The first day...

[ParadigmDawg]

All I can say is that I am very proud to be quit with you brother.

[30isEnuff]

Today was a rough, rough day.

I started missing my dad pretty bad around the time I got home from work.  My wife said a couple of things to me that I took completely wrong, and there was that.  It sucks.  I love her and hate fighting with her.  I've had such a hard time with his death and sometimes I feel completely like a different person.  It sucks.  I just miss him so much.

A childhood friend killed himself last night.  He had a son that has inoperable brain cancer.  It's stage 3/4 I believe.  He's been in a hospital most of his life...  AND THIS IS HEART BREAKING.  Dad couldn't take it anymore.  I saw Jake deteriorate slowly on Facebook...  A man who just a year before, was as happy as could be with a new son on the way with his new wife.  He was a man of great faith or so it seemed, but after watching his son battle cancer, it seemed to evaporate.  Now, the baby is very sick and dad took his own life, leaving mom alone.  I've known him since I was a kid.  He was good friends with my brother and he was one of the first kids I looked up to.  Just a shame...  It's unreal to me that he killed himself.  It is a heart breaking situation and I still can't quite believe it.

Today lends some very real perspective into my life.  I am healthy.  I am loved by my wife and sons.  I have a career that helps me provide for them.  I have a lousy addiction to nicotine that I am currently burying for good with the help of KTC and my brothers here.  I think of Jake, and the hopelessness he must have felt...  Ah, it breaks my damn heart. 

Live.  Don't turn back from the great choices you have made.  Don't give in.  If you're weak, it's because you CHOOSE to be weak.  There is nothing that can make you cave.  It's all you...  Your choices...  No one else.  So excuse me in the future when I drop the fury on any future cavers...  I'm coming at you hard because nicotine makes NOTHING better.  Only worse.  Kill the can and stay quit NO MATTER WHAT, ONE DAY AT A TIME.

RIP Jake; my prayer is that God has you in his care some how, and that your son Max makes a full recovery. 

To my dad...  I love you with all of my heart buddy.  I've quit chewing...  I'm breaking the nicotine cycle right here and now...  My boys will not know of it.  I miss you every day.

Sorry to hear about your friend. It's hard to know what to say. Keep living, and fighting against the flow of negativity and addiction. Reach out if u need to talk.

Just, damn. I have no words bro... They're all too small. Stay strong ~ stay quit. Pm me if you'd like another number.

Man... I feel for you. These are a couple of tough life events to deal with for anyone. I promise you that chew will not fix either situation. It will only create another problem for you. Despite your situation I see you are really focused on staying quit and that is badass bro! Fight for your quit. Prayers out to you and your family. QLF thru this time. I am quit with u today!

Prayers,, i'm also quit with you today.

Thoughts and prayers with you and your family Sarge. Keep pushing through and stay quit today. We'll stay quit with you to give you the extra push you need. PM if you need to chat anytime. I quit with you today bro.

Praying for you bro. While reading your post all I could think was that today was my first hunt without seeing my dad. He used to always be in the barn waiting for me to come hang up the fresh kills. He left me about 9 months ago, and although my big tough ass has tears streaming down my face currently I know he would have been proud today.

He taught me how to hunt at age 12, I hunted that day with a big wad of worm dirt in between my cheek and gum. Today was my first ever hunt Nic free. Being a father myself your story hit a chord in me.

I pray for you and he family of your friend. Just use this as an inspiration every day of your quit. I am right here brother if you ever need someone to talk to.

Pinched

You dipped 11 years straight, everyday you put poison in your mouth.
Being quit ODAAT you're going to be/feel like a different person...that person is the one to be, that person is the one you were born as...we were not born with the poison in our mouths.
Losing your dad like you did..he was/is a part of you, you're a part of him...that's why the pain is so intense. Time will help but you'll always feel him cause he is a part of you forever. That's okay, that is a good thing.
Being quit enables us to be who we are "supposed" to be.
We are re-wiring daily. We are adjusting to being healthier.
Go easy on yourself with the changes..welcome them, they are good.
Go even easier on your loved ones...it is very, very difficult (was for me) in the beginning of being quit to be rational, calm or cool with those who matter most.
ODAAT and NAFAR

[JayDubya]

Today was a rough, rough day.

