Today is day 56 for me. I feel like I've come a long way since I first started. I remember the first week of quitting, where the fog and rage was so bad that I couldn't do anything other than repeatedly hit "refresh" on the KTC page and inhale food. I feel so much better overall, not just from when I was having withdrawals from nicotine, but from when I used to go through a can or more every day. My mouth feels better, I'm sleeping better, my mind is clearer, and life is good. I know that there are still more challenges to come (several vets have warned me about the funk), but I'm looking forward to overcoming them.
One of the best parts of my quit has been the motivation it has given me to improve other parts of my life. For so long, I felt like I was just stuck in this cycle of bad habits. I'd try to work on one thing, and all the others would get worse. It was like banging my head against a wall, trying to figure out what needed to change. Well, I might not have wanted to admit it at that point in time, but it turns out it was the nic bitch. I feel like I've been able to use my quit as a springboard for so many other changes in my life--I'm eating clean and losing weight, I'm back in the gym, I'm getting shit done at work and at home, I quit looking at porn and jerking off, I'm working on a consistent sleep schedule, and more. Shit's been great. Much love to all of the Hot August Knights, and to all of the veterans who have been supporting us all this time--I'm glad to be quit with y'all today.
