my quit

[GlennFtheKodiak]

I got a couple of messages from cmay and john so I need to tell you guys what I did so you don’t repeat my mistakes and waste any more of you time worrying about my sorry ass. I caved Saturday. Not really from any triggers but more that I just felt like having a dip. Sounds terrible but that’s the truth. I actually bought the can after I saw the doctor Wednesday but didn’t open it. Thursday I opened it but just took a whiff. Friday I posted roll, I promised not to dip that day, so I didn’t. Then Saturday I didn’t post and caved. I had #’s but didn’t use them because I didn’t want to be stopped. For whatever reason my quit became harder the further into it I got. Maybe that was just my addict mind lying to me but that’s how it felt. Another lie running through my head is “your fine so just do it a little longer and then quit”. My plan of using fake dip sucked because it kind of felt like I never quit. I still had the spitter all the time so it really didn’t feel like I had made much of a change. I also had #’s, the website, and even facebook contacts but didn’t use them. My plan execution was poor to say the least. If you notice on my profile, I joined this site in November of ’09 but I never posted until July. This is because I didn’t want to post until I was sure I could commit. Obviously I was wrong. I’m too weak to post right now. I can’t post and cave again because this site can’t lose its meaning to me. It’s the only thing that’s helped quit for even one day since I started dipping. I’m posting this on my introduction page because I can’t post roll today. I’m going to post roll again and hopefully it won’t be too late. But if it is, I guess I deserve whatever I get. Believe me, I know I’m a piece of shit for what I did. So hopefully I didn’t ruin any one else’s quit.

Made mine stronger pal.

See you back when you take your panties off.

[tberge3]

I got a couple of messages from cmay and john so I need to tell you guys what I did so you don’t repeat my mistakes and waste any more of you time worrying about my sorry ass. I caved Saturday. Not really from any triggers but more that I just felt like having a dip. Sounds terrible but that’s the truth. I actually bought the can after I saw the doctor Wednesday but didn’t open it. Thursday I opened it but just took a whiff. Friday I posted roll, I promised not to dip that day, so I didn’t. Then Saturday I didn’t post and caved. I had #’s but didn’t use them because I didn’t want to be stopped. For whatever reason my quit became harder the further into it I got. Maybe that was just my addict mind lying to me but that’s how it felt. Another lie running through my head is “your fine so just do it a little longer and then quit”. My plan of using fake dip sucked because it kind of felt like I never quit. I still had the spitter all the time so it really didn’t feel like I had made much of a change. I also had #’s, the website, and even facebook contacts but didn’t use them. My plan execution was poor to say the least. If you notice on my profile, I joined this site in November of ’09 but I never posted until July. This is because I didn’t want to post until I was sure I could commit. Obviously I was wrong. I’m too weak to post right now. I can’t post and cave again because this site can’t lose its meaning to me. It’s the only thing that’s helped quit for even one day since I started dipping. I’m posting this on my introduction page because I can’t post roll today. I’m going to post roll again and hopefully it won’t be too late. But if it is, I guess I deserve whatever I get. Believe me, I know I’m a piece of shit for what I did. So hopefully I didn’t ruin any one else’s quit.

[john101477]

Hope you come back with a fresh quit buddy. sorry you dropped out of the Oct HoF. you were one of the guys that was an Inspiration to me... SUCKS

[cmay1]

Had my second nic dream last night. It felt so real accept this time instead of dip, I dreamed I smoked a whole pack of cigarettes. Its a crazy feeling to wake up and feel like you caved when in reality you never came close.

You got a solid three weeks under your belt - CONGRATS - you know you'll never smoke - how are you going to compete in your tri's? I keep thinking about cigarettes myself, even though I hate them.

Wierd. Keep quitting. Later.

[tberge3]

Had my second nic dream last night. It felt so real accept this time instead of dip, I dreamed I smoked a whole pack of cigarettes. Its a crazy feeling to wake up and feel like you caved when in reality you never came close.

[Greg5280]

I have chewed so much gum I think I can bite nails in half now. You will slowly start to cut back on gum, seeds etc. For now do not worry about it.

If it keeps the NIC out of your body then do it. I was partial to boobies...

[cmay1]

Made it a week. Played golf yesterday tobacco free. Also had the house to myself last night and never even considered putting that poison in my mouth. The fake shit on the other hand is becoming a habbit. I didn't use it much at first but I find the last couple of days I've been using it more. I've been almost getting on the same schedule with the fake stuff as i was with tobacco. But it's not making me crave the real stuff so i guess its ok for now.

Played golf yesterday myself, skoal-free. Congrats on the week. I've been pretty solid just chewing gum through day 5. Got a couple of those giant cup things full of trident for my office and my car. My jaw and temples hurt from chewing gum all day long. Keep up the good work. Whatever keeps you away from tobacco products, that's what you do -

[tberge3]

Made it a week. Played golf yesterday tobacco free. Also had the house to myself last night and never even considered putting that poison in my mouth. The fake shit on the other hand is becoming a habbit. I didn't use it much at first but I find the last couple of days I've been using it more. I've been almost getting on the same schedule with the fake stuff as i was with tobacco. But it's not making me crave the real stuff so i guess its ok for now.

[john101477]

I've been dipping a can/day for 16 years. My brand was cope but usually did wolf natural because of the price.

