No stopping for me ..... its Quiting time!

[30yraddict]

Day 126......

Well lets see where to begin.....
I had the worst weekend I could have ever imagined and honestly was as close to giving into the nic-whore more so this past Saturday than I have been at any time during my quit.....

I would say the only thing that made me not get the Grizzly was the fact that if I bought it chewed it and got everything else I could get from that shit it still would have made nothing better!

I would have just gotten back into being a slave to the shit again, it wouldn't have hurt anyone except for myself, it certainly would have not gotten rid of the issues at hand!!!!

I made it thru the weekend and that is a victory, I will not go back to that shit no matter what the cost!!!!

I will try to build on the victory of making it thru the weekend to help the other aspects of my life.

I am having issues with the fact I drove to a store to buy a can and was still able to stop myself before giving in, I can only think that without this site and the accountability it brings I surely would have caved.

While at the store I had these thoughts:

What the hell would my group say to me....
I would go from HOF'er to fucking -0- just like that......
How could I even try to face any of the people who had caved knowing I was just like them....
Would Wastepanel try to eat me?........
Would NOLAQ try to Private Pyle me to the whole group and site?......
Would Jon Rivers, thomas, gross, jameso, suckit, or any of my badass quit brothers actually come to my house and kick my ass??......


Lastly I am still an addict and still have the cravings even at day 126, they wont go away quick enough, I say thanks to my quit bro's and this site for keeping my ass in line even when no one knew they were doing it.........

Grizzly25......out...

Grizzly,

I live 20 minutes from you.

Of course I would eat you if you caved.

I would also swallow you whole as you would have to sit in my stomach and be slowly digested while you beat yourself up over your cave. Then, I would shit you out before you were fully digested and berate you further.

Don't fucking tempt me.

Just fucking call me next time

Use the tools that have helped you be successful so far, and press on. No fucking excuses. You can do this.

I'm with Waste - Call me next time. Live by the rule that before you put that dip in - you have to call all the people you just listed and get permission to cave. Easier said than done I know because I have done the same thing and you were one of those who saved me - right around my infamous day 76. Great job winning the battle, great job not giving in, be proud of what you accomplished and build on it.

And just as important, thanks for sharing - you are leading the way and now I know what to expect as I get closer to the 120's. I am prepared for the major crave.

Great job - I am proud to be quit with you brother!!!

Grizz let me throw in my 2 pennies. I look up to you and the other quitters that you mentioned as my mentors. If any of you caved my entire quit would be shaken. I had better never pass one of you in days! I know for me thinking about all the shit I have dished out to cavers is enough to make me think 10 or 20 times before I could cave ( oh the shit that would come back). It is the same for all of us. I am proud to be quit with all of you.

Thanks guys the support is truly appreciated!!!

I will say the funk and fog that happen after the hall is a sneaky sneaky bitch but staying close to this place and interacting with all these bad asses truly has had the effect I would have hoped!

Thanks again guys!

Grizzlywillkillmeandleavemyfamilyfatherless,

You left your door open. You escaped by a narrow margin. It's time to shut the door. You don't dip anymore. It does not define who you are. It's time to get pissed. I mean like someone raped your sister pissed. Big tobacco is knocking at your door looking for their due. Question is: are you gonna follow their siren song- or tell them to piss off?

No More- Not for any reason.

30

[Grizzly25]

Day 126......

Well lets see where to begin.....
I had the worst weekend I could have ever imagined and honestly was as close to giving into the nic-whore more so this past Saturday than I have been at any time during my quit.....

I would say the only thing that made me not get the Grizzly was the fact that if I bought it chewed it and got everything else I could get from that shit it still would have made nothing better!

I would have just gotten back into being a slave to the shit again, it wouldn't have hurt anyone except for myself, it certainly would have not gotten rid of the issues at hand!!!!

I made it thru the weekend and that is a victory, I will not go back to that shit no matter what the cost!!!!

I will try to build on the victory of making it thru the weekend to help the other aspects of my life.

I am having issues with the fact I drove to a store to buy a can and was still able to stop myself before giving in, I can only think that without this site and the accountability it brings I surely would have caved.

