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Steakbomb18

Quote from: jake
Quote from: GernjerCompare yourself to me.Ã,  I dipped 31 years and I felt invincible.Ã,  Yeah, I thought about cancer now and then, but denial is a powerful ally when the withdrawals kick in.

Then the lymph nodes in my neck on both sides became painful and swollen 3 weeks ago.Ã, 

Now the shit gets real, I've passed the point of no return and quitting today doesn't make cancer go away.Ã,  We've all seen that guy with no jaw, no tongue, no throat. He lives like that for 18 months and then he's dead.Ã,  From the moment he's diagnosed to the moment he dies, it's nothing but suffering for him and his family.Ã,  Let's not forget that everyone goes broke on the medical bills in the process.

So my nodes went south and I realized I'd played this shit off too long.Ã,  I have an 11 year old daughter who doesn't even know I dip.Ã,  How do I tell her she has to get through the rest of her childhood with no father because of of the pleasure that Copenhagen brings to me?Ã,  How do I reconcile the fact that I chose the Copenhagen Corporation and my sensory desires over her life and growth?

Turned out, I had a neck injury, not cancer.Ã,  And by the way, FUCK YOU COPENHAGEN for ruining my life and putting me and my family into this position.Ã,  I'm taking the fuck over, and YOU are...out.

Don't get to where I got.Ã,  You might not be as lucky.Ã,  I'm escaping a fire with smoke fuming off my clothes.Ã,  I got the "scared straight" program.Ã,  I'm on day 9 now and I know I have it beat.Ã,  But I check in with this group now every day just to make sure.Ã,  Today is the first day that I've started talking to other struggling quitters, and this is how I know I have really beaten this demon down.Ã,  I'm sick at myself for spending untold thousands of dollars on that crap.Ã,  What did I get in return?Ã,  A nice relaxing high of sorts.Ã,  And...bad breath, bad teeth, etc.Ã,  You know the list of shit as well as all of us.Ã, 

I've read that hiring managers sometimes think of college as nothing more than a way to show that you have the discipline to stick with a long, hard project and get it done.Ã,  The same goes for military (boot camps, etc).Ã,  Hell, if you can kick this shit, there is nothing in life that you can't do.

You are the man.Ã,  You are the shit.Ã,  Snuff is dirt.Ã,  Only the lowest form of loser agrees to be defeated by dirt. You've got this.Ã,  Beat it down and be the man.Ã,  You'll have a pretty awesome existence once you do.Ã,  I'm on my way, I'm not there yet.Ã,  But in my heart and in my mind, I'm there.Ã,  I'm certain that this group of quitters will do for you what it did for me.

JJ
DAMN! This post just got me fired up and angry at nicotine! I love it! I do not know any better way to quit then to HATE what we were! Well said!
This post was intense and badass. This is one experience that adds fuel to my fire and my resolve to stay quit. Thank you for this post JJ.
Certified Grade A Badass

jake frawley

Quote from: GernjerCompare yourself to me. I dipped 31 years and I felt invincible. Yeah, I thought about cancer now and then, but denial is a powerful ally when the withdrawals kick in.

Then the lymph nodes in my neck on both sides became painful and swollen 3 weeks ago.

Now the shit gets real, I've passed the point of no return and quitting today doesn't make cancer go away. We've all seen that guy with no jaw, no tongue, no throat. He lives like that for 18 months and then he's dead. From the moment he's diagnosed to the moment he dies, it's nothing but suffering for him and his family. Let's not forget that everyone goes broke on the medical bills in the process.

So my nodes went south and I realized I'd played this shit off too long. I have an 11 year old daughter who doesn't even know I dip. How do I tell her she has to get through the rest of her childhood with no father because of of the pleasure that Copenhagen brings to me? How do I reconcile the fact that I chose the Copenhagen Corporation and my sensory desires over her life and growth?

Turned out, I had a neck injury, not cancer. And by the way, FUCK YOU COPENHAGEN for ruining my life and putting me and my family into this position. I'm taking the fuck over, and YOU are...out.

Don't get to where I got. You might not be as lucky. I'm escaping a fire with smoke fuming off my clothes. I got the "scared straight" program. I'm on day 9 now and I know I have it beat. But I check in with this group now every day just to make sure. Today is the first day that I've started talking to other struggling quitters, and this is how I know I have really beaten this demon down. I'm sick at myself for spending untold thousands of dollars on that crap. What did I get in return? A nice relaxing high of sorts. And...bad breath, bad teeth, etc. You know the list of shit as well as all of us.

