Fell off the horse, time to saddle back up

[CavMan83]

Super bad craving last night. I had a ragegasm and fought the nic bitch off. Still proud to be quit with all of you.

Chief,

You hang tough bro. I'm proud to quit w/you and my Sultans. You're gonna be fine. I know it. Kick the nic demons to the curb...

[UH60Chief107]

Super bad craving last night. I had a ragegasm and fought the nic bitch off. Still proud to be quit with all of you.

[J2thaZ]

Today, my dick is in the dirt. Overwhelming sense of being "down" and generally pissed off. Hopefully this lifts tomorrow! Day 16 is in the books, time to pass out.

Hey man, check out LOOT's thoughts on the 20-30 funk. Stick with it. When you get thru this one, you'll be a MONTH quit bro. A fuckin' MONTH! Stick to the Kool-Aid, and we'll get thru this. Quit each and every damn day with you Chiref!!

[UH60Chief107]

Today, my dick is in the dirt. Overwhelming sense of being "down" and generally pissed off. Hopefully this lifts tomorrow! Day 16 is in the books, time to pass out.

[UH60Chief107]

I read about Sean Marsee too. That makes the consequences seem all too real. Thankful that I am quit today.



No real big news for day 15. Not many cravings and the fog never came today.

At day 5 I had a sore spot on my tongue. I thought I would wait a week to see if it cleared up. Well, at day 12, it was still sore and I was getting worried. I made a doctor's appointment which was today. The doc checked out the spot and said it is nothing to worry about. RELIEF! Apparently I bit my tongue pretty bad in my sleep and it is taking a while to heal. This has solidified my quit even MORE.

Now, the bad side to this story. This doctor's checkup was also for my back(spine). As it turns out, my back is too jacked up for me to continue in military service. My career in the Army will be cut short. I planned on putting in 20 years but my body just can't handle it. It was a pleasure serving you America. It was the best/worst years of my life.

[DaveKnight]

Today I woke up just like any other day. I rolled over and shut off my alarm clock. Glancing at my phone, I noticed that I had about 15 missed messages and skype calls from various family members back in the states. Immediately I knew something BAD had happened. After reading through everything that my family had sent, I felt a wave of panic spread through my body. What if I didn't quit in time????

The bad news that my family had given was that my uncle had stage 4 cancer in his mouth, throat, and most of his lypmh nodes. As you could guess, he was an oral tobacco user for the better part of 25 years. The doctors said they caught it too late and there is nothing they can do. He will be lucky if he lives until Christmas. He is leaving behind 3 children under the age of 12 and a wife. This has solidified my QUIT more than ever before. To see the destruction this is causing my famiy is horrible. All because it felt "good" to have a pinch of worm dirt in all the time. I just hope I quit in time.....

Thoughts and prayers with your family and his Chief. That is an awful damn feeling to wake up to. Proud of you and your decision to not compound the problem by subjecting yourself to the same torture.

QLF with you today.

J2thaZ

You are in my prayers 60! Knowing the dangers of this stuff makes us all wonder if we quit in time. When I first started at KTC I did research and learned about Sean Marsee. The kid died of mouth cancer at 19 yo. He started dipping at 12yo. That is only 7 years of use. I pray we all quit in time.

[UH60Chief107]

D2, Grizzly, srans- thanks for the encouragement.

[srans]

Today I woke up just like any other day. I rolled over and shut off my alarm clock. Glancing at my phone, I noticed that I had about 15 missed messages and skype calls from various family members back in the states. Immediately I knew something BAD had happened. After reading through everything that my family had sent, I felt a wave of panic spread through my body. What if I didn't quit in time????

The bad news that my family had given was that my uncle had stage 4 cancer in his mouth, throat, and most of his lypmh nodes. As you could guess, he was an oral tobacco user for the better part of 25 years. The doctors said they caught it too late and there is nothing they can do. He will be lucky if he lives until Christmas. He is leaving behind 3 children under the age of 12 and a wife. This has solidified my QUIT more than ever before. To see the destruction this is causing my famiy is horrible. All because it felt "good" to have a pinch of worm dirt in all the time. I just hope I quit in time.....

