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[brandon2239]

Just keeping you guys updated I went to er as to I was freaking out about this lump in my mouth and my teeth are not in that great of shape I haven't took Carr of them the way I should have and snuff on top of that, but anyways to the point they didn't do any drays or CT scans he looked at my mouth said my gums looked fine so wasn't worried about the big C word yet..he said it was a swollen lymph node in my mouth due to my teeth in bad shape, gave me antibiotics said if gets any bigger or doesn't go away in 2 weeks to return for CT scans...so all of you please pray that he is correct with his diagnosis..although I have never heard of swollen lymph nodes in mouth have any of you??

[Greg5280]

Brandon,
Go get your mouth checked out. I got so worried early on that I went to the doctor, dentist, another doctor, the ER, another doctor. I wound up going to my family doctor so much she finally told me to stop coming in.
I would wake up every morning and inspect my mouth endlessly. I had a flashlight, mirror, tounge depressers right by the sink and would do a mouth inspection every morning. I even had my wife checking every now and then.

I had the same questions you did, am I too late, what if I have already fuct myself and my family, etc... the games you mind will play on you are endless. The fact is with all my trips to the doctor they found nothing, I was spending money unnecessarily. I was also freaking myself and my family out for no reason, I had to learn to control the voices in my head. You can do the same thing.

Go get yourself checked out so you know you are fine. Then begin working on the games you are playing with yourself. You CAN quit dipping, You CAN control your anxiety, You CAN live a life free from tobacco.

I was you, I remember it vividly. Continue to post roll and stay clean. Work out the problems as you go.

We are here if you need us.

STAY QUIT
Greg

[Roamcountry]

See the problem is I have no insurance so its so hard to get in to see a doctor or dentist about the lump, it could be from where I dipped on that side for so long its sunk in farther then other side, I have no white patches no sore throat no bleeding or bad sores, its just ever since I threw the can down I have been freaking out about it nonstop what if it's to late what if it doesn't matter if I throw the can down, its worried me so much past 2 1/2 days I have worried so bad that my wife has to old me like a lil baby while I fight back tears I just dunno what to do

Totally been there and done that, crying like dead already and all, loot is right, see an ENT, ear nose throat specialist. I dont have insurance either, but call around and find out some cash prices, may have to pay a little more for first visit, I got into one a few years back and cost me 140, after that its like 80 some bucks to get in, its quick painless and worth the cash for the peace of mind. if you chewed even a can a day at $5 a can its only one month to pay for it, so spend it in advance knowing you will be saving it back soon.

[brandon2239]

See the problem is I have no insurance so its so hard to get in to see a doctor or dentist about the lump, it could be from where I dipped on that side for so long its sunk in farther then other side, I have no white patches no sore throat no bleeding or bad sores, its just ever since I threw the can down I have been freaking out about it nonstop what if it's to late what if it doesn't matter if I throw the can down, its worried me so much past 2 1/2 days I have worried so bad that my wife has to old me like a lil baby while I fight back tears I just dunno what to do

[loot]

Dearest Brando:

LOOT has been in your shoes. Not with a lump, but with a persistent (3-4 months) sore throat. Worrying incessantly. Making deals with JC. Being clean for a couple months before the ENT appt. Saying a prayer before going in, "If it's not cancer, LOOT'll quit for good, promise". Only to get cleared and stop at the C-Store on the way home. No shit. Addicts are a fuct up lot.

Skip the dentist. Make an appt with an ENT or an oral cancer specialist. LOOT's sure it's nothing...but get your ass in there nonetheless. Pronto. And...whatever you do, don't take a clean bill of health as a green light to continue to feed your addiction.

Cancer is black and white. You either have it or you don't. One dip starts the reaction that leads to you eating from a straw while you disfigured face heals from a surgeons scalpel. Don't temp fate.

You are probably here because you are scared shitless. We've all experienced that feeling. You are not alone in that fact...nor are you alone in quitting. These people can and will save you from your own stupid self if you care enough to let them.

One day at a time bro. You can do it. You have to do it. Make that appt.

Your friend in clean,
LOOT

[Roamcountry]

I was doing a oral exam on myself ( I can't seem to stop messing with my mouth) and I noticed I lump about pea size I can move it a little about a inch up or down its right under a tooth I have been freaking out nonstop, its not noticeable by looking but I can feel it, any others having that info would help thank you guys for any help asap

I still have bumps that i cant see but can feel, but seriously, the only way to get peace of mind is to go see a dentist and get an oral cancer exam. Its really the only way you will start to relax, stay quit, post roll, keep going, you can do it!

[Souliman]

Got see a doctor. Put your mind at a rest.

[lhelms12]

Brandon... I don't think we have any dentists here. So no one can really give you a definite answer. If you see a dentist, the best thing to do is to go see him. It could be something serious ( I seriously doubt it) but it would probably calm your mind to get a clean bill of health

helms

[brandon2239]

I was doing a oral exam on myself ( I can't seem to stop messing with my mouth) and I noticed I lump about pea size I can move it a little about a inch up or down its right under a tooth I have been freaking out nonstop, its not noticeable by looking but I can feel it, any others having that info would help thank you guys for any help asap

[brandon2239]

OK gotcha that's a lot easier, its a pay as you go phone boostmobile..

[Wedge]

If you have to post roll from a phone, best thing to do is to avoid posting roll like we normally do and just do a fresh post in the quit group.



Wedgie - day 85. Someone add me to roll please.




Like that.

[Roamcountry]

No I don't my wife was very bad at taking care of laptop and it messed up awhile back so for now stuck with just phone..oh and can I add that people who have never been hooked can't understand how hard this is, you guys that have made it day 100 and more are inspiration

What kind of phone do you have?

[brandon2239]

No I don't my wife was very bad at taking care of laptop and it messed up awhile back so for now stuck with just phone..oh and can I add that people who have never been hooked can't understand how hard this is, you guys that have made it day 100 and more are inspiration

[lhelms12]

Brandon,

I kinda doubt that you can post roll on your phone because you have the cut and paste previous posts. Maybe on an iphone you can do it... but I haven't tried yet. Do you not have access to a computer?

helms

[Roamcountry]

I keep seeing this thing called post roll but I only have access to this site via my phone and I can't view video on how to do it, but I am 2 days quit no cave just a bunch of awful thoughts and worries

I just asked one of the "smart" ones to see if he can help here, i am not that tech savvy, sorry, still learning this stuff myself.