I started missing my dad pretty bad around the time I got home from work. My wife said a couple of things to me that I took completely wrong, and there was that. It sucks. I love her and hate fighting with her. I've had such a hard time with his death and sometimes I feel completely like a different person. It sucks. I just miss him so much.

A childhood friend killed himself last night. He had a son that has inoperable brain cancer. It's stage 3/4 I believe. He's been in a hospital most of his life... AND THIS IS HEART BREAKING. Dad couldn't take it anymore. I saw Jake deteriorate slowly on Facebook... A man who just a year before, was as happy as could be with a new son on the way with his new wife. He was a man of great faith or so it seemed, but after watching his son battle cancer, it seemed to evaporate. Now, the baby is very sick and dad took his own life, leaving mom alone. I've known him since I was a kid. He was good friends with my brother and he was one of the first kids I looked up to. Just a shame... It's unreal to me that he killed himself. It is a heart breaking situation and I still can't quite believe it.

Today lends some very real perspective into my life. I am healthy. I am loved by my wife and sons. I have a career that helps me provide for them. I have a lousy addiction to nicotine that I am currently burying for good with the help of KTC and my brothers here. I think of Jake, and the hopelessness he must have felt... Ah, it breaks my damn heart.

Live. Don't turn back from the great choices you have made. Don't give in. If you're weak, it's because you CHOOSE to be weak. There is nothing that can make you cave. It's all you... Your choices... No one else. So excuse me in the future when I drop the fury on any future cavers... I'm coming at you hard because nicotine makes NOTHING better. Only worse. Kill the can and stay quit NO MATTER WHAT, ONE DAY AT A TIME.

RIP Jake; my prayer is that God has you in his care some how, and that your son Max makes a full recovery.

To my dad... I love you with all of my heart buddy. I've quit chewing... I'm breaking the nicotine cycle right here and now... My boys will not know of it. I miss you every day.

Sorry to hear this. Stay strong and keep going like you are. Praying for you and yours.

[Mike from AB]

Prayers sent up for sure Sgt. Sorry bro, that's the best I can do, words aren't enough.

[Pinched]

Today was a rough, rough day.

I started missing my dad pretty bad around the time I got home from work.  My wife said a couple of things to me that I took completely wrong, and there was that.  It sucks.  I love her and hate fighting with her.  I've had such a hard time with his death and sometimes I feel completely like a different person.  It sucks.  I just miss him so much.

A childhood friend killed himself last night.  He had a son that has inoperable brain cancer.  It's stage 3/4 I believe.  He's been in a hospital most of his life...  AND THIS IS HEART BREAKING.  Dad couldn't take it anymore.  I saw Jake deteriorate slowly on Facebook...  A man who just a year before, was as happy as could be with a new son on the way with his new wife.  He was a man of great faith or so it seemed, but after watching his son battle cancer, it seemed to evaporate.  Now, the baby is very sick and dad took his own life, leaving mom alone.  I've known him since I was a kid.  He was good friends with my brother and he was one of the first kids I looked up to.  Just a shame...  It's unreal to me that he killed himself.  It is a heart breaking situation and I still can't quite believe it.

Today lends some very real perspective into my life.  I am healthy.  I am loved by my wife and sons.  I have a career that helps me provide for them.  I have a lousy addiction to nicotine that I am currently burying for good with the help of KTC and my brothers here.  I think of Jake, and the hopelessness he must have felt...  Ah, it breaks my damn heart. 

Live.  Don't turn back from the great choices you have made.  Don't give in.  If you're weak, it's because you CHOOSE to be weak.  There is nothing that can make you cave.  It's all you...  Your choices...  No one else.  So excuse me in the future when I drop the fury on any future cavers...  I'm coming at you hard because nicotine makes NOTHING better.  Only worse.  Kill the can and stay quit NO MATTER WHAT, ONE DAY AT A TIME.

RIP Jake; my prayer is that God has you in his care some how, and that your son Max makes a full recovery. 

