time to man up

[gb321]

Quitting is amazing you won't regret it! Pm me if you need anything or if you want my digits. June 15 lets get it

[corwinkb]

Pab glad I can help but i think you've been doing this longer than I have. At least it seems that way!

on a side note... MY FACE IS ON FIRE SOMEONE PUT IT OUT! OMG THE BURN!!!! WHY GOD WHY!!!!!!

'bang head' 'bang head' 'bang head' 'bang head' 'bang head'

[pab1964]

Today I came clean with my family. I told them I relapsed and unquit since the last time I tried and that this time I'm not hiding that I am an addict and that I am seeking help.

I told them about my triggers, my fears, my plans and how the guys at kill the can.org are supporting me.

My mom knew something was up since at weight watchers the last few weeks I have had gains and that lately I look like I'm retaining water... So I just came out with it hoping for the best...

This is bad ass. Honesty is key to beating this monster. You are doing the right things.

Right now sucks. If it didn't suck, everyone would quit. But only the strong can push through the suck. Look back at the "fuck me sideways" post. Guess what? You'll never have to relive that bs day ever again. And, while it may seem hopeless at the beginning, I promise you that one day at a time the suck fades away. Keep posting in this intro, because it really helps to be able to come back here and read where you are once you move a bit further down the road that you are traveling down.

Be proud of your honesty. Glad to have you aboard.

After reading this it reminds that everyone has there on demons. We want to do everything we can do to help but somethings have got to be done by yourself. Thanks Corwin damn proud to be quit with you!

[worktowin]

Today I came clean with my family. I told them I relapsed and unquit since the last time I tried and that this time I'm not hiding that I am an addict and that I am seeking help.

I told them about my triggers, my fears, my plans and how the guys at kill the can.org are supporting me.

My mom knew something was up since at weight watchers the last few weeks I have had gains and that lately I look like I'm retaining water... So I just came out with it hoping for the best...

This is bad ass. Honesty is key to beating this monster. You are doing the right things.

Right now sucks. If it didn't suck, everyone would quit. But only the strong can push through the suck. Look back at the "fuck me sideways" post. Guess what? You'll never have to relive that bs day ever again. And, while it may seem hopeless at the beginning, I promise you that one day at a time the suck fades away. Keep posting in this intro, because it really helps to be able to come back here and read where you are once you move a bit further down the road that you are traveling down.

Be proud of your honesty. Glad to have you aboard.

[corwinkb]

Today I came clean with my family. I told them I relapsed and unquit since the last time I tried and that this time I'm not hiding that I am an addict and that I am seeking help.

I told them about my triggers, my fears, my plans and how the guys at kill the can.org are supporting me.

My mom knew something was up since at weight watchers the last few weeks I have had gains and that lately I look like I'm retaining water... So I just came out with it hoping for the best...

[pab1964]

Fuck me sideways!

My head is killing me and I'm ripping ass like a trucker that switched to an all fiber diet. I talked to a pharmacist today who told me it is a natural reaction to my body coming back to life. Scary! I've been metaphorically dead for damn near 8 years!!!!

What is really killing me is my mouth though. I was challenged today by a canker sore that had formed just behind my mollars. The natural swelling was like a reminder that I used to put something gross there.

Time to man up and be grossly honest. On top of the disgusting habit that enslaved me 8 years ago, oral hygiene has never been a strong suit for me. So I took a bad habit and replaced it with something I can control. A toothbrush! I got cravings twice today. Just put some warm water on my brush and jammed it in my mouth for a few seconds. Counted to 20 cleaned it off (took a piss) and it was all over.

My final struggle of the day had 2 parts. The first I wanted to get some snacks for the NASCAR race today so I went to the store. Son of a bitch wouldn't you know it... The only open aisle was next to the tobacco kiosk displaying all of grizzly's finest ways to euthanize yourself. And guess what it was a very slow line. That growling bear jumped up in my face and it screamed my name....BUT....i counted to 20 doing my deep breathing excercises i watched my girlfriend do so many times practicing yoga...i got out of there with no chew.

Later that night I checked my phone. Got Roy's digits and sent him a text and tolf him i was struggling...he helped me out big time!!!

Rough second day...no uncontrollably painful withdrawals yet, just a bad headache...but an interesting ass gas contest with my dog :P ROFL. Read to stay quit until it doesn't suck no more. Tomorrow is day 3.

You're a badass quitter corwin. Keep going strong. Glad to hear you've overcame obstacles in these first few days. Your mouth is healing itself so it is natural to have sores show up after quitting. My mouth was all kinds of fucked up for the first couple weeks it seemed. Nice work. I'm gonna leave you my digits in you inbox in case you need another contact when you're struggling.

Corwin welcome to quit! It sucks then sucks some more! Keep up the fight! If it gets to tough get in touch with a brother someone's always available! Fight on worth every damn second! Just an addict trying to help another addict! Damn proud to be quit with you today!

[jaker]

Fuck me sideways!

My head is killing me and I'm ripping ass like a trucker that switched to an all fiber diet. I talked to a pharmacist today who told me it is a natural reaction to my body coming back to life. Scary! I've been metaphorically dead for damn near 8 years!!!!

What is really killing me is my mouth though. I was challenged today by a canker sore that had formed just behind my mollars. The natural swelling was like a reminder that I used to put something gross there.

