Day 22 and I woke up in a panic 20 minutes ago. Although I suspect I have had some unconscious dip dreams since I seem to have the need to sweep my mouth with my tongue and check for a dip most mornings since quitting, last night's was so vivid and all over the place. Once I realized it was a dream I jumped up and through in a piece of Trident in and posted roll. Details have already faded, buy it was a F'd up dream...started with caving with a cigarette (I have not smoked in over 12 years), some how involved deer hunting and then floating down the river (I used to be a whitewater guide back in the day) and then finding an open but full can of cope in my pocket. That's all I remember other than the really sick feeling I started chewing again. It's weird but waking up a few times since quitting I have actually felt that I could accidently start chewing again...like somehow forget and unconsciously put a dip in. How strange is that? Anyway, I hope I don't have many more dreams that vivid. I remain resolute, but needed to write this down for myself if nothing else. Day 22 here I come!
