This one time at band camp

[sixercountry]

Wise words all over this thread. They may fall deaf on Kubiak's ears, but they are great lessons for everyone else reading this thread.

I have battled the nic bitch for 1246 days. The beginning of the battle was a frontal attack.. no way to forget I was an addict... no way not to acknowledge just one dip would lead to another, and another, and another. I hit about day 30, and REALLY started to enjoy my newly found freedom. You know what? It scared the shit out of me. I had failed too many times before, and I knew that the minute I became complacent the nic-bitch was going to start whispering in my ear.

1246 days- I still have occasional cravings. When they hit the first thing I think about is my promise that I made. The people that I would let down. 1246 days I have posted roll. It means as much to me today as it did on day 1. It has to. To let it fade is to be careless with the freedom that I have. 33 years a slave. 3+ years free. I REFUSE to be a slave again.

1246 days of posting roll. A promise. A celebration, A chance to say Thank You KTC, Thank you to the hundreds of people here that helped get me this far.

I wouldn't miss it for the world.

Roll out dude.....everything was good around here for 700 plus days. We saved your life. Just a joke, that's all.

Meant to be a reply not a quote....not directed at 30yr

[sixercountry]

Wise words all over this thread. They may fall deaf on Kubiak's ears, but they are great lessons for everyone else reading this thread.

I have battled the nic bitch for 1246 days. The beginning of the battle was a frontal attack.. no way to forget I was an addict... no way not to acknowledge just one dip would lead to another, and another, and another. I hit about day 30, and REALLY started to enjoy my newly found freedom. You know what? It scared the shit out of me. I had failed too many times before, and I knew that the minute I became complacent the nic-bitch was going to start whispering in my ear.

1246 days- I still have occasional cravings. When they hit the first thing I think about is my promise that I made. The people that I would let down. 1246 days I have posted roll. It means as much to me today as it did on day 1. It has to. To let it fade is to be careless with the freedom that I have. 33 years a slave. 3+ years free. I REFUSE to be a slave again.

1246 days of posting roll. A promise. A celebration, A chance to say Thank You KTC, Thank you to the hundreds of people here that helped get me this far.

I wouldn't miss it for the world.

Roll out dude.....everything was good around here for 700 plus days. We saved your life. Just a joke, that's all.

[30yraddict]

Wise words all over this thread. They may fall deaf on Kubiak's ears, but they are great lessons for everyone else reading this thread.

I have battled the nic bitch for 1246 days. The beginning of the battle was a frontal attack.. no way to forget I was an addict... no way not to acknowledge just one dip would lead to another, and another, and another. I hit about day 30, and REALLY started to enjoy my newly found freedom. You know what? It scared the shit out of me. I had failed too many times before, and I knew that the minute I became complacent the nic-bitch was going to start whispering in my ear.

1246 days- I still have occasional cravings. When they hit the first thing I think about is my promise that I made. The people that I would let down. 1246 days I have posted roll. It means as much to me today as it did on day 1. It has to. To let it fade is to be careless with the freedom that I have. 33 years a slave. 3+ years free. I REFUSE to be a slave again.

1246 days of posting roll. A promise. A celebration, A chance to say Thank You KTC, Thank you to the hundreds of people here that helped get me this far.

I wouldn't miss it for the world.

[worktowin]

There is no fucking way. This dude was a rock. He helped me profoundly. This rocks my world. I am fearful, I am not healed. Back to basics for me. Failure is still possible, SCARY. Maybe even likely. I will not take my eye off the ball.

Fuck Kubiak. Really? Damn. Come back to quit, suck it up. You do not need it. You know this. What happened??

As hard as it may seem, don't let this cave weaken your resolve. Let it strengthen it. People always say cave negatively affect them, not me, people caving makes my quit stronger because it lets me know that none of us have this beat. Not at day 7, 70, 700 or 7,000. It reminds me why we come here, why we post roll, why we reach out and why we keep ourselves accountable. I don't know if kubiak will be back, but if you need someone to talk to I'm pm'ing you my number. Use it anytime, proud to quit with you

I guess radical head and neck cancer surgeries no longer scare this guy. No more saliva, tube feedings, inability to swallow, permanent tracheotomy, vocal chord removal, etc, etc, are an acceptable future for this dipshit.

How people come here and then lose sight of the consequence of continued usage of this substance is beyond me. Sure nicotine withdrawal sucks. But the truth is you feel a ton better in a relatively short time. Use this program to stay quit. Live longer.

Don't be idiots.

I couldn't agree with Matty more. Yes, I hate when people cave, basically because I don't want people to cave AND they most likely promised that they would not Cave on that day. But,...I need these caves. I need the knowledge that no matter how long I quit or how mature my quit becomes, I MUST be vigilant. Vigilance is paramount and there is always room to add more accountability and brotherhood to your quit.

