GLORIOUS!!!

[ChickDip]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E7oMBq1vkCM

100!!!!!!!!

'Finger' NIC 'Finger'

Ain't nuthin over!!!

I will fight you til I die, and I will win. You know WHY????

1. I'm worth it!!!
2. I'm not alone.... (THANK YOU KTC PEEPS)
3. YOU SUCK

You're right...it's not 1hun  done.
And you knowing that is a great strength for your quit.
Congrats on your 100 days DBrown!
Keep it up!

[DBrown]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E7oMBq1vkCM

100!!!!!!!!

'Finger' NIC 'Finger'

Ain't nuthin over!!!

I will fight you til I die, and I will win. You know WHY????

1. I'm worth it!!!
2. I'm not alone.... (THANK YOU KTC PEEPS)
3. YOU SUCK

[DBrown]

I know it's not my day 100 yet, but I was listening to this song at work tonight and the first line made me start thinking about the 1st 100. I'm thankful I'm here. It's 2017 and I'm still here. No need of a crutch to get me through the day. I've made it another day thanks to KTC! Happy NEW YEAR!!!

"Here Without You" - 3 Doors Down

A hundred days have made me older
Since the last time that I stuffed my pretty face
Your thousand lies have made me colder
And I don't think I can look at you the same

But all the smiles that dissipated
Reappear now that I'm done with your disgrace

I'm here without you, ‘Nic’y
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you, ‘Nic’y
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you, ‘Nic’y

But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight it must be you or me, yeah.

The posts just keep rollin'
As the people leave and stray out on their own
I've heard this site is overrated
But I know that it gets better as we go, oh, yeah, yeah

I'm here without you, ‘Nic’y
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you, ‘Nic’y
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you, ‘Nic’y

But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight, Nic, it must be you or me

Everything I know, and anywhere I go (oh whoa)
It gets hard but it won't take away my life (oh whoa)
And when the last one falls
When it's all said and done
It gets hard but it wont take away my life, whoa, oh, oh

[DBrown]

DBrown - Day 87 - Your QUIT, My QUIT, Their QUIT: Despite the many differences, it's exactly the same. No matter how far you've moved away, relapse is merely moments away. Find your strength, not in your strength, but in your weakness. I owe my QUIT to me, but without each of you... I would have never found me. Thank you for holding the mirror up each day. I realize I could be all of you. I wish I had the strength of some, and others... well... you just haven't found it yet. Never give up, because the journey isn't over.

I want to take a moment just to say how thankful I am for this place. I truly learn so much from each of you. I can never thank you enough. I wouldn't be were I am without everyone that has ever graced the presence of KTC. From those you have literally given their life in this battle, the family members of those lost that had the strength to warn others here, those that succeed EDD, those that cave, those who are humble, those who hide their weakness in their attitude, etc. I have heard it said "Take what you need and leave the rest." I am beginning to understand, if you have the right attitude, you need everything this site has to offer. The good, the bad, and the ugly are all components to make a better you. Understand this is a battle to the DEATH. Something or someone has to die, but it is your choice as to which. You and the Can will not both live. Take every weapon given freely here and learn from every approach Nic uses. Choose YOU every day, because you are worth it. I am nothing in the WAR, but I am everything in the BATTLE. Take it one day at a time, and one battle at a time. I am blessed!

[DBrown]

I realize I double post here and group, but I like using this as a journal to look through my journey...

