Quitting for good this time

[rdad]

Wow... here I am day 100....

I am not really one to write a fancy-smancy speach, however I do wanna share a few thoughts today...

I have to say, today doesn't feel all that special. Yeah, I am glad to be nic free for 100 days, but the work isn't near complete...

I have a confession to make though... This isn't my first HOF day with KTC. I hit the HOF the first time in May of 2008 (yeah... 6 years ago yall)... So pardon me if I seem alittle "reserved". I assure you my reservation is not because 100 days isn't a damn awesome accomplishment... of which I am dang proud! No, my reservations are because I know (all too well) that its not over. The nic bitch lives in my brain... She still tries to entice me from time to time.... I know I must keep my gaurd up and my KTC family near as I work towards the next goal... 200 days... Then 300 days and so on for the rest of my life.

Last time I blew my quit (stoppage) at 9 months because I wan't prepared... Honestly I had the mind set that once I broke the addiction, say, got past 100 days, that I would be free of nicotine and never have to worry about it again. In fact, I remember thinking, that once I break the addition, I could still have a dip occasionally... Maybe at a cattle show, or while working ground... one dip wouldn't hurt, I was nic free!

Lemme tell you folks... 1 dip did hurt. All it took was a bad day at work and a coworker with a tin of skoal. That one pinch, which I thought wouldn't hurt me, threw me back into nicotine addition, just that fast. And it took me 6 years to get my mind back right to finally quit.

The moral of my story, and why I wanted to share this story with the group, is so that maybe someone else out there might be able to prevent themselves from failing... Day 100 is just the day before day 101... We are addicts folks... We will always be addicts. We must stay on gaurd, the nic bitch will be back to try and regain control of your brain.

I have been working with several people off of KTC to quit nic additions... One is an older guy I work with who can't start a PC, much less post roll (hard enough for some of us anyway)... Basically he and I shared digits long ago and I make him promise me everyday that he is going to stay quit... I also started working with my cousin last night who is trying to quit smoking... I feel fantastic being able to help these folks with all the tools I learned from KTC, and doing so also helps me strenghten my own quit.... I may not always be able to be on this website 24-7, but brothers I am here to tell you I am preaching the KTC gospel to those in need... And this world is full of those in need.

So... Here's to the next 100 days... Where I collect my "prize" from the old lady tonight ( 'boob' ) and tell the Nic Whore to kiss my 'arse'

Brothers in Quit... I am QLF today and everyday!

Its always good to read a reminder that we can NEVER have 'just one"
Congrats Shorthorn!

[Shorthorn]

Wow... here I am day 100....

I am not really one to write a fancy-smancy speach, however I do wanna share a few thoughts today...

I have to say, today doesn't feel all that special. Yeah, I am glad to be nic free for 100 days, but the work isn't near complete...

I have a confession to make though... This isn't my first HOF day with KTC. I hit the HOF the first time in May of 2008 (yeah... 6 years ago yall)... So pardon me if I seem alittle "reserved". I assure you my reservation is not because 100 days isn't a damn awesome accomplishment... of which I am dang proud! No, my reservations are because I know (all too well) that its not over. The nic bitch lives in my brain... She still tries to entice me from time to time.... I know I must keep my gaurd up and my KTC family near as I work towards the next goal... 200 days... Then 300 days and so on for the rest of my life.

Last time I blew my quit (stoppage) at 9 months because I wan't prepared... Honestly I had the mind set that once I broke the addiction, say, got past 100 days, that I would be free of nicotine and never have to worry about it again. In fact, I remember thinking, that once I break the addition, I could still have a dip occasionally... Maybe at a cattle show, or while working ground... one dip wouldn't hurt, I was nic free!

Lemme tell you folks... 1 dip did hurt. All it took was a bad day at work and a coworker with a tin of skoal. That one pinch, which I thought wouldn't hurt me, threw me back into nicotine addition, just that fast. And it took me 6 years to get my mind back right to finally quit.

The moral of my story, and why I wanted to share this story with the group, is so that maybe someone else out there might be able to prevent themselves from failing... Day 100 is just the day before day 101... We are addicts folks... We will always be addicts. We must stay on gaurd, the nic bitch will be back to try and regain control of your brain.

