Thanks all. W2W and Tuco couldn't be more right. When I started this a year ago I thought I was losing a best friend, the only companion that didn't judge me, my release from life, my anti-anxiety and anti-depressant medications, and my connection with my buddies.
That was all b.s. Every bit of it. It seems like forever ago now, but on this date in 2015, I was so deep into my slavery that I could barely keep my nose above water to keep from drowning. I now know that all nicotine did was keep me addicted to nicotine. It didn't help my anxiety, my relationships, my mood, my personality, my life. It stole, lied, and cheated me. In turn, I stole, lied, and cheated every one around me. ODAAT I changed that reality. I am closer to my kids, a better husband, more alive than I could have ever dreamed, and live life to the fullest now rather than between dips.
Joining this site was the answer. The tools I have acquired in the last 12 months will never let me down so long as I keep them sharp.
Thanks to everyone on this site, but especially the FUN Bags and those that have stuck by me throughout this journey with unwavering support, accountability, and brother(sister - here's looking at you ChickDip ;))hood. I fully intend to continue to pay it forward, and maybe I can help some sorry sucker that bumbles onto this site, just like you all did for this sorry sucker. 'Cheers'