So honest question here. Am I the only one that forgets? I don't mean forgets to post. I mean forgets, truly forgets, what dip was like. I don't think about it for days, and when I do it isn't more than a faint whisper. I forget how much of a hold it had on me. I forget that I was once a slave at the command of a can. I forget that my freedom was purchased through agonizing circumstances. I forget that I was an animal for the first few days. I forget there was a fog and I was lost at sea. I forget that there were sores and mouth pain. I forget that there was trouble. Forgetting all that, I still have no desire to turn back to the can. Knowing I went through all that I still can't see anything worth returning to. Yet, I still forget. I forget there are others here going through what I came through. I forget where I have been. When you forget, you begin to take for granted. Our freedom wasn't free. What seems like an eternity ago, was merely days ago. We have separated who we are now from who we used to be. Those who don't forget are the ones who honor their freedom. Those who have forgotten become the 'trophy' children. Yes, you may have put in a lot of work to get where you are, but never forget where you started. No one owes you anything. Choose YOU and never stop choosing. Understand that although you may not be were you intend to be, you are not where you were. Don't get complacent and never be content with your current situation. Strive to be better and find the road that isn't a dead end. Think of those that have fallen, think of those who succeed, think of those who have yet to quit, think of those that never dipped, and think of those that don't give a shit. NEVER FORGET, you are where you are, and that is the most important thing... "YOU ARE"!!! I QUIT with each of you. I am proud to be where I am today.

[DBrown]

Take this can and shove it
I ain't dippin here no more
Ain't got nuttin left and fuck all the reasons
I was dippin for
You better not try to stand in my way
'Cause I'm walkin' out the door
Take this can and shove it
I ain't dippin here no more

I been dippin in this factory
For nigh on fifteen years
All this time I washed my baccer
Down in a bunch of beers
And I've seen a lot of good folks die
That had a lot of bills to pay
I'd pour that shit right outta their pack
If they had the guts to say

Take this can and shove it
I ain't dippin here no more
Ain't got nuttin left and fuck all the reasons
I was dippin for
You better not try to stand in my way
'Cause I'm walkin' out the door
Take this can and shove it
I ain't dippin here no more

Well that Copenhagen's a regular bitch
The Skoal bandit is a fool
Got a brand new shiney can
Lawd, they think their cool

One of these days we gonna' blow our top
And those fuckers are gonna' pay
Lawd I can't wait to see their faces
When we all get the nerve to say

Take this can and shove it
I ain't dippin here no more
Ain't got nuttin left and fuck all the reasons
I was dippin for
You better not try to stand in my way
'Cause I'm walkin' out the door
Take this can and shove it
I ain't dippin here no more

Take this can and shove it

[Tonifer]

Hey D congrats on 50 days quit. That's half way to HOF way to go.

[Dieselchick87]

"Never forget where you came from and never take your eyes off where you're heading."

I hope you all don't mind if I ramble a bit, because I'm going to anyway. As I sit here today, 49 days into my quit, and reflect on everything leading up to this point, I feel led to share. I hope this may help someone in someway. It matters not how many people you can reach, as long as you reach one. My life isn't anything grandiose. I am human and I fail more than I excel. I am complacent (a feeling of being satisfied with how things are...). I am an addict (to devote or surrender to something habitually or obsessively...). I am free (more on this later...). I am quit, but I realize at any moment I could lose it all. I could easily fall, just as others before me. Before you are quick to judge anyone on their journey, be careful for pride comes before the fall. I have been for the most part silent, but it's a time in my life I needed to be still. I have had to come to face things that I used dip to hide from. I am finding me. I pulled back from life, not just KTC. I went from so much joy in freedom, to "now what" once the exuberance wore off. As hard as the beginning of the quit was, and by no means am I belittling the beginning, it wasn't nearly as difficult to manage as the fight I am in now. In the beginning I was a prisoner. My addiction to the can was my solitary. Then I realized addiction is the only prison where the locks are on the inside. I had the key to escape the cell all along. The easy part was getting out. The hard part is staying out. Each day quit is less difficult. I will never lock myself in that cell again. However, I have become satisfied with where I am at. There is nothing wrong with being happy with where I am in life, but I can't be content or satisfied to stay there. I must always seek to better myself, especially since that is what I expect from others. I am extremely proud to be where I am considering the weak individual I was. I couldn't stay away from something killing me for an extended period of time. Knowing it was killing me I continued to use. I conquered a mighty giant in my life. I am happy, but it can't stop there. So, my next question was how do I stay happy with myself yet improve myself? When I reflected on who I am and where I can be better, it was a depressing period. I felt good about myself, then realized I wasn't as good as I thought I was. I have many areas that can use improvement. It's easy to see it as overwhelming. However, I choose to see it as "I am worth it", and just handle things one at a time. I am on a path to freedom. I will reach that freedom, not only from nic, but from all addiction that continues to keep me from being me. However, this is KTC, so I will keep it about the Nic beast. I'm not preaching (warning: bible verse coming), but I want to share one final thing...