To my dad...  I love you with all of my heart buddy.  I've quit chewing...  I'm breaking the nicotine cycle right here and now...  My boys will not know of it.  I miss you every day.

Sorry to hear about your friend. It's hard to know what to say. Keep living, and fighting against the flow of negativity and addiction. Reach out if u need to talk.

Just, damn. I have no words bro... They're all too small. Stay strong ~ stay quit. Pm me if you'd like another number.

Man... I feel for you. These are a couple of tough life events to deal with for anyone. I promise you that chew will not fix either situation. It will only create another problem for you. Despite your situation I see you are really focused on staying quit and that is badass bro! Fight for your quit. Prayers out to you and your family. QLF thru this time. I am quit with u today!

Prayers,, i'm also quit with you today.

Thoughts and prayers with you and your family Sarge. Keep pushing through and stay quit today. We'll stay quit with you to give you the extra push you need. PM if you need to chat anytime. I quit with you today bro.

Praying for you bro. While reading your post all I could think was that today was my first hunt without seeing my dad. He used to always be in the barn waiting for me to come hang up the fresh kills. He left me about 9 months ago, and although my big tough ass has tears streaming down my face currently I know he would have been proud today.

He taught me how to hunt at age 12, I hunted that day with a big wad of worm dirt in between my cheek and gum. Today was my first ever hunt Nic free. Being a father myself your story hit a chord in me.

I pray for you and he family of your friend. Just use this as an inspiration every day of your quit. I am right here brother if you ever need someone to talk to.

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[jzzyzag01]

Today was a rough, rough day.

I started missing my dad pretty bad around the time I got home from work.  My wife said a couple of things to me that I took completely wrong, and there was that.  It sucks.  I love her and hate fighting with her.  I've had such a hard time with his death and sometimes I feel completely like a different person.  It sucks.  I just miss him so much.

A childhood friend killed himself last night.  He had a son that has inoperable brain cancer.  It's stage 3/4 I believe.  He's been in a hospital most of his life...  AND THIS IS HEART BREAKING.  Dad couldn't take it anymore.  I saw Jake deteriorate slowly on Facebook...  A man who just a year before, was as happy as could be with a new son on the way with his new wife.  He was a man of great faith or so it seemed, but after watching his son battle cancer, it seemed to evaporate.  Now, the baby is very sick and dad took his own life, leaving mom alone.  I've known him since I was a kid.  He was good friends with my brother and he was one of the first kids I looked up to.  Just a shame...  It's unreal to me that he killed himself.  It is a heart breaking situation and I still can't quite believe it.

Today lends some very real perspective into my life.  I am healthy.  I am loved by my wife and sons.  I have a career that helps me provide for them.  I have a lousy addiction to nicotine that I am currently burying for good with the help of KTC and my brothers here.  I think of Jake, and the hopelessness he must have felt...  Ah, it breaks my damn heart. 

Live.  Don't turn back from the great choices you have made.  Don't give in.  If you're weak, it's because you CHOOSE to be weak.  There is nothing that can make you cave.  It's all you...  Your choices...  No one else.  So excuse me in the future when I drop the fury on any future cavers...  I'm coming at you hard because nicotine makes NOTHING better.  Only worse.  Kill the can and stay quit NO MATTER WHAT, ONE DAY AT A TIME.

RIP Jake; my prayer is that God has you in his care some how, and that your son Max makes a full recovery. 

To my dad...  I love you with all of my heart buddy.  I've quit chewing...  I'm breaking the nicotine cycle right here and now...  My boys will not know of it.  I miss you every day.

Sorry to hear about your friend. It's hard to know what to say. Keep living, and fighting against the flow of negativity and addiction. Reach out if u need to talk.

Just, damn. I have no words bro... They're all too small. Stay strong ~ stay quit. Pm me if you'd like another number.

Man... I feel for you. These are a couple of tough life events to deal with for anyone. I promise you that chew will not fix either situation. It will only create another problem for you. Despite your situation I see you are really focused on staying quit and that is badass bro! Fight for your quit. Prayers out to you and your family. QLF thru this time. I am quit with u today!

Prayers,, i'm also quit with you today.

