Who is Ted

[FMBM707]

Congrats on the 1 year! Truly Fucking Awesome!

Who is Ted? One bad-ass of a quit brother of mine and all the killers! A model of consistency, and an inspiration to many newer quitters he's reached out to. Congrats!! Savor the accomplishment- you really should. Then post another day tomorrow!

Brett you know this guy better than me. All I got to say is that is one good year of freedom for TED!!!! Enjoy another day tomorrow man!!!!

Congrats on 365! Enjoyed reading the intro- struck a cord! Quit with you!

[Doc2quit4good]

Congrats on the 1 year! Truly Fucking Awesome!

Who is Ted? One bad-ass of a quit brother of mine and all the killers! A model of consistency, and an inspiration to many newer quitters he's reached out to. Congrats!! Savor the accomplishment- you really should. Then post another day tomorrow!

Brett you know this guy better than me. All I got to say is that is one good year of freedom for TED!!!! Enjoy another day tomorrow man!!!!

[brettlees]

Congrats on the 1 year! Truly Fucking Awesome!

Who is Ted? One bad-ass of a quit brother of mine and all the killers! A model of consistency, and an inspiration to many newer quitters he's reached out to. Congrats!! Savor the accomplishment- you really should. Then post another day tomorrow!

[schaef418]

Congrats on the 1 year! Truly Fucking Awesome!

[DaveKnight]

Finally broke. Finally admitted dip was kicking my ass, taking my life, my heart, mind and soul in a twisted way. Couldn't admit it controlled me. I've quit a thousand times, once for 6 years but still came back. The worst part is being alone with the addiction. Alone with the fear. Started before college, stopped once for 6 years, but figure I've dipped for about 12 years. Cope for 5 years, then Skoal Mint, then both. At least a can a day. I've had infected tonsils, sore throats, numb lips, sores and every time I was terrified I had cancer but kept dipping, in fear and anger and utterly hating myself.

My family never knew. I was keeping a secret and living a lie. Then back in June my 11 year old daughter took a drink from a spit cup I left out by accident. My two kids cried when they found out I was dipping, they thought it meant I would die right away. From that day on, my 8 year old son asked me EVERY day if I was still dipping. It broke my heart to tell him the truth and then keep dipping. I broke his heart every day and he kept asking every day. I'm an asshole. I'm that broken, selfish and addicted. Weak. Powerless. I've played the victim card long enough. I'm two days into my quit. I am thankful to have stumbled onto Killthecan at 1AM the night before last. I registered and posted roll.

The next morning I was struggling with the idea of getting a can of dip on the way to work. But I got a note from one of you guys encouraging me. Right on the spot, I broke. Totally burst and broke down and cried like I was a kid. For the first time ever I wasn't fighting this fucking addiction alone. I sat there and sobbed like a dumbass because I was free. Empowered. In control. The truth, my truth, is out there with this community...and I'm free. The truth set me free to face this head on but not by will power but truth. I have to believe this relates to knowing the truth and the truth setting you free. I'm free. I don't ever want to be chained again but have to admit I need help. I need you guys.

About me: I'm 45. Married 16 years to a wonderful woman. Have a daughter 11, son 8. I'm a Christian but only by the grace of God. I have been a runner all my life. Road and trail races from 5k to 50milers. Then broke my ankle and have had two surgeries. Raised in Maine. Played foot ball, won a couple individual state titles in wrestling and have always worked in construction. No greater satisfaction for me than gutting an old home and making it groovy. Since college my career has revolved around designing, developing and marketing consumer products. I am Director of Innovation for a fitness products company and love it. I'm doing better than I deserve.

That's it.

Give me your number if you need anything. I'll talk you through the knot holes if you're struggling and about to walk into the convenience store for "just one dip".

Tibor
(aka "Ted")

Ted,
I am with you here. I have broken down 3 out of the past seven nights of this quit. There is some terrible irony that i cant sleep but am simultaniously exhasted. Do you still reside in maine? My wife and i visited there for the first time this past july. We went to boothe bay which is likely a place you hate for tourist reasons. I entered a rock skipping competiton there. Yeah, no shit. It was sponsered by the local candy shop. I scouted for rocks with my wife the night before and realized that your rocks suck. No getting around it. Here in Buffalo ny we have sedementary rock which form sweet little layers of perfectly flat, 1/4" thick, surface tension defying magic. You guys have rocks that might be flattened to something shy of 1/2 width over height. Needless to say i did not place in the competition with only seven skips. Next year i bring my own rocks.
The point i was trying to get to is that i remember that day because as it was my turn to do my three skips, i walked past a really pretty mom. Her kids were in the competition. She smiled at me and i could only nod back to here because i had a face full of spit that needed to be "subtley" deposited on the beach. How fucking embarassing. My wife and her got to chatting later and we became casual aquaintances for the weekend. I want no more first impressions like this. I dont want to come to your awessome state and spit cancer juice on it.
Stay strong through the withdrawl. Let me know your thoughts.
-Neil aka grizzfall

