Nicotine, I Hate You

[Emulator]

I quit like fuck just like "Sid the Kid" in the Stanley Cup Playoffs......yesssah!!

I quit with you today.

[sixercountry]

I quit like fuck just like "Sid the Kid" in the Stanley Cup Playoffs......yesssah!!

[Doc Chewfree]

it happens once every 20 days of so....

my body starts screaming for nicotine.....

originally it was for a dip.....

tonight, mistake fuck that....all day TODAY it has consumed my mind. I had a very stressful day at work and naturally my addict self wanted to rely upon nicotine to make me feel better. I am on KTC now at 11:15 PM and I must admit that I am embarrassed. I feel guilty and I am sorry.

It is weird that I now feel guilty for allowing nicotine to remain in my thoughts. Before, anything short of a cave was complete happiness. I expect more of myself. Tonight and today was by far my most difficult night. I came up with every excuse in my head to use but I refused.....

Thanks to ktc and my gf for the support....Day 68 and still fuckin killing it. QLF

Don't be embarrassed. This is totally normal. You're not "allowing" nicotine to remain in your thoughts. It's a tough crutch to eliminate, the lies will pop into your head from time to time. As long as you keep the thoughts in your head and nic out your lip, you will be fine.

Try not believe the lies the she is whispering.

You had a stressful day at work, the sneaky little nic whore is whispering to you that a lip full will somehow make
Your day a little better. It will take some of the stress away.

You know that's a lie. Stufffing your lip full of poison will do nothing but increase your stress level and add another problem to your plate.

You don't need that shit, and you never did.

Don't be embarrassed when she comes back to try and convince you otherwise. Just grind it out and send her packing. Every time you do, you win and makes it that much easier to smack the bitch around, the next time she comes whispering bullshit in your ear.

You got this. Tomorrow will be a better day.

Quit on...

Hang strong sixer.

You are actually just experiencing life without nicotine for the first time in years. You are no longer a slave to a can.

We were not put on this earth to be a slave. Freedom is one of your God given rights. Don't let these moments slow you one bit... power thru them and get out there and enjoy life.

Over time it gets easier to handle these moments, but you have to own this day.

Hang in there 6r. Let me know if you need anything. You've got this!

[Derk40]

it happens once every 20 days of so....

my body starts screaming for nicotine.....

originally it was for a dip.....

tonight, mistake fuck that....all day TODAY it has consumed my mind. I had a very stressful day at work and naturally my addict self wanted to rely upon nicotine to make me feel better. I am on KTC now at 11:15 PM and I must admit that I am embarrassed. I feel guilty and I am sorry.

It is weird that I now feel guilty for allowing nicotine to remain in my thoughts. Before, anything short of a cave was complete happiness. I expect more of myself. Tonight and today was by far my most difficult night. I came up with every excuse in my head to use but I refused.....

Thanks to ktc and my gf for the support....Day 68 and still fuckin killing it. QLF

Don't be embarrassed. This is totally normal. You're not "allowing" nicotine to remain in your thoughts. It's a tough crutch to eliminate, the lies will pop into your head from time to time. As long as you keep the thoughts in your head and nic out your lip, you will be fine.

Try not believe the lies the she is whispering.

You had a stressful day at work, the sneaky little nic whore is whispering to you that a lip full will somehow make
Your day a little better. It will take some of the stress away.

You know that's a lie. Stufffing your lip full of poison will do nothing but increase your stress level and add another problem to your plate.

You don't need that shit, and you never did.

Don't be embarrassed when she comes back to try and convince you otherwise. Just grind it out and send her packing. Every time you do, you win and makes it that much easier to smack the bitch around, the next time she comes whispering bullshit in your ear.

You got this. Tomorrow will be a better day.

Quit on...

Hang strong sixer.

You are actually just experiencing life without nicotine for the first time in years. You are no longer a slave to a can.

We were not put on this earth to be a slave. Freedom is one of your God given rights. Don't let these moments slow you one bit... power thru them and get out there and enjoy life.

Over time it gets easier to handle these moments, but you have to own this day.

