Ok Matt. I PMed you back. Just in case you come here and dont go check your PM. We are harsh and this sucks, it's because we care and we know you are fucking up the best decision you've ever made for yourself. Fucking up your life possibly. And we do have a right to be pissed at you, after all you did give us your word, so yea there is some of that emotion in our post to you as well. Balls up and do this shit and do it for no other reason than you, your fucking worth it, do this shit for yourself dont throw this away!