I am finally off the damn tractor and your right, it ran just fine without copenhagen. I ate a shit load of herbal snuff and orbit gum, but I made it another day. Thanks for the support, you are the only guys that I could find that understand my struggle to take my life back. I did not understand the control it had on every aspect of my life, it was as second nature as eating, sleeping, and shitting. Couldn't accomplish one damn thing without worm shit in my mouth, but now I see the light. Tomorrow I will face the tractor again, and I will be free.