You want to talk about a guy with his head so far up his ass, look no further then to read my original intro. Some of you are going to be asking yourself "well what the hell has changed" or something along those lines. Well truth be told I don't know what much has changed. If you read the supporters and all the lines I fed them, you would know exactly what type of person I was. I tried to personify this guy who was so ready to quit and would buy into the system and be a supporter to the team. I tried hard to fake it until I made it, I figured if I just force feed myself into the culture and acted like I was already there I could fit in and eventually I would hone in on the quit. Like some how I was supposed to be free and clear of the nic bitch because I signed my name into roll call, and all the experience from the vets would empower me vicariously through the signing of my name, and all the struggles of the quit would wash away and ignore me because I was supposed to be free by finding this site. Well it went well for a few weeks, then it started getting hard, and then when the struggles were real and the fog came rolling in, I started losing faith in my quit, and I had spent so much time ignoring my people around me (titans) and just going through the motions that I thought I was better on my own. Doing it alone is not the key.
Fellow Goons and Vets alike take notice of this former caver. Know that the person in the intro and even in my 3 answers when I got back needs to be killed. I said I was ready last time and my intro wasn't to be taken as "non-chalant", I proved that was a lie. I said I was going to "try to quit", I have been shown the hard way there is no "trying" and there is no "hoping" there is only doing! I was afraid to be transparent to a bunch of "strangers" so I put on a facade of a man who is to proud to admit his short comings and take in the real meaning of the site. Well, I am just a boy who is too scared too admit that I am a slave and I cannot do this on my own.
I apologize to all those who I ignored when I decided I was going to cave. I am filled with all sorts of anxiety of letting ya'll down again. But, I know I owe it to myself and I owe it to the Titans and every single one of you to not be weak and not give in. If you will quit with me, I can quit for you!