[Emulator]

Sixcountry, This is normal feelings and attacks by the nic bitch. As the big "D" said it will lessen with time for as long as you remain resolute in your efforts. I know you will remain true ..She still attacks and will attack but her strength becomes less and less and you can just flick her away like a bug soon. It is important to place the quit above most things today so you can look back tomorrow and tell the Nic bitch to "Suck it". When I crave I think of the nic bitches nasty tobacco stained tit, Thus far and for ever more, I have not wanted to wrap my lips around the nasty tit and suckle.... kinda disgusting ya know but dipping is that disgusting and even more dangerous the diseases you could get. Suck the tit =get cancer. I quit with you today sixcountry. Be strong, Never Again For Any Reason.......Robbie

[Diesel2112]

it happens once every 20 days of so....

my body starts screaming for nicotine.....

originally it was for a dip.....

tonight, mistake fuck that....all day TODAY it has consumed my mind. I had a very stressful day at work and naturally my addict self wanted to rely upon nicotine to make me feel better. I am on KTC now at 11:15 PM and I must admit that I am embarrassed. I feel guilty and I am sorry.

It is weird that I now feel guilty for allowing nicotine to remain in my thoughts. Before, anything short of a cave was complete happiness. I expect more of myself. Tonight and today was by far my most difficult night. I came up with every excuse in my head to use but I refused.....

Thanks to ktc and my gf for the support....Day 68 and still fuckin killing it. QLF

Don't be embarrassed. This is totally normal. You're not "allowing" nicotine to remain in your thoughts. It's a tough crutch to eliminate, the lies will pop into your head from time to time. As long as you keep the thoughts in your head and nic out your lip, you will be fine.

Try not believe the lies the she is whispering.

You had a stressful day at work, the sneaky little nic whore is whispering to you that a lip full will somehow make
Your day a little better. It will take some of the stress away.

You know that's a lie. Stufffing your lip full of poison will do nothing but increase your stress level and add another problem to your plate.

You don't need that shit, and you never did.

Don't be embarrassed when she comes back to try and convince you otherwise. Just grind it out and send her packing. Every time you do, you win and makes it that much easier to smack the bitch around, the next time she comes whispering bullshit in your ear.

You got this. Tomorrow will be a better day.

Quit on...

[sixercountry]

it happens once every 20 days of so....

my body starts screaming for nicotine.....

originally it was for a dip.....

tonight, mistake fuck that....all day TODAY it has consumed my mind. I had a very stressful day at work and naturally my addict self wanted to rely upon nicotine to make me feel better. I am on KTC now at 11:15 PM and I must admit that I am embarrassed. I feel guilty and I am sorry.

It is weird that I now feel guilty for allowing nicotine to remain in my thoughts. Before, anything short of a cave was complete happiness. I expect more of myself. Tonight and today was by far my most difficult night. I came up with every excuse in my head to use but I refused.....

Thanks to ktc and my gf for the support....Day 68 and still fuckin killing it. QLF

[sixercountry]

I have heard many stories about "dip dreams" like the one above. They are explained as pretty horrific episodes involving our addiction. I do not know if I had a dip dream last night. But I do think it was probably a good thing for myself. I have been going through a pretty significant funk, as you know. Last night I had a dream about all the things I used to think I enjoyed but have now realized I strongly disliked.....

The dream begins with a golf outing with an acquaintance (that I have never golfed with but is a known tobacco user). This person offers me a dip and I accept the invitation. I have some of the same feelings as the dip dream mentioned above. The taste and the physical feeling is very similar. The next part of the dream is me drinking with some buddies and me smoking a cigarette outside some bar. This is similar to the scene of my previous cave in 2011. I remember smoking half and hated it. I also remember that I am smoking and drinking with my ex gf of many years that I pretty much hate now. She was with me during the height of my nicotine addiction. (Luckily, I have a much more supportive gf now.) The dream continues with us banging, me hating it, me ending it, and then smoking another cigarette that I throw out after two hauls. The dream finally ends with me sitting in front of a computer and saying to myself "I could be posting 60 something days right now but I fucked up and used that bitch nicotine."...I feel better this morning knowing I truly hate nicotine and would regret using it moments after if I was ever a weak ass retread caver....have a good day. Day 66

[sixercountry]

Day 65

You are not "all set"......You are not "barely craving" anymore....You surely are not "cured"......

