Day 16 NO SNUS -- Going to Succeed this time

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Look who picked up her punctuation today!!!!  CONGRATULATIONS @Falcon67 !!!!!! 

Congrats Falcon!!  Huge milestone.

Congrats on 1,000 days of awesomeness and freedom

Congratulations Falcon!!!

[Zeus]

Look who picked up her punctuation today!!!!  CONGRATULATIONS @Falcon67 !!!!!! 

Congrats Falcon!!  Huge milestone.

Congrats on 1,000 days of awesomeness and freedom

[EXBEARHAG]

Look who picked up her punctuation today!!!!  CONGRATULATIONS @Falcon67 !!!!!! 

Congrats Falcon!!  Huge milestone.

[FLLipOut]

Look who picked up her punctuation today!!!!  CONGRATULATIONS @Falcon67 !!!!!! 

[Falcon67]

Today as I posted my 365 days I felt the need to dig up my introduction page and pay some well deserved homage to everyone that helped to make this day happen.

My decision one year ago was one of the best decisions of my life. To this day I do not know why I made it on that day or what drove me to make it. All I know is that I did and I thank God everyday since for giving me the strength and wisdom to make it.

This site and the people on it enabled me to keep that pledge and promise to not go back. I know that if I only had made my promise to myself this past year I would not have kept it. I tried that many times in the past and always reverted to my drug of choice, nicotine. Making my daily promise to my amazing group of brothers and the vets that have showered me with support was and is the key to me being nicotine free for a year. That is the fact and it is undisputed!

I am humbled to know and acknowledge that I am and will always be an addict to nicotine. My daily pledge reminds me of that - and that is a good thing. The day i forget is the day I make myself vulnerable to my addiction taking a hold on me.

So I want to thank the KTC site, my December 2017 brothers, the vets and everyone else that has supported and kept me honest in keeping my promise. Please know that you all play a major role in my quit and I am so thankful to have all of you in my life.

[4TheWin]

Thank you for posting this story! It is quit GOLD. Reminds me (20 days behind you) to stay vigilant. Something, somewhere is going to pop into my life (and your life again too) that is going to temp the sh*t out of us. Thinking through how we will deal with the unexpected is VERY helpful IMO. I know this is a ODAAT thing, but we also need to remember that addiction is every day and forever!

An amazing victory from an awesome quitter!!!

[Falcon67]

Traveling the past few weeks -- Staying strong and feeling good.

Tonight I was searching the extra pockets in my suitcase for an internet cable (I always keep extras on me) as I needed to plug into the hotel internet. I had my hand in one of the deep side pockets and found an old tin of snus. Not just any old snus -- my old favorite -- Northerner Wintergreen mini -- and unopened.

Now at 148 Days Quit you would think I would just toss it no problem. Oh NO -- that nicotine addict brain of mine lit up like a Christmas tree at the sight of the can. DAMN that Nic Bitch!! I could not believe the waves of cravings that rocked me. I was so pissed at myself for allowing a stupid tin to make me feel that way.

In my socks I left the room, tin in hand and tossed it in the garbage pail in the lobby. Lucky for me I had not emptied my pockets and had some money to buy a bottle of soda and my card to get back in my room. I sat in my room for a while drinking my soda and really being mad at myself for having that reaction -- but then calming down and ultimately congratulating myself for tossing the sealed tin as quickly as I did.

I guess I needed a wake-up call and reminder that this addiction is real and does not let go. I do not have the daily reminders or temptations as others on this site as I had to mail order my snus -- it is just not easily available. So I have not seen a tin in over 130 days. I post strong words every day along wiht my pledge -- so it was humbling to get rattled by holding that can tonight.

Once I got my head cleared I went on this site -- read some posts -- and calmed down. I felt the need to share this with my brothers and sisters of quit. To say yes I am an addict -- that reality really smacked me in the head tonight -- but I am still QUIT and stayed strong thanks to all of you!

Winning!

I love this!

Remeber, you can never have just one. That's a lie.

Enjoy your victory!

So proud of you!

Awesome!
Welcome all those thoughts. Good, bad, annoying, whatever....they will remind you to stay aware and to not let your guard down. That's a huge win and strength builder.

Thanks to all of my family on this community in keeping me strong! Without all of you, and my daily promise, I think that moment would have gone quite a different way yesterday.

Woke up early today and posted roll immediately with my daily promise.

Humbled addict -- but proud to quit with you all today!

[Falcon67]

Holy sh*t sister! That was close!! Way to go and stay strong! Proud of you but not excited you put yourself in harm's way like that! You need some digits maybe? 'Crazy'

Thanks Brother -- got your digits and have them loaded!

[ChickDip]

Traveling the past few weeks -- Staying strong and feeling good.

Tonight I was searching the extra pockets in my suitcase for an internet cable (I always keep extras on me) as I needed to plug into the hotel internet. I had my hand in one of the deep side pockets and found an old tin of snus. Not just any old snus -- my old favorite -- Northerner Wintergreen mini -- and unopened.

