My Quit- Day 1

[Snoopy]

Good morning all. Just a little rant for the day. It's been 7 days. Been here before and honestly, in some respects I think it was easier this time, in other respects more difficult.

Because it looks like divorce is just around the corner, I think it would be in my best interest to curb what I post on here. That being said, that means i lose a major tool in my quit arsenal but is what it is.

Anyone already down the road of quit who managed to quit while going through a divorce with kids involved? Would love to hear your suggestions on how you stayed quit.

Thanks all!

Jack aka Snoopy

[Snoopy]

Just using this as a place to keep up and capture my thoughts. Have to admit today, Day 3, is the roughest so far. I was even slow posting to roll because I wasn't sure my head was in it. Happy to say I've posted roll and quit for another day. Thanks to those who have been texting and helping me keep it on track.

I know this is one day at a time but a reality of how my brain works is I worry about the future. Heck I worry about things I have no control over and at 46, I'm not sure that's going to suddenly stop. So instead of trying to change it or pretend like its not problem for me, I'm just going to tackle it head on.

Worries for the foreseeable future:
Have my next business trip coming up, first since quitting and know its going to be rough
Marriage not improving, don't want to post too much on here but suspect I'll be scheduling counseling for myself and kids, probably lawyer next
I have another surgery next month that will probably have me down a day or two - will have to share the story of surgery earlier this year
Job in the air currently, contract ends in 2 weeks and still do not have full time work after that

Yeah, I know, list is nothing special and know people have it way worse, but its just my attempt to put it all out there and address it versus letting it bottle up.

Snoop, great job on jotting things down. It really is therapeutic to vent and that's what we are here for. You've got a lot going on and I'm sure the stress level is through the roof. Two bits of advice that I can give: 1. Take care of yourself first. If you are healthy then you can work on mending the fences with family. 2. Nicotine is not a solution to any of your problems. Nicotine is another problem to compound the stress level. While you may not be able to control your job situation, marriage, etc.....the good news is YOU HAVE COMPLETE CONTROL OVER YOUR NICOTINE CONSUMPTION!. So take this bitch head on and you win this battle today, then tomorrow, then the next after! Winning feels good!

Thanks Jeff, excellent points and guidance!!

Jack

[Jeff W]

Just using this as a place to keep up and capture my thoughts. Have to admit today, Day 3, is the roughest so far. I was even slow posting to roll because I wasn't sure my head was in it. Happy to say I've posted roll and quit for another day. Thanks to those who have been texting and helping me keep it on track.

I know this is one day at a time but a reality of how my brain works is I worry about the future. Heck I worry about things I have no control over and at 46, I'm not sure that's going to suddenly stop. So instead of trying to change it or pretend like its not problem for me, I'm just going to tackle it head on.

Worries for the foreseeable future:
Have my next business trip coming up, first since quitting and know its going to be rough
Marriage not improving, don't want to post too much on here but suspect I'll be scheduling counseling for myself and kids, probably lawyer next
I have another surgery next month that will probably have me down a day or two - will have to share the story of surgery earlier this year
Job in the air currently, contract ends in 2 weeks and still do not have full time work after that

Yeah, I know, list is nothing special and know people have it way worse, but its just my attempt to put it all out there and address it versus letting it bottle up.

Snoop, great job on jotting things down. It really is therapeutic to vent and that's what we are here for. You've got a lot going on and I'm sure the stress level is through the roof. Two bits of advice that I can give: 1. Take care of yourself first. If you are healthy then you can work on mending the fences with family. 2. Nicotine is not a solution to any of your problems. Nicotine is another problem to compound the stress level. While you may not be able to control your job situation, marriage, etc.....the good news is YOU HAVE COMPLETE CONTROL OVER YOUR NICOTINE CONSUMPTION!. So take this bitch head on and you win this battle today, then tomorrow, then the next after! Winning feels good!

[Snoopy]

Just using this as a place to keep up and capture my thoughts. Have to admit today, Day 3, is the roughest so far. I was even slow posting to roll because I wasn't sure my head was in it. Happy to say I've posted roll and quit for another day. Thanks to those who have been texting and helping me keep it on track.