I have been working with several people off of KTC to quit nic additions... One is an older guy I work with who can't start a PC, much less post roll (hard enough for some of us anyway)... Basically he and I shared digits long ago and I make him promise me everyday that he is going to stay quit... I also started working with my cousin last night who is trying to quit smoking... I feel fantastic being able to help these folks with all the tools I learned from KTC, and doing so also helps me strenghten my own quit.... I may not always be able to be on this website 24-7, but brothers I am here to tell you I am preaching the KTC gospel to those in need... And this world is full of those in need.

So... Here's to the next 100 days... Where I collect my "prize" from the old lady tonight ( 'boob' ) and tell the Nic Whore to kiss my 'arse'

Brothers in Quit... I am QLF today and everyday!

[Lipizzaner]

Congrats bro. Its been great having you to keep pace with on the roll board every day. Glad we made it together.

[SAM83]

Strong quit man. Way to go and congrats!!!!!!

Keep it up! nice job!

Pleasure to be quit with you. Congratulations again! See you at 101!

[brettlees]

Strong quit man. Way to go and congrats!!!!!!

Keep it up! nice job!

[ParadigmDawg]

Strong quit man. Way to go and congrats!!!!!!

[Shorthorn]

Thanks Brothers... I will have to write up a better update later today... Love reading thru the couple updates on here on the trail thru 100 days... man things are so much clearer now!

[Doc Chewfree]

Congrats on making it to the HOF! Keep it going!

'oh yeah' Way to go Shorty! Keep the party goin!

[slug.go]

Congrats on making it to the HOF! Keep it going!

[Shorthorn]

Wow... I can't believe I haven't updated this since Day 20... Geez I am a slacker.

Here we are day 48... I wanted to wait for the half century mark, but I had a slow afternoon going a work so I figured I better use the time when it is availible.

I have to first say that I love being a quitter... I realized recently that the last 48 days were the first time since my 2 year old was born that I have ever kissed him, or hugged him without dip / nic all over me. I think back to meeting him for the first time in the delivery room (of course a load of cope in my lip)... The time we were camping when he was 13 months and he opened my can and ate some dip (puked all over).... What a crappy father I have been.

Same goes for my 7 year old son... I had a stoppage of 9 months when he was a baby, but since then I have always had a dip in around him, and I never thought twice of it. A few weeks ago we were driving around, and he saw a young guy smoking a cig. My son said to me "why is he trying to kill himself Dad, He should just have a dip"... Floored me.. I didn't even realize how bad the Nic bitch had control over my thoughts. Here I had led my son to believe that Dip was ok, but smoking was bad! Needless to say, we had a discussion about that, and I made a pact with him that I would never dip again.

There is no doubt, a new leaf has been turned. I will never touch nic again.. No way, no how. I know her tricks now. It makes me absolutely sick to think of what a crappy role model I have set for my boys up until now.. Time for a change.

Honestely, the cravings are very mild any more. Still a whore for oral fixation, but the Hooch, tic tacs, seeds, gum are just fine. Biggest problem I have been fighting is irratibility... I thought it was bad around day 20, but holy cow.. I have been snapping at everyone and everything lately... Gotta keep working on that.

Did have one big craving early saturday morning... Had my best cow go into labor after loosing a calf last year.. Very stressful for me. Calving season has always been huge dip trigger for me (anything barn related is really)... I made it thru by focusing on the task at hand and before I knew it the crave was gone.

Anyhow, just wanted to drop a note to catch up.. Looking forward to my next 50 days!

[Skoal Monster]

migrane headache since I quit... Anyone else go thru that? thoughts on why?

Nicotine is a vascular constrictor.

Since that shit is out of your system , Your brain is getting more blood flow and oxygen than it is used to.

Thats a good thing, but your bodies gotta adjust.

Nicotine does damage far beyond just cancer, hang tough shorthorn, your healing, and I promise it gets better.

[Mogul]

Well here we are at day 20...Not really feeling much different than day 10. For the most part the fog is gone, although I have been very irritable as of late. The crave is getting more mellow, but more continous than it was before. I have been dreaming of dip the last couple nights, even having to start using the sleeping pills the last couple nights as well again... Just can't freaking sleep worth a damn. I have noticed though, since I quit my weekly migranes on Sundays seems to have stopped... I can't really explain the connection, but so far I have not had a migrane headache since I quit... Anyone else go thru that? thoughts on why?