While at the store I had these thoughts:

What the hell would my group say to me....
I would go from HOF'er to fucking -0- just like that......
How could I even try to face any of the people who had caved knowing I was just like them....
Would Wastepanel try to eat me?........
Would NOLAQ try to Private Pyle me to the whole group and site?......
Would Jon Rivers, thomas, gross, jameso, suckit, or any of my badass quit brothers actually come to my house and kick my ass??......


Lastly I am still an addict and still have the cravings even at day 126, they wont go away quick enough, I say thanks to my quit bro's and this site for keeping my ass in line even when no one knew they were doing it.........

Grizzly25......out...

Grizzly,

I live 20 minutes from you.

Of course I would eat you if you caved.

I would also swallow you whole as you would have to sit in my stomach and be slowly digested while you beat yourself up over your cave. Then, I would shit you out before you were fully digested and berate you further.

Don't fucking tempt me.

Just fucking call me next time

Use the tools that have helped you be successful so far, and press on. No fucking excuses. You can do this.

I'm with Waste - Call me next time. Live by the rule that before you put that dip in - you have to call all the people you just listed and get permission to cave. Easier said than done I know because I have done the same thing and you were one of those who saved me - right around my infamous day 76. Great job winning the battle, great job not giving in, be proud of what you accomplished and build on it.

And just as important, thanks for sharing - you are leading the way and now I know what to expect as I get closer to the 120's. I am prepared for the major crave.

Great job - I am proud to be quit with you brother!!!

Grizz let me throw in my 2 pennies. I look up to you and the other quitters that you mentioned as my mentors. If any of you caved my entire quit would be shaken. I had better never pass one of you in days! I know for me thinking about all the shit I have dished out to cavers is enough to make me think 10 or 20 times before I could cave ( oh the shit that would come back). It is the same for all of us. I am proud to be quit with all of you.

Thanks guys the support is truly appreciated!!!

I will say the funk and fog that happen after the hall is a sneaky sneaky bitch but staying close to this place and interacting with all these bad asses truly has had the effect I would have hoped!

Thanks again guys!

[Wt57]

Day 126......

Well lets see where to begin.....
I had the worst weekend I could have ever imagined and honestly was as close to giving into the nic-whore more so this past Saturday than I have been at any time during my quit.....

I would say the only thing that made me not get the Grizzly was the fact that if I bought it chewed it and got everything else I could get from that shit it still would have made nothing better!

I would have just gotten back into being a slave to the shit again, it wouldn't have hurt anyone except for myself, it certainly would have not gotten rid of the issues at hand!!!!

I made it thru the weekend and that is a victory, I will not go back to that shit no matter what the cost!!!!

I will try to build on the victory of making it thru the weekend to help the other aspects of my life.

I am having issues with the fact I drove to a store to buy a can and was still able to stop myself before giving in, I can only think that without this site and the accountability it brings I surely would have caved.

While at the store I had these thoughts:

What the hell would my group say to me....
I would go from HOF'er to fucking -0- just like that......
How could I even try to face any of the people who had caved knowing I was just like them....
Would Wastepanel try to eat me?........
Would NOLAQ try to Private Pyle me to the whole group and site?......
Would Jon Rivers, thomas, gross, jameso, suckit, or any of my badass quit brothers actually come to my house and kick my ass??......


Lastly I am still an addict and still have the cravings even at day 126, they wont go away quick enough, I say thanks to my quit bro's and this site for keeping my ass in line even when no one knew they were doing it.........

Grizzly25......out...

Grizzly,

I live 20 minutes from you.

Of course I would eat you if you caved.

I would also swallow you whole as you would have to sit in my stomach and be slowly digested while you beat yourself up over your cave. Then, I would shit you out before you were fully digested and berate you further.

Don't fucking tempt me.

Just fucking call me next time

Use the tools that have helped you be successful so far, and press on. No fucking excuses. You can do this.

I'm with Waste - Call me next time. Live by the rule that before you put that dip in - you have to call all the people you just listed and get permission to cave. Easier said than done I know because I have done the same thing and you were one of those who saved me - right around my infamous day 76. Great job winning the battle, great job not giving in, be proud of what you accomplished and build on it.

And just as important, thanks for sharing - you are leading the way and now I know what to expect as I get closer to the 120's. I am prepared for the major crave.

Great job - I am proud to be quit with you brother!!!

