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[srans]

Day 32!

I never thought I would be here... but it feels FUCKING AWESOME! Yes my mouth is still healing... yes I still have to damn urges and the nic bitch tries to fuck with me... but never again! She fucked with me for 24 years... I am glad to see her gone.

Today I feel UNSTOPPABLE... POWERFUL... SUCCESSFUL. I never thought I would feel this way by quitting... it is awesome. To all those just starting a quit... endure... you will be powerful!!

TODAY I QUIT!

Sportster4ever

Great job, hold on as day 31 was just like day 1 for me again. It lasted 7 days but when I pulled out of that second fog, things were way easier from that point on.

From my timeline:

"Day 31-38: Freaking fog was back, some nasty craves and my temper way out of control. WTF!"

Enjoy your day my friend. Sharpen those tools and be ready. Trust me,, the poison is not done yet! 32 days is great and shows your determination and drive. Proud of you. One day at a time and congrats on your quit. Glad to be quit with you.

[ParadigmDawg]

Day 32!

I never thought I would be here... but it feels FUCKING AWESOME! Yes my mouth is still healing... yes I still have to damn urges and the nic bitch tries to fuck with me... but never again! She fucked with me for 24 years... I am glad to see her gone.

Today I feel UNSTOPPABLE... POWERFUL... SUCCESSFUL. I never thought I would feel this way by quitting... it is awesome. To all those just starting a quit... endure... you will be powerful!!

TODAY I QUIT!

Sportster4ever

Great job, hold on as day 31 was just like day 1 for me again. It lasted 7 days but when I pulled out of that second fog, things were way easier from that point on.

From my timeline:

"Day 31-38: Freaking fog was back, some nasty craves and my temper way out of control. WTF!"

[Sportster4Ever]

Day 32!

I never thought I would be here... but it feels FUCKING AWESOME! Yes my mouth is still healing... yes I still have to damn urges and the nic bitch tries to fuck with me... but never again! She fucked with me for 24 years... I am glad to see her gone.

Today I feel UNSTOPPABLE... POWERFUL... SUCCESSFUL. I never thought I would feel this way by quitting... it is awesome. To all those just starting a quit... endure... you will be powerful!!

TODAY I QUIT!

Sportster4ever

[Mike from AB]

I know I need a re-wire.. but how long does that take.

I got good news and bad. I like to start with good news first!!! You will do this one day at at a time. You screwed your brain for years,, I say again YEARS!! I'll let you add the days up on your own. You'll probably need a calculator. I say that to say this,,, 16 days is just the beginning. I didn't begin feeling better until about 40 days in. Maybe you will be different though,, you never no. In time you will start to feel better and begin feeling somewhat normal. What is normal exactly!?!? Your guess is as good as mine.

Bad news. There is a door you need to get to. This door is hard to get to and open. Sharpen your tools, settle in and make your way to the door. I can't tell you how far the door is or how long it will be before you get to this door. You WILL get there one day at a time. I make you one promise and you can take it to the bank. You stay the course, and live by this rule (nafar) you will love where this quit takes you. Life is so much better without the poison. Glad to be quit with you.

What Srans said. 16 days in is awesome, but it's just the beginning. I was 50 days basically before I'm just starting to feel better now. So just look at it as one day at a time. That's the way you'll get to taht door for sure!

[Derk40]

Jail Time:

Never had I thought in the 24 years that I was in jail cell. Now I feel it more than ever. My brain plays tricks on me... I expect to be getting that chew after dinner.. .but I am quit!! I know I need a re-wire.. but how long does that take. I hate that I an addict and will have to deal with this forever. I hate seeing the 22 yr old at work spitting in his cup... know what it will be like 24 years later. Nicotine is the BITCH... the one that never wants to leave no matter how many times you kick her out of your head. She had worked her way into every facet of my awake self.. telling me I want more and more and more. She continues to try and consume my thoughts and desire.

I have anger... anger that enables me to to be a Nic Killer! That anger is something that prompts me to get up and get busy! It is an anger that I have felt since day 1 but only now am I beginning to use it in a healthy way. I chose this path.. now it is up to me to deal with it and fight. Something when in jail (dipping), I didn't... couldn't have done! Today I am grateful for feeling.. even if it means I need to hit the gym or hit the punching bag... I am a NIC KILLER!!!!

Dude, you're 16 days in your quit today. You've got this thing licked. Get mad at her. Stomp a mudhole in that evil bitch's ass and walk it dry and when you get done, tell her to make you bacon sandwich!!

Seriously though, It does suck but its just mind games now. Stay busy. Do what you gotta do to get her out of your head. Hell, if you lived closer, we could hop on our bikes and we'd blast down the road for some 2 wheel therapy. 'oh yeah'

Call or text me if you want to reach out brother. I quit with you everyday!

'pump'

I disagree. You have nothing licked yet. I understand Punkin may have meant that a little differently, but never...... NEVER let your guard down. That's when this addiction will kick your ass. When things seems to get easy, enjoy it, but remain vigilant. Nicotine is sneaky.