I have always been the type of person to explore anything and become infatuated with that thing, idea, or activity. It has its positives and negatives I guess. I feel like I am a well rounded dude (a little more since I have quit) that has done a little bit of a lot of things. I feel like this is probably a negative when it comes to my quit. The negative of becoming infatuated with things is that I burn out and quickly get sick of them. I begin to quickly lose interest and need different stimulation. I think that is why I get resounding "funks" every 15 days. That so called "70-80" funk?? yeah I got that shit now at 65. When you are feeling like you have the bitch beat.....When you feel so good that you start talking about certainty in the future regarding the unlikelihood that you will ever touch dip again....Just remember you will feel like I am....I think so many things for just a few seconds all day long. These include, "I am sick of typing www.killthefuckincan.org"....."I am tired of this fuckin fake fuckin dip that does nothing."...."all those so called smart vet fucks told me it gets better..."...."Why do I still feel foggy?".....
Those are the negatives of course. I also think about how I was a slave....About how I have made friendships on here....About how I am actually healthier today than 65 days ago..

We never have this beat....We can never get complacent....We will probably have thoughts or craves for a long time into the future even though they are less often. How are we going to deal with it when it happens??...Dip more fake, stick nuts in drawer, dip more fake, feel like shit but know you are winning, help new quitters, dip more fake, take advice, stay close to KTC...QLF. Day 66 tomorrow. It will get better. Fuck funks. Im out.

"It will get better" "You got this " .........sixcountry, I felt the exact same around the same date of 65
Here is my 65 day post...."Oh My God Help me I dipped..... I was clawing at my mouth and lips spitting and cursing trying to get it out. My poor wife scared to death abruptly awakened to screams and curses and me exclaiming how will I tell them and rambling strange names and begging forgiveness, James , sluggo, ginet EXnuke and a miriad of others which I had to explain........ when I woke up.... Day 65 like a teen aged boy and his first wet dream... I had my first dip dream. I had heard others talk but didnt think much of it never having experienced one, i didnt think they could be that bad. The realness, feeling of textures as the three fingered loaded dip enters your lip at just the right spot. then the taste.. it started to make me gag... it was a stale taste. That taste when you expect a really good dip and the can is a little dry... horrible. The feeling of guilt was the worst, for some reason I saw Evil's and srans avatar and though Oh shit they saw me... and I was trying to hide but I couldnt..... Days 60-65 have brought a new kinda funk before the dream came around, I experienced some depression for a few days and didnt care about much but thanks again to a few good peeps we made it through One Day At A Time.... Ginet thanks for being a pathfinder (Ask slug military term) and warning me of things to come and cutting the path through the quit... :)". It will get better six.. for that I am sure and I am not that many days ahead of you so keep on keeping on, Im at 126 and still crave a bit some day worse than others but it is much better than day 65...You are a bad ass quitter... you own your quit and do not need to suckle at the saggy, tobacco stained, foul smelling teat of the Nic bitch. ever again....Robbie

Thank you to all u dudes.....would never be quit without you.

[Emulator]

Day 65

You are not "all set"......You are not "barely craving" anymore....You surely are not "cured"......

I have always been the type of person to explore anything and become infatuated with that thing, idea, or activity. It has its positives and negatives I guess. I feel like I am a well rounded dude (a little more since I have quit) that has done a little bit of a lot of things. I feel like this is probably a negative when it comes to my quit. The negative of becoming infatuated with things is that I burn out and quickly get sick of them. I begin to quickly lose interest and need different stimulation. I think that is why I get resounding "funks" every 15 days. That so called "70-80" funk?? yeah I got that shit now at 65. When you are feeling like you have the bitch beat.....When you feel so good that you start talking about certainty in the future regarding the unlikelihood that you will ever touch dip again....Just remember you will feel like I am....I think so many things for just a few seconds all day long. These include, "I am sick of typing www.killthefuckincan.org"....."I am tired of this fuckin fake fuckin dip that does nothing."...."all those so called smart vet fucks told me it gets better..."...."Why do I still feel foggy?".....
Those are the negatives of course. I also think about how I was a slave....About how I have made friendships on here....About how I am actually healthier today than 65 days ago..

We never have this beat....We can never get complacent....We will probably have thoughts or craves for a long time into the future even though they are less often. How are we going to deal with it when it happens??...Dip more fake, stick nuts in drawer, dip more fake, feel like shit but know you are winning, help new quitters, dip more fake, take advice, stay close to KTC...QLF. Day 66 tomorrow. It will get better. Fuck funks. Im out.