Thoughts and prayers with you and your family Sarge. Keep pushing through and stay quit today. We'll stay quit with you to give you the extra push you need. PM if you need to chat anytime. I quit with you today bro.

[srans]

Today was a rough, rough day.

I started missing my dad pretty bad around the time I got home from work.  My wife said a couple of things to me that I took completely wrong, and there was that.  It sucks.  I love her and hate fighting with her.  I've had such a hard time with his death and sometimes I feel completely like a different person.  It sucks.  I just miss him so much.

A childhood friend killed himself last night.  He had a son that has inoperable brain cancer.  It's stage 3/4 I believe.  He's been in a hospital most of his life...  AND THIS IS HEART BREAKING.  Dad couldn't take it anymore.  I saw Jake deteriorate slowly on Facebook...  A man who just a year before, was as happy as could be with a new son on the way with his new wife.  He was a man of great faith or so it seemed, but after watching his son battle cancer, it seemed to evaporate.  Now, the baby is very sick and dad took his own life, leaving mom alone.  I've known him since I was a kid.  He was good friends with my brother and he was one of the first kids I looked up to.  Just a shame...  It's unreal to me that he killed himself.  It is a heart breaking situation and I still can't quite believe it.

Today lends some very real perspective into my life.  I am healthy.  I am loved by my wife and sons.  I have a career that helps me provide for them.  I have a lousy addiction to nicotine that I am currently burying for good with the help of KTC and my brothers here.  I think of Jake, and the hopelessness he must have felt...  Ah, it breaks my damn heart. 

Live.  Don't turn back from the great choices you have made.  Don't give in.  If you're weak, it's because you CHOOSE to be weak.  There is nothing that can make you cave.  It's all you...  Your choices...  No one else.  So excuse me in the future when I drop the fury on any future cavers...  I'm coming at you hard because nicotine makes NOTHING better.  Only worse.  Kill the can and stay quit NO MATTER WHAT, ONE DAY AT A TIME.

RIP Jake; my prayer is that God has you in his care some how, and that your son Max makes a full recovery. 

To my dad...  I love you with all of my heart buddy.  I've quit chewing...  I'm breaking the nicotine cycle right here and now...  My boys will not know of it.  I miss you every day.

Sorry to hear about your friend. It's hard to know what to say. Keep living, and fighting against the flow of negativity and addiction. Reach out if u need to talk.

Just, damn. I have no words bro... They're all too small. Stay strong ~ stay quit. Pm me if you'd like another number.

Man... I feel for you. These are a couple of tough life events to deal with for anyone. I promise you that chew will not fix either situation. It will only create another problem for you. Despite your situation I see you are really focused on staying quit and that is badass bro! Fight for your quit. Prayers out to you and your family. QLF thru this time. I am quit with u today!

Prayers,, i'm also quit with you today.

[Derk40]

Today was a rough, rough day.

I started missing my dad pretty bad around the time I got home from work.  My wife said a couple of things to me that I took completely wrong, and there was that.  It sucks.  I love her and hate fighting with her.  I've had such a hard time with his death and sometimes I feel completely like a different person.  It sucks.  I just miss him so much.

A childhood friend killed himself last night.  He had a son that has inoperable brain cancer.  It's stage 3/4 I believe.  He's been in a hospital most of his life...  AND THIS IS HEART BREAKING.  Dad couldn't take it anymore.  I saw Jake deteriorate slowly on Facebook...  A man who just a year before, was as happy as could be with a new son on the way with his new wife.  He was a man of great faith or so it seemed, but after watching his son battle cancer, it seemed to evaporate.  Now, the baby is very sick and dad took his own life, leaving mom alone.  I've known him since I was a kid.  He was good friends with my brother and he was one of the first kids I looked up to.  Just a shame...  It's unreal to me that he killed himself.  It is a heart breaking situation and I still can't quite believe it.

Today lends some very real perspective into my life.  I am healthy.  I am loved by my wife and sons.  I have a career that helps me provide for them.  I have a lousy addiction to nicotine that I am currently burying for good with the help of KTC and my brothers here.  I think of Jake, and the hopelessness he must have felt...  Ah, it breaks my damn heart. 

