its been a few months since i left and i regret it more than any other regrets i have.
im tired of letting a can of shit manage my life. im tired of dip being the first thing i do in the morning and the last thing i do before i sleep. im tired of my mouth feeling like shit and im tired of hating myself for dragging on with this addiction I HATE BEING AN ADDICT. i failed everyone here along with myself and i owe it to myself and everyone else here to fix the wrong i have done. if you guys will have me back and find a way to forgive me then i will be very grateful. someday i will forgive myself but first i have to kick the fucking bitch that is stuck behind my lip every day.
i have my answers to the 3 quiestons here
1- what happened-Â i caved. i let my guard down. i have no excuse because there is none
2- why did it happen- the cave happened due to my own fault. i thought the stressers in my life were a good enough excuse for myself THEY ARE NOT.
3- what will i do differently- post roll every day, embrace the suck, find healthy alternatives to chew, refuse it if it is offered to me, and above all remember the feelings of failure and loss ive been feeling for months
and use those feelings to deter my addiction
i dont know if i deserve the help i can get here, maybe i should have to go it alone but i dont want to walk that road without friends. i want to come back and i will kill my nicotine addiction. ive dumped every can i have. im ready now. this can be my moment and im ready to save my life.
sincerly, Bryan (a.k.a. Grizz)
Grizzdipper,
You know you let a lot of people down.... all of your July brothers. They couldn't even trust you beyond 5 days of posting roll before you turned your back on them. Did you think about them when you caved? Did you reach out to anyone when you caved?
What does it really take to quit? Cancer? Gum grafts?
If one of your new quit brothers in Oct texted you in a moment of distress, could you help a brother out? Should they even trust you to help them out?
I welcome you brother, but only under one condition, that is if you ever think about caving..... before you put that poison in your lip, please call me or text me.
I'll PM you my number and I expect to read your HOF speech one day.
I'll quit with you today.
Little dipper
You know that you have my support I was one of your contacts before we talk often, I remember some of that stress that you dealing with at the time , Still no excuse for the Cave. Get contacts, be a leader in October. You've matured in the past 3 mo. I can tell. That's a classy return.
Now get over to your October group and post-roll. Post roll first thing every day. I know that the time difference is weird just get that rollcall done early!
Welcome back Grizz. Glad you wised up, came back with your tail between your legs, ready to learn and to get to quittin'.
WT did some good work reeling you back in, now its on you to make his work worth it. Like he said, post roll each and every day. Get phone numbers of some guys, especially on the west coast, and use them to your advantage.
You are welcome to post roll both in July and October. We'd love to have you, but only if you are serious this time. There is NO GOING BACK.
There is absolutely no excuse for caving. You made a choice. You let wicked old lady trick your brain into thinking that you needed her. She's nothing but a phantom thats going to lead you down an old dusty road to nowhere. You have the choice, fight back, turn away when she calls.