Grizz let me throw in my 2 pennies. I look up to you and the other quitters that you mentioned as my mentors. If any of you caved my entire quit would be shaken. I had better never pass one of you in days! I know for me thinking about all the shit I have dished out to cavers is enough to make me think 10 or 20 times before I could cave ( oh the shit that would come back). It is the same for all of us. I am proud to be quit with all of you.

[Suck-It]

Day 126......

Well lets see where to begin.....
I had the worst weekend I could have ever imagined and honestly was as close to giving into the nic-whore more so this past Saturday than I have been at any time durring my quit.....

I would say the only thing that made me not get the Grizzly was the fact that if I bought it chewed it and got everything else I could get from that shit it still would have made nothing better!

I would have just gotten back into being a slave to the shit again, it wouldnt have hurt anyone except for myself, it certainly would have not gotten rid of the issues at hand!!!!

I made it thru the weekend and that is a victory, I will not go back to that shit no matter what the cost!!!!

I will try to build on the victory of making it thru the weekend to help the other aspects of my life.

I am having issues with the fact I drove to a store to buy a can and was still able to stop myself before giving in, I can only think that without this site and the accountability it brings I surely would have caved.

While at the store I had these thoughts:

What the hell would my group say to me....
I would go from HOF'er to fucking -0- just like that......
How could I even try to face any of the people who had caved knowing I was just like them....
Would Wastepanel try to eat me?........
Would NOLAQ try to Private Pyle me to the whole group and site?......
Would Jon Rivers, mthomas, rgross, jameso, suckit, or any of my badass quit brothers actually come to my house and kick my ass??......


Lastly I am still an addict and still have the cravings even at day 126, they wont go away quick enough, I say thanks to my quit bro's and this site for keeping my ass in line even when no one knew they were doing it.........

Grizzly25......out...

Grizzly,

I live 20 minutes from you.

Of course I would eat you if you caved.

I would also swallow you whole as you would have to sit in my stomach and be slowly digested while you beat yourself up over your cave. Then, I would shit you out before you were fully digested and berate you further.

Don't fucking tempt me.

Just fucking call me next time

Use the tools that have helped you be successful so far, and press on. No fucking excuses. You can do this.

I'm with Waste - Call me next time. Live by the rule that before you put that dip in - you have to call all the people you just listed and get permission to cave. Easier said than done I know because I have done the same thing and you were one of those who saved me - right around my infamous day 76. Great job winning the battle, great job not giving in, be proud of what you accomplished and build on it.

And just as important, thanks for sharing - you are leading the way and now I know what to expect as I get closer to the 120's. I am prepared for the major crave.

Great job - I am proud to be quit with you brother!!!

[dgonseaux]

Day 126......

Well lets see where to begin.....
I had the worst weekend I could have ever imagined and honestly was as close to giving into the nic-whore more so this past Saturday than I have been at any time durring my quit.....

I would say the only thing that made me not get the Grizzly was the fact that if I bought it chewed it and got everything else I could get from that shit it still would have made nothing better!

I would have just gotten back into being a slave to the shit again, it wouldnt have hurt anyone except for myself, it certainly would have not gotten rid of the issues at hand!!!!

I made it thru the weekend and that is a victory, I will not go back to that shit no matter what the cost!!!!

I will try to build on the victory of making it thru the weekend to help the other aspects of my life.

I am having issues with the fact I drove to a store to buy a can and was still able to stop myself before giving in, I can only think that without this site and the accountability it brings I surely would have caved.

While at the store I had these thoughts:

What the hell would my group say to me....
I would go from HOF'er to fucking -0- just like that......
How could I even try to face any of the people who had caved knowing I was just like them....
Would Wastepanel try to eat me?........
Would NOLAQ try to Private Pyle me to the whole group and site?......
Would Jon Rivers, mthomas, rgross, jameso, suckit, or any of my badass quit brothers actually come to my house and kick my ass??......


Lastly I am still an addict and still have the cravings even at day 126, they wont go away quick enough, I say thanks to my quit bro's and this site for keeping my ass in line even when no one knew they were doing it.........

Grizzly25......out...

Way to fight the goof fight!!! I hope youDay 126 and u still get craves? Are they less intense then early on craves? I'm only on day 8 and looking forward to days of less crave. If I have to go through 100+ days feeling like this, I may lose my tucking mind!