I have been trying to start breaking myself of the oral fixation issues... Damn that is the worst part. I still have to constantly have something in my mouth... Been using gum, tic tacs, seeds, and hooch (Damn order of Hooch should have been here Friday!) (see what I mean about being irritable?) I believe this order of Hooch (6 cans) will be my last... Even though it is not nicotine, my boys are still seeing me with a tin, and I realy need to break that cycle. I am realizing that part of the reason the addition seemed so normal to me for all these years is that all the male role models in my life were dippers... I need to break that cycle so my boys know that dip doesn't make you a man!

Anyway, no way in hell I am giving up my quit... If I end up loosing all my teeth due to sugary tic tacs and gum, so be it, but I will not poisen myself again.

Thanks to all my May brothers, and the April supporters! 'Remshot'

Shorthorn, I am loving what I'm reading here about not giving up no matter what. I am the same way. I have said over and over one of us has to die, either the bitch or me, and it damn sure aint going to be me. If it kills me to quit, at least it was on my terms. Keep up the good fight brother, you got it going on.

Mogul

[Erussell]

Well here we are at day 20...Not really feeling much different than day 10. For the most part the fog is gone, although I have been very irritable as of late. The crave is getting more mellow, but more continous than it was before. I have been dreaming of dip the last couple nights, even having to start using the sleeping pills the last couple nights as well again... Just can't freaking sleep worth a damn. I have noticed though, since I quit my weekly migranes on Sundays seems to have stopped... I can't really explain the connection, but so far I have not had a migrane headache since I quit... Anyone else go thru that? thoughts on why?

I have been trying to start breaking myself of the oral fixation issues... Damn that is the worst part. I still have to constantly have something in my mouth... Been using gum, tic tacs, seeds, and hooch (Damn order of Hooch should have been here Friday!) (see what I mean about being irritable?) I believe this order of Hooch (6 cans) will be my last... Even though it is not nicotine, my boys are still seeing me with a tin, and I realy need to break that cycle. I am realizing that part of the reason the addition seemed so normal to me for all these years is that all the male role models in my life were dippers... I need to break that cycle so my boys know that dip doesn't make you a man!

Anyway, no way in hell I am giving up my quit... If I end up loosing all my teeth due to sugary tic tacs and gum, so be it, but I will not poisen myself again.

Thanks to all my May brothers, and the April supporters! 'Remshot'

Hey congrats on 20 days, many tough times to come still, but it gets better! Keep posting roll and keep your nose down! My headaches have subsided as well but took longer than 20 days. As for the fake I didn't use it, but if it helps you right now then so be it. Your boys are gonna witness you quit soon enough and you will set the roll model that dipping doesn't make you a man, but quitting it does. You got this! ODAAT with you bro! Erussell day 287.

[Shorthorn]

Well here we are at day 20...Not really feeling much different than day 10. For the most part the fog is gone, although I have been very irritable as of late. The crave is getting more mellow, but more continous than it was before. I have been dreaming of dip the last couple nights, even having to start using the sleeping pills the last couple nights as well again... Just can't freaking sleep worth a damn. I have noticed though, since I quit my weekly migranes on Sundays seems to have stopped... I can't really explain the connection, but so far I have not had a migrane headache since I quit... Anyone else go thru that? thoughts on why?

I have been trying to start breaking myself of the oral fixation issues... Damn that is the worst part. I still have to constantly have something in my mouth... Been using gum, tic tacs, seeds, and hooch (Damn order of Hooch should have been here Friday!) (see what I mean about being irritable?) I believe this order of Hooch (6 cans) will be my last... Even though it is not nicotine, my boys are still seeing me with a tin, and I realy need to break that cycle. I am realizing that part of the reason the addition seemed so normal to me for all these years is that all the male role models in my life were dippers... I need to break that cycle so my boys know that dip doesn't make you a man!

Anyway, no way in hell I am giving up my quit... If I end up loosing all my teeth due to sugary tic tacs and gum, so be it, but I will not poisen myself again.

Thanks to all my May brothers, and the April supporters! 'Remshot'

[Shorthorn]

I smell a quitter...

Yes, someone stepped into a fresh pile of quit in here!

Smells great doesn't it?

I quit in my pants earlier. Ahhh felt good

Nice.... Wintergreen.

Thus far i have quit my pants, quit at work, quit all over my truck, and most certainly quit the bed!