So I am going to guess quitting can make you paranoid as shit. So I spent alot of yesterday reading/investigating mouth cancer stories. So I check the inside of my mouth with a light last night, there was a tiny red spot on the inside of my left cheek. After 8 years of this shit, now I get paranoid about mouth cancer and check the inside of my mouth AFTER I quit? How fucking ironic would that be?
Anyway the spot WAS smaller than the size of a tic tac, and after not falling asleep till 5 am utterly paralyzed with fear planning doctors appointments how im going to live life with half a jaw, etc etc, I check my mouth 2 minutes ago after waking up to go to work (my commute is turning my laptop on) and its not there anymore.
Seriously, i am now so fucking scared of getting mouth cancer that is enough for me to never touch the stuff again. I wish I would have grown a brain 8 years ago and saw the stories about kids that got it within a few years of use, I swear I would have been quit years ago.
I am going to be an utter nazi about this for the rest of my life because in all honesty, the damage is done, I will always be at higher risk for this now, I was too stupid to put any thought into it before. I am still kind of a nervous wreck, even though whatever it was I saw in my mouth yesterday isnt there anymore and nothing looks abnormal in there.