bomb...this is Bomb. Reading that intro was like looking in a mirror. I started in college, dipped late nights studying for pharmacy school, entered into a stressful job, etc. I've stopped/started so many times I've lost count. I came to KTC, 6 days in and I've never looked back. Really, the only progression now is forward. For every day since I've quit I've been undefeated against the nic bitch. The 18 years of consecutive days I lost that battle are in the past and behind me. For every day you post roll, quit like fuck, and win the battle for that day you will continue to move further and further away from the past. Will you be able to ever lose that past? Hell no, you will always be an addict...but you CAN create more and more distance from that addict mind by being a quitter every damn day.
Keep it up, keep learning, keep posting roll and you will keep winning and regaining your freedom.