Live.  Don't turn back from the great choices you have made.  Don't give in.  If you're weak, it's because you CHOOSE to be weak.  There is nothing that can make you cave.  It's all you...  Your choices...  No one else.  So excuse me in the future when I drop the fury on any future cavers...  I'm coming at you hard because nicotine makes NOTHING better.  Only worse.  Kill the can and stay quit NO MATTER WHAT, ONE DAY AT A TIME.

RIP Jake; my prayer is that God has you in his care some how, and that your son Max makes a full recovery. 

To my dad...  I love you with all of my heart buddy.  I've quit chewing...  I'm breaking the nicotine cycle right here and now...  My boys will not know of it.  I miss you every day.

Sorry to hear about your friend. It's hard to know what to say. Keep living, and fighting against the flow of negativity and addiction. Reach out if u need to talk.

Just, damn. I have no words bro... They're all too small. Stay strong ~ stay quit. Pm me if you'd like another number.

Man... I feel for you. These are a couple of tough life events to deal with for anyone. I promise you that chew will not fix either situation. It will only create another problem for you. Despite your situation I see you are really focused on staying quit and that is badass bro! Fight for your quit. Prayers out to you and your family. QLF thru this time. I am quit with u today!

[Derk40]

Today was a rough, rough day.

I started missing my dad pretty bad around the time I got home from work.  My wife said a couple of things to me that I took completely wrong, and there was that.  It sucks.  I love her and hate fighting with her.  I've had such a hard time with his death and sometimes I feel completely like a different person.  It sucks.  I just miss him so much.

A childhood friend killed himself last night.  He had a son that has inoperable brain cancer.  It's stage 3/4 I believe.  He's been in a hospital most of his life...  AND THIS IS HEART BREAKING.  Dad couldn't take it anymore.  I saw Jake deteriorate slowly on Facebook...  A man who just a year before, was as happy as could be with a new son on the way with his new wife.  He was a man of great faith or so it seemed, but after watching his son battle cancer, it seemed to evaporate.  Now, the baby is very sick and dad took his own life, leaving mom alone.  I've known him since I was a kid.  He was good friends with my brother and he was one of the first kids I looked up to.  Just a shame...  It's unreal to me that he killed himself.  It is a heart breaking situation and I still can't quite believe it.

Today lends some very real perspective into my life.  I am healthy.  I am loved by my wife and sons.  I have a career that helps me provide for them.  I have a lousy addiction to nicotine that I am currently burying for good with the help of KTC and my brothers here.  I think of Jake, and the hopelessness he must have felt...  Ah, it breaks my damn heart. 

Live.  Don't turn back from the great choices you have made.  Don't give in.  If you're weak, it's because you CHOOSE to be weak.  There is nothing that can make you cave.  It's all you...  Your choices...  No one else.  So excuse me in the future when I drop the fury on any future cavers...  I'm coming at you hard because nicotine makes NOTHING better.  Only worse.  Kill the can and stay quit NO MATTER WHAT, ONE DAY AT A TIME.

RIP Jake; my prayer is that God has you in his care some how, and that your son Max makes a full recovery. 

To my dad...  I love you with all of my heart buddy.  I've quit chewing...  I'm breaking the nicotine cycle right here and now...  My boys will not know of it.  I miss you every day.

Sorry to hear about your friend. It's hard to know what to say. Keep living, and fighting against the flow of negativity and addiction. Reach out if u need to talk.

Just, damn. I have no words bro... They're all too small. Stay strong ~ stay quit. Pm me if you'd like another number.

Man... I feel for you. These are a couple of tough life events to deal with for anyone. I promise you that chew will not fix either situation. It will only create another problem for you. Despite your situation I see you are really focused on staying quit and that is badass bro! Fight for your quit. Prayers out to you and your family. QLF thru this time. I am quit with u today!

[AppleJack]

Today was a rough, rough day.

I started missing my dad pretty bad around the time I got home from work.  My wife said a couple of things to me that I took completely wrong, and there was that.  It sucks.  I love her and hate fighting with her.  I've had such a hard time with his death and sometimes I feel completely like a different person.  It sucks.  I just miss him so much.