Your quit is about you, but make it bigger than you.

post roll (no matter where you are)
keep your word (like your day1)
wake and repeat (when you're feet hit the floor)

QUIT
I like it.
I love it.
I want some more of it.
Life is worth living...slow suicide is for the worms. We are what we think. Gotta the brain to know what nic really is...poison. We are addicts, addicts quit daily, cavers cave. If you gotta a drinkin' addiction...deal with that too. Life can be good. It's great to be quit. Nic and alcohol took my mom and all of her family (except the one that did neither) early. The lesson is there in front of me...I know what to do...
post roll
keep your word
wake and repeat
If I can, why can't you?

These guys on day one, two, three that cave piss me off. We can do anything for a day. Post roll. Keep your word. Yeah, those first few days (and there are tough days beyond day three but I'm just using that for an example...) are damn hard, but we can do anything for a day. Seeing people cave at this point just baffle me. Did quitting become bored? Did you plan it? Did you lie and not keep your word? All of these are integrity issues in my book, but I am curious.

One day at a time, this becomes a way of life. We give our word. We keep it. We have a dream and wake up sweating and shaking? We keep our word. We have a crave? We keep our word. What I hate most is that new quitters are reading this and might be discouraged. I'm not a new quitter, and I'm not discouraged! I post my word every day and I keep it! New quitters - if you are a man/woman of your word, you can do this. It isn't impossible. This thread is not an example of a veteran quitter.

[30isEnuff]

There is no fucking way. This dude was a rock. He helped me profoundly. This rocks my world. I am fearful, I am not healed. Back to basics for me. Failure is still possible, SCARY. Maybe even likely. I will not take my eye off the ball.

Fuck Kubiak. Really? Damn. Come back to quit, suck it up. You do not need it. You know this. What happened??

As hard as it may seem, don't let this cave weaken your resolve. Let it strengthen it. People always say cave negatively affect them, not me, people caving makes my quit stronger because it lets me know that none of us have this beat. Not at day 7, 70, 700 or 7,000. It reminds me why we come here, why we post roll, why we reach out and why we keep ourselves accountable. I don't know if kubiak will be back, but if you need someone to talk to I'm pm'ing you my number. Use it anytime, proud to quit with you

I guess radical head and neck cancer surgeries no longer scare this guy. No more saliva, tube feedings, inability to swallow, permanent tracheotomy, vocal chord removal, etc, etc, are an acceptable future for this dipshit.

How people come here and then lose sight of the consequence of continued usage of this substance is beyond me. Sure nicotine withdrawal sucks. But the truth is you feel a ton better in a relatively short time. Use this program to stay quit. Live longer.

Don't be idiots.

I couldn't agree with Matty more. Yes, I hate when people cave, basically because I don't want people to cave AND they most likely promised that they would not Cave on that day. But,...I need these caves. I need the knowledge that no matter how long I quit or how mature my quit becomes, I MUST be vigilant. Vigilance is paramount and there is always room to add more accountability and brotherhood to your quit.

Your quit is about you, but make it bigger than you.

post roll (no matter where you are)
keep your word (like your day1)
wake and repeat (when you're feet hit the floor)

QUIT
I like it.
I love it.
I want some more of it.
Life is worth living...slow suicide is for the worms. We are what we think. Gotta the brain to know what nic really is...poison. We are addicts, addicts quit daily, cavers cave. If you gotta a drinkin' addiction...deal with that too. Life can be good. It's great to be quit. Nic and alcohol took my mom and all of her family (except the one that did neither) early. The lesson is there in front of me...I know what to do...
post roll
keep your word
wake and repeat
If I can, why can't you?

[Steakbomb18]

There is no fucking way. This dude was a rock. He helped me profoundly. This rocks my world. I am fearful, I am not healed. Back to basics for me. Failure is still possible, SCARY. Maybe even likely. I will not take my eye off the ball.

Fuck Kubiak. Really? Damn. Come back to quit, suck it up. You do not need it. You know this. What happened??

As hard as it may seem, don't let this cave weaken your resolve. Let it strengthen it. People always say cave negatively affect them, not me, people caving makes my quit stronger because it lets me know that none of us have this beat. Not at day 7, 70, 700 or 7,000. It reminds me why we come here, why we post roll, why we reach out and why we keep ourselves accountable. I don't know if kubiak will be back, but if you need someone to talk to I'm pm'ing you my number. Use it anytime, proud to quit with you

I guess radical head and neck cancer surgeries no longer scare this guy. No more saliva, tube feedings, inability to swallow, permanent tracheotomy, vocal chord removal, etc, etc, are an acceptable future for this dipshit.

