Hey guys, King here with a brief introduction. I dipped for the first time my senior year of college to impress some of the folks I was hanging around. I would chew randomly here and there for the next four or five years, probably less than a can a month. In fact, I often had to toss cans because the dip resembled pencil shavings rather than dip before I would finish the can.
At any rate, life started to pick up a little, and I found (edit: thought I found) a way to handle it. Then it became fun to do camping, drinking, fishing, golfing, watching sports, playing cards, etc. Got married, had a kid. Dipping started to really pick up and about three years ago, I "escaped" with dip to the tune of half a can to a can a day. I've stopped a few times, because I never really grasped the addiction part of addiction and told myself I could handle just "slowing down" instead of quitting altogether. After reading a lot on KTC, I've found that I'm not the only one to have thought that they could control the addiction while using rather than the other way around, and for me this is incredibly empowering.
On day 8 right now and I have already learned a ton on KTC. I'm so jacked to be here, and pumped to get to share in the success of other quitters that just couldn't get it done on our own. I used to be afraid to admit that, but I know now that I cannot do this myself. I need the accountability and I need the brotherhood to make this work.
Sorry for the rambling but a couple more things before I go. First, the reason I chose KingNothing is the following verse spoke to me when I heard it recently, and affirmed that I was a shell of the person I wanted to be while using dip. Despite all of life's many blessings, I was basically a total loser with nothing but my can to keep me company:
"All the wants you waste
All the things youÂ’ve chased
Then it all crashes down
And you break your crown
And you point your finger
But thereÂ’s no one around
Just want one thing
Just to play the king
But the castleÂ’s crumbled
And youÂ’re left with just a name
WhereÂ’s your crown,
King Nothing?"
- Metallica (in case you have been living under a rock for the last 20 years)
Well that's all bullshit and in the past now. I'm quitting for me and my health, but also to be a better husband, dad to my kids, brother, son, etc.
Nic never did anything for me, and I will no longer do anything for nic.
Thanks all for creating the site and for the support each and every day. Quit with each of you all day today.
King