On March 4th, 2016 i made an introduction post explaining how I was quitting dip but wanted to plan it out first so I didn't jump into something I wasn't prepared for. Against the advice and warnings of the members that commented on my post, I postponed posting roll for Day 1 and went on a spring break trip. 10 days later, I "officially" quit and posted roll for the first time. My motivation for quitting then was my growing awareness of my addictive behavior and the discovery of two white canker sores in my mouth. 18 dip-free days later, I failed. I failed and received a fair amount of justified criticism, got pissed because I didn't want to listen to anyone, and left Kill The Can.
I'm a 21 yr old college student in VA with in internship at a company that is the best in its industry. I've been dipping since the summer going into my freshman year in 2014, just about 3 years now. On average, I've been going through one tin every 24 hours for over a year now. Personally, I think my teeth have yellowed, my gums have receded and appear thin, I often stay awake hours later than I should because I keep throwing a lip in; the list goes on. Aside from knowing that above all else I need to quit for my health and to take back control of my life, I want to quit for my girlfriend as well. She was originally okay with it but as our relationship has grown more serious she has straight up asked me to quit an I promised her I would several times.
I need to take action now or I'm afraid I never will. Although I've never admitted this to anyone before in my life, but I know that I am an addict. I've known it for a long time and have been aware of what was happening as I've descended into dangerous behaviors that go against everything I've always believed. I've kept all of it a secret too. My friends, my coworkers, my family; they all see me as a young man with a good head on his shoulders who doesn't get into trouble. I don't know how I've let myself become what I am today, but I've finally come to terms with the fact that I am an addict and if I don't get my shit together now I never will.
So today, I quit with you and hope you will quit with me and help me as I start getting my life back on track. I have too much on the line to continue ignoring my addictions and hoping they never catch up an impact me negatively. Any and all comments, tips, thoughts, etc. is appreciated. Feels good to be back.