First off, good job on beating it Grizzly. However, like waste said, don't let it go that far next time. I'm pretty sure he has a flexible work schedule too, allowing him freedom to come over and run you through his digestive tract at just about any point in the day.

Diesel, it gets MUCH better. You have to wrap your head around the fact that you are an addict, and it won't ever completely go away, but you will have entire days where nicotine doesn't cross your mind. As you read on here, you will find that these cravings come and go. As you get further in your quit, the "crave sessions" get shorter, weaker, and farther apart. Pretty much the polar opposite of a woman in progressing labor. There will be stages (120's) where almost everyone goes through some intense cravings. That is what Grizzly went through.

This drug is very predictable. Stay close and read a lot, and you'll be prepared for every phase this bitch will drag you through.

However, all any of us can do is to just focus on today. That is all you have to concentrate on. There's no point in worrying about tomorrow, because there's nothing you can do about it.

When tomorrow gets here, then you can do something about it, and that's the time to tackle it, not now.

[Diesel2112]

Day 126......

Well lets see where to begin.....
I had the worst weekend I could have ever imagined and honestly was as close to giving into the nic-whore more so this past Saturday than I have been at any time durring my quit.....

I would say the only thing that made me not get the Grizzly was the fact that if I bought it chewed it and got everything else I could get from that shit it still would have made nothing better!

I would have just gotten back into being a slave to the shit again, it wouldnt have hurt anyone except for myself, it certainly would have not gotten rid of the issues at hand!!!!

I made it thru the weekend and that is a victory, I will not go back to that shit no matter what the cost!!!!

I will try to build on the victory of making it thru the weekend to help the other aspects of my life.

I am having issues with the fact I drove to a store to buy a can and was still able to stop myself before giving in, I can only think that without this site and the accountability it brings I surely would have caved.

While at the store I had these thoughts:

What the hell would my group say to me....
I would go from HOF'er to fucking -0- just like that......
How could I even try to face any of the people who had caved knowing I was just like them....
Would Wastepanel try to eat me?........
Would NOLAQ try to Private Pyle me to the whole group and site?......
Would Jon Rivers, mthomas, rgross, jameso, suckit, or any of my badass quit brothers actually come to my house and kick my ass??......


Lastly I am still an addict and still have the cravings even at day 126, they wont go away quick enough, I say thanks to my quit bro's and this site for keeping my ass in line even when no one knew they were doing it.........

Grizzly25......out...

Way to fight the goof fight!!! I hope youDay 126 and u still get craves? Are they less intense then early on craves? I'm only on day 8 and looking forward to days of less crave. If I have to go through 100+ days feeling like this, I may lose my tucking mind!

[wastepanel]

Day 126......

Well lets see where to begin.....
I had the worst weekend I could have ever imagined and honestly was as close to giving into the nic-whore more so this past Saturday than I have been at any time durring my quit.....

I would say the only thing that made me not get the Grizzly was the fact that if I bought it chewed it and got everything else I could get from that shit it still would have made nothing better!

I would have just gotten back into being a slave to the shit again, it wouldnt have hurt anyone except for myself, it certainly would have not gotten rid of the issues at hand!!!!

I made it thru the weekend and that is a victory, I will not go back to that shit no matter what the cost!!!!

I will try to build on the victory of making it thru the weekend to help the other aspects of my life.

I am having issues with the fact I drove to a store to buy a can and was still able to stop myself before giving in, I can only think that without this site and the accountability it brings I surely would have caved.

While at the store I had these thoughts:

What the hell would my group say to me....
I would go from HOF'er to fucking -0- just like that......
How could I even try to face any of the people who had caved knowing I was just like them....
Would Wastepanel try to eat me?........
Would NOLAQ try to Private Pyle me to the whole group and site?......
Would Jon Rivers, mthomas, rgross, jameso, suckit, or any of my badass quit brothers actually come to my house and kick my ass??......


Lastly I am still an addict and still have the cravings even at day 126, they wont go away quick enough, I say thanks to my quit bro's and this site for keeping my ass in line even when no one knew they were doing it.........

Grizzly25......out...

Grizzly,

I live 20 minutes from you.

Of course I would eat you if you caved.

I would also swallow you whole as you would have to sit in my stomach and be slowly digested while you beat yourself up over your cave. Then, I would shit you out before you were fully digested and berate you further.

