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[Morgan1]

The truth of the matter is, I don't have a fucking clue how I could have gotten to ten weeks without this place and can't imagine having to travel this road alone or ever again, for any reason.
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That is exactly how I feel. The power of this site is amazing. No way I quit without it. Absolutely no way. Thanks to you - someone I will likely never meet - for helping me quit today. That's good shit.

[copingwithoutcopen]

"Quitting leads to rage, rage leads to anger, anger leads to rededication, rededication leads to inspiration, inspiration leads to success, success leads to FREEDOM!!!", Someone much smarter then me

It turns out I'm so much more fucked up than I ever thought humanly possible. I thought I had it all figured out yet have obsessed over nothing. I thought things had been laid out straight and smooth but it turns out the road is full of potholes, twists and turns. I feel my face flush with the thought of how distant and what an ass I've been to my family and friends. I walk around in circles, daggers for pupils looking for a wall to tear down or punch through, burn down or even build up in defense.
I was so fucking pissed at myself, some of you and this site, I'd lost sight of where the focus of that anger is best served... nicotine. As I refocus it and start wiping my own ass with the nic bitch's panties, I'll look forward to riding the back of the short bus with you all on the next phase of our journey. The truth of the matter is, I don't have a fucking clue how I could have gotten to ten weeks without this place and can't imagine having to travel this road alone or ever again, for any reason.
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[copingwithoutcopen]

"I feel like I'm standing over a cliff, blindfolded with a bunch of strangers telling me to jump and that everything will be o.k." or something to that effect is what I wrote on the newly discovered chat board Father's Day night. The quitters in the room knew how I was feeling before I did but let me spout anyway... "It's been such a big part of my life for so long, what will I do when it's gone?" Be free and live your life, they said.
"I want to, I'm going to, as soon as I'm ready", I typed with a big fat lip and a bottle full of brown shit by the bedside. "I know you've got balls man, why not now? You're here for a reason", they reasoned, "what's stopping you from dumping the shit and getting on with it?" I didn't know. "Got kids?" Yup. "Want to be around for them for awhile?" Yup. "You're no different than anyone else here, grow a set, take the leap, own it, honor the process, sign up and post roll everyday." So I did.
6 Days in and the headaches have subsided, my mouth feels smooth and my breath is fresh. Triggers are everywhere because if I wasn't eating or sleeping I was dipping or thinking about it. When I woke up, in the car, at work, watching T.V., at the movies, after meals, early morning, early afternoon, early evening and the time right before bed are the only times I think about it now but I understand the bitch will fade. Our 25 year relationship has run its course.
Not going it alone has gotten me to this point and I suspect is what will help me the rest of today and the following days. My family and friends couldn't be happier or more proud but it's you all, the perfect strangers who pushed me over the cliff and packed the parachute that eased the fall who I owe a debt of gratitude.
I'm looking forward to paying that back some day by helping some other poor schlep take back his life and be around to watch his grandkids grow. 
I will not spit in your face for saving my life, I will not spit today.

I was there in chat last Sunday when you came in, you were a tough nut to crack and honestly I didn't think we were going to get you that night, but you did it, you made that committment and here you are nearly a week later being quit.

I'm glad it feels good for you now, I am glad I saw this intro. I am glad I was there last Sunday for you. Copingwithoutcopen, you just made my quit a little bit stronger. I hope the other quitters that helped you jump off the cliff see this too.

If you need anything let me know.

Tim

BWB, it's appreciated. When we pack each others chute we ought naught screw it up. No, wait, that doesn't sound right. It's a big responsibility to offer a way to fall gently right before you push the guy over the falls. My quit is a bit stronger because of yours and everyone else's resolve too.

[bigwhitebeast]

"I feel like I'm standing over a cliff, blindfolded with a bunch of strangers telling me to jump and that everything will be o.k." or something to that effect is what I wrote on the newly discovered chat board Father's Day night. The quitters in the room knew how I was feeling before I did but let me spout anyway... "It's been such a big part of my life for so long, what will I do when it's gone?" Be free and live your life, they said.
"I want to, I'm going to, as soon as I'm ready", I typed with a big fat lip and a bottle full of brown shit by the bedside. "I know you've got balls man, why not now? You're here for a reason", they reasoned, "what's stopping you from dumping the shit and getting on with it?" I didn't know. "Got kids?" Yup. "Want to be around for them for awhile?" Yup. "You're no different than anyone else here, grow a set, take the leap, own it, honor the process, sign up and post roll everyday." So I did.
6 Days in and the headaches have subsided, my mouth feels smooth and my breath is fresh. Triggers are everywhere because if I wasn't eating or sleeping I was dipping or thinking about it. When I woke up, in the car, at work, watching T.V., at the movies, after meals, early morning, early afternoon, early evening and the time right before bed are the only times I think about it now but I understand the bitch will fade. Our 25 year relationship has run its course.
Not going it alone has gotten me to this point and I suspect is what will help me the rest of today and the following days. My family and friends couldn't be happier or more proud but it's you all, the perfect strangers who pushed me over the cliff and packed the parachute that eased the fall who I owe a debt of gratitude.
I'm looking forward to paying that back some day by helping some other poor schlep take back his life and be around to watch his grandkids grow.
I will not spit in your face for saving my life, I will not spit today.