Thoughts and prayers with your family and his Chief. That is an awful damn feeling to wake up to. Proud of you and your decision to not compound the problem by subjecting yourself to the same torture.

QLF with you today.

J2thaZ

Damn brother. That's horrible news. Thinking of you and your family. We are quit now. There's no other option. This shit is taking too many of us.

Terrible news. My condolences to you and your family. But thanks very much for sharing. It is extremely important that everyone hear these stories. Tobacco kills. Sometimes slow and sometimes fast. But eventually it kills.

Stay quit at all costs.

I lost a couple people close to me, due to lung cancer and throat cancer the first year of quit. I have one more battling right now for his life. Been there done that, prayers. Just adds to my hatred for the poison. I've got roll posted, so today lets say me and you QLFADD!

[Grizzlyhasclaws]

Today I woke up just like any other day. I rolled over and shut off my alarm clock. Glancing at my phone, I noticed that I had about 15 missed messages and skype calls from various family members back in the states. Immediately I knew something BAD had happened. After reading through everything that my family had sent, I felt a wave of panic spread through my body. What if I didn't quit in time????

The bad news that my family had given was that my uncle had stage 4 cancer in his mouth, throat, and most of his lypmh nodes. As you could guess, he was an oral tobacco user for the better part of 25 years. The doctors said they caught it too late and there is nothing they can do. He will be lucky if he lives until Christmas. He is leaving behind 3 children under the age of 12 and a wife. This has solidified my QUIT more than ever before. To see the destruction this is causing my famiy is horrible. All because it felt "good" to have a pinch of worm dirt in all the time. I just hope I quit in time.....

Thoughts and prayers with your family and his Chief. That is an awful damn feeling to wake up to. Proud of you and your decision to not compound the problem by subjecting yourself to the same torture.

QLF with you today.

J2thaZ

Damn brother. That's horrible news. Thinking of you and your family. We are quit now. There's no other option. This shit is taking too many of us.

Terrible news. My condolences to you and your family. But thanks very much for sharing. It is extremely important that everyone hear these stories. Tobacco kills. Sometimes slow and sometimes fast. But eventually it kills.

Stay quit at all costs.

[D2maine]

I appreciate the kind words guys. It is very unfortunate to see this happening, especially first hand to a family member



Yesterday was my first day back to work since I quit. I think the hardest days so far were yesterday and today as far as cravings and the triggers. I dipped mostly at work in order to hide it from my wife so everything around me reminds me of it right now. Typical routine, show up to work with a dip in. Go to the daily meeting, pop a dip in afterwards. Fix some helicopters....with a dip in. Sit in my office with a big wad in my lip. I find myself even reaching for my can and then it hits me "HEY JACKASS YOU QUIT". I had dreams the last 2 nights about dipping. It is getting ridiculous. The positive side, this shows me even more how much of an addict I was and how important it is to stay QUIT every damn day.

just keep plugging away UH it will get better. triggers are just the old associations your brain had with dip. each time you face a trigger down that trigger becomes weaker and conversely you get stronger.

[UH60Chief107]

I appreciate the kind words guys. It is very unfortunate to see this happening, especially first hand to a family member



Yesterday was my first day back to work since I quit. I think the hardest days so far were yesterday and today as far as cravings and the triggers. I dipped mostly at work in order to hide it from my wife so everything around me reminds me of it right now. Typical routine, show up to work with a dip in. Go to the daily meeting, pop a dip in afterwards. Fix some helicopters....with a dip in. Sit in my office with a big wad in my lip. I find myself even reaching for my can and then it hits me "HEY JACKASS YOU QUIT". I had dreams the last 2 nights about dipping. It is getting ridiculous. The positive side, this shows me even more how much of an addict I was and how important it is to stay QUIT every damn day.

[rdad]

Today I woke up just like any other day. I rolled over and shut off my alarm clock. Glancing at my phone, I noticed that I had about 15 missed messages and skype calls from various family members back in the states. Immediately I knew something BAD had happened. After reading through everything that my family had sent, I felt a wave of panic spread through my body. What if I didn't quit in time????