Don't fucking tempt me.

Just fucking call me next time

Use the tools that have helped you be successful so far, and press on. No fucking excuses. You can do this.

[Grizzly25]

Day 126......

Well lets see where to begin.....
I had the worst weekend I could have ever imagined and honestly was as close to giving into the nic-whore more so this past Saturday than I have been at any time durring my quit.....

I would say the only thing that made me not get the Grizzly was the fact that if I bought it chewed it and got everything else I could get from that shit it still would have made nothing better!

I would have just gotten back into being a slave to the shit again, it wouldnt have hurt anyone except for myself, it certainly would have not gotten rid of the issues at hand!!!!

I made it thru the weekend and that is a victory, I will not go back to that shit no matter what the cost!!!!

I will try to build on the victory of making it thru the weekend to help the other aspects of my life.

I am having issues with the fact I drove to a store to buy a can and was still able to stop myself before giving in, I can only think that without this site and the accountability it brings I surely would have caved.

While at the store I had these thoughts:

What the hell would my group say to me....
I would go from HOF'er to fucking -0- just like that......
How could I even try to face any of the people who had caved knowing I was just like them....
Would Wastepanel try to eat me?........
Would NOLAQ try to Private Pyle me to the whole group and site?......
Would Jon Rivers, mthomas, rgross, jameso, suckit, or any of my badass quit brothers actually come to my house and kick my ass??......


Lastly I am still an addict and still have the cravings even at day 126, they wont go away quick enough, I say thanks to my quit bro's and this site for keeping my ass in line even when no one knew they were doing it.........

Grizzly25......out...

[Scowick65]

Day 116.......

Ok so the HOF has come and gone I have been reading the speeches and still feeling the awesome goodness of great, strong quit!!!!

....now what?

How bout some random thoughts for no real good reason 'Crazy'

I want to keep writing in this area so I can look back and appreciate how far I have gotten and how much further there is to go....

I have been re-reading my page very often usually when I have gotten a bit bent with either my kids or my wife but then I was reading it just to remind myself of the struggle....

I had been chewing since I was 12 years old! I am now QUIT not stopped but QUIT!!!!

Holy shit!!!! I keep thinking ....How the hell did you do this?

I read on here what my may quit brothers have written and what all we have struggled to get thru to get this far and realize we got this far by being responsible ass kicking stubborn fuckers that just were tired of being dependent on nicotene!

We continue to keep winning and thats the point right?

I like to look at things like this... Win for today, prepare for tomorrow, always be moving forward!

Quiting nicotene has been and will continue to be the most constant  intense fight of my life....

I will continue to keep winning day by day with the bad asses from my group and the rest of the bad ass on this site, why?

Cause we are accountable to each other and we ALL take that very seriously!!

Grizzly25.....116 days and counting......out!

Keep kicking quit ass Grizzly! Proud to be quit with you today!

Great post - and you are a badass quitter. Proud to be quit with you today and everyday. Stay strong and keep fighting one day at a time. I follow your lead.

Great, great job grizz

[Suck-It]

Day 116.......

Ok so the HOF has come and gone I have been reading the speeches and still feeling the awesome goodness of great, strong quit!!!!

....now what?

How bout some random thoughts for no real good reason 'Crazy'

I want to keep writing in this area so I can look back and appreciate how far I have gotten and how much further there is to go....

I have been re-reading my page very often usually when I have gotten a bit bent with either my kids or my wife but then I was reading it just to remind myself of the struggle....

I had been chewing since I was 12 years old! I am now QUIT not stopped but QUIT!!!!

Holy shit!!!! I keep thinking ....How the hell did you do this?

I read on here what my may quit brothers have written and what all we have struggled to get thru to get this far and realize we got this far by being responsible ass kicking stubborn fuckers that just were tired of being dependent on nicotene!

We continue to keep winning and thats the point right?

I like to look at things like this... Win for today, prepare for tomorrow, always be moving forward!

Quiting nicotene has been and will continue to be the most constant  intense fight of my life....

I will continue to keep winning day by day with the bad asses from my group and the rest of the bad ass on this site, why?

Cause we are accountable to each other and we ALL take that very seriously!!

Grizzly25.....116 days and counting......out!