I've read that hiring managers sometimes think of college as nothing more than a way to show that you have the discipline to stick with a long, hard project and get it done. The same goes for military (boot camps, etc). Hell, if you can kick this shit, there is nothing in life that you can't do.

You are the man. You are the shit. Snuff is dirt. Only the lowest form of loser agrees to be defeated by dirt. You've got this. Beat it down and be the man. You'll have a pretty awesome existence once you do. I'm on my way, I'm not there yet. But in my heart and in my mind, I'm there. I'm certain that this group of quitters will do for you what it did for me.

JJ
DAMN! This post just got me fired up and angry at nicotine! I love it! I do not know any better way to quit then to HATE what we were! Well said!

peters6278

Kyles,

As a fellow April 2014 quitter, I see that you are rocking your quit. At 23 days, you've gotten through (for a third time) what many consider the toughest part of the quit. However, based on the outcome of your past attempts, and as is the case with all of us, you're still in dangerous territory. I'm not trying to preach or rag on you here man. Like apogee said below, nothing that happened in the past matters to the April group.

However, that being said, I would encourage you (as a means to strengthening your quit) to post updates on your intro page every once in a while. I think posts of the flavor " here's how I feel now, here's how I felt the last time I tried to quit when I was at this point, and here's what I'm doing differently this time around to protect my quit".

Again not trying to beat up on you, just offering some unsolicited advice on how to achieve success with your quit this time.

I quit with you today my fellow April quitter and am committed to you quit as much as I am to mine. PM me any time if you need to chat.
Living the dream, one day at a time.


Quit Date 01/10/14
HOF Date 04/19/14

jzzyzag01

Quote from: Mthomas3824
Quote from: GernjerCompare yourself to me.Ã,  I dipped 31 years and I felt invincible.Ã,  Yeah, I thought about cancer now and then, but denial is a powerful ally when the withdrawals kick in.

Then the lymph nodes in my neck on both sides became painful and swollen 3 weeks ago.Ã, 

Now the shit gets real, I've passed the point of no return and quitting today doesn't make cancer go away.Ã,  We've all seen that guy with no jaw, no tongue, no throat. He lives like that for 18 months and then he's dead.Ã,  From the moment he's diagnosed to the moment he dies, it's nothing but suffering for him and his family.Ã,  Let's not forget that everyone goes broke on the medical bills in the process.

So my nodes went south and I realized I'd played this shit off too long.Ã,  I have an 11 year old daughter who doesn't even know I dip.Ã,  How do I tell her she has to get through the rest of her childhood with no father because of of the pleasure that Copenhagen brings to me?Ã,  How do I reconcile the fact that I chose the Copenhagen Corporation and my sensory desires over her life and growth?

Turned out, I had a neck injury, not cancer.Ã,  And by the way, FUCK YOU COPENHAGEN for ruining my life and putting me and my family into this position.Ã,  I'm taking the fuck over, and YOU are...out.

Don't get to where I got.Ã,  You might not be as lucky.Ã,  I'm escaping a fire with smoke fuming off my clothes.Ã,  I got the "scared straight" program.Ã,  I'm on day 9 now and I know I have it beat.Ã,  But I check in with this group now every day just to make sure.Ã,  Today is the first day that I've started talking to other struggling quitters, and this is how I know I have really beaten this demon down.Ã,  I'm sick at myself for spending untold thousands of dollars on that crap.Ã,  What did I get in return?Ã,  A nice relaxing high of sorts.Ã,  And...bad breath, bad teeth, etc.Ã,  You know the list of shit as well as all of us.Ã, 

I've read that hiring managers sometimes think of college as nothing more than a way to show that you have the discipline to stick with a long, hard project and get it done.Ã,  The same goes for military (boot camps, etc).Ã,  Hell, if you can kick this shit, there is nothing in life that you can't do.

You are the man.Ã,  You are the shit.Ã,  Snuff is dirt.Ã,  Only the lowest form of loser agrees to be defeated by dirt. You've got this.Ã,  Beat it down and be the man.Ã,  You'll have a pretty awesome existence once you do.Ã,  I'm on my way, I'm not there yet.Ã,  But in my heart and in my mind, I'm there.Ã,  I'm certain that this group of quitters will do for you what it did for me.

