Fell off the horse, time to saddle back up

[Nolaq]

I haven't written much in my intro the past couple months. I hit the HOF and am well on my way to the second floor, woohoo.



*edit* In this spot I previously ranted about the woes of my life and decided I was just whining. Time to work harder.*

Chief,

Congrats on the HOF! That is a huge accomplishment! Be PROUD of that!

It sounds like you're in a serious funk, brother. I don't know all the details of your situation, but I encourage you to talk to someone. We all have our ups and downs. Some of us have bigger ones than others. I'm pretty sure you have some VA help available. Use it. If not, go see your regular doc and talk to him. There is no shame in it. Every now and then, we all need a check up from the neck up. When we are kicking this nasty bitch to the curb, many of us go through deep feelings of anxiety and/or depression.

It's ok to get some help with that.

I'm no doc, but if you want to talk, let me know.

[UH60Chief107]

I haven't written much in my intro the past couple months. I hit the HOF and am well on my way to the second floor, woohoo.



*edit* In this spot I previously ranted about the woes of my life and decided I was just whining. Time to work harder.*

[tsj12b]

Hey everyone. I haven't been on much the past week due to all the medical appointments I've got going on at Fort Bragg. I am here and doing okay. The news about my condition is not great but I can't complain. I would like to share this little story with you. My outlook on life has changed.....


Tonight was the most humbling experience I have had in a long time. The guy I am sharing quarters with is Doug. I hadn't met him for the week I have been here because he apparently was in the hospital. Doug showed up today and he was the most friendly guy I have met in a long time. We sat and talked for an hour like we were long lost friends, even though we had never met. Doug has been on 3 deployments and served his country honorably. While doing a parajump this past year, his parachute didn't open all the way. He hit the ground so hard that it severed his spinal cord and he lost feeling and movement in everything below his waist, as well as his left arm. His wife could not handle him being paralyzed and left him without even saying goodbye. The pain I feel will never ever be as bad as what Doug has gone through and he still remains a happy and cheerful guy. He is a real American hero, not me. Makes me ashamed to even say I am going to have a disability percentage when I get out. Thank you Doug for making me see life in a new light.

Doug is the fucking man!

Of that, there is no doubt, but don't be ashamed. Your service has been just as honorable as Doug's. You're just luckier than Doug and probably not as decent of a human being as Doug, but I probably am not either. I can't imagine still being happy and cheerful after all that. Hopefully Doug gets taken care of.

[UH60Chief107]

Hey everyone. I haven't been on much the past week due to all the medical appointments I've got going on at Fort Bragg. I am here and doing okay. The news about my condition is not great but I can't complain. I would like to share this little story with you. My outlook on life has changed.....


Tonight was the most humbling experience I have had in a long time. The guy I am sharing quarters with is Doug. I hadn't met him for the week I have been here because he apparently was in the hospital. Doug showed up today and he was the most friendly guy I have met in a long time. We sat and talked for an hour like we were long lost friends, even though we had never met. Doug has been on 3 deployments and served his country honorably. While doing a parajump this past year, his parachute didn't open all the way. He hit the ground so hard that it severed his spinal cord and he lost feeling and movement in everything below his waist, as well as his left arm. His wife could not handle him being paralyzed and left him without even saying goodbye. The pain I feel will never ever be as bad as what Doug has gone through and he still remains a happy and cheerful guy. He is a real American hero, not me. Makes me ashamed to even say I am going to have a disability percentage when I get out. Thank you Doug for making me see life in a new light.

[Romandog]

Good to see you here, Chief. Hang in there.. It gets better with time.

Romandog - 1166

[Nolaq]

Thanks fellas.


21 days in. I feel like shit. that is all.

This too shall pass.

That feeling you have is your body throwing a temper tantrum. This is the price we pay for poisoning ourselves for XX years.

The good news is, you're winning, and you're healing. Ride it out.

[UH60Chief107]

Thanks fellas.


21 days in. I feel like shit. that is all.

[Thumblewort]

Chief,

Congrats on the 20!! Just read your post regarding what happened yesterday with JZ....I share your anger, pain, and frustration. Thought he was a true Sultan. But know this, the ones remaining are truly those brothers you can rely on. Proud to be quit with you today, tomorrow, and EDD that follows.

20 is Badass Chief, proud to be quit with you today!

[CavMan83]

Chief,

Congrats on the 20!! Just read your post regarding what happened yesterday with JZ....I share your anger, pain, and frustration. Thought he was a true Sultan. But know this, the ones remaining are truly those brothers you can rely on. Proud to be quit with you today, tomorrow, and EDD that follows.

[Smeds]

Just to clear the air. I did not intend to sound like I suspect everyone of sneaking a dip and posting roll. That was just the random thoughts of an insomniac lol.

You're good bro, now worries. I too am very impressed by your quit, as well as the Sultans in general ... There has definitely been a great deal of drama in September. Tony Gwynn's death jumped your numbers to a huge group ... stay strong and help hold that group together! I quit with you today 60.

[UH60Chief107]

Just to clear the air. I did not intend to sound like I suspect everyone of sneaking a dip and posting roll. That was just the random thoughts of an insomniac lol.

