*LOOT stumbles down the steps from whatever floor he is on these days, makes a pass through the 2nd floor corridors to kick JDubya and tell him and his boys to clean their shit up, heads down another set of stairs, and opens the door to the HOF for his friend*
Well done AmAMayan...well done. You've met the first goal. You get to hang out with the kewl kids.
Now, do us both a favor and set yourself a new goal. A man with no obtainable goal roams aimlessly through life. Roaming aimlessly will get your ass killed. So..maybe let's set our sights on 200? Commit to post Roll with your group, to your group, for the next 100 days. You know what posting Roll Call daily and honoring your word gets you. Go read Aggies intro if you need a refresher on what happens when you don't make that daily commitment.
100 is awesome...but your an addict. Your addiction still has some work to do on you. You are not out of the woods by any stretch. There is nothing magical about 100. You are not cured. In fact, you will never be cured. 100 is a nice number that once reached, should arm you with some tools. Tools you've acquired to help you manage life as a recovering addict. You know how to make the right choices and you should be armed with enough contacts here that will help you when you know the right choice, but your addiction is getting the better of you. Don't be ashamed to make that call. Reach out...get that help. None of us can do this alone. We've got to help each other over the rough spots.
Funks come in fairly predictable patterns. Your next one will likely hit around 125. Then 250. Then 400. Then 700. Be ready. Get your mind right. Use the lulls in the storm to rest. Rest for the fight you know is going to hit you when you least expect it. Your demons know when you are cruising and they will jump all over your ass in an attempt to get you back to an "active" addict. You combat that by never being complacent in your cleanliness. Complacency is death. You combat that with daily Roll Call.
LOOT hopes you have a great day. Celebrate with vigor. Indulge yourself. Try not to dwell on the fact you are an addict. Then, tomorrow, put your fucking head down and get back to the daily grind of clean.
We've talked about the dual quits of alcohol and nicotine in private. We've done both. We agree nicotine is by far the more difficult to quit. That is another reason why today is special. You've done what 99% of nicotine addicts only wish they could do. Be proud friend. Be proud.
LOOT will quit with you today.