Galatians 5:13 - For you were called to freedom, brothers. Only do not use your freedom as an opportunity for the flesh, but through love serve one another.

Brothers and Sisters of KTC,

We are called to "freedom". Webster's told me that freedom consisted of three things...

1. not costing any money - Along with the money saved by not purchasing a can, we have found each other for free via KTC. Friends aren't cheap, but they are free. It doesn't cost you anything to get up, post roll, and reach out to one person sometime throughout the day. It may sound trivial, but you never know what it means to someone knowing they aren't fighting life alone. It's nice to know I have my wife by my side, but she doesn't understand the struggle like you guys do. If you haven't shared your phone # with at least one person, that is my challenge to you. I'm not asking you to go crazy. Take the first step. Find one. If you need someone, send me a message with your number. I will text you hello and my name so you have my number. That's it. Nothing more or nothing less. I only want the opportunity to be there for you. It's free

2. not held as a slave or prisoner - We are no longer confined to prison. Our life isn't decided by Warden Nic. We choose our destiny now. Choose you, because you are worth it. Take pride in your freedom. Wear it as a banner. I have heard stories of prisoners who are set free only to end up back in prison. Why would anyone escape the chains only to freely choose to be bound again? The only possible answer is they don't know what to do with their freedom. We are all different, but we all have purpose. Your purpose may be used to help set another prisoner on his/her path to freedom. I won't even try to guess what your purpose is. Only you can find the answer to that. I can tell you what your purpose is 'NOT'. Your purpose is not to turn back to the can.

3. not physically held by something - The can had a physical hold on us. We had our finger in it. Then we had it in our mouth. There is not a lot more physical than that. We are no longer held by this chemical that we so 'needed' just to get through life. My favorite line I repeat to myself, be as addicted to the quit as you were to the can. I 'had' to have it just to get through life. Well, now, I 'HAVE' to have the quit just to get through life. The QUIT doesn't hold me to any unnecessary commitment. It frees me from the bonds that held me captive.

If you are still reading this, know this, IT WILL NEVER BE OVER! Freedom can be lost. "Freedom is never given by the oppressor, it must be demanded by the oppressed." On your path to freedom, always CHOOSE YOU! Never stop overcoming obstacles, or they will overcome you. I will quiet for now, but I am here for whoever, whatever, whenever, wherever, or why ever. I'm just a PM away. Carpe diem!!!

Thank you for posting this in January as well, its a powerful reminder!
I am proud to quit with you today!
Stay Stong and Stay Quit

[DBrown]

"Never forget where you came from and never take your eyes off where you're heading."