[Done4Me]

I read about Sean Marsee too. That makes the consequences seem all too real. Thankful that I am quit today.



No real big news for day 15. Not many cravings and the fog never came today.

At day 5 I had a sore spot on my tongue. I thought I would wait a week to see if it cleared up. Well, at day 12, it was still sore and I was getting worried. I made a doctor's appointment which was today. The doc checked out the spot and said it is nothing to worry about. RELIEF! Apparently I bit my tongue pretty bad in my sleep and it is taking a while to heal. This has solidified my quit even MORE.

Now, the bad side to this story. This doctor's checkup was also for my back(spine). As it turns out, my back is too jacked up for me to continue in military service. My career in the Army will be cut short. I planned on putting in 20 years but my body just can't handle it. It was a pleasure serving you America. It was the best/worst years of my life.

60,

My back is so jacked up from being aircrew, in addition to being a Marine that I can hardly get out of bed most mornings. Funny thing, once you become a civvy the pain you feel increases 10 fold. I guess it has something to do with not being part of such a badass outfit anymore. Motrin is my bestest buddy now. You'll pull through, I hear med retirement ain't bad.

I think what made it so bad on me is the fact that I am 6'4" tall. The cabin of the uh60 is not that big lol. I had to sit hunched over whenever I flew. When you start racking up the flight hours, it really takes a toll on your back. Here is what is ironic, they moved me to more of an "admin" job until they figured out if they could fix my back. Since I have been pushing papers the last 3 weeks, my back pain has increased significantly. They also placed me on a dead man's profile to where I can basically do ZERO physical activity. I couldn't stand being stationary so I decided to go against what the docs told me and went for a run this past weekend. The pain is hardly noticeable now. I really think that placing someone on a sedentary profile only increases the damage.




Now to address the other "elephant in the room". I am not even sure what to say about this whole J2ThaZ business. It seems like a clear cut case of caving and just coming back on a new screen name. If you research the posts, the grammar and sentence structure is identical from Jzzigyzag01 to J2ThaZ. They both sign their posts as "JZ" and they both use similar avitars. I highly doubt a guy posing as someone else to avoid detection by his wife would use the same exact writing style as the person he is posing as. I really was leaning towards believing J2 but I think I am just trying make him innocent because I don't want to face the fact that I was fooled into thinking a snake was a decent dude. Either way you look at it, an explanation before posting Day 1 on 2 JUNE 2014 would have nipped this all in the bud. It is amazing to me the bond you build just through this online community. I never even met the guy and I feel mad, let down, betrayed, and confused. If we were so easily fooled by this guy, who is to say everyone else isn't just kicking back with a dip in while posting roll? This is just something I am struggling with today. Stupid nic bitch trying to twist my mind up. But, I posted roll this morning, so today I am quit with you all.

Most of us are honest and taking this seriously. Sure there are probably a few trolls. They will weed themselves out eventually. Keep the focus. Keep the quit. You are amongst brothers.

Totally agree Grizz. 60 - I like your September group. You guys have been through your share of drama. I've only been here coming up on 2 months so I've only seen my squeaky clean August team and yours. I can't imagine more liars and cavers in any other month. You stayed strong and stuck through it all. And what are you guys, 70 strong? Amazing. Hope you hold onto each and every one of them.

[Grizzlyhasclaws]

I read about Sean Marsee too. That makes the consequences seem all too real. Thankful that I am quit today.



No real big news for day 15. Not many cravings and the fog never came today.

At day 5 I had a sore spot on my tongue. I thought I would wait a week to see if it cleared up. Well, at day 12, it was still sore and I was getting worried. I made a doctor's appointment which was today. The doc checked out the spot and said it is nothing to worry about. RELIEF! Apparently I bit my tongue pretty bad in my sleep and it is taking a while to heal. This has solidified my quit even MORE.

Now, the bad side to this story. This doctor's checkup was also for my back(spine). As it turns out, my back is too jacked up for me to continue in military service. My career in the Army will be cut short. I planned on putting in 20 years but my body just can't handle it. It was a pleasure serving you America. It was the best/worst years of my life.

60,

My back is so jacked up from being aircrew, in addition to being a Marine that I can hardly get out of bed most mornings. Funny thing, once you become a civvy the pain you feel increases 10 fold. I guess it has something to do with not being part of such a badass outfit anymore. Motrin is my bestest buddy now. You'll pull through, I hear med retirement ain't bad.

I think what made it so bad on me is the fact that I am 6'4" tall. The cabin of the uh60 is not that big lol. I had to sit hunched over whenever I flew. When you start racking up the flight hours, it really takes a toll on your back. Here is what is ironic, they moved me to more of an "admin" job until they figured out if they could fix my back. Since I have been pushing papers the last 3 weeks, my back pain has increased significantly. They also placed me on a dead man's profile to where I can basically do ZERO physical activity. I couldn't stand being stationary so I decided to go against what the docs told me and went for a run this past weekend. The pain is hardly noticeable now. I really think that placing someone on a sedentary profile only increases the damage.




