time and that he had to change places from time to time. God, so funny. I had a regular rotation and even got to know the cashier's shifts so that I could avoid people for certain intervals of time. Holy crap is all this pathetic!!!
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Giving an update after 17 days in. Overall, the quit has been manageable, though I get slammed with craves that penetrate all the way down to my gut and I moan with despair. It seems like the cravings have gotten worse and/or more frequent recently. Maybe the nic bitch thought I was just taking a few days off but got concerned when it seemed like I might actually be quitting. She's come back to get her lost sheep.
On the plus side, I feel like I have a structure that will keep me in quit mode. I'm doing the roll call everyday and I've been keeping in touch with other quitters via PM. I got called out by one of them for reminiscing too much which gave me a new perspective on how to deal with the quit. I'm going to follow the advice.
Additionally, I'm experiencing all the well-documented benefits of quitting. I don't have to deal with having shit in my mouth all day with all the rigmarole attached to it. I don't get the nic pisses throughout the day and just drink water and have actual real pisses. I don't buy all that shit everyday and have actually kept unspent cash in my wallet for several days in a row. I don't need to hide anything from my wife, my mouth feels clean, and I save more time in the day than I had ever expected.
The last thing I'll mention is also a question. I have been brimming with energy the past couple weeks. It is borderline bizarre. I've been a human dynamo getting lots of stuff done, feeling motivated and focused, etc. My question, then is, am I experiencing a nervous reaction to the loss of my dipping? I've heard stories of people who quit any sort of addiction and they respond with obsessive behavior, a focus on something else potentially addictive, etc.; anything to mask the burden of a quit. OR, is this a new normal where my energy should have been all along? I've been poisoning myself for years, so I must have pushed my energy level down after so much abuse. Is this the new me? I hope so, because it feels great.
Okay, in the meantime, I quit today, I will get up and quit tomorrow. All the rest will come as it should. Later quitters.
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Giving an update after 17 days in. Overall, the quit has been manageable, though I get slammed with craves that penetrate all the way down to my gut and I moan with despair. It seems like the cravings have gotten worse and/or more frequent recently. Maybe the nic bitch thought I was just taking a few days off but got concerned when it seemed like I might actually be quitting. She's come back to get her lost sheep.
On the plus side, I feel like I have a structure that will keep me in quit mode. I'm doing the roll call everyday and I've been keeping in touch with other quitters via PM. I got called out by one of them for reminiscing too much which gave me a new perspective on how to deal with the quit. I'm going to follow the advice.
Additionally, I'm experiencing all the well-documented benefits of quitting. I don't have to deal with having shit in my mouth all day with all the rigmarole attached to it. I don't get the nic pisses throughout the day and just drink water and have actual real pisses. I don't buy all that shit everyday and have actually kept unspent cash in my wallet for several days in a row. I don't need to hide anything from my wife, my mouth feels clean, and I save more time in the day than I had ever expected.
The last thing I'll mention is also a question. I have been brimming with energy the past couple weeks. It is borderline bizarre. I've been a human dynamo getting lots of stuff done, feeling motivated and focused, etc. My question, then is, am I experiencing a nervous reaction to the loss of my dipping? I've heard stories of people who quit any sort of addiction and they respond with obsessive behavior, a focus on something else potentially addictive, etc.; anything to mask the burden of a quit. OR, is this a new normal where my energy should have been all along? I've been poisoning myself for years, so I must have pushed my energy level down after so much abuse. Is this the new me? I hope so, because it feels great.
Okay, in the meantime, I quit today, I will get up and quit tomorrow. All the rest will come as it should. Later quitters.
If it feels great without nic in your system then I would call it good! When have we ever thought that having more energy and being productive was a bad thing? I would embrace it and run with it! Feels good to be Nic free doesn't it?!?!
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Giving an update after 17 days in. Overall, the quit has been manageable, though I get slammed with craves that penetrate all the way down to my gut and I moan with despair. It seems like the cravings have gotten worse and/or more frequent recently. Maybe the nic bitch thought I was just taking a few days off but got concerned when it seemed like I might actually be quitting. She's come back to get her lost sheep.
On the plus side, I feel like I have a structure that will keep me in quit mode. I'm doing the roll call everyday and I've been keeping in touch with other quitters via PM. I got called out by one of them for reminiscing too much which gave me a new perspective on how to deal with the quit. I'm going to follow the advice.