The bad news that my family had given was that my uncle had stage 4 cancer in his mouth, throat, and most of his lypmh nodes. As you could guess, he was an oral tobacco user for the better part of 25 years. The doctors said they caught it too late and there is nothing they can do. He will be lucky if he lives until Christmas. He is leaving behind 3 children under the age of 12 and a wife. This has solidified my QUIT more than ever before. To see the destruction this is causing my famiy is horrible. All because it felt "good" to have a pinch of worm dirt in all the time. I just hope I quit in time.....

Thoughts and prayers with your family and his Chief. That is an awful damn feeling to wake up to. Proud of you and your decision to not compound the problem by subjecting yourself to the same torture.

QLF with you today.

J2thaZ

Damn brother. That's horrible news. Thinking of you and your family. We are quit now. There's no other option. This shit is taking too many of us.

[J2thaZ]

Today I woke up just like any other day. I rolled over and shut off my alarm clock. Glancing at my phone, I noticed that I had about 15 missed messages and skype calls from various family members back in the states. Immediately I knew something BAD had happened. After reading through everything that my family had sent, I felt a wave of panic spread through my body. What if I didn't quit in time????

The bad news that my family had given was that my uncle had stage 4 cancer in his mouth, throat, and most of his lypmh nodes. As you could guess, he was an oral tobacco user for the better part of 25 years. The doctors said they caught it too late and there is nothing they can do. He will be lucky if he lives until Christmas. He is leaving behind 3 children under the age of 12 and a wife. This has solidified my QUIT more than ever before. To see the destruction this is causing my famiy is horrible. All because it felt "good" to have a pinch of worm dirt in all the time. I just hope I quit in time.....

Thoughts and prayers with your family and his Chief. That is an awful damn feeling to wake up to. Proud of you and your decision to not compound the problem by subjecting yourself to the same torture.

QLF with you today.

J2thaZ

[CavMan83]

Today I woke up just like any other day. I rolled over and shut off my alarm clock. Glancing at my phone, I noticed that I had about 15 missed messages and skype calls from various family members back in the states. Immediately I knew something BAD had happened. After reading through everything that my family had sent, I felt a wave of panic spread through my body. What if I didn't quit in time????

The bad news that my family had given was that my uncle had stage 4 cancer in his mouth, throat, and most of his lypmh nodes. As you could guess, he was an oral tobacco user for the better part of 25 years. The doctors said they caught it too late and there is nothing they can do. He will be lucky if he lives until Christmas. He is leaving behind 3 children under the age of 12 and a wife. This has solidified my QUIT more than ever before. To see the destruction this is causing my famiy is horrible. All because it felt "good" to have a pinch of worm dirt in all the time. I just hope I quit in time.....

My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family chief. You are doing a hell of job with your quit. I am here for you if you need anything!!

Chief,

My father passed away in February of 2008 with pancreatic cancer. He was a Redman chewer right up to the end (I started stealing his Redman when I was like 12, graduating quickly through Skoal to Copenhagen). The number of pages on the internet linking pancreatic cancer to tobacco is too many to count....My dad would have been 80 on 11 June (which is why I planned that to be my quit day).

Condolences to your family; words at this time don't matter, just know that the Sultans are here for you dude. Give a holler (text or PM).

[bigton16335]

Today I woke up just like any other day. I rolled over and shut off my alarm clock. Glancing at my phone, I noticed that I had about 15 missed messages and skype calls from various family members back in the states. Immediately I knew something BAD had happened. After reading through everything that my family had sent, I felt a wave of panic spread through my body. What if I didn't quit in time????

The bad news that my family had given was that my uncle had stage 4 cancer in his mouth, throat, and most of his lypmh nodes. As you could guess, he was an oral tobacco user for the better part of 25 years. The doctors said they caught it too late and there is nothing they can do. He will be lucky if he lives until Christmas. He is leaving behind 3 children under the age of 12 and a wife. This has solidified my QUIT more than ever before. To see the destruction this is causing my famiy is horrible. All because it felt "good" to have a pinch of worm dirt in all the time. I just hope I quit in time.....

My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family chief. You are doing a hell of job with your quit. I am here for you if you need anything!!