Keep kicking quit ass Grizzly! Proud to be quit with you today!

Great post - and you are a badass quitter. Proud to be quit with you today and everyday. Stay strong and keep fighting one day at a time. I follow your lead.

[Coach Steve]

Day 116.......

Ok so the HOF has come and gone I have been reading the speeches and still feeling the awesome goodness of great, strong quit!!!!

....now what?

How bout some random thoughts for no real good reason 'Crazy'

I want to keep writing in this area so I can look back and appreciate how far I have gotten and how much further there is to go....

I have been re-reading my page very often usually when I have gotten a bit bent with either my kids or my wife but then I was reading it just to remind myself of the struggle....

I had been chewing since I was 12 years old! I am now QUIT not stopped but QUIT!!!!

Holy shit!!!! I keep thinking ....How the hell did you do this?

I read on here what my may quit brothers have written and what all we have struggled to get thru to get this far and realize we got this far by being responsible ass kicking stubborn fuckers that just were tired of being dependent on nicotene!

We continue to keep winning and thats the point right?

I like to look at things like this... Win for today, prepare for tomorrow, always be moving forward!

Quiting nicotene has been and will continue to be the most constant  intense fight of my life....

I will continue to keep winning day by day with the bad asses from my group and the rest of the bad ass on this site, why?

Cause we are accountable to each other and we ALL take that very seriously!!

Grizzly25.....116 days and counting......out!

Keep kicking quit ass Grizzly! Proud to be quit with you today!

[Buddy Mac]

Day 116.......

Ok so the HOF has come and gone I have been reading the speeches and still feeling the awesome goodness of great, strong quit!!!!

....now what?

How bout some random thoughts for no real good reason 'Crazy'

I want to keep writing in this area so I can look back and appreciate how far I have gotten and how much further there is to go....

I have been re-reading my page very often usually when I have gotten a bit bent with either my kids or my wife but then I was reading it just to remind myself of the struggle....

I had been chewing since I was 12 years old! I am now QUIT not stopped but QUIT!!!!

Holy shit!!!! I keep thinking ....How the hell did you do this?

I read on here what my may quit brothers have written and what all we have struggled to get thru to get this far and realize we got this far by being responsible ass kicking stubborn fuckers that just were tired of being dependent on nicotene!

We continue to keep winning and thats the point right?

I like to look at things like this... Win for today, prepare for tomorrow, always be moving forward!

Quiting nicotene has been and will continue to be the most constant  intense fight of my life....

I will continue to keep winning day by day with the bad asses from my group and the rest of the bad ass on this site, why?

Cause we are accountable to each other and we ALL take that very seriously!!

Grizzly25.....116 days and counting......out!

Rack em!

So far this is the post of the day for me.

To the newbies, this is what quitting is all about. Victory over Vice. It is worth every agony and trial in your journey.

I love being quit with you Grizzly! Great Kick Ass Attitude. Gets my quit spirits up.

'clap' 'clap' 'clap'

I second that . Great post MThomas, you are the man...

[Mthomas3824]

Day 116.......

Ok so the HOF has come and gone I have been reading the speeches and still feeling the awesome goodness of great, strong quit!!!!

....now what?

How bout some random thoughts for no real good reason 'Crazy'

I want to keep writing in this area so I can look back and appreciate how far I have gotten and how much further there is to go....

I have been re-reading my page very often usually when I have gotten a bit bent with either my kids or my wife but then I was reading it just to remind myself of the struggle....

I had been chewing since I was 12 years old! I am now QUIT not stopped but QUIT!!!!

Holy shit!!!! I keep thinking ....How the hell did you do this?

I read on here what my may quit brothers have written and what all we have struggled to get thru to get this far and realize we got this far by being responsible ass kicking stubborn fuckers that just were tired of being dependent on nicotene!

We continue to keep winning and thats the point right?

I like to look at things like this... Win for today, prepare for tomorrow, always be moving forward!

Quiting nicotene has been and will continue to be the most constant  intense fight of my life....

I will continue to keep winning day by day with the bad asses from my group and the rest of the bad ass on this site, why?

Cause we are accountable to each other and we ALL take that very seriously!!

Grizzly25.....116 days and counting......out!

Rack em!

So far this is the post of the day for me.