Read SRANS's post. That is the gospel. Until that door slams shut, we have to fight this thing constantly.

I'm angry too. Read my HOF speech (linked below) and you'll get that. Channel that anger. It worked for me. That speech was a long time ago. I used the word "habit" a few times. I was an idiot in that respect.

Listen to Radman. BTW... You were running around in jail the entire time you were dipping... u just did not realize it. That was the jail sentence!!! You were mind numb to it!

The day you decided to quit is the day you were released from your prison sentence. You are Free brother!! You are quit today!!! The goal for today is simple... stay quit  stay out of jail! Right now, you are learning how to live outside your cell. This is not unlike an inmate that has been locked up for a long time behind bars.

It will take time to adjust and you do not have anything licked! You need to keep at this today! Stay to the KTC plan  do what it takes to stay quit today. You can do this brother!!! Quit with you today!

[Radman]

Jail Time:

Never had I thought in the 24 years that I was in jail cell. Now I feel it more than ever. My brain plays tricks on me... I expect to be getting that chew after dinner.. .but I am quit!! I know I need a re-wire.. but how long does that take. I hate that I an addict and will have to deal with this forever. I hate seeing the 22 yr old at work spitting in his cup... know what it will be like 24 years later. Nicotine is the BITCH... the one that never wants to leave no matter how many times you kick her out of your head. She had worked her way into every facet of my awake self.. telling me I want more and more and more. She continues to try and consume my thoughts and desire.

I have anger... anger that enables me to to be a Nic Killer! That anger is something that prompts me to get up and get busy! It is an anger that I have felt since day 1 but only now am I beginning to use it in a healthy way. I chose this path.. now it is up to me to deal with it and fight. Something when in jail (dipping), I didn't... couldn't have done! Today I am grateful for feeling.. even if it means I need to hit the gym or hit the punching bag... I am a NIC KILLER!!!!

Dude, you're 16 days in your quit today. You've got this thing licked. Get mad at her. Stomp a mudhole in that evil bitch's ass and walk it dry and when you get done, tell her to make you bacon sandwich!!

Seriously though, It does suck but its just mind games now. Stay busy. Do what you gotta do to get her out of your head. Hell, if you lived closer, we could hop on our bikes and we'd blast down the road for some 2 wheel therapy. 'oh yeah'

Call or text me if you want to reach out brother. I quit with you everyday!

'pump'

I disagree. You have nothing licked yet. I understand Punkin may have meant that a little differently, but never...... NEVER let your guard down. That's when this addiction will kick your ass. When things seems to get easy, enjoy it, but remain vigilant. Nicotine is sneaky.

Read SRANS's post. That is the gospel. Until that door slams shut, we have to fight this thing constantly.

I'm angry too. Read my HOF speech (linked below) and you'll get that. Channel that anger. It worked for me. That speech was a long time ago. I used the word "habit" a few times. I was an idiot in that respect.

[ParadigmDawg]

Jail is much worse than not dipping according to some friend's of mine...lol...

Dude, you are in the mix of the hurt right now. Day 15 was when it started getting a lot easier for me. Of coarse, there were days later on that got a lot harder but you learn to take the good days, as a time to heal and get ready to fight the hard days.

You have the strength to do this brother.

[srans]

I know I need a re-wire.. but how long does that take.

I got good news and bad. I like to start with good news first!!! You will do this one day at at a time. You screwed your brain for years,, I say again YEARS!! I'll let you add the days up on your own. You'll probably need a calculator. I say that to say this,,, 16 days is just the beginning. I didn't begin feeling better until about 40 days in. Maybe you will be different though,, you never no. In time you will start to feel better and begin feeling somewhat normal. What is normal exactly!?!? Your guess is as good as mine.

Bad news. There is a door you need to get to. This door is hard to get to and open. Sharpen your tools, settle in and make your way to the door. I can't tell you how far the door is or how long it will be before you get to this door. You WILL get there one day at a time. I make you one promise and you can take it to the bank. You stay the course, and live by this rule (nafar) you will love where this quit takes you. Life is so much better without the poison. Glad to be quit with you.

[Punkin]

Jail Time:

Never had I thought in the 24 years that I was in jail cell. Now I feel it more than ever. My brain plays tricks on me... I expect to be getting that chew after dinner.. .but I am quit!! I know I need a re-wire.. but how long does that take. I hate that I an addict and will have to deal with this forever. I hate seeing the 22 yr old at work spitting in his cup... know what it will be like 24 years later. Nicotine is the BITCH... the one that never wants to leave no matter how many times you kick her out of your head. She had worked her way into every facet of my awake self.. telling me I want more and more and more. She continues to try and consume my thoughts and desire.

I have anger... anger that enables me to to be a Nic Killer! That anger is something that prompts me to get up and get busy! It is an anger that I have felt since day 1 but only now am I beginning to use it in a healthy way. I chose this path.. now it is up to me to deal with it and fight. Something when in jail (dipping), I didn't... couldn't have done! Today I am grateful for feeling.. even if it means I need to hit the gym or hit the punching bag... I am a NIC KILLER!!!!