How people come here and then lose sight of the consequence of continued usage of this substance is beyond me. Sure nicotine withdrawal sucks. But the truth is you feel a ton better in a relatively short time. Use this program to stay quit. Live longer.

Don't be idiots.

I couldn't agree with Matty more. Yes, I hate when people cave, basically because I don't want people to cave AND they most likely promised that they would not Cave on that day. But,...I need these caves. I need the knowledge that no matter how long I quit or how mature my quit becomes, I MUST be vigilant. Vigilance is paramount and there is always room to add more accountability and brotherhood to your quit.

Your quit is about you, but make it bigger than you.

[Grizzlyhasclaws]

There is no fucking way. This dude was a rock. He helped me profoundly. This rocks my world. I am fearful, I am not healed. Back to basics for me. Failure is still possible, SCARY. Maybe even likely. I will not take my eye off the ball.

Fuck Kubiak. Really? Damn. Come back to quit, suck it up. You do not need it. You know this. What happened??

As hard as it may seem, don't let this cave weaken your resolve. Let it strengthen it. People always say cave negatively affect them, not me, people caving makes my quit stronger because it lets me know that none of us have this beat. Not at day 7, 70, 700 or 7,000. It reminds me why we come here, why we post roll, why we reach out and why we keep ourselves accountable. I don't know if kubiak will be back, but if you need someone to talk to I'm pm'ing you my number. Use it anytime, proud to quit with you

I guess radical head and neck cancer surgeries no longer scare this guy. No more saliva, tube feedings, inability to swallow, permanent tracheotomy, vocal chord removal, etc, etc, are an acceptable future for this dipshit.

How people come here and then lose sight of the consequence of continued usage of this substance is beyond me. Sure nicotine withdrawal sucks. But the truth is you feel a ton better in a relatively short time. Use this program to stay quit. Live longer.

Don't be idiots.

[mattyf118]

There is no fucking way. This dude was a rock. He helped me profoundly. This rocks my world. I am fearful, I am not healed. Back to basics for me. Failure is still possible, SCARY. Maybe even likely. I will not take my eye off the ball.

Fuck Kubiak. Really? Damn. Come back to quit, suck it up. You do not need it. You know this. What happened??

As hard as it may seem, don't let this cave weaken your resolve. Let it strengthen it. People always say cave negatively affect them, not me, people caving makes my quit stronger because it lets me know that none of us have this beat. Not at day 7, 70, 700 or 7,000. It reminds me why we come here, why we post roll, why we reach out and why we keep ourselves accountable. I don't know if kubiak will be back, but if you need someone to talk to I'm pm'ing you my number. Use it anytime, proud to quit with you

[Diesel2112]

No Cave Here!!! The best part of going through a funk, or a crave, or a "wow i am a piece of shit addict" phase is that when you get through it, and believe me you do get through it, is the the other side is GLOOOOORIOUS!!!

Religion preaches that difficult times strengthen your faith. Putting fire to steel and beating on it with a hammer makes the steel stronger. Same goes for quit.

I guess this was bullshit. Sounded good at the time, eh?

[Its_Got2Happen]

There is no fucking way. This dude was a rock. He helped me profoundly. This rocks my world. I am fearful, I am not healed. Back to basics for me. Failure is still possible, SCARY. Maybe even likely. I will not take my eye off the ball.

Fuck Kubiak. Really? Damn. Come back to quit, suck it up. You do not need it. You know this. What happened??

[mattyf118]

I'm really freaked out that I wont' stick with the quit, I'm using nicotine patch and chew gum all day long. This is at least the 5th time I've quit, last time in 2008 when I got married, I was good for 9 months. I want to give my wife an anniversary surprise this Thursday that I'm 2 weeks quit and need some help getting through this. Thanks to everyone that there is a forum I can speak out to.

You didn't...

*sigh*

Damn. That's two with over 500 + in one week. My group had 1 over the weekend. Who's next? It won't be me. You got my word!!!

You've affected a lot of people here, I think you owe an explanation.

Damn...

This is the proof man. We are a herd. When you stray from the herd that nic bitch lion is out there just waiting on you. 5 days, hall of fame, 500 or 5000 days it just don't matter. She wants you dead and she's never gonna stop trying. You will never be safe.

What the fuck! Its amazing what the bitch can do to a man. You sound a lot more like the little bitch who first posted here than the 500+ day quit bad ass that you were last week. Answer the questions, make a amends and keep your fucking word this time. You better not disappear again!

And you better start posting with October as well as your old group. Disrespectful as hell to post in the asylum and not with October. Man the fuck up or Move the fuck out.