A childhood friend killed himself last night.  He had a son that has inoperable brain cancer.  It's stage 3/4 I believe.  He's been in a hospital most of his life...  AND THIS IS HEART BREAKING.  Dad couldn't take it anymore.  I saw Jake deteriorate slowly on Facebook...  A man who just a year before, was as happy as could be with a new son on the way with his new wife.  He was a man of great faith or so it seemed, but after watching his son battle cancer, it seemed to evaporate.  Now, the baby is very sick and dad took his own life, leaving mom alone.  I've known him since I was a kid.  He was good friends with my brother and he was one of the first kids I looked up to.  Just a shame...  It's unreal to me that he killed himself.  It is a heart breaking situation and I still can't quite believe it.

Today lends some very real perspective into my life.  I am healthy.  I am loved by my wife and sons.  I have a career that helps me provide for them.  I have a lousy addiction to nicotine that I am currently burying for good with the help of KTC and my brothers here.  I think of Jake, and the hopelessness he must have felt...  Ah, it breaks my damn heart. 

Live.  Don't turn back from the great choices you have made.  Don't give in.  If you're weak, it's because you CHOOSE to be weak.  There is nothing that can make you cave.  It's all you...  Your choices...  No one else.  So excuse me in the future when I drop the fury on any future cavers...  I'm coming at you hard because nicotine makes NOTHING better.  Only worse.  Kill the can and stay quit NO MATTER WHAT, ONE DAY AT A TIME.

RIP Jake; my prayer is that God has you in his care some how, and that your son Max makes a full recovery. 

To my dad...  I love you with all of my heart buddy.  I've quit chewing...  I'm breaking the nicotine cycle right here and now...  My boys will not know of it.  I miss you every day.

Sorry to hear about your friend. It's hard to know what to say. Keep living, and fighting against the flow of negativity and addiction. Reach out if u need to talk.

Just, damn. I have no words bro... They're all too small. Stay strong ~ stay quit. Pm me if you'd like another number.

[Phil16]

Today was a rough, rough day.

I started missing my dad pretty bad around the time I got home from work. My wife said a couple of things to me that I took completely wrong, and there was that. It sucks. I love her and hate fighting with her. I've had such a hard time with his death and sometimes I feel completely like a different person. It sucks. I just miss him so much.

A childhood friend killed himself last night. He had a son that has inoperable brain cancer. It's stage 3/4 I believe. He's been in a hospital most of his life... AND THIS IS HEART BREAKING. Dad couldn't take it anymore. I saw Jake deteriorate slowly on Facebook... A man who just a year before, was as happy as could be with a new son on the way with his new wife. He was a man of great faith or so it seemed, but after watching his son battle cancer, it seemed to evaporate. Now, the baby is very sick and dad took his own life, leaving mom alone. I've known him since I was a kid. He was good friends with my brother and he was one of the first kids I looked up to. Just a shame... It's unreal to me that he killed himself. It is a heart breaking situation and I still can't quite believe it.

Today lends some very real perspective into my life. I am healthy. I am loved by my wife and sons. I have a career that helps me provide for them. I have a lousy addiction to nicotine that I am currently burying for good with the help of KTC and my brothers here. I think of Jake, and the hopelessness he must have felt... Ah, it breaks my damn heart.

Live. Don't turn back from the great choices you have made. Don't give in. If you're weak, it's because you CHOOSE to be weak. There is nothing that can make you cave. It's all you... Your choices... No one else. So excuse me in the future when I drop the fury on any future cavers... I'm coming at you hard because nicotine makes NOTHING better. Only worse. Kill the can and stay quit NO MATTER WHAT, ONE DAY AT A TIME.

RIP Jake; my prayer is that God has you in his care some how, and that your son Max makes a full recovery.

To my dad... I love you with all of my heart buddy. I've quit chewing... I'm breaking the nicotine cycle right here and now... My boys will not know of it. I miss you every day.

Sorry to hear about your friend. It's hard to know what to say. Keep living, and fighting against the flow of negativity and addiction. Reach out if u need to talk.

