I bought some Hooch herbal fake dip because of the amount of sunflower seeds I was eating; the salt was too much and the extra calories aren't helping. Part of me feels that fake dip is cheating, but then I think: I could legitimately do this fake stuff FOREVER and not get cancer and die.
And then I realize that Day 5 isn't the day that the mental cravings and triggers stop. And it's OK to do fake dip, because for me it's working just fine. And in time, the oral fixation will stop. In the meantime, I'm putting broccoli or whatever this shit is made from in my mouth.
Still hiding it, of course, from my wife. She thinks I quit years ago. That sucks, but one thing at a time. I'm laughing at myself for hiding fake dip from my wife, and I'm embarassed that I have hid something from my wife for this long. What a dick.
I find myself coming to this forum several times a day; this is my favorite section because everyone posting here is in the same early stages, and it's all so familiar.
The best thing I read so far was Diesel's story in Aaron's thread about the windshield washer bottle. Oh man, thanks for that!