See u lurking kubiac got anything to say?

He left seeking honor and integrity in others. Problem being he never had any within. Does not matter where you post what matters is in your heart and gut.

^^^^^this a thousand times. Doesn't matter where you put your name. You could put it on 700 websites every morning, doesn't matter a fucking bit. You could have 10,000 posts or you could have 1. Quit is quit, some people get it, some people don't. I have never heard such addict babble bullshit

[30isEnuff]

I'm really freaked out that I wont' stick with the quit, I'm using nicotine patch and chew gum all day long.  This is at least the 5th time I've quit, last time in 2008 when I got married, I was good for 9 months. I want to give my wife an anniversary surprise this Thursday that I'm 2 weeks quit and need some help getting through this. Thanks to everyone that there is a forum I can speak out to.

You didn't...

*sigh*

Damn. That's two with over 500 + in one week. My group had 1 over the weekend. Who's next? It won't be me. You got my word!!!

You've affected a lot of people here, I think you owe an explanation.

Damn...

This is the proof man. We are a herd. When you stray from the herd that nic bitch lion is out there just waiting on you. 5 days, hall of fame, 500 or 5000 days it just don't matter. She wants you dead and she's never gonna stop trying. You will never be safe.

What the fuck! Its amazing what the bitch can do to a man. You sound a lot more like the little bitch who first posted here than the 500+ day quit bad ass that you were last week. Answer the questions, make a amends and keep your fucking word this time. You better not disappear again!

And you better start posting with October as well as your old group. Disrespectful as hell to post in the asylum and not with October. Man the fuck up or Move the fuck out.

See u lurking kubiac got anything to say?

He left seeking honor and integrity in others. Problem being he never had any within. Does not matter where you post what matters is in your heart and gut.

You gotta learn to hate nicotine for what it is..poison.
It works for me and Sept' 12

[30yraddict]

Kubiak.

What's with all of the nonchalance toward your quit brothers? 700 days you were with them. Seems like from what I read they supported you for those 700. You cave and say, "guard your quits, assholes" and leave? Do you really despise them as much as your actions indicate?

You can be a better man than this.

[Ron_Cross]

I'm really freaked out that I wont' stick with the quit, I'm using nicotine patch and chew gum all day long. This is at least the 5th time I've quit, last time in 2008 when I got married, I was good for 9 months. I want to give my wife an anniversary surprise this Thursday that I'm 2 weeks quit and need some help getting through this. Thanks to everyone that there is a forum I can speak out to.

You didn't...

*sigh*

Damn. That's two with over 500 + in one week. My group had 1 over the weekend. Who's next? It won't be me. You got my word!!!

You've affected a lot of people here, I think you owe an explanation.

Damn...

This is the proof man. We are a herd. When you stray from the herd that nic bitch lion is out there just waiting on you. 5 days, hall of fame, 500 or 5000 days it just don't matter. She wants you dead and she's never gonna stop trying. You will never be safe.

What the fuck! Its amazing what the bitch can do to a man. You sound a lot more like the little bitch who first posted here than the 500+ day quit bad ass that you were last week. Answer the questions, make a amends and keep your fucking word this time. You better not disappear again!

And you better start posting with October as well as your old group. Disrespectful as hell to post in the asylum and not with October. Man the fuck up or Move the fuck out.

See u lurking kubiac got anything to say?

He left seeking honor and integrity in others. Problem being he never had any within. Does not matter where you post what matters is in your heart and gut.

[E&C's Dad]

I'm really freaked out that I wont' stick with the quit, I'm using nicotine patch and chew gum all day long. This is at least the 5th time I've quit, last time in 2008 when I got married, I was good for 9 months. I want to give my wife an anniversary surprise this Thursday that I'm 2 weeks quit and need some help getting through this. Thanks to everyone that there is a forum I can speak out to.

You didn't...

*sigh*

Damn. That's two with over 500 + in one week. My group had 1 over the weekend. Who's next? It won't be me. You got my word!!!

You've affected a lot of people here, I think you owe an explanation.

Damn...

This is the proof man. We are a herd. When you stray from the herd that nic bitch lion is out there just waiting on you. 5 days, hall of fame, 500 or 5000 days it just don't matter. She wants you dead and she's never gonna stop trying. You will never be safe.

What the fuck! Its amazing what the bitch can do to a man. You sound a lot more like the little bitch who first posted here than the 500+ day quit bad ass that you were last week. Answer the questions, make a amends and keep your fucking word this time. You better not disappear again!

And you better start posting with October as well as your old group. Disrespectful as hell to post in the asylum and not with October. Man the fuck up or Move the fuck out.

See u lurking kubiac got anything to say?