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[Gunner26]

Day 510... Doing pretty good. My posting is horrible and it is what it is...my apologies. Craved a chew today...just out of the blue I was driving and I started to think I should have a chew. WTF...Anyways it just hasn't happened in a long while and I quashed it quite easily but just confirming they are still happening. Thanks KTC!

[Gunner26]

Thank you for the replies I really appreciate it .... Kana you sent me a personal message and I appreciate that as well...I have come here to my introduction page throuh out my quit to give my honest feelings at that time... I will continue to do so. This last post was just that and like I stated at the end... "So long story short I will post when I can and I will read and I will look at some pictures to REMIND myself that life is far more important and that I am addicted to nicotine." That's what is working for me now... it may change but the key is I am quit and proud of it... Confident too, to me there is just no point in bringing myself down everyday... by having the attitude of " I am a piece of shit nicotine addict...oh god...oh god Is that a cravng? Oh shit what am I going to do..."Naaa fuck that I am quit and I am confident...A lot of people here connect confidence and complacency...if your confident with your quit ooooh watch out you must be complacent...I whole heartedly disagree and that's what is good about this site opinions vary and people let you know! Cheers guys and gals! Appreciate your posts! Well maybe eluding to my skull being crushed is a bit extreme.

Gunner26

[Skoal Monster]

Gunner,

You say you like the fact you don't think about it, and yet it sneaks in on you and you DO think about it. There is no escape from that. It will always be there lurking. What we did to ourselves cannont be undone. It's like a scar .

I come here everyday if only for 1 minute to remind myself I am an addict. I can live with a minute a day to post roll call and remind myself of that. The consequence of just one isn't worth it for me. Wish you well.

sm

[Radman]

Thanks Bean... Not so sure I agree but I appreciate your opinion for sure. Thank you.
Gunner26

I would be very careful with that approach. Getting relaxed, complacent, posting sometimes has ended very badly for many since I have arrived here. I have seen guys with thousands of days cave using the method you describe. I have yet to see one person cave that posts roll daily.

Both methods are proven..... just depends on which side you want to end up on.

STAY QUIT
Greg

Yep. I posted with Bean today. Guess what..... I'll post with him tomorrow.

Like he said..... not sure if I need to do that or not, but it's not worth the risk to find out.

[kana]

Thanks Bean... Not so sure I agree but I appreciate your opinion for sure. Thank you.
Gunner26

bean is a very wise quitter. His quit would crush your skull. Not agreeing with a proven path is actually pretty stupid. Your language and demeanor are weak.
This isn't a game bro. This is life or death. I don't care who you are, not posting is very dangerous. Take it from a professional addict, use every fucking tool you can get. It will save your life...

[Greg5280]

Thanks Bean... Not so sure I agree but I appreciate your opinion for sure. Thank you.
Gunner26

I would be very careful with that approach. Getting relaxed, complacent, posting sometimes has ended very badly for many since I have arrived here. I have seen guys with thousands of days cave using the method you describe. I have yet to see one person cave that posts roll daily.

Both methods are proven..... just depends on which side you want to end up on.

STAY QUIT
Greg

[Gunner26]

Thanks Bean... Not so sure I agree but I appreciate your opinion for sure. Thank you.
Gunner26

[Bean]

Lots of people go about a year and think they're "cured." WRONG! The Nic Bitch is relentless and crafty. I don't have all the answers, but I have one...posting rol.

I posted 2 years on Sept 11, 2012. KTC (and you folks) are now part of my daily routine. I might miss a day here and there, but not many. This site is my new normal.

Do what works for you. But I will tell you that I've seen many with your story who wind up posting Day 1 again because they thought they didn't need roll call anymore. Maybe I don't need it...but I'll never know. I was a slave too long to risk going back. Posting roll everyday is the key for me...and it will work for you.

[Gunner26]

Day 328 ....Haven't been spending much time here and I would like to kind of explain that.

I know that this is with me forever...but for awhile I have been living without so much as a thought about chew, i like that. I realize early in my quit it was necessary to remind myself everyday by making my promise everyday...here. So it's kind of bitter sweet... on one hand I owe everything to this site and the people but I almost feel like now I have to let go.

With that said... the other day I had to requalify on a piece of "equipment" and as I was going travelling to the site I clued in...out of the blue...holy shit NO CHEW...i was like what am I going to do? I got through it pretty easily and the thought "oh well its been almost a year you deserve it" reared its ugly fricken head again... WTF yes! Justifying again! So long story short I will post when I can and I will read and I will look at some pictures to REMIND myself that life is far more important and that I am addicted to nicotine.

Cheers.

Gunner26

[Gunner26]

Thanks Keddy! Much appreciated as always.
Cheers
Gunner

[Keddy]

Day 200 and something... Haven't checked in for awhile. Going good...definetly still having moments of "I deserve a chew". Fight through it pretty easily but yes they are still there.

Was playing UNO with my family tonight and felt damn good to not worry about just getting the game over with so the kids and wife would go to bed so I could stick some chew in mouth and kill myself.
That feeling is what makes it right not to chew. ?

Gunner26

Congrats on the Day 200, Gunner.
Celebrate today and then press forward.

'clap'

[Gunner26]

Day 200 and something... Haven't checked in for awhile. Going good...definetly still having moments of "I deserve a chew". Fight through it pretty easily but yes they are still there.

Was playing UNO with my family tonight and felt damn good to not worry about just getting the game over with so the kids and wife would go to bed so I could stick some chew in mouth and kill myself.
That feeling is what makes it right not to chew. ?

Gunner26

[Keddy]

187....Dip DREAM!!!! Had the whole tin stuffed in my face!  'zombie'

Dip dreams are a last ditch effort by the bitch to drag you back in. They mean you are winning !

STAY QUIT
Greg

Greg's right, Gunner.

One other thing: Dip dreams are temporary; Cancer usually isn't.

When you wake up celebrate the reality of your freedom.

[Greg5280]

187....Dip DREAM!!!! Had the whole tin stuffed in my face! 'zombie'

Dip dreams are a last ditch effort by the bitch to drag you back in. They mean you are winning !

STAY QUIT
Greg

[Gunner26]

187....Dip DREAM!!!! Had the whole tin stuffed in my face! 'zombie'