JJ
Man I love when I read posts like this. Tobacco is evil. USTobacco is an organization that dismisses the fact that they kill people. They recruit children. Apple, cherry, vanilla flavors? Yep, kids and candy flavored dip is not a coincidence.

Piss on all those who benefit and promote nicotine. Including pharmaceuticals like Nicorette etc. 'Finger'

I am free and I wish others would free themselves from can humping!
Yep. Keep preaching your sermon JJ. If you get one more person to stay quit on this site, or convince another person in your life to get started on the site, it'll have been worth it.

Keep pushing Kyle. As you know, it's tough. Listen to JJ, though. Do you wanna be in that doc's office when your world gets flipped upside down? All for some poison? Not me, and I'm betting not you. That's why you're here. F the NB with you today.
"I am a nicotine addict and there is nothing I can do about it; I am also a quitter, and that, I can do plenty about." - Grizzly25

Today I choose to quit because today is the only day I have control over today. Tomorrow is a new day and when tomorrow is today, I'll control it too, but not until then. I will win this fight with today...

Mthomas3824

Quote from: GernjerCompare yourself to me. I dipped 31 years and I felt invincible. Yeah, I thought about cancer now and then, but denial is a powerful ally when the withdrawals kick in.

Then the lymph nodes in my neck on both sides became painful and swollen 3 weeks ago.

Now the shit gets real, I've passed the point of no return and quitting today doesn't make cancer go away. We've all seen that guy with no jaw, no tongue, no throat. He lives like that for 18 months and then he's dead. From the moment he's diagnosed to the moment he dies, it's nothing but suffering for him and his family. Let's not forget that everyone goes broke on the medical bills in the process.

So my nodes went south and I realized I'd played this shit off too long. I have an 11 year old daughter who doesn't even know I dip. How do I tell her she has to get through the rest of her childhood with no father because of of the pleasure that Copenhagen brings to me? How do I reconcile the fact that I chose the Copenhagen Corporation and my sensory desires over her life and growth?

Turned out, I had a neck injury, not cancer. And by the way, FUCK YOU COPENHAGEN for ruining my life and putting me and my family into this position. I'm taking the fuck over, and YOU are...out.

Don't get to where I got. You might not be as lucky. I'm escaping a fire with smoke fuming off my clothes. I got the "scared straight" program. I'm on day 9 now and I know I have it beat. But I check in with this group now every day just to make sure. Today is the first day that I've started talking to other struggling quitters, and this is how I know I have really beaten this demon down. I'm sick at myself for spending untold thousands of dollars on that crap. What did I get in return? A nice relaxing high of sorts. And...bad breath, bad teeth, etc. You know the list of shit as well as all of us.

I've read that hiring managers sometimes think of college as nothing more than a way to show that you have the discipline to stick with a long, hard project and get it done. The same goes for military (boot camps, etc). Hell, if you can kick this shit, there is nothing in life that you can't do.

You are the man. You are the shit. Snuff is dirt. Only the lowest form of loser agrees to be defeated by dirt. You've got this. Beat it down and be the man. You'll have a pretty awesome existence once you do. I'm on my way, I'm not there yet. But in my heart and in my mind, I'm there. I'm certain that this group of quitters will do for you what it did for me.

JJ
Man I love when I read posts like this. Tobacco is evil. USTobacco is an organization that dismisses the fact that they kill people. They recruit children. Apple, cherry, vanilla flavors? Yep, kids and candy flavored dip is not a coincidence.

Piss on all those who benefit and promote nicotine. Including pharmaceuticals like Nicorette etc. 'Finger'

I am free and I wish others would free themselves from can humping!
Quit And Be Free

HOF Speech

Gernjer

Compare yourself to me. I dipped 31 years and I felt invincible. Yeah, I thought about cancer now and then, but denial is a powerful ally when the withdrawals kick in.

Then the lymph nodes in my neck on both sides became painful and swollen 3 weeks ago.

Now the shit gets real, I've passed the point of no return and quitting today doesn't make cancer go away. We've all seen that guy with no jaw, no tongue, no throat. He lives like that for 18 months and then he's dead. From the moment he's diagnosed to the moment he dies, it's nothing but suffering for him and his family. Let's not forget that everyone goes broke on the medical bills in the process.