Additionally, I'm experiencing all the well-documented benefits of quitting. I don't have to deal with having shit in my mouth all day with all the rigmarole attached to it. I don't get the nic pisses throughout the day and just drink water and have actual real pisses. I don't buy all that shit everyday and have actually kept unspent cash in my wallet for several days in a row. I don't need to hide anything from my wife, my mouth feels clean, and I save more time in the day than I had ever expected.
The last thing I'll mention is also a question. I have been brimming with energy the past couple weeks. It is borderline bizarre. I've been a human dynamo getting lots of stuff done, feeling motivated and focused, etc. My question, then is, am I experiencing a nervous reaction to the loss of my dipping? I've heard stories of people who quit any sort of addiction and they respond with obsessive behavior, a focus on something else potentially addictive, etc.; anything to mask the burden of a quit. OR, is this a new normal where my energy should have been all along? I've been poisoning myself for years, so I must have pushed my energy level down after so much abuse. Is this the new me? I hope so, because it feels great.
Okay, in the meantime, I quit today, I will get up and quit tomorrow. All the rest will come as it should. Later quitters.
If it feels great without nic in your system then I would call it good! When have we ever thought that having more energy and being productive was a bad thing? I would embrace it and run with it! Feels good to be Nic free doesn't it?!?!
Ya I have heard that too but swapping an addiction that can kill you for one that can prolong your life seems like an easy choice for me. You prolly have more energy because physiologically you body can carry more oxygen there for more juice. Same as people w sleep apnea get them a cpap machine n they become dynamos. I am w Jake if u feel good and are kicking ass not a lot wrong w that. My suggestion to you is I think you are jonseing because u feel good and are more scared of the unknown than known... in which case burn the bridge and the fucking piers too. Embrace your new energy level its the reward for removing the poison. Look at my thread day 75 I tested my quit body and went from the couch to a 5 k w no training. My body could carry more o2 so i could run w my sons.
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Dave, congratulations on achieving a milestone in your quit. It keep getting better from here... So keep the faith! I look forward to celebrating more of these milestones with you in the future. Well done!
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Dave, congratulations on achieving a milestone in your quit. It keep getting better from here... So keep the faith! I look forward to celebrating more of these milestones with you in the future. Well done!
'BanDog' 'BanDog' Well done on one year brother!
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Dave, congratulations on achieving a milestone in your quit. It keep getting better from here... So keep the faith! I look forward to celebrating more of these milestones with you in the future. Well done!
'BanDog' 'BanDog' Well done on one year brother!
All day everyday with my slut. Congrats Davemo
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Dave, congratulations on achieving a milestone in your quit. It keep getting better from here... So keep the faith! I look forward to celebrating more of these milestones with you in the future. Well done!
'BanDog' 'BanDog' Well done on one year brother!
All day everyday with my slut. Congrats Davemo
congratulations Dave!
365... a year ago that seemed impossible. One day at a time, it became not only possible, but sooooo much better than you could ever imagine. Celebrate today! You've earned it.
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Hi everyone,
I'm on day 2 of phase 2 of my quit. I quit 6 years ago and caved about 3 months ago, so here I am again.
Why? I have theories, but in the end, I stood at the counter at 7-11, felt weak, and bought a can. Once that happens, it isn't any different than an alcoholic. You can't stop.
I've had a couple people encourage me to give the back story. I'd say in the last year, my cravings kicked back in and I was getting dip dreams much more often. Separately, my wife and I carpooled much less starting this year since I wanted to go to the gym. Simultaneously, my mom's dementia accelerated and we had to move her out of her house she'd been living in for 50 years. I was extremely stressed. We also had to empty the house out to sell it and it took close to 3 months of intense labor to get it done. I spent many nights and weekends there by myself doing the cleanup. Between going to the gym and doing this house work, it was almost like I was a bachelor again. Bachelors don't have any external accountability, so bachelors can do stupid things. Still, my wife figured it out (obviously), but this time she didn't freak out on me and just let me be. I'd have to make up my mind on my own this time... and it has been tough.
