Last Chance for a Slow Dance take II

[radtech04]

Hello KTC friends, its beena little while since I have been on here.

somewhere around 49 days I caved. I know, I will get the harsh treatment for this and that's fair, but I kinda lost my marbles for a little while the last month or so.

Well, I'm on some solid ground again and my heart is healed up a lot and I realized I am free, and I quit for me over the summer. I am on tour right now and I just woke up today and knew I was ready to begin this again and actually achieve HOF status.

Some things that I would like to share that have been horrible since the relapse is that i realized i'm a human

okay.. that's true, actually, i was going to say that thanks to all of the support from you gys i knew how to support my 50 year old father into quitting cigarettes, using many of the same encouragement techniques, he has been quit for 40 days now today.. imagine how shameful I felt when I quit on him a few weeks into his quit.

I am certain to get hell from this, but now once did I lie on here, I kept every day that I posted 100%. It is my backslide and I really regret it. I want to thank Seth too because he kept me accountable for the last week before i budged.... but ultimately it was my choice.

I don't regret it, it was just what happened. I snapped, I was angry enough to do it without thought. I was spiteful enough to do it without care... and I am pledging to keep my head on clear. I have no one else to do this for but me anyways.

Begin the flaming.

I don't even know where to post my commitment to day two.

Ok cockgobbler, The 1st thing you do is walk your pussy caving pansy ass over to Oct and tell them what you did. Then you go to Dec(your new group) and tell them the same thing. Tell them your plan, and ask them to accept you.

[Bean]

I in December 2010 Quit Group (this is Day 12 for me). I don't think giving you shit for caving is productive. You fucked up, you are to blame and YOU ALREADY KNOW THIS!!! End of discussion.

The important thing is that you're back!!! I don't want to be an "enabler" by saying caving is okay, but yesterday's mistakes are history. Let it go, start over, take responsibility for actions (which you have), and COMMIT to your quit (sound like a slogan, huh?).

Only you know what is in your heart, but if you are genuinely trying to quit, you are welcome in our December 2010 quit group...at least in my opinion, anyway. Contact me if you need support. Like I said, I'm just 12 days in, but I am determined not to cave after a few weeks. I won't do it. And neither will you.

You fucked up, it is over, the most important thing is what you do (or don't do) from this point forward.

You can do it, brotha.

[cmay1]

Hello KTC friends, its beena little while since I have been on here.

somewhere around 49 days I caved. I know, I will get the harsh treatment for this and that's fair, but I kinda lost my marbles for a little while the last month or so.

Well, I'm on some solid ground again and my heart is healed up a lot and I realized I am free, and I quit for me over the summer. I am on tour right now and I just woke up today and knew I was ready to begin this again and actually achieve HOF status.

Some things that I would like to share that have been horrible since the relapse is that i realized i'm a human

okay.. that's true, actually, i was going to say that thanks to all of the support from you gys i knew how to support my 50 year old father into quitting cigarettes, using many of the same encouragement techniques, he has been quit for 40 days now today.. imagine how shameful I felt when I quit on him a few weeks into his quit.

I am certain to get hell from this, but now once did I lie on here, I kept every day that I posted 100%. It is my backslide and I really regret it. I want to thank Seth too because he kept me accountable for the last week before i budged.... but ultimately it was my choice.

I don't regret it, it was just what happened. I snapped, I was angry enough to do it without thought. I was spiteful enough to do it without care... and I am pledging to keep my head on clear. I have no one else to do this for but me anyways.

Begin the flaming.

I don't even know where to post my commitment to day two.

Hey Benny - I'm still kicking in your former quit group.

You post roll in December now, though they're likely closing up soon. You were doing so well. You had brothers (not me, apparently) to be accountable to, you had brothers texting and calling, you were active on this site. You had everything this site has to offer, you were using it, and then you caved. That's probably the scariest kind of cave to new quitters. And people like me, who rely on this site and think it is helping tremendously.

Tell everybody why this site wasn't working for you. Tell everybody why the support you received and the outlet you had here stopped working.

Tell me when your band is coming to Atlanta, so I can kick you in the balls and then rock out. PM me if you like. You can have my number if you want it. You didn't ask the first time (and neither did I), but maybe this time around we can do it together. I'll have your back, but let everybody learn something from your frightening cave.