I was there in chat last Sunday when you came in, you were a tough nut to crack and honestly I didn't think we were going to get you that night, but you did it, you made that committment and here you are nearly a week later being quit.

I'm glad it feels good for you now, I am glad I saw this intro. I am glad I was there last Sunday for you. Copingwithoutcopen, you just made my quit a little bit stronger. I hope the other quitters that helped you jump off the cliff see this too.

If you need anything let me know.

Tim

[Scowick65]

You were meant to be here. 1 day at a time. Before you know it, you will reinvent what it is to be you.

[wastepanel]

You keep up the good work and we'll keep on supporting you.

You can do this.

[Wt57]

I agree this place is Magic! I believe there is a God and he led me here. There are hundreds of guardian angel called quitters that have been guiding me through the past 83 days. I will continue to pay it forward! That's how this whole process works.

[Greg5280]

"I feel like I'm standing over a cliff, blindfolded with a bunch of strangers telling me to jump and that everything will be o.k." or something to that effect is what I wrote on the newly discovered chat board Father's Day night. The quitters in the room knew how I was feeling before I did but let me spout anyway... "It's been such a big part of my life for so long, what will I do when it's gone?" Be free and live your life, they said.
"I want to, I'm going to, as soon as I'm ready", I typed with a big fat lip and a bottle full of brown shit by the bedside. "I know you've got balls man, why not now? You're here for a reason", they reasoned, "what's stopping you from dumping the shit and getting on with it?" I didn't know. "Got kids?" Yup. "Want to be around for them for awhile?" Yup. "You're no different than anyone else here, grow a set, take the leap, own it, honor the process, sign up and post roll everyday." So I did.
6 Days in and the headaches have subsided, my mouth feels smooth and my breath is fresh. Triggers are everywhere because if I wasn't eating or sleeping I was dipping or thinking about it. When I woke up, in the car, at work, watching T.V., at the movies, after meals, early morning, early afternoon, early evening and the time right before bed are the only times I think about it now but I understand the bitch will fade. Our 25 year relationship has run its course.
Not going it alone has gotten me to this point and I suspect is what will help me the rest of today and the following days. My family and friends couldn't be happier or more proud but it's you all, the perfect strangers who pushed me over the cliff and packed the parachute that eased the fall who I owe a debt of gratitude.
I'm looking forward to paying that back some day by helping some other poor schlep take back his life and be around to watch his grandkids grow.
I will not spit in your face for saving my life, I will not spit today.

Nice intro! You are correct, this place is magic. I found the chat room on my14th day quit. I was freaking out and not sure what the hell was going on, almost ready yo say piss on it and start dipping again.

When I entered chat everyone talked to me and asked me what was up, are you quit, for how long? I could not believe it. Then I was directed to the what to expect page. I joined the site and have been here since.

These bad ass quitters will save your life if you let them. Welcome to the party. Grab a seat and stay awhile....

STAY QUIT
Greg

[copingwithoutcopen]

"I feel like I'm standing over a cliff, blindfolded with a bunch of strangers telling me to jump and that everything will be o.k." or something to that effect is what I wrote on the newly discovered chat board Father's Day night. The quitters in the room knew how I was feeling before I did but let me spout anyway... "It's been such a big part of my life for so long, what will I do when it's gone?" Be free and live your life, they said.
"I want to, I'm going to, as soon as I'm ready", I typed with a big fat lip and a bottle full of brown shit by the bedside. "I know you've got balls man, why not now? You're here for a reason", they reasoned, "what's stopping you from dumping the shit and getting on with it?" I didn't know. "Got kids?" Yup. "Want to be around for them for awhile?" Yup. "You're no different than anyone else here, grow a set, take the leap, own it, honor the process, sign up and post roll everyday." So I did.
6 Days in and the headaches have subsided, my mouth feels smooth and my breath is fresh. Triggers are everywhere because if I wasn't eating or sleeping I was dipping or thinking about it. When I woke up, in the car, at work, watching T.V., at the movies, after meals, early morning, early afternoon, early evening and the time right before bed are the only times I think about it now but I understand the bitch will fade. Our 25 year relationship has run its course.
Not going it alone has gotten me to this point and I suspect is what will help me the rest of today and the following days. My family and friends couldn't be happier or more proud but it's you all, the perfect strangers who pushed me over the cliff and packed the parachute that eased the fall who I owe a debt of gratitude.
I'm looking forward to paying that back some day by helping some other poor schlep take back his life and be around to watch his grandkids grow.
I will not spit in your face for saving my life, I will not spit today.