Now at 148 Days Quit you would think I would just toss it no problem. Oh NO -- that nicotine addict brain of mine lit up like a Christmas tree at the sight of the can. DAMN that Nic Bitch!! I could not believe the waves of cravings that rocked me. I was so pissed at myself for allowing a stupid tin to make me feel that way.

In my socks I left the room, tin in hand and tossed it in the garbage pail in the lobby. Lucky for me I had not emptied my pockets and had some money to buy a bottle of soda and my card to get back in my room. I sat in my room for a while drinking my soda and really being mad at myself for having that reaction -- but then calming down and ultimately congratulating myself for tossing the sealed tin as quickly as I did.

I guess I needed a wake-up call and reminder that this addiction is real and does not let go. I do not have the daily reminders or temptations as others on this site as I had to mail order my snus -- it is just not easily available. So I have not seen a tin in over 130 days. I post strong words every day along wiht my pledge -- so it was humbling to get rattled by holding that can tonight.

Once I got my head cleared I went on this site -- read some posts -- and calmed down. I felt the need to share this with my brothers and sisters of quit. To say yes I am an addict -- that reality really smacked me in the head tonight -- but I am still QUIT and stayed strong thanks to all of you!

Winning!

I love this!

Remeber, you can never have just one. That's a lie.

Enjoy your victory!

So proud of you!

Awesome!
Welcome all those thoughts. Good, bad, annoying, whatever....they will remind you to stay aware and to not let your guard down. That's a huge win and strength builder.

[Ready]

Double post!

[Ready]

Traveling the past few weeks -- Staying strong and feeling good.

Tonight I was searching the extra pockets in my suitcase for an internet cable (I always keep extras on me) as I needed to plug into the hotel internet. I had my hand in one of the deep side pockets and found an old tin of snus. Not just any old snus -- my old favorite -- Northerner Wintergreen mini -- and unopened.

Now at 148 Days Quit you would think I would just toss it no problem. Oh NO -- that nicotine addict brain of mine lit up like a Christmas tree at the sight of the can. DAMN that Nic Bitch!! I could not believe the waves of cravings that rocked me. I was so pissed at myself for allowing a stupid tin to make me feel that way.

In my socks I left the room, tin in hand and tossed it in the garbage pail in the lobby. Lucky for me I had not emptied my pockets and had some money to buy a bottle of soda and my card to get back in my room. I sat in my room for a while drinking my soda and really being mad at myself for having that reaction -- but then calming down and ultimately congratulating myself for tossing the sealed tin as quickly as I did.

I guess I needed a wake-up call and reminder that this addiction is real and does not let go. I do not have the daily reminders or temptations as others on this site as I had to mail order my snus -- it is just not easily available. So I have not seen a tin in over 130 days. I post strong words every day along wiht my pledge -- so it was humbling to get rattled by holding that can tonight.

Once I got my head cleared I went on this site -- read some posts -- and calmed down. I felt the need to share this with my brothers and sisters of quit. To say yes I am an addict -- that reality really smacked me in the head tonight -- but I am still QUIT and stayed strong thanks to all of you!

Winning!

I love this!

Remeber, you can never have just one. That's a lie.

Enjoy your victory!

So proud of you!

[4TheWin]

Holy sh*t sister! That was close!! Way to go and stay strong! Proud of you but not excited you put yourself in harm's way like that! You need some digits maybe? 'Crazy'

[Falcon67]

Traveling the past few weeks -- Staying strong and feeling good.

Tonight I was searching the extra pockets in my suitcase for an internet cable (I always keep extras on me) as I needed to plug into the hotel internet. I had my hand in one of the deep side pockets and found an old tin of snus. Not just any old snus -- my old favorite -- Northerner Wintergreen mini -- and unopened.

Now at 148 Days Quit you would think I would just toss it no problem. Oh NO -- that nicotine addict brain of mine lit up like a Christmas tree at the sight of the can. DAMN that Nic Bitch!! I could not believe the waves of cravings that rocked me. I was so pissed at myself for allowing a stupid tin to make me feel that way.

In my socks I left the room, tin in hand and tossed it in the garbage pail in the lobby. Lucky for me I had not emptied my pockets and had some money to buy a bottle of soda and my card to get back in my room. I sat in my room for a while drinking my soda and really being mad at myself for having that reaction -- but then calming down and ultimately congratulating myself for tossing the sealed tin as quickly as I did.

I guess I needed a wake-up call and reminder that this addiction is real and does not let go. I do not have the daily reminders or temptations as others on this site as I had to mail order my snus -- it is just not easily available. So I have not seen a tin in over 130 days. I post strong words every day along wiht my pledge -- so it was humbling to get rattled by holding that can tonight.

Once I got my head cleared I went on this site -- read some posts -- and calmed down. I felt the need to share this with my brothers and sisters of quit. To say yes I am an addict -- that reality really smacked me in the head tonight -- but I am still QUIT and stayed strong thanks to all of you!

[FLLipOut]

Belated congrats on 100, Falcon! Love your spirit that shines through on these boards! Keep up the awesome quit!!!

[Falcon67]

Thanks ChickDip! First mountain climbed - working my way up the next one - Day 200 - one day at a time.

Proud to quit with you today!