Time to man up and be grossly honest. On top of the disgusting habit that enslaved me 8 years ago, oral hygiene has never been a strong suit for me. So I took a bad habit and replaced it with something I can control. A toothbrush! I got cravings twice today. Just put some warm water on my brush and jammed it in my mouth for a few seconds. Counted to 20 cleaned it off (took a piss) and it was all over.

My final struggle of the day had 2 parts. The first I wanted to get some snacks for the NASCAR race today so I went to the store. Son of a bitch wouldn't you know it... The only open aisle was next to the tobacco kiosk displaying all of grizzly's finest ways to euthanize yourself. And guess what it was a very slow line. That growling bear jumped up in my face and it screamed my name....BUT....i counted to 20 doing my deep breathing excercises i watched my girlfriend do so many times practicing yoga...i got out of there with no chew.

Later that night I checked my phone. Got Roy's digits and sent him a text and tolf him i was struggling...he helped me out big time!!!

Rough second day...no uncontrollably painful withdrawals yet, just a bad headache...but an interesting ass gas contest with my dog :P ROFL. Read to stay quit until it doesn't suck no more. Tomorrow is day 3.

You're a badass quitter corwin. Keep going strong. Glad to hear you've overcame obstacles in these first few days. Your mouth is healing itself so it is natural to have sores show up after quitting. My mouth was all kinds of fucked up for the first couple weeks it seemed. Nice work. I'm gonna leave you my digits in you inbox in case you need another contact when you're struggling.

[corwinkb]

Fuck me sideways!

My head is killing me and I'm ripping ass like a trucker that switched to an all fiber diet. I talked to a pharmacist today who told me it is a natural reaction to my body coming back to life. Scary! I've been metaphorically dead for damn near 8 years!!!!

What is really killing me is my mouth though. I was challenged today by a canker sore that had formed just behind my mollars. The natural swelling was like a reminder that I used to put something gross there.

Time to man up and be grossly honest. On top of the disgusting habit that enslaved me 8 years ago, oral hygiene has never been a strong suit for me. So I took a bad habit and replaced it with something I can control. A toothbrush! I got cravings twice today. Just put some warm water on my brush and jammed it in my mouth for a few seconds. Counted to 20 cleaned it off (took a piss) and it was all over.

My final struggle of the day had 2 parts. The first I wanted to get some snacks for the NASCAR race today so I went to the store. Son of a bitch wouldn't you know it... The only open aisle was next to the tobacco kiosk displaying all of grizzly's finest ways to euthanize yourself. And guess what it was a very slow line. That growling bear jumped up in my face and it screamed my name....BUT....i counted to 20 doing my deep breathing excercises i watched my girlfriend do so many times practicing yoga...i got out of there with no chew.

Later that night I checked my phone. Got Roy's digits and sent him a text and tolf him i was struggling...he helped me out big time!!!

Rough second day...no uncontrollably painful withdrawals yet, just a bad headache...but an interesting ass gas contest with my dog :P ROFL. Read to stay quit until it doesn't suck no more. Tomorrow is day 3.

[pab1964]

I will do that right now. And BTW my birthday is June 10. It would be a good gift to myself

Post roll Corwin, let's get this quit party going right tonight! I'm 50 been dipping 38 years quit 70 precious day's. Is it hard, heck yes! is it worth it, every dang second of the suck! I'm no longer a slave. I an addict and always will be, but one day at a time I will make a promise to have a real life without nic! I would have said normal but I don't know what normal is, use to be a fatty about 95 percent of the time! I'm loving life every damn day! I quit with you today!

[corwinkb]

I will do that right now. And BTW my birthday is June 10. It would be a good gift to myself

[CavMan83]

Brian,

First thing....realize that even though it may seem like it at times, quitting dip and the attendant nicotine withdrawals NEVER killed anyone. It'll suck. Learn to embrace it. Remember it, and never forget it....sear it into your memory such that you'll never want to go through the suck again. Second thing, change your quit date. if you spit it out today, then today is (by KTC's method of counting), your "day 1". Post your promise in the June 2015 quit group you won't use tobacco today. Wake up tomorrow, piss, and post roll again. The sooner, the better, as it takes the option to use off the table.

Read as much as you can on this site, drink plenty of water, and lean on your quit brothers. They're going through the same hell you are, you're not alone.

You CAN do this. I did, and I banged the can for longer than you've been alive.

[corwinkb]

I stopped at a gas station earlier while taking my German Shepherd for a ride. Dropped my tin and bottle in the trash. Got a pack of gum and a bottle of water and drove away. Its been 6 hours and I feel dizzy and tired...normally I chewed while controlling on VATSIM a flight Sim group or driving while playing iRacing.

Its going to be tough. I'm almost afraid to go to my computer.

[Kremerica]

Hey Brian,

Welcome to the brotherhood, I look forward to getting to know you over the next 100 + days as you fulfill the promise to yourself.

My only suggestion, throw that fucking can out the window tonight and make March 8th your day. Why put off your new life another two days!

Stay quit brother!

[corwinkb]

Hello all,

My name is Brian and I have been chewing since my sophomore year of college. I started at the fire academy under the stress of peer pressure and quickly became addicted.

I have tried to quit in the past, alone...and failed many times. I have come to dread going to social gatherings, first dates, job interviews, and doctor appointments because I know as a chewer I can't hide it even if I hold off to be on my own to partake.

I later tried Chantex with my doctors approval and that literally almost killed me. I had horrid nightmares, terrifying heart palpitations and a genuine fear to quit. Withdrawals are scary!

None the less I am ready to quit now. March 10 2015 is my quit day and I'm going to own it.

I'm scared but I want my life back.