Day 2:
I wanted to thank everyone who has reached out to me. I know that I could not do this right now with out support.
I would like to keep a journal so I can go back and see my journey and also as a "lessons learned" for any new individual who comes along.
There has been so many ups and downs. One second I am happy, then I am mad, then sad, then mad again. So far I have ran twice today, every time I get angry I go for a run. I need to go buy more gum as well. I have bitten all my fingers down to a bloody stub. I don't even think I can write a paragraph let alone a sentence. My brain feels like it is in sand and these 2 days feel like 2 years. Time is moving like well like slow as fuck.
I found out that I will be a father in 9 months, and I am so glad I am going through this shit now. There is no way that I will let myself be an asshole when my child is born, let alone die of cancer.
Time to grow the fuck up and realize this life it not about me and stop being so fucking selfish.
I think I will go for another run, since I am not making any sense what so ever.
Oh and if any of you have not read the post of getting gum graphs in "words of wisdom" go read it now. Never again.
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nice job. enjoy the suck..... and always remember it. you only have to go through it once. keep up the awesome work proud of you. check your in box for my number. you got this..
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If I had to put money one this, I would push all my chips to the center of the table and bet we will be reading a HOF speech from FUDIP.
Looks like we have a bad ass quitter in the making.
FUDIP, I like your style and I am heading to your group and quitting with you today.
Stay the course. You're in hell and to get out, just keep walking.
Great job! The running is a great idea. Also drink shit tons of water. Another thing that helped was Arnold palmers for some reason. Drank em by the gallon the first few days. Can't remember having one since then. Remember how these two days feel, and know you'll have to repeat it if you fuck up. But You won't fuck up cus you posted roll today, and you are a man of your word and I am proud to quit with you today. PM me if you need anything.
Your quit looks good on you!
seriously it looks really good one you...really good. B)
hey FUDIP,
You're drinking the Kool Aid that will save your life...stay thirsty sir!
Post every a.m. the earlier the better for your quit, keep your word to yourself and your brothers for the day, get to bed wake and repeat and your daze will stack up before you know it.
Great to see another addict who "gets it" and who wants his freedom!!! 'bang head'
Just remember, change is a process not an event. We start our process of being quit every day by posting roll. It is sacred and has kept me quit for 263 days.
As a 30 yr 24/7 1-2 can a day dumbass dipper, I know that if I can do this, then YOU can TOO.
Remember day 1, as to never ever do day 1 again!!! 'zombie'