I hope you all don't mind if I ramble a bit, because I'm going to anyway. As I sit here today, 49 days into my quit, and reflect on everything leading up to this point, I feel led to share. I hope this may help someone in someway. It matters not how many people you can reach, as long as you reach one. My life isn't anything grandiose. I am human and I fail more than I excel. I am complacent (a feeling of being satisfied with how things are...). I am an addict (to devote or surrender to something habitually or obsessively...). I am free (more on this later...). I am quit, but I realize at any moment I could lose it all. I could easily fall, just as others before me. Before you are quick to judge anyone on their journey, be careful for pride comes before the fall. I have been for the most part silent, but it's a time in my life I needed to be still. I have had to come to face things that I used dip to hide from. I am finding me. I pulled back from life, not just KTC. I went from so much joy in freedom, to "now what" once the exuberance wore off. As hard as the beginning of the quit was, and by no means am I belittling the beginning, it wasn't nearly as difficult to manage as the fight I am in now. In the beginning I was a prisoner. My addiction to the can was my solitary. Then I realized addiction is the only prison where the locks are on the inside. I had the key to escape the cell all along. The easy part was getting out. The hard part is staying out. Each day quit is less difficult. I will never lock myself in that cell again. However, I have become satisfied with where I am at. There is nothing wrong with being happy with where I am in life, but I can't be content or satisfied to stay there. I must always seek to better myself, especially since that is what I expect from others. I am extremely proud to be where I am considering the weak individual I was. I couldn't stay away from something killing me for an extended period of time. Knowing it was killing me I continued to use. I conquered a mighty giant in my life. I am happy, but it can't stop there. So, my next question was how do I stay happy with myself yet improve myself? When I reflected on who I am and where I can be better, it was a depressing period. I felt good about myself, then realized I wasn't as good as I thought I was. I have many areas that can use improvement. It's easy to see it as overwhelming. However, I choose to see it as "I am worth it", and just handle things one at a time. I am on a path to freedom. I will reach that freedom, not only from nic, but from all addiction that continues to keep me from being me. However, this is KTC, so I will keep it about the Nic beast. I'm not preaching (warning: bible verse coming), but I want to share one final thing...

Galatians 5:13 - For you were called to freedom, brothers. Only do not use your freedom as an opportunity for the flesh, but through love serve one another.

Brothers and Sisters of KTC,

We are called to "freedom". Webster's told me that freedom consisted of three things...

1. not costing any money - Along with the money saved by not purchasing a can, we have found each other for free via KTC. Friends aren't cheap, but they are free. It doesn't cost you anything to get up, post roll, and reach out to one person sometime throughout the day. It may sound trivial, but you never know what it means to someone knowing they aren't fighting life alone. It's nice to know I have my wife by my side, but she doesn't understand the struggle like you guys do. If you haven't shared your phone # with at least one person, that is my challenge to you. I'm not asking you to go crazy. Take the first step. Find one. If you need someone, send me a message with your number. I will text you hello and my name so you have my number. That's it. Nothing more or nothing less. I only want the opportunity to be there for you. It's free

2. not held as a slave or prisoner - We are no longer confined to prison. Our life isn't decided by Warden Nic. We choose our destiny now. Choose you, because you are worth it. Take pride in your freedom. Wear it as a banner. I have heard stories of prisoners who are set free only to end up back in prison. Why would anyone escape the chains only to freely choose to be bound again? The only possible answer is they don't know what to do with their freedom. We are all different, but we all have purpose. Your purpose may be used to help set another prisoner on his/her path to freedom. I won't even try to guess what your purpose is. Only you can find the answer to that. I can tell you what your purpose is 'NOT'. Your purpose is not to turn back to the can.

3. not physically held by something - The can had a physical hold on us. We had our finger in it. Then we had it in our mouth. There is not a lot more physical than that. We are no longer held by this chemical that we so 'needed' just to get through life. My favorite line I repeat to myself, be as addicted to the quit as you were to the can. I 'had' to have it just to get through life. Well, now, I 'HAVE' to have the quit just to get through life. The QUIT doesn't hold me to any unnecessary commitment. It frees me from the bonds that held me captive.

If you are still reading this, know this, IT WILL NEVER BE OVER! Freedom can be lost. "Freedom is never given by the oppressor, it must be demanded by the oppressed." On your path to freedom, always CHOOSE YOU! Never stop overcoming obstacles, or they will overcome you. I will quiet for now, but I am here for whoever, whatever, whenever, wherever, or why ever. I'm just a PM away. Carpe diem!!!

