Hey guys, checking in at 11:30 p.m. or so Ohio time. Almost to Day 5 here (by hours, I am now into Day 5 -- sad I'm still counting hours). I went over to help out with a non-dipping buddy tonight -- helped him put down mulch in his yard then we went a nearby tavern. I know drinking isn't suggested so I kept it to two beers so I didn't get off my game. I stayed dip-free I am proud to say. Something I haven't seen talked about yet (I haven't waded through all of the forums) is how do you deal with seeing a dipper for the first time after you quit? I kept to myself and with family until today. I saw an acquitance put in a big lipper and damn that hurt! I walked away. I'd love to hear how others deal with this. It's gonna happen eventually for all of us, right?
Ohio time. I was in Toledo for work this morning. Wonderful little city.
Anyway, seeing someone load up for the first time is tough no doubt, but something you're probably going to notice more often. Kind of like when you get a new car and all the sudden you start to notice others are driving the same car.
When I first quit it seemed like every asshole in the world was dipping or at least using nicotine of some kind whether it was cigarettes, cigars, pipes, snus, or even hookah Fucking pipes.
This bugged me, in fact I almost caved ONE time and it was because I saw all these people using and I was jealous and thought I was missing out on something "fun".
So, I texted a guy named Wedge and told him I was caving. I said everyone around me looked so happy with their nicotine and I couldn't take it anymore. I wanted to be happy again.
He texted back, "those people aren't having fun, they are addicted. Don't envy them feel sorry for them".
That made me think. Did I really need a lip full of chew to be happy? Is that want my life had come to? Some weeds in a can dictated my happiness? It didn't make sense. Some of my happiest times were in high school and college, when I had never touched chew. If I was happy then, why did I need chew to be happy now? What changed?
Nothing. Except that I was addicted to nicotine, more so I was dependant on it. That's a very sad fact. Nobody should be dependant on anything packed in a tin.
Bottom line I chewed for 15 years, near the end I was 2 cans of Kodiak a day. My jaw hurt, my tongue was numb, I caught zero buzz anymore. The illusion that dip did anything other than drive me closer to the grave was just that, an illusion.
I see you struggling and I can relate, we all can. We all walked in your shoes and we all had our asses handed to us by someone on this site. It's nothing personal, just an attempt to get your attention and fire you up a bit.
If you need to use chantix, use it. If you need to slam your dick in a door, do that too. As long as you keep nicotine. out of your system that's all that matters. Chantix is not an nrt product. Not sure why your getting so.much guff over that, but don't let that bother you and don't let seeing some goofball pack a dip bother you.
You've made it 5 days, that is AWESOME. Keep it going. It gets sooo much better. I'm 765 days quit and if.I.told you how great I feel you wouldn't believe me. I can't even put into words how great I feel. Sure it sucks, but the suck is only small snapshot of suck in your life. You won't feel this way forever. If it didn't get better, I would.have been out of here long ago.
We are here to help. You need anything at all, hit me up any time. I'm here for you 24/7/365.
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