To the newbies, this is what quitting is all about. Victory over Vice. It is worth every agony and trial in your journey.

I love being quit with you Grizzly! Great Kick Ass Attitude. Gets my quit spirits up.

'clap' 'clap' 'clap'

[Grizzly25]

Day 116.......

Ok so the HOF has come and gone I have been reading the speeches and still feeling the awesome goodness of great, strong quit!!!!

....now what?

How bout some random thoughts for no real good reason 'Crazy'

I want to keep writing in this area so I can look back and appreciate how far I have gotten and how much further there is to go....

I have been re-reading my page very often usually when I have gotten a bit bent with either my kids or my wife but then I was reading it just to remind myself of the struggle....

I had been chewing since I was 12 years old! I am now QUIT not stopped but QUIT!!!!

Holy shit!!!! I keep thinking ....How the hell did you do this?

I read on here what my may quit brothers have written and what all we have struggled to get thru to get this far and realize we got this far by being responsible ass kicking stubborn fuckers that just were tired of being dependent on nicotene!

We continue to keep winning and thats the point right?

I like to look at things like this... Win for today, prepare for tomorrow, always be moving forward!

Quiting nicotene has been and will continue to be the most constant  intense fight of my life....

I will continue to keep winning day by day with the bad asses from my group and the rest of the bad ass on this site, why?

Cause we are accountable to each other and we ALL take that very seriously!!

Grizzly25.....116 days and counting......out!

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Day 105.....

I have been wondering what will be the next hurdle to cross in my life upgrade.....

Well it seems as though if you wait long enough and search hard enough the next hurdle always presents itself!

I have been making many strides to better myself durring my quit and in my honest opinion I have bettered my self imensely! I do sometimes wonder if the wrecking ball that was my nicotene life will ever get better or go away.......

I had a rather bad weekend and I believe I have possibly figured out why, I never came close to cave and there is a reason. Both of those things being said I think I have found the solution or at least the next direction to work towards. I have taken and drank as much of the Quit Like Fuck kool-aid I could drink and well it has solidified my quit and resolve to points I truly didnt think possible, I truly believe the ways and means of this site can help put back some of the pieces my nicotene life ruined!

I will say one of my new ways and perspectives has and will be Patience Like Fuck!!! I have a great and wonderful family that has lived with me tolerated me and put up with me thru the addiction, thru the stoppages, thru the relapses, and now finally thru the Quit!!!

I have to have the resolve to be and stay patient even though I may not get craves and ever want to return to the rat shit in lip mentality I never really worked on the fixing of me and my patience or lack there of that we all experience from time to time.

I am writing this mainly to keep track of my own progress as I will be taking the same stance with this as I have with my quit process. I feel as though I slammed my quit and kicked its ass in every way now my resolve will be spread to let those who love me enjoy the new better me.

QUIT LIKE FUCK!!!!

PATIENCE LIKE FUCK!!!!

Its a mentality and resolve that truly helps when needed most!

Grizzly25.....105 day......out.

As much as I regret being the lieing sack of crap I was when I was a slave, I wouldn't change a thing. Without having to learn from my mistakes, without having to have fought to earn my freedom I would not be the man I am today. Today I am happy, I am quit, I am part of an amazing community and I am free. We earned that today.

Well said Grizz. I wrote this a while back and I think it is saying the same thing you are. It's all in how you look at yourself in the mirror every day.

Monsters:
We all have monsters, some bigger than others, some pull and tear at us night and day, some stand in the back ground and remind us they are there only occasionally, some are as small as a toy soldier and others are as big as a ten story building.

Most of the time we take a monster that is the size of a toy soldier and turn it into that ten story building just because we donÂ’t get our way or have what we want.

Your quit is one of these monsters you will have to deal with. You have to decide if it will be that toy soldier or that ten story building.

We all have within us the ability to turn that monster away. We all have the inherent strength to succeed. That choice is yours and you have to be able to look within yourself and find whatever it is that will allow you to step out of the dark and walk away from that monster that controls you.

I have learned one thing through adversity that has finally allowed me to take that gargantuan sized monster and turn it into that toy soldier. I will never allow my monsters to rule my life again. I did it with this saying and if you want to be successful in this quit journey you need to apply it as well:

I will always be stronger than my monsters, even on my weakest day! Period, the end.