Introduction

[FIGHTIN-IGNORANCE]

Well, here I am on day 35.... Wow, I am proud but also frustrated, pissed, depressed, foggy, tired, stressed, feeling impatient as I wait for improvement, and who knows what else. I see some my my Fellow Duck Fippers kickin butt and others falling off. Encouraging but frustrating at the same time. I have notice communication drop off between some of the group. I see people post and bump others then not spend the five mins it takes to fix it and I'm left thinking, "Freakin selfish B.S"......... at least that is my opinion.  If you don't know how to fix a bump then ask someone.

With that being said I wanted to post some comments on the status of our group and whatever else comes to mind. I think many of us are going through the same challenges. The main difference I have seen so far is that some quitters don't appear to believe in the system designed by this sight. Some people go through life thinking they are a "special butterfly" (not my words but very appropriate).

Hence, they can do everything different and better than anyone who has already done it. Some may say this is addiction talking but I think it is more of a personality trait they have adopted to help protect themselves from the true insecurities they hold. You know, fake beliefs about one's abilities creates a facade of confidence. Anyway, this is really troubling to me. It could be due to my older brother instincts wanting to protect others... I don't know.. Either way it is still there. 

Which leads me to saying this. Get your heads out of your  'arse'! People who think they have this whipped at 10days, 20days, 30 days, 40 days, etc.. are either smoking some good stuff or just plain idiotic ignorant nincompoops. You may think, "What a dick to say something like that... or.... he doesn't know me?" Well, you are likely right that I don't know you and maybe I am being a dick. I can live with this if it gets some peoples attention and saves a quitter.

This drug has been proving to be as addictive as heroine. The mind games are extremely tricky. I am not proud of this and I have expressed in posts before, I was stopped for over 3yrs.. I got complacent and let Nic get her toe in the door. Addiction is different then other things in our lives that are unhealthy. Addiction will not take a foot when given an inch. Addiction will take the WHOLE DAMN THING! Relapse is not something you stop! IT IS SOMETHING YOU PREVENT!!!!!!! Therefore, get your damn numbers out there to fellow quitters and stay connected every damn day. POST FREAKIN ROLE. This bullshit of posting two days then missing 3 then posting one then missing 2 then posting again is for the people who want to fail and WILL FAIL because you don't take this seriously. You may feel confident now, which is what it wants you to feel, but it will comeback with vengeance. Will yo be ready or complacent because you think it is easy?

I don't know everything and I don't know all of you but I do care about your quit. Don't lie to yourself and listen to all of the vets telling you to get connected and post ROLL first thing. There are plenty of people on here willing to build their quit with you. Heck, I don't have time to take care of the spreadsheet and check for bumps all day but I do it anyway because it helps me quit. I have had some bitch of cravings the last couple weeks that I was able to fight off because I didn't want to look like a "douche" if I caved. If you care about your quit and each other in the group you will make time.

My rant is now over but I want my fellow DUCK FIPPERS and any who wish to read this to understand I only write this challenge because I care. I care about your quit and I care about mine. When I see others fail it impacts my quit as well. I quit with all of you today! QUACK! QUACK! DUCK FIPS 4 LIFE!

well stated as someone is 'getting' it. Nice job on over a month, and just remember, you poisoned yourself for how long and it is not a quick fix but a progression in order to get back to a semblance of normal.

Keep up the great quit, one day at a time.

I hear you Sir and undertand. Thanks for the encouragement. Freakin depression crap has been pissing me off. Tired of being tired and sad. Want to move on now but know it takes time. I appreciate you helping me keep it in perspective. ODAAT

QUACK!QUACK!

[SirDerek]

Well, here I am on day 35.... Wow, I am proud but also frustrated, pissed, depressed, foggy, tired, stressed, feeling impatient as I wait for improvement, and who knows what else. I see some my my Fellow Duck Fippers kickin butt and others falling off. Encouraging but frustrating at the same time. I have notice communication drop off between some of the group. I see people post and bump others then not spend the five mins it takes to fix it and I'm left thinking, "Freakin selfish B.S"......... at least that is my opinion. If you don't know how to fix a bump then ask someone.

With that being said I wanted to post some comments on the status of our group and whatever else comes to mind. I think many of us are going through the same challenges. The main difference I have seen so far is that some quitters don't appear to believe in the system designed by this sight. Some people go through life thinking they are a "special butterfly" (not my words but very appropriate).

Hence, they can do everything different and better than anyone who has already done it. Some may say this is addiction talking but I think it is more of a personality trait they have adopted to help protect themselves from the true insecurities they hold. You know, fake beliefs about one's abilities creates a facade of confidence. Anyway, this is really troubling to me. It could be due to my older brother instincts wanting to protect others... I don't know.. Either way it is still there.