[AppleJack]

30 minutes away from my son's 9th birthday. It will be 35 days quit and no 'regerts'. I was eating a milky way. Well, I decided this month I would quit another addiction along with Nic. I no longer run to alcohol as an escape either. This is a personal decision. Last night my wife and I had the worst argument we've ever had, at least in my opinion. She took her rings off and laid them on the table. I'm soul searching quite a bit lately. Life is funny, but not the haha kind. It's more the funny bone type funny, it hurts like a mf. Through this whole process I'm thankful for the outlook KTC has provided. I'm not running to a can to hide. That part of me is dead. It still haunts me. It still calls out to me. However, I know what it has to offer. NOTHING! A return to the can doesn't make everything better. Anything that masks a problem doesn't make it go away. Whatever is behind a mask is still there, and once the mask is gone it's ugliness will be right there staring you in the face. I meant what I stated in an earlier post. If I lose everything, I won't lose me. I choose me. Outside of you, there is nothing you can control. You can't make people stand with you. This community is a special place for those that wish to rid themselves of the can. You don't have to like everyone, but you can be damn sure they stand with you. They know the ups and downs. I know I'm a bit of everywhere right now. Sometimes, I think I could process better with Nic Otine and Al Cohol there to help me sort it out. It's lies though. Nic and Al are just lying sons of bitches. I'm tired. I'm sad. I'm angry. I'm frustrated. I'm confused. I'm ugh! Most importantly... I'M STILL QUIT!!! So 'Finger' Nic and Al. I'd much rather stand with you KTC MFers. You aren't alone. I'm here no matter my mess, I'm a PM away.

Man, it sure is a process isn't it?

What is it in our makeup that needs a balm? Why do we run to an outside source for comfort or coping? I'm tellin' ya, nic and booze seem to go hand in hand. I see stories everywhere of the booze intake upping to stupid levels when we quit. I'm almost at 1,300 days and this has, all of a sudden, become an issue. I'm certainly not needing it... life is fine... Quit is a breeze. Yet... I feel like I need "something". So, yeah, no more Al for me either... another crutch is something none of us need!

Looking hard and truthfully at yourself is a damn tough thing to do. In fact... it sucks ass sometimes but... who ya gonna work on if not yourself?

Rock on m'man... keep at it.

[DBrown]

30 minutes away from my son's 9th birthday. It will be 35 days quit and no 'regerts'. I was eating a milky way. Well, I decided this month I would quit another addiction along with Nic. I no longer run to alcohol as an escape either. This is a personal decision. Last night my wife and I had the worst argument we've ever had, at least in my opinion. She took her rings off and laid them on the table. I'm soul searching quite a bit lately. Life is funny, but not the haha kind. It's more the funny bone type funny, it hurts like a mf. Through this whole process I'm thankful for the outlook KTC has provided. I'm not running to a can to hide. That part of me is dead. It still haunts me. It still calls out to me. However, I know what it has to offer. NOTHING! A return to the can doesn't make everything better. Anything that masks a problem doesn't make it go away. Whatever is behind a mask is still there, and once the mask is gone it's ugliness will be right there staring you in the face. I meant what I stated in an earlier post. If I lose everything, I won't lose me. I choose me. Outside of you, there is nothing you can control. You can't make people stand with you. This community is a special place for those that wish to rid themselves of the can. You don't have to like everyone, but you can be damn sure they stand with you. They know the ups and downs. I know I'm a bit of everywhere right now. Sometimes, I think I could process better with Nic Otine and Al Cohol there to help me sort it out. It's lies though. Nic and Al are just lying sons of bitches. I'm tired. I'm sad. I'm angry. I'm frustrated. I'm confused. I'm ugh! Most importantly... I'M STILL QUIT!!! So 'Finger' Nic and Al. I'd much rather stand with you KTC MFers. You aren't alone. I'm here no matter my mess, I'm a PM away.

