Day 1

Started by Jaymodill, August 31, 2011, 11:14:00 PM

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azchief32

Ok, so day 5 is coming to a wrap. Today was one of the tougher days, the mind games seem to have started. I haven't battled much in the way of cravings - a little here and there.
For me today was about guilt, shame of what I spent my life doing and intense fear that the changes I am making to my life are too late.Jay

Day 5 is done for me as well Jay. I have also done okay in the craving dept but am averaging 5 to 6 hours of sleep so far. Every once in awhile, the bitch hits me but I get busy doing something. Its never too late to change because what's the alternative? Accept defeat and move on? Fuck that bro. We are here and doing this for a reason. I am at azchief32@mac.com if you need to write it all down and send it. I am at 520-906-0169 if you feel yourself caving (like that shit is going to happen).

Eric
Liberated on 31 Aug 2011

HoF on 8 Dec 2011

"Audentes Fortuna Juvat"

Jaymodill

Ok, so day 5 is coming to a wrap. Today was one of the tougher days, the mind games seem to have started. I haven't battled much in the way of cravings - a little here and there.
For me today was about guilt, shame of what I spent my life doing and intense fear that the changes I am making to my life are too late. It's just crazy how when I was under the nic bitch's control I really never thought too much about what it was doing to me. I guess I just thought that I was going to do it until I die. Now, this is how I feel 'bang head'
I'm goin' tackle this bitch!

I can do ALL things through Christ who strengthens me - Phil 4:13

Radman

Quote from: SoulimanI'm glad to see a roll post. I no longer want you to ingest man juice.
Wait just a dang minute here! What kinda quit group is this? I thought we were fighting nicotine. :huh: :huh:

Couln't let that one slide by, Soul. Carry on...

per034

Jay -

You got some badass quitters supporting you in here, and some new guys just throwing themselves at your feet. You're here because you need help. If you could do it yourself you would have. Listed to the vets. Connect with the newbies - they are the ones who know what you're going through WHEN you're going through it. That's so critical.

Day two is over. get to day three. That's all. Go back and look at what Seagems wrote when you first posted. One day at a time.

All we ask is that you make your promise TODAY. We dont' care about tomorrow. Tomorrow doesn't exist. You don't care about tomorrow. Quit for you today. That's it.
The love you get here is conditional. The condition is that you are quit.

"Every time you bump someone and dont fix it, a kitten dies" - Jost2Brown

Jaymodill

Thanks Gump! Just knowing I am not alone helps get me through right now. And THIS right now is much better than the last right now.

Thank you!
I'm goin' tackle this bitch!

I can do ALL things through Christ who strengthens me - Phil 4:13

Gump

Quote from: JaymodillSo Day 2 has been miserable. I am in the fog, but mainly dealing with uncontrollable anxiety. Fear that I am too late, fear that I won't make the 100 days 'cause I don't even have a 100 days left --- Crazy thoughts!! Then cold sweats, hot sweats, shakes. I feel more like someone they show on tv trying to come off of heroin than someone quitting the chew. My brain telling me this isn't normal, that I am doomed. There is one thing for sure. If this is what happens during nicotine withdrawal, I will never, ever, ever pick this stuff up again. You guys have nothing to worry about me falling off the wagon.
Well, this IS what happens during nicotine withdrawal, to everyone who quits. I remember being afraid I was going to have a heart attack (of course, nobody ever does). And the dreams I had, they were just horrifying, and I usually sleep great and dream of orgies and giant cicadas and stuff.

Typical withdrawal stuff, just grit your teeth and hang on, you'll get through it just fine. Post roll every day and promise me you won't use nicotine. That's all I ask.
"Stupid is as stupid does"

Quit nicotine 9/1/09

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Jaymodill

Thanks Souli! I saw one of your posts that said something that really struck me. You said something to the effect of You just spent the last x number of years killing yourself daily, you quit only once --- Revel in it!

That turned my crappy day 2 around. I will now rejoice in day 2!

Thank you!
I'm goin' tackle this bitch!

I can do ALL things through Christ who strengthens me - Phil 4:13

Souliman

I'm glad to see a roll post. I no longer want you to ingest man juice.

I quit with you.

Souliman

You should put anything in your mouth besides cancer candy. But if you don't post roll I'm going to tell you to shove a giant veiny cock in there you big candy ass. Now step up to the mic and sing it loud. "I quit". Now say it with some other quitters in December. "I quit".

Post Roll.

seagems

Quote from: JaymodillSo Day 2 has been miserable. I am in the fog, but mainly dealing with uncontrollable anxiety. Fear that I am too late, fear that I won't make the 100 days 'cause I don't even have a 100 days left --- Crazy thoughts!! Then cold sweats, hot sweats, shakes. I feel more like someone they show on tv trying to come off of heroin than someone quitting the chew. My brain telling me this isn't normal, that I am doomed. There is one thing for sure. If this is what happens during nicotine withdrawal, I will never, ever, ever pick this stuff up again. You guys have nothing to worry about me falling off the wagon.
Only think about today. Only think about not chewing today. It will get better fast, just don't let your mind stray to thoughts beyond today. Chew bubble gum, drink tons of water, exercise, do anything you need to in order to get through today. Then do it all over tomorrow and you'll see life improving rapidly.

lo sprk

Come On jaymodill, join the December group. I'm in it early too, shitty but better day 3 is better than day 2. we will all stay motivated and beat this poison each day.

Keddy

Quote from: JaymodillSo Day 2 has been miserable. I am in the fog, but mainly dealing with uncontrollable anxiety. Fear that I am too late, fear that I won't make the 100 days 'cause I don't even have a 100 days left --- Crazy thoughts!! Then cold sweats, hot sweats, shakes. I feel more like someone they show on tv trying to come off of heroin than someone quitting the chew. My brain telling me this isn't normal, that I am doomed. There is one thing for sure. If this is what happens during nicotine withdrawal, I will never, ever, ever pick this stuff up again. You guys have nothing to worry about me falling off the wagon.
You can't do this on your own!! Post roll and get connected with the December group. Making your promise to your fellow quitters and keeping your word is what will keep you on "the wagon." You're not gonna be able to hang on by yourself.

Take my word for it . . . .

Scowick65

Quote from: JaymodillSo Day 2 has been miserable. I am in the fog, but mainly dealing with uncontrollable anxiety. Fear that I am too late, fear that I won't make the 100 days 'cause I don't even have a 100 days left --- Crazy thoughts!! Then cold sweats, hot sweats, shakes. I feel more like someone they show on tv trying to come off of heroin than someone quitting the chew. My brain telling me this isn't normal, that I am doomed. There is one thing for sure. If this is what happens during nicotine withdrawal, I will never, ever, ever pick this stuff up again. You guys have nothing to worry about me falling off the wagon.
I know what makes it easier to quit. Posting roll! Try it and see if you agree.

Jaymodill

So Day 2 has been miserable. I am in the fog, but mainly dealing with uncontrollable anxiety. Fear that I am too late, fear that I won't make the 100 days 'cause I don't even have a 100 days left --- Crazy thoughts!! Then cold sweats, hot sweats, shakes. I feel more like someone they show on tv trying to come off of heroin than someone quitting the chew. My brain telling me this isn't normal, that I am doomed. There is one thing for sure. If this is what happens during nicotine withdrawal, I will never, ever, ever pick this stuff up again. You guys have nothing to worry about me falling off the wagon.
I'm goin' tackle this bitch!

I can do ALL things through Christ who strengthens me - Phil 4:13

Leather Apron

I'm in the shit with ya man!!!!!
King Kong aint got nuthin on me!!!