Which leads me to saying this. Get your heads out of your 'arse'! People who think they have this whipped at 10days, 20days, 30 days, 40 days, etc.. are either smoking some good stuff or just plain idiotic ignorant nincompoops. You may think, "What a dick to say something like that... or.... he doesn't know me?" Well, you are likely right that I don't know you and maybe I am being a dick. I can live with this if it gets some peoples attention and saves a quitter.

This drug has been proving to be as addictive as heroine. The mind games are extremely tricky. I am not proud of this and I have expressed in posts before, I was stopped for over 3yrs.. I got complacent and let Nic get her toe in the door. Addiction is different then other things in our lives that are unhealthy. Addiction will not take a foot when given an inch. Addiction will take the WHOLE DAMN THING! Relapse is not something you stop! IT IS SOMETHING YOU PREVENT!!!!!!! Therefore, get your damn numbers out there to fellow quitters and stay connected every damn day. POST FREAKIN ROLE. This bullshit of posting two days then missing 3 then posting one then missing 2 then posting again is for the people who want to fail and WILL FAIL because you don't take this seriously. You may feel confident now, which is what it wants you to feel, but it will comeback with vengeance. Will yo be ready or complacent because you think it is easy?

I don't know everything and I don't know all of you but I do care about your quit. Don't lie to yourself and listen to all of the vets telling you to get connected and post ROLL first thing. There are plenty of people on here willing to build their quit with you. Heck, I don't have time to take care of the spreadsheet and check for bumps all day but I do it anyway because it helps me quit. I have had some bitch of cravings the last couple weeks that I was able to fight off because I didn't want to look like a "douche" if I caved. If you care about your quit and each other in the group you will make time.

My rant is now over but I want my fellow DUCK FIPPERS and any who wish to read this to understand I only write this challenge because I care. I care about your quit and I care about mine. When I see others fail it impacts my quit as well. I quit with all of you today! QUACK! QUACK! DUCK FIPS 4 LIFE!

well stated as someone is 'getting' it. Nice job on over a month, and just remember, you poisoned yourself for how long and it is not a quick fix but a progression in order to get back to a semblance of normal.

Keep up the great quit, one day at a time.

[FIGHTIN-IGNORANCE]

Well, here I am on day 35.... Wow, I am proud but also frustrated, pissed, depressed, foggy, tired, stressed, feeling impatient as I wait for improvement, and who knows what else. I see some my my Fellow Duck Fippers kickin butt and others falling off. Encouraging but frustrating at the same time. I have notice communication drop off between some of the group. I see people post and bump others then not spend the five mins it takes to fix it and I'm left thinking, "Freakin selfish B.S"......... at least that is my opinion. If you don't know how to fix a bump then ask someone.

With that being said I wanted to post some comments on the status of our group and whatever else comes to mind. I think many of us are going through the same challenges. The main difference I have seen so far is that some quitters don't appear to believe in the system designed by this sight. Some people go through life thinking they are a "special butterfly" (not my words but very appropriate).

Hence, they can do everything different and better than anyone who has already done it. Some may say this is addiction talking but I think it is more of a personality trait they have adopted to help protect themselves from the true insecurities they hold. You know, fake beliefs about one's abilities creates a facade of confidence. Anyway, this is really troubling to me. It could be due to my older brother instincts wanting to protect others... I don't know.. Either way it is still there.

Which leads me to saying this. Get your heads out of your 'arse'! People who think they have this whipped at 10days, 20days, 30 days, 40 days, etc.. are either smoking some good stuff or just plain idiotic ignorant nincompoops. You may think, "What a dick to say something like that... or.... he doesn't know me?" Well, you are likely right that I don't know you and maybe I am being a dick. I can live with this if it gets some peoples attention and saves a quitter.

This drug has been proving to be as addictive as heroine. The mind games are extremely tricky. I am not proud of this and I have expressed in posts before, I was stopped for over 3yrs.. I got complacent and let Nic get her toe in the door. Addiction is different then other things in our lives that are unhealthy. Addiction will not take a foot when given an inch. Addiction will take the WHOLE DAMN THING! Relapse is not something you stop! IT IS SOMETHING YOU PREVENT!!!!!!! Therefore, get your damn numbers out there to fellow quitters and stay connected every damn day. POST FREAKIN ROLE. This bullshit of posting two days then missing 3 then posting one then missing 2 then posting again is for the people who want to fail and WILL FAIL because you don't take this seriously. You may feel confident now, which is what it wants you to feel, but it will comeback with vengeance. Will yo be ready or complacent because you think it is easy?