I have two kids that I don't want to grow up watching me spit all the time and possibly die of cancer that should have been prevented. But my main reason for quitting is selfish, its because I want to be around for my kids lives.

My last dip was friday, 7/16. I threw it out at 10:30 I started posting role saturday.

This past weekend everything I did, I pretty much did for the first time without a dip in my mouth. And now I'm at work for the first time without a dip.

man good for you. I quit the same day and while it is at times damn near unbearable, i am happy I quit and feel better every morning when I wake up. the evenings for me kinda suck ass. foggy and headaches seem to roll in about the same effing time every night. but the good news is that I am actually sleeping better with out cope than I did with it.

[Kdip]

I've been reading a lot of other people's experiences in the introduction section since I've been here and it looks like a lot of people have hid their addiction from family, friends, and work.  My experience with dip has been different.  My parents caught me when I was young and dissapproved but really just looked the other way (my dad is a smoker).  My wife, while doesn't want me to get cancer and die of course, never really cared that I dipped as long as I didn't leave a mess with it in the house.  And at work I was the guy walking around the office with a spitter everyday.  Everytime I've caved in the past there's never been anyone for me to be accoutable to other than myself.  I like the fact that if I feeling weak I can tell someone on this site and get chewed out.

It was difficult quitting when your habit was a terrible secret you kept from all of the people that would otherwise be supporting you.

Its out in the open for me and my wife now, for better or for worse, and hopefully she and this site will be the support I need to stay strong during my quit.

So long as she doesn't divorce me. She's very pissed at me. Not helping, currently.

Hang in there cmay1. You will work this thing out. If you are sincere in your quit as it sounds like you are, your wife will come around and support you. I almost lost my marraige over mey dirty secret but we worked through it and I am stronger because of it. BEST decision I ever made!

[cmay1]

I've been reading a lot of other people's experiences in the introduction section since I've been here and it looks like a lot of people have hid their addiction from family, friends, and work. My experience with dip has been different. My parents caught me when I was young and dissapproved but really just looked the other way (my dad is a smoker). My wife, while doesn't want me to get cancer and die of course, never really cared that I dipped as long as I didn't leave a mess with it in the house. And at work I was the guy walking around the office with a spitter everyday. Everytime I've caved in the past there's never been anyone for me to be accoutable to other than myself. I like the fact that if I feeling weak I can tell someone on this site and get chewed out.

It was difficult quitting when your habit was a terrible secret you kept from all of the people that would otherwise be supporting you.

Its out in the open for me and my wife now, for better or for worse, and hopefully she and this site will be the support I need to stay strong during my quit.

So long as she doesn't divorce me. She's very pissed at me. Not helping, currently.

[tberge3]

I've been reading a lot of other people's experiences in the introduction section since I've been here and it looks like a lot of people have hid their addiction from family, friends, and work. My experience with dip has been different. My parents caught me when I was young and dissapproved but really just looked the other way (my dad is a smoker). My wife, while doesn't want me to get cancer and die of course, never really cared that I dipped as long as I didn't leave a mess with it in the house. And at work I was the guy walking around the office with a spitter everyday. Everytime I've caved in the past there's never been anyone for me to be accoutable to other than myself. I like the fact that if I feeling weak I can tell someone on this site and get chewed out.

[CoachDoc]

I've been dipping a can/day for 16 years. My brand was cope but usually did wolf natural because of the price.

I have two kids that I don't want to grow up watching me spit all the time and possibly die of cancer that should have been prevented. But my main reason for quitting is selfish, its because I want to be around for my kids lives.

My last dip was friday, 7/16. I threw it out at 10:30 I started posting role saturday.

This past weekend everything I did, I pretty much did for the first time without a dip in my mouth. And now I'm at work for the first time without a dip.

Good job in making the decision and taking the first steps towards kicking the addiction. Like, you, I kept a dip in nearly all the time...for nearly 20 years. Keep posting roll, keep making your promise to yourself and each of us every morning. Keep your word. You've ben on the site long enough to see all the standard advice - get numbers, read and read, post, stay active in the process, etc. Don't take any of this for granted...don't get lazy, because the addiction will sneak up on you and drag you under if you aren't prepared. If you need anything, PM me.

[kb81]

I've been dipping a can/day for 16 years. My brand was cope but usually did wolf natural because of the price.

I have two kids that I don't want to grow up watching me spit all the time and possibly die of cancer that should have been prevented. But my main reason for quitting is selfish, its because I want to be around for my kids lives.

My last dip was friday, 7/16. I threw it out at 10:30 I started posting role saturday.

This past weekend everything I did, I pretty much did for the first time without a dip in my mouth. And now I'm at work for the first time without a dip.

Congrats and welcome aboard. Read, read, and read. Be accountable and post roll call everyday. No excuses.

[tberge3]

I've been dipping a can/day for 16 years. My brand was cope but usually did wolf natural because of the price.

I have two kids that I don't want to grow up watching me spit all the time and possibly die of cancer that should have been prevented. But my main reason for quitting is selfish, its because I want to be around for my kids lives.

My last dip was friday, 7/16. I threw it out at 10:30 I started posting role saturday.

This past weekend everything I did, I pretty much did for the first time without a dip in my mouth. And now I'm at work for the first time without a dip.