Title should say 20 days quit after 30 years of using.
I know, I know, you vets don't give a shit about my quit because I don't post roll. But, I know I am not the only quitter who comes here and doesn't post. I read the threads daily.
Quit being an attention whore and post roll or gtfo.
Hugs sM
Okay. I'll go. But I want others out there to know that berating people and using foul language in every other sentence isn't necessary to quit. I wish you all well in your nicotine free lives. I will enjoy mine.
Against my better judgement, I am going to respond to you ksquitter. I am going to lay bare the core of my soul and the blackness within.
First of all, you assert that the "vets" don't care about your quit because you don't post roll. I don't think I qualify as a "vet", but on the off chance that you might be referring to me, I'm gonna respond.
Do you know me? Do you know what I care about? For the record I care about your quit. I lost a grandfather, a mother (54) and a brother (51) all to tobacco related deaths, I watched each of these deaths occur. Unlike getting hit by a bus, the type of death that tobacco sentences you to is a slow one.
The quickest death was my brother... 18 months from diagnosis to death - That one was throat cancer. He went from a muscular 200lb man to a 98lb shell in 18 months. I watched as he lost his ability to speak, the ability to walk, the ability to successfully accomplish the things you and I take for granted. He died this past December.
The longest was my mother- 7 years from diagnosis to death. I watched as nicotine and emphysema claimed her life one inch at a time. The pain and suffering she experienced is indescribable. I watched it all happen, and I am damn sure that I have no idea of what that pain and misery felt like. When blood oxygen levels fall, organs shut down a little at a time, and incredible levels of pain are the result. I also watched her continue her addiction right down to the point that she was no longer physically able to. Step 1: smoke a couple of puffs, Step 2, start coughing, continue until you catch your breath, often several minutes later. Put on oxygen. Feel a little better.. Smoke a couple of puffs, start coughing....
So forgive me from being pissed about your intro, about your posts. They insult me. They make me think of the casual way in which you are treating your nicotine addiction, and your dismissal of the lives that are being saved here on KTC.. They insult me because of the opportunity that you are squandering... an opportunity I wish my mother, brother and grandfather had.
Don't get me wrong,,, I like the fact that you are reading what this site has to offer, I like that you are quit. I do not want to see anyone else go through what my family has, I also hate big tobacco with a passion that most outside of this site cannot comprehend. Each day you don't use is a small hit in their profit margin.. Things like that give me joy. But, given that this program gives you an edge that translates into 3x the success rate of quitting alone, why in the hell would you not use it?
In closing - Why is it that you refuse to post roll call? After all, you are here often enough to post here and to stop back to read the responses... Roll call certainly takes less time than that. So why? I suspect it is because you are still not committed to your quit- still not sure that it is going to be the last quit. I can promise you as long as you think that- it
will not be your last quit. Our addict brains are pros at leaving us an out. That's why this site is so effective- If you value your word, your integrity, it leaves you no out. When you post roll in the morning it means NO for all day. No wiggle room, no rationalization... just a simple NO. But you aren't there yet, are you? You think that you might return to your addiction, and you don't want to explain yourself to all of us when you do.