Turned 40 recently and after 26 years, I have decided to walk away from my first love...Copenhagen. She kept me warm on Winter nights and cool in balmy climates; She got me through 3 loony ex-girlfriends, SERE school, and Robin Sage; She was my first love...an unequivocal romance dependent upon one another. She was my life.
On 4/25/11, I walked out of my cardiologists office. He had just spent 20 minutes explaining to me that pounding my heart with nicotine for that long isn't good, and since I somehow made it to 40, I should turn a new leaf and see what life would be like whilst not being under the nicotine spell. I thought for a minute. Man, I started dippin around the same time my nuts dropped! That is a long time. I said "OK". I threw the can away in his exam room, paid the bill, and lumbered out of his office...my mind awash with thoughts of how my olfactory senses will go haywire. Food will taste different; certain smells will be more pronounced.
I am on Day #5. I am irritable, have sweaty palms, wake up every hour with vivid dreams in which my dogs die in gruesome ways, and I havent had an erection in 48 hours. My system is simply confused and overloaded with misfiring electrical charges that used to be quelled by throwing in a dip and relaxing.
I eat...I want a chew; I watch Golf Channel...I NEED a chew; sitting in front of my computer typing....forget about it. I am going nuts!
This morning I called my GP Doc, and told her what was happening. While she was "proud" of me, she suggested sunflower seeds. I suggested she set her sights a little higher...like aligned with mine. By the end of the conversation, she took pity and phoned in a scrip for valium to the pharmacy. I raced down and picked up the magic bottle, and am back home...feeling a ton better. Those of you that are Noob Quitters like myself, I recommend getting your Doc to prescribe something to "take the edge off". I know it's trading one evil for the other, but it truly does help.
That is my introduction, as rambling as it was.
I am the DirtyCaveMan, hailing from Sedona, AZ.
I WILL beat this habit.