I don't know everything and I don't know all of you but I do care about your quit. Don't lie to yourself and listen to all of the vets telling you to get connected and post ROLL first thing. There are plenty of people on here willing to build their quit with you. Heck, I don't have time to take care of the spreadsheet and check for bumps all day but I do it anyway because it helps me quit. I have had some bitch of cravings the last couple weeks that I was able to fight off because I didn't want to look like a "douche" if I caved. If you care about your quit and each other in the group you will make time.

My rant is now over but I want my fellow DUCK FIPPERS and any who wish to read this to understand I only write this challenge because I care. I care about your quit and I care about mine. When I see others fail it impacts my quit as well. I quit with all of you today! QUACK! QUACK! DUCK FIPS 4 LIFE!

[FIGHTIN-IGNORANCE]

One mate, jokingly asked me if I wanted one around midday. I simply replied, “Real funny you FUCKING JACKOFF!”

man heres what i told old jake frawly. now you just swich in teem mate for cowworker and your set.

man your coworkers are fuckin with your quit? time to teach um the tryed and true ktc way that you and your quit are not to be fucked with. next time one a those fucks offers you a dip heres what you need to do:

1. take can with big smile
2. open can
3. rotate arm at the wrist 180 degrees, there by emptyin contents of can on ground
4. step on pile of worm shit
5. twist at knee and ankel to grind worm shit back in to ground
6. replace lid
7. hand can back to coworker with a smile
8. remind him that you will be willin to help him agin any time
9. repete as nessassary til no buddy will ever offer you a dip agin. evin if you ask for it.

ps if you can piss on the worm shit thats evin better then grindin it in to the ground.

man you do this and he wont evin think to fuck with you agin.

I love the detailed directions. Great Advice! I appreciate you keeping us "nic fog minded" in your thoughts as you wrote how to achieve this goal. Even added the extra step for more impact. I love it!

'crackup'

I admit I didn't do this. However, I did tell my team manager I was done on Sunday until next Summer. I am not playing for the rest of the Summer. Part of it is the quit. the other part is getting priorities straight. Taking the trash out of my mouth has helped me with the grace of God to realize how selfish I have been. I talk more about this realization in a future post or posts.

Love your advice though!

[syndrome]

One mate, jokingly asked me if I wanted one around midday. I simply replied, “Real funny you FUCKING JACKOFF!”

man heres what i told old jake frawly. now you just swich in teem mate for cowworker and your set.

man your coworkers are fuckin with your quit? time to teach um the tryed and true ktc way that you and your quit are not to be fucked with. next time one a those fucks offers you a dip heres what you need to do:

1. take can with big smile
2. open can
3. rotate arm at the wrist 180 degrees, there by emptyin contents of can on ground
4. step on pile of worm shit
5. twist at knee and ankel to grind worm shit back in to ground
6. replace lid
7. hand can back to coworker with a smile
8. remind him that you will be willin to help him agin any time
9. repete as nessassary til no buddy will ever offer you a dip agin. evin if you ask for it.

ps if you can piss on the worm shit thats evin better then grindin it in to the ground.

man you do this and he wont evin think to fuck with you agin.

[FIGHTIN-IGNORANCE]

Hello fellow Quitters,
I am currently on day twenty of the battle for my life to remain Nic free. I have not posted much in my intro section because I love to spend time reading other posts, offering feedback, and going to the chat to goof off, pass time, and offer help when necessary.

With that being said, I wanted to take this time to write some thoughts, praises, observations, incites, and whatever else came to mind since I decided to make this change. I have a tendency to go in circles so please forgive me.

The last 3 to 3 ½ years have been somewhat of an overwhelming time in my life. My second son was born, I switched employers, my Master’s program went full speed ahead, and other periodic uncontrollable variables simply impacted my life. Hence, 3 years or so ago, I allowed the temptress to convince me She was the answer to my problems. I allowed Nic to play with my mind as I entertained her temptations. I became complacent, comfortable, and for lack of a better word an “IDIOT.”

See, as mentioned in my intro I started dipping around 13/14years old. I dipped to the age of 27 when I stopped for about 3 to 3 ½ yrs and then chose to use again like an IDIOT thinking “one won’t hurt.” The changes and stress in life grabbed me as I was not prepared to deal with the changes.

Well, I am here today saying this site has brought a strength and resolve to quit that was not there before. Of course I wanted to quit when I found this site, but this site has re-enforced the desire. It has normalized the challenges associated with Nic “fits”. It has produced a sense of belonging, commitment, loyalty, and even competition that I did not have in my corner before.

