I haven't done an intro yet so I'm starting now. I'm about in day 54 right now. It's been over 50 days of fog and dizzy spells so I haven't been able to concentrate or focus until now. My quit has sucked so bad. I had extreme dizzy/fog to where I had to take motion sickness meds so I don't throw up. Laying down was always a task because I felt like I was on a boat. The first three days were the easiest because I could mentally and physically keep busy. But when the fog started I couldn't do a darn thing. I couldn't take care of myself or my kids. And I'm the prime care taker.
The first 50 days I had in the beginning were 2 root canals in a 2 week frame. One a week. They took forever to heal. My mouth felt like I licked a cheese grater. I was so scared. I had head aches and body aches and shakes and chills. I didn't sleep good and at night is when anxiety strikes the highest. Anxiety is my issue. I have anxiety over health and this and that. The whole left side of my face I have had issues with. Neck, jaw, teeth, tongue face you name it. Every pain I felt would give me anxiety. I had infections, seen my gp three times, went to the oral surgeon, dentist multiple times, ENT, OBGYN, even the dermatologist for my quit. I probably need a shrink but no doctor is giving me any drug to help. I have a baby at home that needs me. I try to hard to be strong for him. He's not a baby anymore but he's my baby.
The thought of quitting was easy. I live with someone who dips and love him so much. if he knew I recently quit he would be so upset and hurt. I hope one day to tell him so I can be his support and help him to quit. Unfortunately he has no interest.
My motto for now has been one day at a time. I had a lot of health issues and especially the baby recently being in the er from an allergic reaction. Life has been so hard and it freaks me out what will happen with things calm down. I'm keeping my intro as a basis for my quit. I'll update it frequently because I don't want to forget my quit or how i feel.
One person that I really need and want to thank from KTC is Samrs. If you are reading this then you know who I am referring to. Sam if you read this. You are my life line here I know that's a lot to take in but you got me to quit. I was on chat one Sunday night and went a whole day with out chew. I was going to pop one in and you said don't. Just talked with me. Distracted me. Got me to join. Sent me an email and we have talked a lot in my first few weeks. Even In the middle of the night during panic attacks you have helped me off the ledge. Because of your inspiration you got me to say no and take my quit seriously. Thank you. Thank you for quitting with me today. There are numerous of other quitters that have helped me along the way and still continue to do so and with out you I couldn't do it alone.
Wow your quit sounds like a tough one good on you to keep it up. Im.coming up on day 9 I've had issues with anxiety and all the other normal quit stuff but its improving. Just wanted to let you know your not alone i get it. The family the crazy i have 3 kids and i.think to myself im doing this so i can spend more time with them.