[Sgt12]

Today was a rough, rough day.

I started missing my dad pretty bad around the time I got home from work. My wife said a couple of things to me that I took completely wrong, and there was that. It sucks. I love her and hate fighting with her. I've had such a hard time with his death and sometimes I feel completely like a different person. It sucks. I just miss him so much.

A childhood friend killed himself last night. He had a son that has inoperable brain cancer. It's stage 3/4 I believe. He's been in a hospital most of his life... AND THIS IS HEART BREAKING. Dad couldn't take it anymore. I saw Jake deteriorate slowly on Facebook... A man who just a year before, was as happy as could be with a new son on the way with his new wife. He was a man of great faith or so it seemed, but after watching his son battle cancer, it seemed to evaporate. Now, the baby is very sick and dad took his own life, leaving mom alone. I've known him since I was a kid. He was good friends with my brother and he was one of the first kids I looked up to. Just a shame... It's unreal to me that he killed himself. It is a heart breaking situation and I still can't quite believe it.

Today lends some very real perspective into my life. I am healthy. I am loved by my wife and sons. I have a career that helps me provide for them. I have a lousy addiction to nicotine that I am currently burying for good with the help of KTC and my brothers here. I think of Jake, and the hopelessness he must have felt... Ah, it breaks my damn heart.

Live. Don't turn back from the great choices you have made. Don't give in. If you're weak, it's because you CHOOSE to be weak. There is nothing that can make you cave. It's all you... Your choices... No one else. So excuse me in the future when I drop the fury on any future cavers... I'm coming at you hard because nicotine makes NOTHING better. Only worse. Kill the can and stay quit NO MATTER WHAT, ONE DAY AT A TIME.

RIP Jake; my prayer is that God has you in his care some how, and that your son Max makes a full recovery.

To my dad... I love you with all of my heart buddy. I've quit chewing... I'm breaking the nicotine cycle right here and now... My boys will not know of it. I miss you every day.

[Sgt12]

Thank you guys... It's definitely a challenge but my focus is on my reasons and nothing is stronger than that.

[Phil16]

I had a great time at the game.  The Seahawks won, so I'm happy about that.  I drank three beers.  Never even had a buzz. 

I have been up for about 30 hours now, so when I wake up tomorrow morning, I will be through the first 72 hours.  That's cool to me.  When I started this, I wasn't real confident on whether or not I could do it.

No real cravings today at all and I smelled tobacco in the air all day.  I remember the reason I am quit.  For me, my wife, our sons.  The people who look up to me.  I am taking my credibility back.  I remembered roll, and all my December brothers.

Make no mistake, my body knows what time it is.  As I inch closer to that 72 hour mark, my head begins to hurt.  My skin tingles.  My cheeks are hot and my body aches.  I know I am winning right now, one day at a time.  I also know this isn't a crave, but rather a physical withdrawal.  I can't wait until those are gone.

I won't get comfortable.  I know my pure diligence is required at all times.

I love this site.  It is saving lives.  It is helping to save mine.  In what other community can you be around for a mere three days, and in that time accumulate 10 numbers are personally text with those guys?  It's amazing.  It's easy to see why this site has helped so many people.

Thank you.  All of you.  I am quit with you.

just remember, with the roller coaster you are about to encounter....do not think too much and keep your emotions on a level plane. Don;t get too high ot too low.

You can and will do this. Be strong and Be quit.

hey Brother, I lost my dad this year too. He died suffering/in pain/yelling/screaming from NICOTINE related illnesses.
I don't want to go that way...do You?
If my sorry ass can be quit ODAAT then YOU can TOO!
Post roll,
keep your fucking word all damn day,
get to sleep,
wake and repeat...cause most likely you and I don't have a choice! Cancer is no joke.
Quit on like your life depends on it TODAY. Just today.
Cheers to you and yours.

You're kickin' ass, Rob, and you seem to have figured it out in a hurry. Keep your guard up and keep KTC close.

ODAAT

Quit on sarge! You have a great attitude and approach. Great words from these guys, keep listening to the advice you get. Kill the can, odaat.

[Mike from AB]

Awesome work on getting through the first 72 Sgt!