Slug,

I feel you. I met my wife's co-workers with a face full of tobacco. So embarrassing. I am glad I will no longer have any first impressions like that. People probably think I'm a turd (those who have seen me with a face full of chew). I'm lucky my wife didn't say anything, I know she was probably embarrassed too.

[Mthomas3824]

Ted, I like your style and quit with you today.

[THansen2413]

Finally broke. Finally admitted dip was kicking my ass, taking my life, my heart, mind and soul in a twisted way. Couldn't admit it controlled me. I've quit a thousand times, once for 6 years but still came back. The worst part is being alone with the addiction. Alone with the fear. Started before college, stopped once for 6 years, but figure I've dipped for about 12 years. Cope for 5 years, then Skoal Mint, then both. At least a can a day. I've had infected tonsils, sore throats, numb lips, sores and every time I was terrified I had cancer but kept dipping, in fear and anger and utterly hating myself.

My family never knew. I was keeping a secret and living a lie. Then back in June my 11 year old daughter took a drink from a spit cup I left out by accident. My two kids cried when they found out I was dipping, they thought it meant I would die right away. From that day on, my 8 year old son asked me EVERY day if I was still dipping. It broke my heart to tell him the truth and then keep dipping. I broke his heart every day and he kept asking every day. I'm an asshole. I'm that broken, selfish and addicted. Weak. Powerless. I've played the victim card long enough. I'm two days into my quit. I am thankful to have stumbled onto Killthecan at 1AM the night before last. I registered and posted roll.

The next morning I was struggling with the idea of getting a can of dip on the way to work. But I got a note from one of you guys encouraging me. Right on the spot, I broke. Totally burst and broke down and cried like I was a kid. For the first time ever I wasn't fighting this fucking addiction alone. I sat there and sobbed like a dumbass because I was free. Empowered. In control. The truth, my truth, is out there with this community...and I'm free. The truth set me free to face this head on but not by will power but truth. I have to believe this relates to knowing the truth and the truth setting you free. I'm free. I don't ever want to be chained again but have to admit I need help. I need you guys.

About me: I'm 45. Married 16 years to a wonderful woman. Have a daughter 11, son 8. I'm a Christian but only by the grace of God. I have been a runner all my life. Road and trail races from 5k to 50milers. Then broke my ankle and have had two surgeries. Raised in Maine. Played foot ball, won a couple individual state titles in wrestling and have always worked in construction. No greater satisfaction for me than gutting an old home and making it groovy. Since college my career has revolved around designing, developing and marketing consumer products. I am Director of Innovation for a fitness products company and love it. I'm doing better than I deserve.

That's it.

Give me your number if you need anything. I'll talk you through the knot holes if you're struggling and about to walk into the convenience store for "just one dip".

Tibor
(aka "Ted")

Powerful stuff, Ted. Thanks for sharing.

Wow Ted! Inspiring and brutally honest introduction. That means a lot to a young quitter like myself. I don't have a spouse/girlfriend. I don't have any kids. What I do appreciate is honesty, and owning up to your addiction and, controlling your quit. Quitting w/you today!

[slug.go]

Finally broke. Finally admitted dip was kicking my ass, taking my life, my heart, mind and soul in a twisted way. Couldn't admit it controlled me. I've quit a thousand times, once for 6 years but still came back. The worst part is being alone with the addiction. Alone with the fear. Started before college, stopped once for 6 years, but figure I've dipped for about 12 years. Cope for 5 years, then Skoal Mint, then both. At least a can a day. I've had infected tonsils, sore throats, numb lips, sores and every time I was terrified I had cancer but kept dipping, in fear and anger and utterly hating myself.

My family never knew. I was keeping a secret and living a lie. Then back in June my 11 year old daughter took a drink from a spit cup I left out by accident. My two kids cried when they found out I was dipping, they thought it meant I would die right away. From that day on, my 8 year old son asked me EVERY day if I was still dipping. It broke my heart to tell him the truth and then keep dipping. I broke his heart every day and he kept asking every day. I'm an asshole. I'm that broken, selfish and addicted. Weak. Powerless. I've played the victim card long enough. I'm two days into my quit. I am thankful to have stumbled onto Killthecan at 1AM the night before last. I registered and posted roll.