[Thumblewort]

31 days - 1 month - HAPPY HALLOWEEN! -

Keep your finger off the trigger. The only finger you should apply to the trigger is this one 'Finger' . If you have not done so, I recommend taking time to sit and list out 'ALL' possible triggers and ways to escape. I was met with one today that I was unprepared for. I thought I had everything covered. I am a security guard and we have a lost and found. Guess what was turned in??? Guess what has been on my mind all night??? I've been here for 10 years. Guess how many times we've had a can of tobacco turned in??? NONE, until now. I have been here for 8 hours with 4 more to go. I can't just dump it. We have to wait 30 days until an item is unclaimed for disposal. Out of sight/Out of mind doesn't seem to be working. It's right there all I have to do is... WAIT!!! WTF??? SERIOUSLY, THIS IS RIDICULOUS. ARE YOU ACTUALLY THINKING ABOUT STEALING A DIP??? YOU ARE OUT OF YOUR MIND!!! You are willing to break the rules to take not only a nasty dip, but a nasty dip from who knows where it's been. If you are willing to break the rules to do anything, it should be to open up the can and pour it out. I never expected this to be a problem. I AM NUTSO 'Crazy' !!! I hate this, I truly do. Keep in mind that ADDICTION will take any avenue back into your life. I won't give in. WHY? I've worked too hard to get where I am. I am worth a lot more than a momentary lapse of judgment. I have already given my word, today. I will finish my four hours strong, and will drive straight home and hide under the covers until the bad can goes away. OK, so maybe I am making this out to be a bit worse than it actually is, OVERDRAMATIC. It still needs to be understood and never understated. THIS IS AN ADDICTION! IT WILL NEVER GO AWAY! Stay addicted to the quit, because it can go away. If you ever get to the point you think you've won, understand that at that moment you've lost. If you lose the quit, you lose you. Choose YOU, just for today. I'm right here with you. I refuse to be defined by who I was. I choose me! I'm here for anything you may need.

YES!!!! Quit GOLD right here! ^^^^^^^

Learning what I was up against made such a huge difference for me. This is one nasty, evil addiction. I hate it! It pisses me off that other people make money off of it, and it's not illegal. I will go to my grave fighting it any way i can. Just like you are doing right now.

Really proud to quit with a quitter like you DBrown!

Way to kill it man!

[brettlees]

31 days - 1 month - HAPPY HALLOWEEN! -

Keep your finger off the trigger. The only finger you should apply to the trigger is this one 'Finger' . If you have not done so, I recommend taking time to sit and list out 'ALL' possible triggers and ways to escape. I was met with one today that I was unprepared for. I thought I had everything covered. I am a security guard and we have a lost and found. Guess what was turned in??? Guess what has been on my mind all night??? I've been here for 10 years. Guess how many times we've had a can of tobacco turned in??? NONE, until now. I have been here for 8 hours with 4 more to go. I can't just dump it. We have to wait 30 days until an item is unclaimed for disposal. Out of sight/Out of mind doesn't seem to be working. It's right there all I have to do is... WAIT!!! WTF??? SERIOUSLY, THIS IS RIDICULOUS. ARE YOU ACTUALLY THINKING ABOUT STEALING A DIP??? YOU ARE OUT OF YOUR MIND!!! You are willing to break the rules to take not only a nasty dip, but a nasty dip from who knows where it's been. If you are willing to break the rules to do anything, it should be to open up the can and pour it out. I never expected this to be a problem. I AM NUTSO 'Crazy' !!! I hate this, I truly do. Keep in mind that ADDICTION will take any avenue back into your life. I won't give in. WHY? I've worked too hard to get where I am. I am worth a lot more than a momentary lapse of judgment. I have already given my word, today. I will finish my four hours strong, and will drive straight home and hide under the covers until the bad can goes away. OK, so maybe I am making this out to be a bit worse than it actually is, OVERDRAMATIC. It still needs to be understood and never understated. THIS IS AN ADDICTION! IT WILL NEVER GO AWAY! Stay addicted to the quit, because it can go away. If you ever get to the point you think you've won, understand that at that moment you've lost. If you lose the quit, you lose you. Choose YOU, just for today. I'm right here with you. I refuse to be defined by who I was. I choose me! I'm here for anything you may need.

