First, I would like to say that I am amazed as to how many of you are so supportive and willing to give me a good kick in the ass to get me on track. This is such an amazing program. I've been checking these posts all day and I am so thankful.
I have no good excuse for wanting to quit Friday besides the fact that everything I have read from all those other health websites said that you should set a goal as to when to start and stick to it. My first dentist appointment in quite a long time (as I went without for the last couple of years of college) is exactly one month from Friday, so I decided that it would be a good goal to walk into my dentist and say that I have been chew free for a month. My semester of teaching will be over, I will have a fresh start on the year and about 2 1/2 weeks to try and numb myself to the withdrawals of this terrible addiction. I am not sure if any of you are teachers, but teaching inner city 7th graders around holiday break is absolute chaos..They are bouncing of the walls, fighting, throwing shit, panicking because they are failing and rushing to turn in missing assignments from the past 2 months..It's pretty crazy, but I KNOW I am using it as a crutch. I hate myself right now and I feel like such a big pussy...I want so bad to start RIGHT NOW, but I am worried about the fog I will be in, and especially the withdrawals, and my ability to cope with them these last two days, which are super stressful for teachers. I idolize every single one of you that have made it through and I know that I will be belittled and chastised for my weakness, but I need help..Can you help me and give me some tips to survive the fog I will be in when I stop so I can wake up tomorrow and pledge to be nicotine free for the rest of my life? Can you tell me how you coped during a particularly stressful time? Will I even be able to function amidst the chaos?
Thank you all so much for your time. I need help.