So my nodes went south and I realized I'd played this shit off too long. I have an 11 year old daughter who doesn't even know I dip. How do I tell her she has to get through the rest of her childhood with no father because of of the pleasure that Copenhagen brings to me? How do I reconcile the fact that I chose the Copenhagen Corporation and my sensory desires over her life and growth?

Turned out, I had a neck injury, not cancer. And by the way, FUCK YOU COPENHAGEN for ruining my life and putting me and my family into this position. I'm taking the fuck over, and YOU are...out.

Don't get to where I got. You might not be as lucky. I'm escaping a fire with smoke fuming off my clothes. I got the "scared straight" program. I'm on day 9 now and I know I have it beat. But I check in with this group now every day just to make sure. Today is the first day that I've started talking to other struggling quitters, and this is how I know I have really beaten this demon down. I'm sick at myself for spending untold thousands of dollars on that crap. What did I get in return? A nice relaxing high of sorts. And...bad breath, bad teeth, etc. You know the list of shit as well as all of us.

I've read that hiring managers sometimes think of college as nothing more than a way to show that you have the discipline to stick with a long, hard project and get it done. The same goes for military (boot camps, etc). Hell, if you can kick this shit, there is nothing in life that you can't do.

You are the man. You are the shit. Snuff is dirt. Only the lowest form of loser agrees to be defeated by dirt. You've got this. Beat it down and be the man. You'll have a pretty awesome existence once you do. I'm on my way, I'm not there yet. But in my heart and in my mind, I'm there. I'm certain that this group of quitters will do for you what it did for me.

JJ

apogeeammo

Welcome to the April 2014 Quit Group Kyles! Nothing you did in the past means anything to your brothers in this group. We quit every day and I quit with you today!

cowboy
--Focus on Remedies, Not Faults - Jack Nicklaus
--Do or Do Not, There is NO Try - Yoda
--Recalculating! - The GPS bitch!
--462 Just ahead of me! - Maynard

HOF 4/10/2014

JayDubya

Quote from: jzzyzag01
Quote from: Wt57
QuoteThis time I know I want to get to that point where I was quit for a year and half and I want to be proud of myself again.
Getting to a year and a half isn't anything if you cave again. For me quitting a year and a half is just a good start after 40+ years. Let's just quit today and be proud everyday that we made the decision today.
Agreed. Here's how to make it up to everybody: Post roll every damn day. Don't piss on yourself and your fellow quitters by going back on your promise that day. Go to bed. Wake up and repeat.

Sounds like you don't want to be a slave to a can of poison any more. As many a high school coach has said: "time to put up or shut up." You can do it. You WILL do it.

"Day 00,001" not just Day 1 this time ... Think about it. Glad you are back.

jzzyzag01

Quote from: Wt57
QuoteThis time I know I want to get to that point where I was quit for a year and half and I want to be proud of myself again.
Getting to a year and a half isn't anything if you cave again. For me quitting a year and a half is just a good start after 40+ years. Let's just quit today and be proud everyday that we made the decision today.
Agreed. Here's how to make it up to everybody: Post roll every damn day. Don't piss on yourself and your fellow quitters by going back on your promise that day. Go to bed. Wake up and repeat.

Sounds like you don't want to be a slave to a can of poison any more. As many a high school coach has said: "time to put up or shut up." You can do it. You WILL do it.
"I am a nicotine addict and there is nothing I can do about it; I am also a quitter, and that, I can do plenty about." - Grizzly25

Today I choose to quit because today is the only day I have control over today. Tomorrow is a new day and when tomorrow is today, I'll control it too, but not until then. I will win this fight with today...

Wt57

QuoteThis time I know I want to get to that point where I was quit for a year and half and I want to be proud of myself again.


Getting to a year and a half isn't anything if you cave again. For me quitting a year and a half is just a good start after 40+ years. Let's just quit today and be proud everyday that we made the decision today.
4/1/2012: Nicotine Quit Date
7/9/12: HOF The Missing Warning Label
TODAY is the day that counts
"Do, or do not, there is no try." Yoda

kyles

Quote from: spartanron
Quote from: T-Cell
Quote from: dabean22
Quote from: CBird65Posting 3 days since your cave-Ã,  Feb 12 and Nov 13 deserve answers

You've been here before so you know the price for admission


(1) What happened?