On Saturday, July 13, 2013 I was playing in a softball tournament. This was my first experience around that many people flaunting the Nic in various forms. I knew it would be that way and I was concerned but I wanted to play. Therefore, I knew I needed to take some precautionary measures to prevent my use and maintain a support system.

Well, this was the easiest thing to do. Why, because of this site. There are numerous guys willing and ready to fit for you if you will allow them too. If you extend the need they will try to fill it. Seanz68, The Sweetness, Jeff24 all sent me messages on Saturday checking on my status. Seanz68 and I set up a schedule earlier in the week regarding times to text each other on Saturday to help us stay strong. I simply sent Jeff24 and The Sweetness texts on Saturday morning and they jumped on board to assist a brother. That is freakin awesome!!!! The three guys were willing to give me time on their Saturday to help me remained QUIT. They barely know me but they still offered it. Heck, The Sweetness started to text me at 10:00am and the final check-in was around 1:00am. Even though I got home around 8PM he continued to touch base. I canÂ’t express enough gratitude and respect for all three of these gents.

You know why it was so important? Because, I was around Nic and beer all day. I even drank a few beers but the temptation to use the nic was minimal due to my fellow Duck FIP’s caring about me and my Quit. I had cigarettes sitting next to me but I am not much of a smoker. The real challenge was watching guys pack the lip all day long. I even had a can of dip 4 or 5 inches away multiple times. I told my teammates not to give me any dip under any circumstances. One mate, jokingly asked me if I wanted one around midday. I simply replied, “Real funny you FUCKING JACKOFF!”

Here is the point. There were only a couple times the crave kicked in. These times were easy to beat because my fellow DUCK FIPÂ’S were backing me up all day long. It wasnÂ’t just me against the Nic Bitch. It was me and Seanz68, Jeff 24, and The Sweetness kickin her ass all day. Four against one is way better odds in my book.

Guys, I want to Thank You again for your support! Yes, I write this to express my gratitude. However, I also write this to make it clear for some people the help is there. Use it! Stop being a bunch of fearful fairy bitches and reach out. Hell yes I am scared to let these guys and all the other members down. Shit, it has been a pattern if my life. But damn it, allowing this fear (which is the addiction talking) to control the friendships I make on this site and reduce the strength of my quit due to isolation is idiotic. Just as idiotic as when I let Nic play me 3 ½ yrs ago. Not any more you damn pain in the ass!

Get your numbers out there and check in with each other periodically just because you care about your quit and their quit. Periodic checks with each other now will make it easier when the time comes that it is really needed. Well, sorry for the poor grammar but I am not proof reading this. I hope this is convicting for someone and they reach out. Take your life back each day. I QUIT WITH EACH AND ALL OF YOU TODAY! DUCK FIPÂ’S KICK ASS!

[Scowick65]

Yeah I hit the ball the same as always. It was just BP though. Not actually playing. It was really fun not worrying about wear I put my can. Just playing. Also, I have actually noticed a bump in energy for me the last couple of days. I don't know if it is the excitement of the quit or the fact I am actually eating more. I have put on about 5lbs but nothing drastic. Maybe it is both. Id on't care it is nice!

Love in this new lifestyle. Loving the confidence boost each +1. I am starting to tackle some other areas of my life I want to adjust as well. However, nothing that is drastic because I don't want to overdue it right now.

I really enjoy this site and the feedback. It has helped me stay focused and energized.

Today I quit with you all and Nic Bitch I only have one thing to say, " 'Finger' "

Kickin the can ODAAT 'jedisith'

You are reinventing what it is to be you. Damn awesome! Lean on me if necessary.

[FIGHTIN-IGNORANCE]

Yeah I hit the ball the same as always. It was just BP though. Not actually playing. It was really fun not worrying about wear I put my can. Just playing. Also, I have actually noticed a bump in energy for me the last couple of days. I don't know if it is the excitement of the quit or the fact I am actually eating more. I have put on about 5lbs but nothing drastic. Maybe it is both. Id on't care it is nice!

Love in this new lifestyle. Loving the confidence boost each +1. I am starting to tackle some other areas of my life I want to adjust as well. However, nothing that is drastic because I don't want to overdue it right now.

I really enjoy this site and the feedback. It has helped me stay focused and energized.

Today I quit with you all and Nic Bitch I only have one thing to say, " 'Finger' "

Kickin the can ODAAT 'jedisith'

[srans]

Will do and thx for the encouragement.

