quit last week, can a day for 12 years

[worktowin]

I quit 2 days ago, dipped for 12 years and my wife, friends and family never knew. I've been posting roll the last two days and will continue doing so. Many of the stories sounds familiar here, from ninja dippers to the scary things that show up in your mouth.

6 months ago, the dentist found a gray area in my mouth and referred me to a specialist. I didn't go for 6 months, just figured it was nothing. At the same time, over the last 6 months I've had muscle and neck issues on my right neck/shoulder that kind of go up into my jaw. It is very concerning to have constant pain around the area that I always put a dip in. It's a constant source of anxiety, even if it's very unlikely for it to be related to dipping.

Last week for some reason, these two things really freaked me out- with one 2.5 year old and another on the way in 30 days, I decided I didn't want to die of cancer. I scheduled an appointment with the specialist who was able to get me in yesterday at 9am, two days after I called. I was convinced over the weekend that I had cancer, but the specialist checked inside my mouth and felt my neck and found nothing- not even the gray area that the dentist was worried about. That was a relief, but..

I still have a constant pain in my neck area and now my cheek and jaw are tingling a little. I think most of it is related to stress and the actual withdrawal at this point, but it's still causing a ton of anxiety. I am not eating much at all right now. Trying to keep fluids and fruit if I can, but I will probably lose 15 pounds in the next 30 days if this keeps up.

I have quit in the past, but this is different. I have no desire to dip and am glad to have found this site. I will be back tomorrow to post roll.

Brian, anxiety is very common amongst addicts. Extremely. Many of us used nicotine to deal with life. Nicotine really dulls the nerves.

So... when you are stressed, you use nicotine to bring you down. When you are down, you use nicotine to bring you up. It takes the ups, and the downs away. In other words, it dulls life.

Some anxiety meds, short term, might help. I didn't personally use them, but a lot of people on here have. If it helps you through the early days of your quit, don't be ashamed to use them.

As far as the ninja... I was too dude. 25 years. I came completely clean to my wife several hundred days into my quit. One of the toughest, and best conversations I ever had. You are doing the right thing now, but if you come to a point where you feel the need to share - it will make your relationship with her stronger.

It is an honor to quit with you today. Welcome aboard.

[Brianecamp]

I quit 2 days ago, dipped for 12 years and my wife, friends and family never knew. I've been posting roll the last two days and will continue doing so. Many of the stories sounds familiar here, from ninja dippers to the scary things that show up in your mouth.

6 months ago, the dentist found a gray area in my mouth and referred me to a specialist. I didn't go for 6 months, just figured it was nothing. At the same time, over the last 6 months I've had muscle and neck issues on my right neck/shoulder that kind of go up into my jaw. It is very concerning to have constant pain around the area that I always put a dip in. It's a constant source of anxiety, even if it's very unlikely for it to be related to dipping.

Last week for some reason, these two things really freaked me out- with one 2.5 year old and another on the way in 30 days, I decided I didn't want to die of cancer. I scheduled an appointment with the specialist who was able to get me in yesterday at 9am, two days after I called. I was convinced over the weekend that I had cancer, but the specialist checked inside my mouth and felt my neck and found nothing- not even the gray area that the dentist was worried about. That was a relief, but..

I still have a constant pain in my neck area and now my cheek and jaw are tingling a little. I think most of it is related to stress and the actual withdrawal at this point, but it's still causing a ton of anxiety. I am not eating much at all right now. Trying to keep fluids and fruit if I can, but I will probably lose 15 pounds in the next 30 days if this keeps up.

I have quit in the past, but this is different. I have no desire to dip and am glad to have found this site. I will be back tomorrow to post roll.