"It will get better" "You got this " .........sixcountry, I felt the exact same around the same date of 65
Here is my 65 day post...."Oh My God Help me I dipped..... I was clawing at my mouth and lips spitting and cursing trying to get it out. My poor wife scared to death abruptly awakened to screams and curses and me exclaiming how will I tell them and rambling strange names and begging forgiveness, James , sluggo, ginet EXnuke and a miriad of others which I had to explain........ when I woke up.... Day 65 like a teen aged boy and his first wet dream... I had my first dip dream. I had heard others talk but didnt think much of it never having experienced one, i didnt think they could be that bad. The realness, feeling of textures as the three fingered loaded dip enters your lip at just the right spot. then the taste.. it started to make me gag... it was a stale taste. That taste when you expect a really good dip and the can is a little dry... horrible. The feeling of guilt was the worst, for some reason I saw Evil's and srans avatar and though Oh shit they saw me... and I was trying to hide but I couldnt..... Days 60-65 have brought a new kinda funk before the dream came around, I experienced some depression for a few days and didnt care about much but thanks again to a few good peeps we made it through One Day At A Time.... Ginet thanks for being a pathfinder (Ask slug military term) and warning me of things to come and cutting the path through the quit... :)". It will get better six.. for that I am sure and I am not that many days ahead of you so keep on keeping on, Im at 126 and still crave a bit some day worse than others but it is much better than day 65...You are a bad ass quitter... you own your quit and do not need to suckle at the saggy, tobacco stained, foul smelling teat of the Nic bitch. ever again....Robbie

[Grizzlyhasclaws]

Day 65

You are not "all set"......You are not "barely craving" anymore....You surely are not "cured"......

I have always been the type of person to explore anything and become infatuated with that thing, idea, or activity. It has its positives and negatives I guess. I feel like I am a well rounded dude (a little more since I have quit) that has done a little bit of a lot of things. I feel like this is probably a negative when it comes to my quit. The negative of becoming infatuated with things is that I burn out and quickly get sick of them. I begin to quickly lose interest and need different stimulation. I think that is why I get resounding "funks" every 15 days. That so called "70-80" funk?? yeah I got that shit now at 65. When you are feeling like you have the bitch beat.....When you feel so good that you start talking about certainty in the future regarding the unlikelihood that you will ever touch dip again....Just remember you will feel like I am....I think so many things for just a few seconds all day long. These include, "I am sick of typing www.killthefuckincan.org"....."I am tired of this fuckin fake fuckin dip that does nothing."...."all those so called smart vet fucks told me it gets better..."...."Why do I still feel foggy?".....
Those are the negatives of course. I also think about how I was a slave....About how I have made friendships on here....About how I am actually healthier today than 65 days ago..

We never have this beat....We can never get complacent....We will probably have thoughts or craves for a long time into the future even though they are less often. How are we going to deal with it when it happens??...Dip more fake, stick nuts in drawer, dip more fake, feel like shit but know you are winning, help new quitters, dip more fake, take advice, stay close to KTC...QLF. Day 66 tomorrow. It will get better. Fuck funks. Im out.

It'll get better. Stamp that shit guaranteed. Stay the course.

[D2maine]

Day 65

You are not "all set"......You are not "barely craving" anymore....You surely are not "cured"......

I have always been the type of person to explore anything and become infatuated with that thing, idea, or activity. It has its positives and negatives I guess. I feel like I am a well rounded dude (a little more since I have quit) that has done a little bit of a lot of things. I feel like this is probably a negative when it comes to my quit. The negative of becoming infatuated with things is that I burn out and quickly get sick of them. I begin to quickly lose interest and need different stimulation. I think that is why I get resounding "funks" every 15 days. That so called "70-80" funk?? yeah I got that shit now at 65. When you are feeling like you have the bitch beat.....When you feel so good that you start talking about certainty in the future regarding the unlikelihood that you will ever touch dip again....Just remember you will feel like I am....I think so many things for just a few seconds all day long. These include, "I am sick of typing www.killthefuckincan.org"....."I am tired of this fuckin fake fuckin dip that does nothing."...."all those so called smart vet fucks told me it gets better..."...."Why do I still feel foggy?".....
Those are the negatives of course. I also think about how I was a slave....About how I have made friendships on here....About how I am actually healthier today than 65 days ago..