The next morning I was struggling with the idea of getting a can of dip on the way to work. But I got a note from one of you guys encouraging me. Right on the spot, I broke. Totally burst and broke down and cried like I was a kid. For the first time ever I wasn't fighting this fucking addiction alone. I sat there and sobbed like a dumbass because I was free. Empowered. In control. The truth, my truth, is out there with this community...and I'm free. The truth set me free to face this head on but not by will power but truth. I have to believe this relates to knowing the truth and the truth setting you free. I'm free. I don't ever want to be chained again but have to admit I need help. I need you guys.

About me: I'm 45. Married 16 years to a wonderful woman. Have a daughter 11, son 8. I'm a Christian but only by the grace of God. I have been a runner all my life. Road and trail races from 5k to 50milers. Then broke my ankle and have had two surgeries. Raised in Maine. Played foot ball, won a couple individual state titles in wrestling and have always worked in construction. No greater satisfaction for me than gutting an old home and making it groovy. Since college my career has revolved around designing, developing and marketing consumer products. I am Director of Innovation for a fitness products company and love it. I'm doing better than I deserve.

That's it.

Give me your number if you need anything. I'll talk you through the knot holes if you're struggling and about to walk into the convenience store for "just one dip".

Tibor
(aka "Ted")

Powerful stuff, Ted. Thanks for sharing.

[J2thaZ]

Gotta say it was a real honor and pleasure to meet you Ted, a fellow Jan 14 Nic Killer! Since you are not on the boards much but are a stalwart roll poster and firmly committed to a strong quit, I was glad to grab a burger  beer and share some conversation. Means a lot to meet a fellow quitter in person!

Thanks for posting this today, so that Ted's intro popped up near the top. I hadn't read it, and it made my quit stronger today.

Damn. If this intro doesn't strengthen your resolve to stay quit, you're the Tinman. Thanks Ted.

[Lipizzaner]

Gotta say it was a real honor and pleasure to meet you Ted, a fellow Jan 14 Nic Killer! Since you are not on the boards much but are a stalwart roll poster and firmly committed to a strong quit, I was glad to grab a burger  beer and share some conversation. Means a lot to meet a fellow quitter in person!

Thanks for posting this today, so that Ted's intro popped up near the top. I hadn't read it, and it made my quit stronger today.

[brettlees]

Gotta say it was a real honor and pleasure to meet you Ted, a fellow Jan 14 Nic Killer! Since you are not on the boards much but are a stalwart roll poster and firmly committed to a strong quit, I was glad to grab a burger  beer and share some conversation. Means a lot to meet a fellow quitter in person!

[Dougie]

Being new to KTC have to tell you its tough to describe how cool it is to have the support. My sincere thanks for the messages. I definitely want to connect and take any excuse to meet up with you guys in or near OKC. Beer in OKC? Good grief YES. I'll send you my info.

Ted
Day 7 of a new life

KEEP UP THE WORK

[Ted]

Being new to KTC have to tell you its tough to describe how cool it is to have the support. My sincere thanks for the messages. I definitely want to connect and take any excuse to meet up with you guys in or near OKC. Beer in OKC? Good grief YES. I'll send you my info.

Ted
Day 7 of a new life

[Kdip]

Ted, I was in your shoes for over 30 years myself. I was a ninja and my wife never knew I dipped or smoked. I had only "tried" dip and hated it. I "only bummed smokes in a bar". All lies as I averaged a can a day all behind my wife's and daughter's backs. I have found out since that my daughter knew after drinking out a a nasty diet coke can spitter in my truck. Ted, I hope you have come completely clean with your wife and family. You MUST do this if your quit is going to stick for the long haul. I have been off that crap for over 5 years and I still miss it at times......BUT not enough to ever stuff my lip with that life sucking crap ever again!!!! I live in TX and come to OK on business from time to time. I would like to meet you sometime when I come up your way if you are interested. There are also several sstrong quitters in the OKC that are always up for a beer. Meeting other quitters will cement your quit!!! Send me a PM if you would like to talk.

Kdip - Day 1869

[wmcatty]

Welcome to KTC Ted...and nice job of posting roll this morning. You have received some sound advice from some very sound quitters. Take it to heart and utilize all the tools that you have been introduced to. PM me if you need anything.