Now to address the other "elephant in the room". I am not even sure what to say about this whole J2ThaZ business. It seems like a clear cut case of caving and just coming back on a new screen name. If you research the posts, the grammar and sentence structure is identical from Jzzigyzag01 to J2ThaZ. They both sign their posts as "JZ" and they both use similar avitars. I highly doubt a guy posing as someone else to avoid detection by his wife would use the same exact writing style as the person he is posing as. I really was leaning towards believing J2 but I think I am just trying make him innocent because I don't want to face the fact that I was fooled into thinking a snake was a decent dude. Either way you look at it, an explanation before posting Day 1 on 2 JUNE 2014 would have nipped this all in the bud. It is amazing to me the bond you build just through this online community. I never even met the guy and I feel mad, let down, betrayed, and confused. If we were so easily fooled by this guy, who is to say everyone else isn't just kicking back with a dip in while posting roll? This is just something I am struggling with today. Stupid nic bitch trying to twist my mind up. But, I posted roll this morning, so today I am quit with you all.

Most of us are honest and taking this seriously. Sure there are probably a few trolls. They will weed themselves out eventually. Keep the focus. Keep the quit. You are amongst brothers.

[UH60Chief107]

I read about Sean Marsee too. That makes the consequences seem all too real. Thankful that I am quit today.



No real big news for day 15. Not many cravings and the fog never came today.

At day 5 I had a sore spot on my tongue. I thought I would wait a week to see if it cleared up. Well, at day 12, it was still sore and I was getting worried. I made a doctor's appointment which was today. The doc checked out the spot and said it is nothing to worry about. RELIEF! Apparently I bit my tongue pretty bad in my sleep and it is taking a while to heal. This has solidified my quit even MORE.

Now, the bad side to this story. This doctor's checkup was also for my back(spine). As it turns out, my back is too jacked up for me to continue in military service. My career in the Army will be cut short. I planned on putting in 20 years but my body just can't handle it. It was a pleasure serving you America. It was the best/worst years of my life.

60,

My back is so jacked up from being aircrew, in addition to being a Marine that I can hardly get out of bed most mornings. Funny thing, once you become a civvy the pain you feel increases 10 fold. I guess it has something to do with not being part of such a badass outfit anymore. Motrin is my bestest buddy now. You'll pull through, I hear med retirement ain't bad.

I think what made it so bad on me is the fact that I am 6'4" tall. The cabin of the uh60 is not that big lol. I had to sit hunched over whenever I flew. When you start racking up the flight hours, it really takes a toll on your back. Here is what is ironic, they moved me to more of an "admin" job until they figured out if they could fix my back. Since I have been pushing papers the last 3 weeks, my back pain has increased significantly. They also placed me on a dead man's profile to where I can basically do ZERO physical activity. I couldn't stand being stationary so I decided to go against what the docs told me and went for a run this past weekend. The pain is hardly noticeable now. I really think that placing someone on a sedentary profile only increases the damage.




Now to address the other "elephant in the room". I am not even sure what to say about this whole J2ThaZ business. It seems like a clear cut case of caving and just coming back on a new screen name. If you research the posts, the grammar and sentence structure is identical from Jzzigyzag01 to J2ThaZ. They both sign their posts as "JZ" and they both use similar avitars. I highly doubt a guy posing as someone else to avoid detection by his wife would use the same exact writing style as the person he is posing as. I really was leaning towards believing J2 but I think I am just trying make him innocent because I don't want to face the fact that I was fooled into thinking a snake was a decent dude. Either way you look at it, an explanation before posting Day 1 on 2 JUNE 2014 would have nipped this all in the bud. It is amazing to me the bond you build just through this online community. I never even met the guy and I feel mad, let down, betrayed, and confused. If we were so easily fooled by this guy, who is to say everyone else isn't just kicking back with a dip in while posting roll? This is just something I am struggling with today. Stupid nic bitch trying to twist my mind up. But, I posted roll this morning, so today I am quit with you all.

[DaveKnight]

I read about Sean Marsee too. That makes the consequences seem all too real. Thankful that I am quit today.



No real big news for day 15. Not many cravings and the fog never came today.

At day 5 I had a sore spot on my tongue. I thought I would wait a week to see if it cleared up. Well, at day 12, it was still sore and I was getting worried. I made a doctor's appointment which was today. The doc checked out the spot and said it is nothing to worry about. RELIEF! Apparently I bit my tongue pretty bad in my sleep and it is taking a while to heal. This has solidified my quit even MORE.

Now, the bad side to this story. This doctor's checkup was also for my back(spine). As it turns out, my back is too jacked up for me to continue in military service. My career in the Army will be cut short. I planned on putting in 20 years but my body just can't handle it. It was a pleasure serving you America. It was the best/worst years of my life.

60,

My back is so jacked up from being aircrew, in addition to being a Marine that I can hardly get out of bed most mornings. Funny thing, once you become a civvy the pain you feel increases 10 fold. I guess it has something to do with not being part of such a badass outfit anymore. Motrin is my bestest buddy now. You'll pull through, I hear med retirement ain't bad.