August 12, 2013-Day 48 without Nic/6300 plus with Nic.
Oh how I long for the NIc to leave me alone. Although I am 48 a days in the Weed continues to tease. I have been doing well and life is much better being quit. However, i do sit almost everyday and think about how hate Nicotine. I have been blessed to not have any situations to this point that have drastically tempted me. However, everyday Nic is churpin in my ear.
Posting messages on this site and texting fellow quitters has made all the difference in my Quit! I refuse to let myself down by turning my back on my fellow Fips who are fighting ignorance every damn day with me. The ignorance of picking up this nasty shit for whatever reason many years ago and thinking this weed is harmless. The ignorance of believing I was a "Special Butterfly" and I could quit anytime. The Nic tries to get me to bite on this bait of a lie all the time.
A couple weekends ago I was visiting my brother and he had a fatty in his check when me met up. He lives about 4hrs from me and we only see each other 4 or 5 times a year now. Anyway, I started to give him some other brother crap about his dipping. Guess what his response was when I told him I quit. It was like this:
"Well, good for you. Your really someone who should be telling me to Quit. How long did you dip...like, since you were 14.. I have only been doing it for 8 or so....I guess I can do it for 12 more and then quit like you..."
I just looked at him and said, "that is freakin jackass talk right there. Do what you want then." We didn't talk about it the rest of the weekend. He wasn't open to it anyway.
I just wanted to document a few things just for the sake of it. My fog is pretty much goin but the craves still come. I use Smokey Mountain quite a bit. I hate this cause my boys still see the can and I spit in bottles. However, it is nic free and I am using it less. Sleeping is goin well but I have put on 15lbs. I want to start running/working out again but I am lacking time. I need to reorganize my time to make this a priority. I used to workout 4 or 5 days a week. Anyway, I love being Quit and I appreciate all the support from the KTC members. What I am most proud of at this point is being a DUCK FIP...QUACK!QUACK! Nothing else can compare! 'na na'