Hey there, I am in the same boat. It has only been a couple of days for me. I came home Friday and committed to quit. The weekend was easier for me, filled with time for my family and easy to keep my mind off of it because I could keep busy. The work week and this morning I was not ready for. Drive in is usually spent with my first dip. Get in, log onto my computer, get some water and have another dip. Conference calls, another dip, lunch - more dip. And so on..... Whenever I wanted a dip today I got up and got a glass of water, chewed some gum, or had a jolly rancher. Something, ANYTHING except for tossing that shit in my mouth. Ride home was pure torture as I has to stop for gas. My normal routine includes going in, picking up a tin and getting gas. Not today, paid at the pump and was on my way
Got home, had dinner and thought......I normally would have a dip. So I did some work around the house shook it off. I realize that I can get support here but at the end of the day I have to say no, I have to want this. You can do this but you have to say no. Triggers are not going away, you are still going to drive, you are still going to shower (we hope), you are still going to work - you are just going to do these things without dip - because the truth is dip doesnt make you do them better. Hang in there bud the first couple days fucking blow but I am feeling a little bit better coming into day four. One day at a time.