Ok Magilla here's the deal.
Your hitting a funk. Your brain chemistry is literally rewiring. Having an epic case of the fuck its is a pretty good description of how it feels.
There is a fairly consistent pattern where quitters hit a rough patch around day 70 and again shortly after the Hof. Your right on track.
As for the escaping the " Pain"? , your looking down the wrong rabbit hole Alice.
Nicotine doesn't fix a broken heart, lost job, bad days, or anything else. Life is still throw you inside pitches and sometimes your gonna take one on the nose. Going back to dipping won't fix that.
Remember, while the hof is a fine accomplishment, but it isn't a finish line. You will not magically feel better on day 100. I will tell you that it still gets so much better. Just keep quitting ONE DAY AT A TIME.
Congrats on the Hof
sM