[davenc]

I don't regret it, it was just what happened. I snapped, I was angry enough to do it without thought. I was spiteful enough to do it without care... and I am pledging to keep my head on clear. I have no one else to do this for but me anyways.

You don't regret going back and fingerbanging the tin again? But yet you come back asking for forgiveness because apparently you all of a sudden realized you were human?

First off, if you give a damn about quitting then you should regret getting sucked back in. In fact you should be way past me with number of days but now you're back throwing up a day 1. Like MOA asks, what is different this time? But based on your not regretting it statement I see this as another cave getting ready to happen. I hope not and I hope that you will prove me wrong.

Second, I'm not a rocket scientist or doctor or any kind of genetic engineer, but I can assure you that you are human. In fact I can guarantee that everyone that posts here is human. I highly doubt we have any aliens or cats and dogs posting on KTC about their addiction to Copenhagen. We are all fragile human beings and we are here because we are no longer going to poison ourselves with the nic bitch's panty droppings.


Quit and stay quit this time damn it!


Dave

[minuteofangle]

OCTOBER KICKS ASS!

Cans Of Cope and Kodiak Suck

Monday, 12 July, 2010

October 2010 Roll Call

====================================================

October kick ass quitters

10ninety6- Day 8. One week down. I like turtles.
saycheese - Day 18
asukep - Day 0+ a couple hours. going to sleep, sure be back tomorrow. hope i did this right.
Steve1 - Day 3 ...Thanks Show
Troub454--day7
Smitty - Day 13
Stephen43 - Day 16
KBman- Day 3
Merch - Day 7
cando; 7
Bennythekid: Day one - feeling strong
aabye1 - Day 12


SO WHAT IS DIFFERENT THIS TIME BENNY? What will you do differently?

MOA

[brianl]

Hello KTC friends, its beena little while since I have been on here.

somewhere around 49 days I caved. I know, I will get the harsh treatment for this and that's fair, but I kinda lost my marbles for a little while the last month or so.

Well, I'm on some solid ground again and my heart is healed up a lot and I realized I am free, and I quit for me over the summer. I am on tour right now and I just woke up today and knew I was ready to begin this again and actually achieve HOF status.

Some things that I would like to share that have been horrible since the relapse is that i realized i'm a human

okay.. that's true, actually, i was going to say that thanks to all of the support from you gys i knew how to support my 50 year old father into quitting cigarettes, using many of the same encouragement techniques, he has been quit for 40 days now today.. imagine how shameful I felt when I quit on him a few weeks into his quit.

I am certain to get hell from this, but now once did I lie on here, I kept every day that I posted 100%. It is my backslide and I really regret it. I want to thank Seth too because he kept me accountable for the last week before i budged.... but ultimately it was my choice.

I don't regret it, it was just what happened. I snapped, I was angry enough to do it without thought. I was spiteful enough to do it without care... and I am pledging to keep my head on clear. I have no one else to do this for but me anyways.

Begin the flaming.

I don't even know where to post my commitment to day two.

I'm just a newbie so all I'll say is welcome back and good luck.

I'll let the Vets handle ripping you to shreds......


Brian

[bennythekid]

Hello KTC friends, its beena little while since I have been on here.

somewhere around 49 days I caved. I know, I will get the harsh treatment for this and that's fair, but I kinda lost my marbles for a little while the last month or so.

Well, I'm on some solid ground again and my heart is healed up a lot and I realized I am free, and I quit for me over the summer. I am on tour right now and I just woke up today and knew I was ready to begin this again and actually achieve HOF status.

Some things that I would like to share that have been horrible since the relapse is that i realized i'm a human

okay.. that's true, actually, i was going to say that thanks to all of the support from you gys i knew how to support my 50 year old father into quitting cigarettes, using many of the same encouragement techniques, he has been quit for 40 days now today.. imagine how shameful I felt when I quit on him a few weeks into his quit.

I am certain to get hell from this, but now once did I lie on here, I kept every day that I posted 100%. It is my backslide and I really regret it. I want to thank Seth too because he kept me accountable for the last week before i budged.... but ultimately it was my choice.

