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Started by grimace8777, December 19, 2010, 10:40:00 PM

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grimace8777

Bean, I hear ya man. I understand that I'm vulnerable at all times that's why I'm here posting daily. You're absolutely right it's never over.

Bean

Congrats and great post. But now is the hard part...staying quit. The nic bitch will continue to lurk, hunting trips, guys nights, sports bars, road trips, etc. It is much easier to deal with the craves, but it is crazy the way they keep coming after random triggers.

This site is also full of testimonials from folks who thought they were out of the dark a year or two ago, or quit for six months back when blah, blah,....

I quit for a full 9 months in 1998, only to go back to the can for "just one"...that lasted until 2010. I knew better, but I did it "just to see" or maybe because I thought "I could handle it."

Now, I know I can't let my guard down...not for anything. I need this site, I need the December 2010 Guard, I need all the help I can get. We're kicking the Nic Bitch's ass one day at a time.

Scowick65

Quote from: SoulimanI quit with you...as I will tomorrow as well.

Nice work bro.
:)

Souliman

I quit with you...as I will tomorrow as well.

Nice work bro.

nicofiend

Congrats on your faithful climb , and solid quit to the third floor , excellent testimony! Keep up the fight Grimace! Proud to be quit with you. nico

grimace8777

Hey all you quitters out there! I thought it was time to give a quick update regarding life 300 days +. I am writing in hopes somebody gains some insight into the whole process of quitting. First off a few years ago I never thought this was even possible. I looked at people who quit and thought they just didn't like tobacco as much as I did. I made every excuse in the book as to why now wasn't a good time and why it would be better 6 months from now. I had even at times written myself off as doomed to die of mouth cancer. I had no idea what it meant to truly be an addict. Because you see I am an addict, a nic junkie who with the slightest misstep would fine his way right back with a dip in my mouth.

I am writing this because I'm living proof along with many more vets before me that it is possible and this website if used correctly can help you get there. Here is how my progression went.

Day 1-20 holy shit I never as long as I live on earth ever want to go thru that time again. Anytime I even think about chew I think back to these days. Truly horrible, I made it thru like many of you day by day sometimes minute by minute. Stay super close to the site get on chat read hof speeches. Hell look at some cancer pics for additional support!

Day 20-50 mentally hard! Still sometimes going minute to minute. Wondering if this feeling is ever going away. I would often tell myself if you want a chew in 20 min you can have one as cravings never last that long. But this is the grind time, you're laying the groundwork here every time you beat that bitch back she comes back a little less strong. You are winning! Even though it still blows!

Day 50-80 not too shabby still craving but things have gotten better not great but I would get a half a day without that bitch on my back.

Day 80-120 I don't know what the fuck happened here for me but it was like I reverted back! Things were hard, people hitting the hall but I feel like shit! WTF is it worth it? Will I ever feel normal again? This is the nic bitch last ditch effort! Stay strong remember where you have come from. Tell your group you feel like shit and most importantly keep posting!!

Day 120-150 phew got thru that bs just the daily commitment now. Man life seems to be getting good im feeling free!

Day 150-200 life is good! Finally I'm here this is what I've been waiting for!!! But I'm still posting daily. The bitch lurks but it's subtle and nowhere near as hard.

Day 200-300 I've beaten the bitch down and now go days without even thinking about it! I understand my addiction, I still post daily and there is no fucking way I'm letting my group down. If I stop posting they will notice, they have my number and I have theirs. It's never over but you will feel freedom I promise!

March 2011 you guys and rocket are fucking awesome thanks for everything I am free now. The bitch lurks but I feel empowered and in control!!!

You can too!!

jcook

My brother, I had sores in my mouth in week 2. Then nothing for the next two weeks. Then, just when I'm thinking all that had past, my mouth felt like I've been chewing hornets. All these guys are right. Get checked out. It is almost definitely nothing, but you will feel better just knowing. Also here is a little tip: rinse and gargle with hydrogen peroxide, it helps a bit. Keep it up, you are doing GREAT!
"I like a man who grins when he fights." - Winston Churchill

Day 1: 11-28-10
HOF : 03-07-11

Bean

The Nic Bitch doesn't give up easily. We're here to help you. In fact, we're counting on you...you quit makes us stronger.

Failure is not an option when life is on the line. Stay strong.

grimace8777

Thank you guys, I can't tell you how much I appreciate the support of this site. I thought I could quit alone in the past and I was wrong, I get it this time, I'm an addict and I always will be. Makes me crazy thinking about it but just these simple words so far have helped calm me a bit.

HKS

agree. everyone is different. Stay quit and read as much as you can and when you finish, read it again.............never stop learning about your addiction B)

bigbamadan

Quote from: razd611Everyone is different. It took me a good 30 -40 days. Do yourself a favor. Schedule yourself a dentist apointment to get a good once over. It will give you piece of mind.
Indeed everyone is differant. And yes...schedule you an appointment at the dentist during the second month.

I never had any of the sores. But I did have 100% of the crazy. Hour long gum inspections. Constantly thinking I had cancer. Crazy shit.

Like my wife told me multiple times...

"God doesn't want to screw you that bad. You are not going to quit and then get cancer the next week."
Quit: 3/23/10
All good things in all good time.

redtrain14

Your mouth is still going through a ton of changes after years of abuse....its healing. Anything in the 30 days can most likely be attributed to quitting. If you are concerned, get it checked out. From what I've seen here (on this forum), you are most likely fine.

RAZD611

Everyone is different. It took me a good 30 -40 days. Do yourself a favor. Schedule yourself a dentist apointment to get a good once over. It will give you piece of mind.
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grimace8777

Hello fellow quit brothers and sisters, I have a slight issue and I'm wondering what others experience has been. I am 21 days quit right now, very commited posting role everyday and scared shitless! Every little bump, discomfort, chapped lips, etc I'm constantly fearing this is it I've finally got the big C.

This is good from the sense that I will NEVER forget how I feel right now making my quit stronger than I could have ever imagined. However, the paranoia is not healthy I don't think. I notice people posting up that around 20 days there sores are starting to heal, seems like I get one it's gone a few days later just for another one to show up. Even in spots where I never held a dip. Help a brother out and let me know if this has happened to you? Advice is greatly appreciated!

HKS

Thanks for your input. I sent an e-mail to another guy from the area and added to the NYC get-together thread about setting something up.