I chose July 1 to quit, but then caved later that day. I didn't go to KTC. Now, August is here, and I'm at KTC, doing this for myself. I'm depressed because I have to do this all over again, but am already glad that I'm not dealing with all the logistics, expense, and mess that you always have to manage when dipping. Here's to a new moment of opportunity. It's time to be free.
Lastly, thanks to Duathman who was in my original quit group. He still had my number and texted me yesterday. Amazing.
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Hi everyone,
I'm on day 2 of phase 2 of my quit. I quit 6 years ago and caved about 3 months ago, so here I am again.
Why? I have theories, but in the end, I stood at the counter at 7-11, felt weak, and bought a can. Once that happens, it isn't any different than an alcoholic. You can't stop.
I've had a couple people encourage me to give the back story. I'd say in the last year, my cravings kicked back in and I was getting dip dreams much more often. Separately, my wife and I carpooled much less starting this year since I wanted to go to the gym. Simultaneously, my mom's dementia accelerated and we had to move her out of her house she'd been living in for 50 years. I was extremely stressed. We also had to empty the house out to sell it and it took close to 3 months of intense labor to get it done. I spent many nights and weekends there by myself doing the cleanup. Between going to the gym and doing this house work, it was almost like I was a bachelor again. Bachelors don't have any external accountability, so bachelors can do stupid things. Still, my wife figured it out (obviously), but this time she didn't freak out on me and just let me be. I'd have to make up my mind on my own this time... and it has been tough.
I chose July 1 to quit, but then caved later that day. I didn't go to KTC. Now, August is here, and I'm at KTC, doing this for myself. I'm depressed because I have to do this all over again, but am already glad that I'm not dealing with all the logistics, expense, and mess that you always have to manage when dipping. Here's to a new moment of opportunity. It's time to be free.
Lastly, thanks to Duathman who was in my original quit group. He still had my number and texted me yesterday. Amazing.
Here's a theory for ya. You caved because you quit posting roll at 1173 days. You didn't have the accountability, you're not strong enough to do it on your own, and you thought just one wouldn't hurt. There's a reason I'm still here. On your own, you're susceptible in a weak moment. You're going to go through a lot of question and answer over this, and I implore you to do some deep soul searching this time and make a serious commitment. You threw away a ton of quit on a whim. Stupid move, and you can move on from this, but it's going to take a lot more work on your part.
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Giving an update after 17 days in. Overall, the quit has been manageable, though I get slammed with craves that penetrate all the way down to my gut and I moan with despair. It seems like the cravings have gotten worse and/or more frequent recently. Maybe the nic bitch thought I was just taking a few days off but got concerned when it seemed like I might actually be quitting. She's come back to get her lost sheep.
On the plus side, I feel like I have a structure that will keep me in quit mode. I'm doing the roll call everyday and I've been keeping in touch with other quitters via PM. I got called out by one of them for reminiscing too much which gave me a new perspective on how to deal with the quit. I'm going to follow the advice.
Additionally, I'm experiencing all the well-documented benefits of quitting. I don't have to deal with having shit in my mouth all day with all the rigmarole attached to it. I don't get the nic pisses throughout the day and just drink water and have actual real pisses. I don't buy all that shit everyday and have actually kept unspent cash in my wallet for several days in a row. I don't need to hide anything from my wife, my mouth feels clean, and I save more time in the day than I had ever expected.
The last thing I'll mention is also a question. I have been brimming with energy the past couple weeks. It is borderline bizarre. I've been a human dynamo getting lots of stuff done, feeling motivated and focused, etc. My question, then is, am I experiencing a nervous reaction to the loss of my dipping? I've heard stories of people who quit any sort of addiction and they respond with obsessive behavior, a focus on something else potentially addictive, etc.; anything to mask the burden of a quit. OR, is this a new normal where my energy should have been all along? I've been poisoning myself for years, so I must have pushed my energy level down after so much abuse. Is this the new me? I hope so, because it feels great.
Okay, in the meantime, I quit today, I will get up and quit tomorrow. All the rest will come as it should. Later quitters.
If it feels great without nic in your system then I would call it good! When have we ever thought that having more energy and being productive was a bad thing? I would embrace it and run with it! Feels good to be Nic free doesn't it?!?!