We never have this beat....We can never get complacent....We will probably have thoughts or craves for a long time into the future even though they are less often. How are we going to deal with it when it happens??...Dip more fake, stick nuts in drawer, dip more fake, feel like shit but know you are winning, help new quitters, dip more fake, take advice, stay close to KTC...QLF. Day 66 tomorrow. It will get better. Fuck funks. Im out.

quit with you today and everyday sixer. you are winning even when it feels like you are not.

[sixercountry]

Day 65

You are not "all set"......You are not "barely craving" anymore....You surely are not "cured"......

I have always been the type of person to explore anything and become infatuated with that thing, idea, or activity. It has its positives and negatives I guess. I feel like I am a well rounded dude (a little more since I have quit) that has done a little bit of a lot of things. I feel like this is probably a negative when it comes to my quit. The negative of becoming infatuated with things is that I burn out and quickly get sick of them. I begin to quickly lose interest and need different stimulation. I think that is why I get resounding "funks" every 15 days. That so called "70-80" funk?? yeah I got that shit now at 65. When you are feeling like you have the bitch beat.....When you feel so good that you start talking about certainty in the future regarding the unlikelihood that you will ever touch dip again....Just remember you will feel like I am....I think so many things for just a few seconds all day long. These include, "I am sick of typing www.killthefuckincan.org"....."I am tired of this fuckin fake fuckin dip that does nothing."...."all those so called smart vet fucks told me it gets better..."...."Why do I still feel foggy?".....
Those are the negatives of course. I also think about how I was a slave....About how I have made friendships on here....About how I am actually healthier today than 65 days ago..

We never have this beat....We can never get complacent....We will probably have thoughts or craves for a long time into the future even though they are less often. How are we going to deal with it when it happens??...Dip more fake, stick nuts in drawer, dip more fake, feel like shit but know you are winning, help new quitters, dip more fake, take advice, stay close to KTC...QLF. Day 66 tomorrow. It will get better. Fuck funks. Im out.

[slinger]

Day 62 Weekend Warrior

I like to look for some added incentive (as if dying isnt enough) on the weekends. This is the time when the site has the least activity and when the quit of our members is the most vulnerable. Today is day 62. I am a member of the June 2014 group. As of today, we have had 75 people that have caved or are missing in action since the beginning of our group. We currently have 58 bad ass members that are fighting. Im not writing this to be negative or to discourage people. I am hoping that writing this will allow us to be aware of the reasons not to let our guard down. I am sure there were many people among the 75 people that were strong quitters. Some of these people may have thought they had this under control or that they could have just one. I feel like these 75 people scare us all. The 75 people potentially represent one of us. That is of course of we are arrogant enough to think "we got this"......I do not want to see another member of our group on that list. I dont want the number to rise to 76. 58 of us will make it 100. I quit today. out

What frightens us the most is we are all just one bad decision away from being one of those 75.

That is why we can never let our guard down today, tomorrow, 1000, or 10,102 Days from now.

That is why I put my name and my promise on that sacred roll every day. Our word is what we have to keep us from making that one bad decision.

Good stuff, Sixer. I know everybody has their own routine, but I need to post roll every day before my feet even hit the floor. This is not a jab at people who post later in the day. I'm just saying that it's important for me to do it that way. I know me, and I don't trust me without putting my quit armor on first thing in the morning. Quitting with you and the rest of the bad ass June '14 quitters.

[RAZD611]

Day 62 Weekend Warrior

I like to look for some added incentive (as if dying isnt enough) on the weekends. This is the time when the site has the least activity and when the quit of our members is the most vulnerable. Today is day 62. I am a member of the June 2014 group. As of today, we have had 75 people that have caved or are missing in action since the beginning of our group. We currently have 58 bad ass members that are fighting. Im not writing this to be negative or to discourage people. I am hoping that writing this will allow us to be aware of the reasons not to let our guard down. I am sure there were many people among the 75 people that were strong quitters. Some of these people may have thought they had this under control or that they could have just one. I feel like these 75 people scare us all. The 75 people potentially represent one of us. That is of course of we are arrogant enough to think "we got this"......I do not want to see another member of our group on that list. I dont want the number to rise to 76. 58 of us will make it 100. I quit today. out

What frightens us the most is we are all just one bad decision away from being one of those 75.

That is why we can never let our guard down today, tomorrow, 1000, or 10,102 Days from now.

That is why I put my name and my promise on that sacred roll every day. Our word is what we have to keep us from making that one bad decision.