Your doing great bro. Them hobbies are a real test to your quit. The next time you go to that game it will be easier. I also had a hard time. I was a wimp and waited 2 weeks before i fished.

I'm sure you found out the same truths. I thought fishing and dipping were one in the same. Well,,,, they weren't. Dipping never helped me catch more or cast further. It only kept my addiction fed.

I'm sure that you found you could hit the ball just as good, or bad. Maybe your a pitcher. In that case i know it didn't help your curve or slider either. I know that dipping didn't make you run faster or catch better. All the poison did was keep your addiction fed.

Good job and keep your head pointed forward,, nothing back there for you. Quit with you.

[FIGHTIN-IGNORANCE]

Will do and thx for the encouragement.

[Greg5280]

Yep, the hate is growing and focused on the Big tobaccoo.


Great news though. Last night was my first night at softball taking BP since I quit 13 days ago. I told two of my buddies who were there and they looked at me like "what? Are you stupid?" I just grinned and threw a handfull of seeds in my mouth with a shitass eatin grin. They started to shake their heads. I laughed. No problems for me at all. One of the other guys actually grabbed a handful of seeds instead of a dip. Anyway, going to keep on trucking. First tournament without shew will be this weekend. Looking forward to learning how to play ball with the nic bitch again! :D

Keep the seeds close! My biggest hurdle early on was golfing, really kicked the craves into high gear. I always had some seeds, fake and my phone if the shit got too crazy.

Keep posting +1's... you are winning.

[FIGHTIN-IGNORANCE]

Yep, the hate is growing and focused on the Big tobaccoo.


Great news though. Last night was my first night at softball taking BP since I quit 13 days ago. I told two of my buddies who were there and they looked at me like "what? Are you stupid?" I just grinned and threw a handfull of seeds in my mouth with a shitass eatin grin. They started to shake their heads. I laughed. No problems for me at all. One of the other guys actually grabbed a handful of seeds instead of a dip. Anyway, going to keep on trucking. First tournament without shew will be this weekend. Looking forward to learning how to play ball with the nic bitch again! :D

[B-loMatt]

Hey fellow quitters. Sorry for not responding. I left for vacation on June 29th at 3:00am. No WIFI on Cruise unless I wanted pay. STUPID 'arse'

Anyway, used your ideas we I could. Must admit being on the cruise helped by taking the option to dip out of the equation. I was so pissed off a couple days I wanted to fight anyone who would agree. Good thing was that many of my family members were there to keep me in line. I still struggle with the random rage though. It comes out of no where. When it hits, no pun intended, I want to scream so damn loud my head will explode.

I am so frickin pissed at myself for doing this to myself!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 'Crazy'

What a Ignorant Dumbass!

Focus that rage where it will do you themost good: the nic bitch and U.S. tobacco! Hate the lies. Hate the craves. Hate the fog, suck, and funk. Hate how they rob you of your health, money, and freedom. Hate the fact that you have to QLF EDD because they hooked you. Use that hate as a weapon to smack the nic bitch down when she shows her ugly face, and learn to love the hate so much you want to do it again first thing in the morning...

[FIGHTIN-IGNORANCE]

Ooooh! Got the wired head fog kickin in today. DUH, which way di he go George, which way did he go?  :wacko: 

LOL 'zombie'

The fog sucks but it is very necessary.

I remember the fog for me was just like i had gotten done running a mile and had that IhavenoenergyheadachedontpissmeofforIwillbeatyourass thing goingon for like 10 days!

You will get thru this but it is the weekend so no drinking tonight and stay close to KTC when you get the craves or have to rage get here and lean on your quit brothers, your were a user before now you are a quiter!

Stay Strong , Focused  Quit!

Matt,
Pure and simple things to do to maintain the Quit -
1. Own your Quit every day!
2. Honor your word every day!
3. And, post pictures of your wife so we can validate how truthful your intro was!

You can do this!!!!!

I haven't figured out how to post pics or I would.

[FIGHTIN-IGNORANCE]

Hey fellow quitters. Sorry for not responding. I left for vacation on June 29th at 3:00am. No WIFI on Cruise unless I wanted pay. STUPID 'arse'

Anyway, used your ideas we I could. Must admit being on the cruise helped by taking the option to dip out of the equation. I was so pissed off a couple days I wanted to fight anyone who would agree. Good thing was that many of my family members were there to keep me in line. I still struggle with the random rage though. It comes out of no where. When it hits, no pun intended, I want to scream so damn loud my head will explode.

I am so frickin pissed at myself for doing this to myself!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 'Crazy'

What a Ignorant Dumbass!