Ya I have heard that too but swapping an addiction that can kill you for one that can prolong your life seems like an easy choice for me. You prolly have more energy because physiologically you body can carry more oxygen there for more juice. Same as people w sleep apnea get them a cpap machine n they become dynamos. I am w Jake if u feel good and are kicking ass not a lot wrong w that. My suggestion to you is I think you are jonseing because u feel good and are more scared of the unknown than known... in which case burn the bridge and the fucking piers too. Embrace your new energy level its the reward for removing the poison. Look at my thread day 75 I tested my quit body and went from the couch to a 5 k w no training. My body could carry more o2 so i could run w my sons.
i'M GONNA BUMP THIS FORWARD: A post to you from Trauma (RIP). It's like he's speaking to you from beyond. Here was a guy who was quit to the day the good lord took him, he supported you knowing full well his days were numbered.
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Giving an update after 17 days in. Overall, the quit has been manageable, though I get slammed with craves that penetrate all the way down to my gut and I moan with despair. It seems like the cravings have gotten worse and/or more frequent recently. Maybe the nic bitch thought I was just taking a few days off but got concerned when it seemed like I might actually be quitting. She's come back to get her lost sheep.
On the plus side, I feel like I have a structure that will keep me in quit mode. I'm doing the roll call everyday and I've been keeping in touch with other quitters via PM. I got called out by one of them for reminiscing too much which gave me a new perspective on how to deal with the quit. I'm going to follow the advice.
Additionally, I'm experiencing all the well-documented benefits of quitting. I don't have to deal with having shit in my mouth all day with all the rigmarole attached to it. I don't get the nic pisses throughout the day and just drink water and have actual real pisses. I don't buy all that shit everyday and have actually kept unspent cash in my wallet for several days in a row. I don't need to hide anything from my wife, my mouth feels clean, and I save more time in the day than I had ever expected.
The last thing I'll mention is also a question. I have been brimming with energy the past couple weeks. It is borderline bizarre. I've been a human dynamo getting lots of stuff done, feeling motivated and focused, etc. My question, then is, am I experiencing a nervous reaction to the loss of my dipping? I've heard stories of people who quit any sort of addiction and they respond with obsessive behavior, a focus on something else potentially addictive, etc.; anything to mask the burden of a quit. OR, is this a new normal where my energy should have been all along? I've been poisoning myself for years, so I must have pushed my energy level down after so much abuse. Is this the new me? I hope so, because it feels great.
Okay, in the meantime, I quit today, I will get up and quit tomorrow. All the rest will come as it should. Later quitters.
If it feels great without nic in your system then I would call it good! When have we ever thought that having more energy and being productive was a bad thing? I would embrace it and run with it! Feels good to be Nic free doesn't it?!?!
Ya I have heard that too but swapping an addiction that can kill you for one that can prolong your life seems like an easy choice for me. You prolly have more energy because physiologically you body can carry more oxygen there for more juice. Same as people w sleep apnea get them a cpap machine n they become dynamos. I am w Jake if u feel good and are kicking ass not a lot wrong w that. My suggestion to you is I think you are jonseing because u feel good and are more scared of the unknown than known... in which case burn the bridge and the fucking piers too. Embrace your new energy level its the reward for removing the poison. Look at my thread day 75 I tested my quit body and went from the couch to a 5 k w no training. My body could carry more o2 so i could run w my sons.
i'M GONNA BUMP THIS FORWARD: A post to you from Trauma (RIP). It's like he's speaking to you from beyond. Here was a guy who was quit to the day the good lord took him, he supported you knowing full well his days were numbered.
Glad to see you back, but if you’d never left you wouldn’t have needed to return. You had my support last time and you have it now. I hope you take the time to read Traumagnet’s intro - he didn’t quit soon enough. This is no joke, Dave... the addict in us wants to feed the addiction. Winning is possible. But you gotta post daily.
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Hi, I’m back after a six year quit and then a two year cave. I even came back about a year ago and failed. This has become a very serious problem in my life that could lead my family to disaster. I must quit today and come here everyday to quit one more day. I don’t remember where to go to do the daily log, so please help.
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Hey @davemo (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=3813) - I merged your new intro with your old one. Take some time to read back through and do some soul searching.
Your new group will be May 2021 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?topic=16907.new#lastPost). Find the most recent roll post, hit quote, add your name and day count and then hit post.
Also, start thinking about the 3 questions:
1.) What happened?
