I don't want to become dependant on pills. If there's a chance i can tough this out till the point that these attacks stop happening i want that. But i can't go on much longer at work having to stop and find a place to freak out. I made an appointment with my ent to get my nose checked out but they can'tsee me till damn dDecember 1st
Your goal today is to get off the nicotine dependence. Your body and brain are fighting with each other trying to figure out what to do.
Nicotine is an oxygen suppressant in the bloodstream. Your brain hasn't been getting the amount of oxygen that it was "wired" to get for some time, and now there is a flood of O2 hitting it. Which is good... but your brain doesn't understand that. It is like being in a dark room for 5 years and suddenly having bright lights shining in your eyes. It hurts. Same deal with your oxygen dude...
There is nothing wrong with a couple of months of anxiety meds to help you through a tough spot. Your doctor (GP) can help you out with that, and it will help more than you know. I didn't use them, but a lot of my friends did. If it helps you heal, do it.
Still quit with you today sir. You should be very proud.