we lied, cheated, stole and borrowed to feed our addiction
For my intro, I put 3 things in the title: "Dad, Husband, Ex-Coward". Each of those factors into my quit in an important way, and I want to walk my way backwards through that list.
Starting with Ex-Coward (Part I of III):
I don't like the Addict I am. He's a coward little bitch. He makes excuses. He scurries from the light of day and the attention of friends. He's a fucking pussy that can't participate meaningfully in a relationship.
While I'll always be that addict, I'm quit being that coward. I own up to my addiction. And I'll scurry no more to get that next dip.
After 20 years of being weak, I'm strong. One. Day. At. A. Time.
Strong.
I embrace the fog, smile at the pain, laugh at the crave -- all those are signs of weakness leaving my body and I celebrate that with one more day of quit.