2.) Why did it happen?
3.) What are you going to do differently this time?
Are ready to quit for yourself?? If you are back to quit for your family, you might want to re-prioritize your motives. Yes, our families are important but to be truly successful, you must quit for yourself first. I look forward to reading your answers to the questions.
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Hey @davemo (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=3813) - I merged your new intro with your old one. Take some time to read back through and do some soul searching.
Your new group will be May 2021 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?topic=16907.new#lastPost). Find the most recent roll post, hit quote, add your name and day count and then hit post.
Also, start thinking about the 3 questions:
1.) What happened?
I started up two years ago, the excuse being that I was under great stress as my mom was dying. Once started up again, I was hooked again. I recently quit after taking three months off with the usual excuse that “I’ll just have one,” which is of course a complete joke.
2.) Why did it happen?
I was quitting by myself and had no accountability.
3.) What are you going to do differently this time?
Come here for accountability every day. Probably post my daily total on the wall somewhere. Build some relationships here in order to have support.
Are ready to quit for yourself?? If you are back to quit for your family, you might want to re-prioritize your motives. Yes, our families are important but to be truly successful, you must quit for yourself first. I look forward to reading your answers to the questions.
Am I ready to quit for myself? This is a difficult question. Rationally, I see all the evidence I need to quit and accept them. I’ve lost teeth, spend a lot of money, and risk my health. All that is obvious. Irrationally, I am still beholden to chew and I can’t resist it and feel I must be forced to quit.
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Am I ready to quit for myself? This is a difficult question.
No.
No, it isn’t a difficult question.
The fact that you’re still stuck right there is your problem. Well, among many.
You’ve lost teeth?
You’ve lost money?
You’ve been doing this dance for how long?
Dude.
Wake the hell up.
What happens when your roulette game ends up at the inevitable conclusion?
YOU... need to sac up.
YOU... need to get pissed off.
YOU... need to stop Charlie Browning through a series of stoppages.
YOU. NEED. TO. STOP. FUCKING. AROUND.
You’ve been here and know how this works. Stop “hoping” it sticks this time.
Make it happen.
Own it.
Do better.
Be better.
It’s pretty damn simple.
Damn, man... the numbers you would be sitting on make me sick. What a waste.
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Am I ready to quit for myself? This is a difficult question.
No.
No, it isn’t a difficult question.
The fact that you’re still stuck right there is your problem. Well, among many.
You’ve lost teeth?
You’ve lost money?
You’ve been doing this dance for how long?
Dude.
Wake the hell up.
What happens when your roulette game ends up at the inevitable conclusion?
YOU... need to sac up.
YOU... need to get pissed off.
YOU... need to stop Charlie Browning through a series of stoppages.
YOU. NEED. TO. STOP. FUCKING. AROUND.
You’ve been here and know how this works. Stop “hoping” it sticks this time.
Make it happen.
Own it.
Do better.
Be better.
It’s pretty damn simple.
Damn, man... the numbers you would be sitting on make me sick. What a waste.
Yes, I agree. Thanks for the feedback. It's nice to see how long you've been dedicated to this site, so thanks a lot. I will make my quite happen.
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Am I ready to quit for myself? This is a difficult question.
No.
No, it isn’t a difficult question.
The fact that you’re still stuck right there is your problem. Well, among many.
You’ve lost teeth?
You’ve lost money?
You’ve been doing this dance for how long?
Dude.
Wake the hell up.
What happens when your roulette game ends up at the inevitable conclusion?
YOU... need to sac up.
YOU... need to get pissed off.
YOU... need to stop Charlie Browning through a series of stoppages.
YOU. NEED. TO. STOP. FUCKING. AROUND.
You’ve been here and know how this works. Stop “hoping” it sticks this time.
Make it happen.
Own it.
Do better.
Be better.
It’s pretty damn simple.
Damn, man... the numbers you would be sitting on make me sick. What a waste.
Yes, I agree. Thanks for the feedback. It's nice to see how long you've been dedicated to this site, so thanks a lot. I will make my quite happen.
Did you read Traumagnet’s intro. He supported you until tobacco killed him. You have been given a gift now at least 3 times that he wasn’t given. Only cats get 9 lives.
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Good job on 7, keep those +1s coming.