Dude, you're 16 days in your quit today. You've got this thing licked. Get mad at her. Stomp a mudhole in that evil bitch's ass and walk it dry and when you get done, tell her to make you bacon sandwich!!

Seriously though, It does suck but its just mind games now. Stay busy. Do what you gotta do to get her out of your head. Hell, if you lived closer, we could hop on our bikes and we'd blast down the road for some 2 wheel therapy. 'oh yeah'

Call or text me if you want to reach out brother. I quit with you everyday!

'pump'

[Sportster4Ever]

Jail Time:

Never had I thought in the 24 years that I was in jail cell. Now I feel it more than ever. My brain plays tricks on me... I expect to be getting that chew after dinner.. .but I am quit!! I know I need a re-wire.. but how long does that take. I hate that I an addict and will have to deal with this forever. I hate seeing the 22 yr old at work spitting in his cup... know what it will be like 24 years later. Nicotine is the BITCH... the one that never wants to leave no matter how many times you kick her out of your head. She had worked her way into every facet of my awake self.. telling me I want more and more and more. She continues to try and consume my thoughts and desire.

I have anger... anger that enables me to to be a Nic Killer! That anger is something that prompts me to get up and get busy! It is an anger that I have felt since day 1 but only now am I beginning to use it in a healthy way. I chose this path.. now it is up to me to deal with it and fight. Something when in jail (dipping), I didn't... couldn't have done! Today I am grateful for feeling.. even if it means I need to hit the gym or hit the punching bag... I am a NIC KILLER!!!!

[Mjollnir]

Go to the gym, get some serious cardio. And drink water all day.

The trick to drinking water is not to gulp it, but to sip it. This was it soaks into your body instead of running through.

[jzzyzag01]

I've found that throwing 3 or 4 pieces of gum in at the same time and chewing it like I was trying to destroy it has helped the craves and also snuff out (pardon the pun) the anger. I take it out on the gum because the gum takes it and never complains about how rough I'm being.

QLF today with you brother. Proud to be a Dec 2013 Super Soldier with you.

jz

[Derk40]

The craves continue although I am getting better at resisting. I hate eating lunch because once I am done the crave all afternoon. My saving grace at night is chat. When I sleep I dream of craving.. although I haven't chewed in my dream. I still can't wrap my head around how the nic bitch took over my thoughts, desires, emotions etc. Today I had to call on friend since I was feeling more than anger... I wanted to lash out. But I talked and felt better! It is like a game... but then reality hits!

Your doing great, be proud friend. Quitting sucks. I remember being where your at. It was not long ago. It was so worth it!! My life now is so much better without the poison. Stay the course,,, you have no idea how much better things will be for you.

You stated you can't wrap your head around how. I always recommend reading everything you can get your hands on about nicotine and addiction. Learning this addiction will help you understand and makes the battle easier.

Quitting comes from deep brother. Your building a new you. The foundation is the hardest part. You will complete it one day at a time.

My last word. You stated your getting better at resisting. Brother,, for over 7 days you have not touched the poison. That's resisting at its finest for over 1 week. You got this and I'm damn proud to be quit with you.

Posting day 11 today is a big accomplishment. Nice job talking thru the anger yesterday. That is how you have to do it. Try to turn the tables today at lunch... instead of dreading eating lunch... man, look forward to lunch today! Then sit thru those craves all afternoon  revel in the fact that you are QLF. Get up take a walk, drink some water, chew a piece of gum... whatever it takes. Remember that every crave killed today is a victory. You are winning this battle brother! I'm quit with you today!

[srans]

The craves continue although I am getting better at resisting. I hate eating lunch because once I am done the crave all afternoon. My saving grace at night is chat. When I sleep I dream of craving.. although I haven't chewed in my dream. I still can't wrap my head around how the nic bitch took over my thoughts, desires, emotions etc. Today I had to call on friend since I was feeling more than anger... I wanted to lash out. But I talked and felt better! It is like a game... but then reality hits!

Your doing great, be proud friend. Quitting sucks. I remember being where your at. It was not long ago. It was so worth it!! My life now is so much better without the poison. Stay the course,,, you have no idea how much better things will be for you.

You stated you can't wrap your head around how. I always recommend reading everything you can get your hands on about nicotine and addiction. Learning this addiction will help you understand and makes the battle easier.

Quitting comes from deep brother. Your building a new you. The foundation is the hardest part. You will complete it one day at a time.

My last word. You stated your getting better at resisting. Brother,, for over 7 days you have not touched the poison. That's resisting at its finest for over 1 week. You got this and I'm damn proud to be quit with you.

[Sportster4Ever]

The craves continue although I am getting better at resisting. I hate eating lunch because once I am done the crave all afternoon. My saving grace at night is chat. When I sleep I dream of craving.. although I haven't chewed in my dream. I still can't wrap my head around how the nic bitch took over my thoughts, desires, emotions etc. Today I had to call on friend since I was feeling more than anger... I wanted to lash out. But I talked and felt better! It is like a game... but then reality hits!