YES!!!! Quit GOLD right here! ^^^^^^^

Learning what I was up against made such a huge difference for me. This is one nasty, evil addiction. I hate it! It pisses me off that other people make money off of it, and it's not illegal. I will go to my grave fighting it any way i can. Just like you are doing right now.

Really proud to quit with a quitter like you DBrown!

[DBrown]

31 days - 1 month - HAPPY HALLOWEEN! -

Keep your finger off the trigger. The only finger you should apply to the trigger is this one 'Finger' . If you have not done so, I recommend taking time to sit and list out 'ALL' possible triggers and ways to escape. I was met with one today that I was unprepared for. I thought I had everything covered. I am a security guard and we have a lost and found. Guess what was turned in??? Guess what has been on my mind all night??? I've been here for 10 years. Guess how many times we've had a can of tobacco turned in??? NONE, until now. I have been here for 8 hours with 4 more to go. I can't just dump it. We have to wait 30 days until an item is unclaimed for disposal. Out of sight/Out of mind doesn't seem to be working. It's right there all I have to do is... WAIT!!! WTF??? SERIOUSLY, THIS IS RIDICULOUS. ARE YOU ACTUALLY THINKING ABOUT STEALING A DIP??? YOU ARE OUT OF YOUR MIND!!! You are willing to break the rules to take not only a nasty dip, but a nasty dip from who knows where it's been. If you are willing to break the rules to do anything, it should be to open up the can and pour it out. I never expected this to be a problem. I AM NUTSO 'Crazy' !!! I hate this, I truly do. Keep in mind that ADDICTION will take any avenue back into your life. I won't give in. WHY? I've worked too hard to get where I am. I am worth a lot more than a momentary lapse of judgment. I have already given my word, today. I will finish my four hours strong, and will drive straight home and hide under the covers until the bad can goes away. OK, so maybe I am making this out to be a bit worse than it actually is, OVERDRAMATIC. It still needs to be understood and never understated. THIS IS AN ADDICTION! IT WILL NEVER GO AWAY! Stay addicted to the quit, because it can go away. If you ever get to the point you think you've won, understand that at that moment you've lost. If you lose the quit, you lose you. Choose YOU, just for today. I'm right here with you. I refuse to be defined by who I was. I choose me! I'm here for anything you may need.

[DBrown]

29 starts with a recommitment. I was beginning to fade. I wasn't longing for a dip. I was just floating, but my raft had a slow leak. I didn't realize it was leaking or that I had started to sink. All I knew is something was most definitely not right. I was going through the motions and had lost sight of what my purpose was. In my numbness, I acted out of habit. I'm use to logging in and posting role. I'm used to clicking through the sight. I continued to do such. An unexpected thing happened. Someone, brand new to this world of quit, actually said my post "helped" them make their final decision. What? I'm falling apart over here. How can I help? It's important to be as honest on this journey as you can. It's important to journal the positives and the negatives. We never know who will read and who will need our story. Even more than that it is important to chronicle your history for your own self. In your weakness or numbness or victories, you can look back at everything you have gone through to bring you where you are today. One of the things that makes today so special and will help you to not take it for granted is to remember where you have been. I know I have stated that you must live in now, that yesterday is gone and tomorrow isn't promised. There is a flaw in that method. If you completely forget the past you may not fully comprehend the present. Maybe a better way to view the past would be to forgive the past, but not forget. If not for yesterday, then you wouldn't be the amazing person you are at this moment. You also wouldn't know that it's possible to continue to become even greater. So, looking forward today I proudly say I CHOOSE ME. I continue to be free. I Quit today, because of yesterday. FIGHT ON!

Hey DBrown, I am sure that many here have been helped by your posts, myself included. I have been following you from the start and I said to myself "here's somebody that is going through the same things I am, if he can do it so can I." You express your thoughts and emotions so well. You are an inspiration. Stay addicted to the Quit.

Thank you! Glad my journey is a help to you!