I know this is one day at a time but a reality of how my brain works is I worry about the future. Heck I worry about things I have no control over and at 46, I'm not sure that's going to suddenly stop. So instead of trying to change it or pretend like its not problem for me, I'm just going to tackle it head on.

Worries for the foreseeable future:
Have my next business trip coming up, first since quitting and know its going to be rough
Marriage not improving, don't want to post too much on here but suspect I'll be scheduling counseling for myself and kids, probably lawyer next
I have another surgery next month that will probably have me down a day or two - will have to share the story of surgery earlier this year
Job in the air currently, contract ends in 2 weeks and still do not have full time work after that

Yeah, I know, list is nothing special and know people have it way worse, but its just my attempt to put it all out there and address it versus letting it bottle up.

[69franx]

Happy to say that I already have more digits in 24 hours than I collected the entire previous 8 years. That's my fault before, wasn't like folks weren't offering, it was me being an idiot thinking I didn't need that type of support.

They are all excuses, nothing more, as we aren't forced to put that crap in our mouth. So wife or no wife, no more excuses and moving forward without this poison.

Thanks for quitting with me Stranger999.

Jack - Day 2

Jack, just the same kind of stuff already posted from all the great BAQs above, but know if you need help, you have my number already. Text me your day count like the other 20+ who do. Text or call if in a tough spot. Use the tools that are here for everyone. Last time you did not use all the tools, just a few, dont make that mistake again. Protect that quit you got going on. Make it real, make it happen, Every Damn Day

[Snoopy]

Happy to say that I already have more digits in 24 hours than I collected the entire previous 8 years. That's my fault before, wasn't like folks weren't offering, it was me being an idiot thinking I didn't need that type of support.

They are all excuses, nothing more, as we aren't forced to put that crap in our mouth. So wife or no wife, no more excuses and moving forward without this poison.

Thanks for quitting with me Stranger999.

Jack - Day 2

[Stranger999]

And back to the 3 questions Samrs posted:

1. What happened?
I've reflected on this every day since I fell back into the can and honestly I do not have a 100% answer. The simple answer is stress became overwhelming and I did not recognize the patterns from before that would trigger it. In hindsight, I recall chewing on straws and should have recognzied the symptoms. I also did not have a support mechanism in place. Due to the challenges in my marriage, going to my wife to ask for help or support didn't seem viable, but I also failed to ask anyone else for help. For example, I quit posting my quit on here and celebrating the success. I should have kept that as a part of my routine, to remind myself that it wasn't easy to quit, but it sure is easy to fall back into.

2. Why did it happen?
I allowed myself to fall back in, to forget the pain and effort the first time I quit and convince myself I could quit again when I wanted.

3. What are you going to do differently this time?
I'm hoping to get my quit on again with help from my fellow quitters on the site and this time, will stay connected to the site instead of thinking I've got it all under control.

Cavers always fascinate me because I never want to be one and I've only been quit for 2 years now. I'm making up for decades of nicotine use.

Did you get digits and use them the last time you quit? Did you ever trade personal messages with anyone here? Promising to quit on a forum is one thing - promising to quit on a forum where folks can ask you on your phone why you go missing is another thing. That to me is how a quitter "gets control" - by making yourself really accountable.

I quit with you today! Stranger999 - day 753.

[Snoopy]

Thanks Rewire, will be sure I don't leave so I don't have to come back.

[ReWire]

Thanks Nomore will see if I can request that.

Jack

Done. Welcome back

[Snoopy]

Thanks Nomore will see if I can request that.

Jack

[Nomore1959]

Still me, just found my old account thanks to help from Jared. All posts going forward will be on my original account but did not see how I could delete what I had done so far.

Thanks
Jack

I believe an admin can combine posts into your Snoopy account.

[Snoopy]

Still me, just found my old account thanks to help from Jared. All posts going forward will be on my original account but did not see how I could delete what I had done so far.

Thanks
Jack

[Stratomatic]

Glad to hear you are quitting again and hope you know that you can have my digits anytime if it helps... just send me a PM. I'm quitting with you today!

[4familyandme]

Thanks Big Red. Already heard from someone helping search for my previous account so we can get that all straightened out. Back to the quit!

[Big Red 77]

whats up man, glad to see you are quitting again. Don't forget to get a hold of an admin like Samrs mentioned. Let me know if you need anything to help out and make sure you're successful this time around.