I don't regret it, it was just what happened. I snapped, I was angry enough to do it without thought. I was spiteful enough to do it without care... and I am pledging to keep my head on clear. I have no one else to do this for but me anyways.

Begin the flaming.

I don't even know where to post my commitment to day two.

[bennythekid]

The last few days have been a pain in the ass. I dunno, I got to hang with the lady and I feel like even though I wasn't probably bad, I was probably a handful for her. Plus I almost caved today.. I am glad I didn't. A good buddy of mine called me and said he quit dipping this evening and I feel like I wouldn't have been very good support had I caved.

I need to ride my bike tomorrow. Its long overdue.

Benny

[bennythekid]

where can we hear your music?

We're called Renae

named after my mom who died of cancer in fact.

[MikeA]

hell no i'm a bald man by choice ;)

(http://sphotos.ak.fbcdn.net/hphotos-ak-snc4/hs142.snc4/36445_10150233341715121_661335120_13342038_7701010_n.jpg)

where can we hear your music?

[bennythekid]

hell no i'm a bald man by choice ;)

(http://sphotos.ak.fbcdn.net/hphotos-ak-snc4/hs142.snc4/36445_10150233341715121_661335120_13342038_7701010_n.jpg)

[MikeA]

benny has his "GF" by the balls?

Interesting......

'Popcorn'

shit, I missed that. Are they boyfriends? Someone needs to get greg40 in here to verify.

TIFFS !!

'crackup' 'crackup'

Those punk rock dudes must be some crazy, into everything mofos.

benny, do you have a mullet?

[bennythekid]

going to the doctor at 2:30 to give my mouth a once over. I've got a little bit of a strange shaping going on in my lower jaw behind my teeth where my tongue sits. i just want some reassurance. I'll probably ask to come back and double check with them in a month.

I feel good about seeing a doc right now because I really feel quit for the first time ever. its not me tlaking myself into it. I hate that shit. with my whole heart, i really fucking hate that shit.

[bennythekid]

For me it was sports.  I loved watch sports and dipping.  When I quit, I began to hate sports because I couldn't dip anymore and there was a huge void in my life.  It goes away and things do get easier.

This is exactly what I'm worried about when I start going on tour again and when my dudes are dipping around me. I'm trying to get the two that do to check out this site for the better. i even posted about this on my tumblr (bennys.tumblr.com)

I can't let all of these associations i have with it affect the things I love so much, its just going to be really hard.

I know they say weed doesn't have a chemical dependence but I was psychologically addicted to it for a minute.. I got over it by throwing the people out of my life that pushed it on me, or the fake 'friends' that came with the culture.. andn i leaned on the hardcore scene in my local community because a lot of the kinds, even if they are 5-8 years younger than me, are sober or at least smart.

I can't just throw the dippers out of my life, so how do I get them to not do it around me or not push it on me? especially when I'm stuck ina van with 3 guys 2 of which dip?

they have talked about quitting as if they weren't addicted and I was the one that had the addiction... should I challenge them?

oh well.. roll is my new addiction. ;) maybe they will see the change in me and want to change. I kinda got one of them into this accidentally, but the other one i tried to talk out of doing this for a long time. the snus is what hooked him in. he was doing that before joining the band. I would tell him 'no man you don't want to mess with this once you start you really can't quit' one day he just started buying cans of skoal edge.. that was that.

btw you think its bad when you buy a can of dip and it breaks the bank.. try living in a van with two other dippers. we were pretty communistic with our cans that would suck to spend upwards of 4-5 dollars on the northern side of the country and watch it be devastated in an afternoon by 3 jonesed mofos.

or try trying to find it in some places - sheesh.

I'm just happy to be done. I feel like normalcy is completely attainable once again.

no more opening used dip bottles in the botton of the van hoping it is not someone else's shit mouth fragrance.. no more frantic pit stops when i've been out an hour.

now I can spend my money on something better - avacados.

i like ranting. it keeps my mind occupied. maybe i'll cut my grass and bike ride some today.

Ben

[bennythekid]

haha! i love waking up to this shit!

' 'Popcorn'

'loot01'