(2) Why did it happen?

(3) What are you doing differently this time?
Here here brother. What you posted on the November page was a decent start but you need to really get into these questions for everyone to learn from your mistakes and to see if you have learned from them as well. This isn't just for your good but for the good of the whole group.
Answering the 3 questions (in both groups) shows me two things.
1. That you have honestly evaluated exactly why you failed and
2. Have come up with a plan to not duplicate the failure.

If you think doing the same thing as last time will have a different result this time, then you are just kidding yourself and wasting our time...
3rd times a charm ??? You have some explaining to do ?? Nov 2013 and April 2014 are two strong groups, you are not getting away with no answers and fucking over another group. Lets hear it and don't try to play dumb with us, we see right through the bullshit
Left the site thinking I could go on without posting roll. Lasted a month and started an internship and started dipping again. Went from end of Sept. - Dec. dipping every day.

Really need to stick with posting roll or just texting someone to pledge my oath. I do not have excuses for dipping. It was my decision and I am owning up to it. This time I know I want to get to that point where I was quit for a year and half and I want to be proud of myself again. I hate the 5-day feeling after quitting and do not want to have to feel it again.

I hope you all will take me back.

Spartanron

Quote from: T-Cell
Quote from: dabean22
Quote from: CBird65Posting 3 days since your cave-Ã,  Feb 12 and Nov 13 deserve answers

You've been here before so you know the price for admission


(1) What happened?

(2) Why did it happen?

(3) What are you doing differently this time?
Here here brother. What you posted on the November page was a decent start but you need to really get into these questions for everyone to learn from your mistakes and to see if you have learned from them as well. This isn't just for your good but for the good of the whole group.
Answering the 3 questions (in both groups) shows me two things.
1. That you have honestly evaluated exactly why you failed and
2. Have come up with a plan to not duplicate the failure.

If you think doing the same thing as last time will have a different result this time, then you are just kidding yourself and wasting our time...
3rd times a charm ??? You have some explaining to do ?? Nov 2013 and April 2014 are two strong groups, you are not getting away with no answers and fucking over another group. Lets hear it and don't try to play dumb with us, we see right through the bullshit
No more What If's, I quit everyday going forward
Quit Chewing 11/13/12, Quit Nicorette 12/23/12

MY Hall of Fame Speech

T-Cell

Quote from: dabean22
Quote from: CBird65Posting 3 days since your cave-Ã,  Feb 12 and Nov 13 deserve answers

You've been here before so you know the price for admission


(1) What happened?

(2) Why did it happen?

(3) What are you doing differently this time?
Here here brother. What you posted on the November page was a decent start but you need to really get into these questions for everyone to learn from your mistakes and to see if you have learned from them as well. This isn't just for your good but for the good of the whole group.
Answering the 3 questions (in both groups) shows me two things.
1. That you have honestly evaluated exactly why you failed and
2. Have come up with a plan to not duplicate the failure.

If you think doing the same thing as last time will have a different result this time, then you are just kidding yourself and wasting our time...
Fish, eat, sleep. Repeat.
quit date 2/10/12
HOF date 5/19/12
1 Year 2/10/13
2 Years 2/10/14
8th Floor 4/19/14

dabean22

Quote from: CBird65Posting 3 days since your cave- Feb 12 and Nov 13 deserve answers

You've been here before so you know the price for admission


(1) What happened?

(2) Why did it happen?

(3) What are you doing differently this time?
Here here brother. What you posted on the November page was a decent start but you need to really get into these questions for everyone to learn from your mistakes and to see if you have learned from them as well. This isn't just for your good but for the good of the whole group.
Quit 8/04/13
HOF 11/11/13
Thanks mostly to LHG. That girl rocks the world. I love you Sis.
Someone, somewhere out there is suffering through a more intense crave than me and that person is staying quit. As will I. -JoeMellow
SkyDiver - The first step is a bitch but that's when the fun starts.

cbird65

Posting 3 days since your cave- Feb 12 and Nov 13 deserve answers

You've been here before so you know the price for admission


(1) What happened?

(2) Why did it happen?

(3) What are you doing differently this time?
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