Gentlemen- for the last and final time. I caved on the first day. I caved on Fricking Monday. I called myself out for being a puss, for lying to myself for lying to the sultans for lying to my family. I caved. I don't care if it was for 10minutes, or 10seconds, the shit touched my lips and rather than hide like a bitch, I called myself out to a bunch of people i don't know because I do respect this group. I did so for me, not anyone else, but yes I am here for that support. I was bounced from September to October and to the Titans. I was asked on multiple different threads to own up and answer three important questions. What you are seeing is my attempt to find every f-ing thread this has been brought up on and answer those questions. Now again, I rolled into October. I rolled into the Titans. I have been nicotine free since Monday evening at 11PM est, and will continue to be NICOTINE free going forward. I truly hope this clears fucking things up. I fucked myself and I fucked my September brothers on MONDAY of the first day because I was weak. I will not make the same mistake twice with my October Titans!
Oxman I am with you. This site is made up of lots of people who caved....but to my knowledge it is not made up of many multi time cavers. I believe your sincerity, and I believe your commitment. If it helps add to your accountability know that another cave will most likely lead to a lot of regret. Get after this!
Biggest thing that I see OX, is work on that plan moving forward so that this does not happen again.
As what happens the next time you get that feeling of need? What will you do? What do you have written down to follow?
Hints: make steps, call and talk to multiple people, log on and look at this site, jump into live chat.....look at your roll promise.... (if you need more see the list that I have for my plan)
We do not accept failure, so look in that mirror as now is your time. Plan so you will not fail again.
